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8 months out of this hell hole and I’m back. If they section me again I swear I’ll run away I can’t do it anymore

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Jane O. Wayne // Kate Jacobs

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I swear I can physically hear my brain telling me to unalive myself.

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I think it's unfair, people die that don't wanna die

Yet I am here, alive, when I'd rather be dead

Can't I just exchange my life for somebody that wants it?

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Why don't other people find life as hard as I do? I think about death everyday. I'm so overwhelmed. Everything is sooo hard. I don't know if I really want to die or if I just can't live. I want someone or something to strip me of all my responsibilities, all the pressure. If that is death then so be it.

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There’s a reason why everyone threw me away.

There’s a reason why everyone abused me.

There’s a reason why everyone used me.

There’s a reason why everyone avoids me.

There’s a reason why everyone hates me.

There’s a reason why everyone wants me dead.

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If you ever hear me breathe deeply it’s not because I’m annoyed it’s because I forget to breathe sometimes

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who said 20s are supposed to be the best years of your life. fuck off

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Nobody talks about how hard it is to face people again after you've had an episode in front of them

Once they've seen you do full-force into self-destruct, they always look at you with a sense of wariness and like you're not the person they thought you were

The shame makes me want to rip my skin off

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the constant urge to sexualize myself so people will love me

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