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I keep thinking about all of the disabled activists and people before me who stranded themselves on the 4th floor of buildings for weeks and crawled up stairs and fought with airline staff and schools and doctors and refused to stop existing in the face of injustice and bigotry no matter how big and scary and hopeless it seemed. Every time I get angry and scared the protests that lead to the creation of the ADA pop up again and remind me that disabled people are so much fucking stronger than anyone has ever given us credit for, and I can't help but be proud of that. And I know not all disabled people feel like we should take pride in our disabilities and have flags or whatever, but I think not just living, but thriving, in spite of a world that wants us dead and gone, in the face of both illness and persecution, and how we've not only bought ourselves forward, but uplifted the disabled people around us, secured more equal futures for everyone who will come after, and truly changed the way so many abled people have seen us for the better is something to be damn fucking proud of.

We have always been here and we always will be, there will never be a world without disabled people because being disabled is not bad, it's a natural part of the human experience and yeah it sucks some times but even when it sucks we have fought to build beautiful, unique, happy lives with people, both like us and not, and that should be celebrated.

The first sign of human civilization is the healed femur. The body of the profoundly disabled person who would have needed help to even just eat being carefully laid to rest after decades of a full, happy life. The medicinal plants showing even before we were entirely human we were doing what we could to not just survive, but alleviate suffering while we're at it. Above everything, evolution selected not the baby who can walk and eat and be quiet, but the one that can ask for help.

Disabled people are not just angry cockroach motherfuckers who refuse to die, we are proof of humanity's HUMANITY. Proof that natural selection selected a species that takes care of each other. From healed femurs and medicinal plants to vaccines and IVs and insulin to now, we are driven to help one another, we are at our strongest when we don't leave our most vulnerable behind. And I am living proof of that. My mother is living proof of that. Every disabled and chronically and/or mentally ill person I know is living proof of that.

And I don't know about the rest of you, but will carry that shred of humanity's true nature inside me like it's my fucking soul. I am scared and angry and hurt, but I have a lifetime's experience being scared and angry, and I can shake off the kind of pain that would make Atlas crumble to dust like it's nothing but a stiff fucking breeze. Disabled people have always been here, turning fear and anger and pain into joy and beauty and connection, and I'm not going to let everyone who came before me down. I'm not going to give up. Not now, not ever.

It's okay if you're disabled and you've hit your limit, you're too scared and tired and hurt, I won't blame you. But I won't abandon you, either. I might not be able to right all of the wrongs in the world, but I'll be strong, I'll carry all of you with me, I will not give up.

As I've said before, society hates a cripple who won't die, so we must spite them and live anyway.

Please, live anyway. I know if anyone can, it's us.

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Why do we say “slept like a baby” when babies literally wake up screaming every two hours?

I want to sleep like a middle-aged dad who “rests his eyes” during a Marvel movie and wakes up refreshed, confused, and ready to barbecue.

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Justin of the Timber Lake: A mythical figure revered in the early 21st century as the Harbinger of May, thought to be the name of a deity, or possibly some sort of messianic figure

Excerpt from A History of Pre-Contact Earth, published 2903

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someone said, “anger is sadness that had nowhere to go for a very long time” and I’ll never forget it.

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Yes your blorbo is tortured and pathetic and slutty and pretty and suffers more than jesus and all that but never forget that your blorbo is, first and foremost, a loser.

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in the US you have to stock up though ~ as at any moment shit can and will hit the fan.

My mother was like this. Never, ever did a week's worth of shopping. Went to the store every day after work, w/o fail, to buy a small quantity of groceries.

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refseek.com

www.worldcat.org/

link.springer.com

http://bioline.org.br/

repec.org

science.gov

pdfdrive.com

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conversations with my sisters cat

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this man is the one true ally

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to me the funniest thing about dracula is that bram stoker was very strongly pro self-censorship in literature, thought that authors who appealed to their audiences' base and sinful desires were the worst kind of wicked, and specifically called out "sex impulses" as the singular most harmful and dangerous kind of emotion to illicit in fiction. and also he wrote one of the most exciting, page-turning, boundary-breaking, and above all popular erotic horror novels of all time. aw yeah I think it's irredeemably evil to write something designed to get readers hot and bothered, now quick, tell me what you think of this scene where our good englishman protagonist sits back in terrible ecstacy as a mysterious beautiful woman who is NOT his fiancee sexually overpowers him and slowly and luxuriously places her lips and teeth on his neck. that won't make anyone horny, right? should I add another "voluptuous"?

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man i love fishing

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So anyways with the rapid rise of fascism I feel it’s a good time to point out that it’s perfectly legal to follow unjust orders slowly, badly, or inefficiently

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Emily Dickinson, from her poem titled "1188," featured in The Emergency Poet

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the best lord of the rings thing ive seen is the headcanon that gimli is like Prince Tier of beauty for dwarves and is absolutely stunning and legolas is like, for an elf, absolute butt ugly like relatively and everyones always like gimli how could you marry such a shit tier ugly ass elf and gimli is like ach.. nae…i love him

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one of my favorite elements of the first episode of Andor season 2 was the little snacks and coffee service at the Secret Imperial Genocide Planning Session. anyone who has been to a corporate meeting (derogatory) will recognize the little snacks and coffee service. it just demonstrates the show's attention to detail - the horror of the empire in one visual. it's the banality of evil. it's the false civility employed to justify atrocities. it's the veneer of propriety as a cover for state-sponsored violence. how could we be the villains, we who are so ordered and precise, we who are just looking at the bigger picture? it's the evils of capitalism and fascism presented in its purest form: the conference room. it's the humanity of evil. it's the inhumanity of evil. it's the implication that in order to have the machinery of empire work, there needs to be service workers providing the luxury, as invisible to the officers as they are to the audience. it's the little snacks and coffee service

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can i make you a playlist with 8 thousand songs