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I signed in by now! I've even taken one exam, oral exam, and I passed!!!!

I got a 60% so it's....just fine, good, average.

Little dissapointed but then again, I've always done worse in oral exams.

And.....I passed, that's all in need to do for each subject, so it's fine after alll....

I've not studied any more or planned exams though..avoiding it.

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I've been wanting to sign in on a website, but i've been delaying it.

When i sigh in, i'll be able to take exams etc, i dont want to not have my diploma. I'lll have to self study, and only take exams, no classes or assignments at all. Dont know what its called.

Im just scared of failing after trying my best and studying a lot. What will i do if i dont pass??

I dont wznt to commit to it because of that fear.

I dont know what to dooo

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Guys, I dropped out.

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School started again, woohoo..

I've already skipped a few days

I literally cant do this, everyone wants me to go, i want to go.

But i cant bring myself to do it, every single morning

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...IM ANGRY

I got bitten BY A MOSQUITO EXACTLY WHERE MY BURN IS ON MY ARM

IT HURTS AND IS ITCHY, I CANT EVEN SCRATCH IT😭 my luck is interesting

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Scratched my arm from a suitcase too😐👍

Unbelievable

Why is this happening today?

I just told myself I deserve it, the pain

I will get hurt directly or undirectly, on purpose or by accident

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I feel weird, I want to say empty but I know it isn't that

My head hurts, spilled boiling water on my wrist this morning as well ._.

Nice day today

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4th day of tracking calories

It was going well, but then I had a burger and some fries. I'll try to search the menu up but I doubt the calories are on there..

Soo.. how am I supposed to count themmm

On the good side, I burned almost 500 kcal from walking around, my heels ARE DYING

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I've been tracking my calories for 2 days now😌

It's going well? Both days I've been slightly over my calorie limit, but I burn those off with exercise.

Yeah, I don't have a scale, unfortunately. Buttt I should lose 0,5kg a week if I keep going like this.

Hope it works, because I've neber actually tracked my calories succesfully, and consistently before.

Wish I had a scale rn :/

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Seeing my aunts and uncles feels strange lately.

They're getting older and my mind just has these moments where I suddenly see similarities between them and their parents (my grandparents)

So I go see my aunt, and then I just see how similar she is to my grandma.

Same with my uncle, the way he acts and talks is so similar to my grandpa.

Just makes me think about how we're all getting older🫤

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This is fun : D

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I have to attend a wedding this week..

Because I failed to lose weight in allllll these months, I'll at least try to eat less this week to look decent in a dress. I tried a dress on this week and my stomach was HUGE and very noticeable. I did NOT like it. But it's completely my fault.

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I have to read a book of 170 pages by tomorrow, guess when I started reading...

2 hours ago 😬, i'm at page 70 but my head feels FULL.

The book is good but it just takes so longgg, I should've started earlier..

2 hours later (including my 1 hour break😌) i' at page 110!!!!!

61 more to go😭

A looooooong break later I still have 30pgs to go? I could've just kept reading and then sleep instead of taking a break. It's soooooo late now literally almost morning

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Today I tried counting calories on my phone, and I am in shock. I struggle with portion sizes, so every meal was so high in calories.

I am literally over my calorie limit by eating 2 MEALS and a littttle piece of chocolate.

What I also found difficult was just logging in the food in my app, because I didn't make most of those meals. So, I don't know how much of all the ingredients are in the food.

My goal was around 1450 kcal, I am short but overweight. So I think this should be an ok limit ,right?

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I feel so happyyy

I just started reading again and I love ittt

But I have tests I need to study for :/

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I had 7 things to do for school by/for monday...

I managed to only finish 3...

I am going to fail everything this is not okay

I'm on my phone the whole day and dont have time for school. If I just did my schoolwork first and then look on my phone my grades would be so much higher and I would get so much more sleep.

I'm literally the only one thats holding me back

I'm sabotaging myself

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I'm doing so bad right now

I hit a new hw, I'm on my phone for 7 to 10 hours every day, I keep eating throughout the day, I'm literally obsessed with food, I'm not studying for my tests or making my homework.

I'm literally not doing anything in my life, right now it's as if I just exist to eat and be on my phone all day long.

I have no motivation to do anything and I don't want to go to school anymore I just can't do any of the homework or working in groups, etc

My hair is so oily and I'm behind on alllll my lessons.

I just want to enjoy my life without any school or consequences but that's just not possible

I'm just so sick of everything and I'm so lazy which gives me stress and then I don't put any effort in school and have to do everything last minute. And what's the end result? No work is done, bad grades, more stress, more laziness,...