dreamynightmare11

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Don't hurt yourself and don't blame yourself for everything, everyone has off days, everyone makes mistakes. We're all human. I'm always here for you bestie.

Hey Alexis, I think it has been over a year since you wrote this, and I actually never replied to any of my asks/inbox. I just want you to know that though we don't talk much anymore, which is entirely my fault and my lack of communication, I will always truly appreciate the times when we did talk and were so helpful, supportive, positive to each other. I still see your insta posts sometimes and it makes my day when it's a smiling selfie of you. Dunno if you still use tumblr or not, but thank you for your positive contribution to my life. I wish you nothing but love, light, and looots of peace & genuine happiness ⚘✨🌹🌈🎈💫

Nov 28, 2019. 02:04am nsp.

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November 23, 2019. Nlsp.

Haven't been on tumblr for months now. Life has changed so drastically. But I still remember everyone I've talked to, and I hope you are all doing well. Sending my love, light, and peace to everyone✨

As a sidenote... I did graduate from high school. 💛🌍🌈

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Just tired. What's up people. It's been months hun. Love you all.

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A huge HEY to people following my blog. I have things to explain. I'll type a detailed post explaining a LOT of stuff ASAP and post it here sometime at the end of this week maybe, stay tuned! x (Ps. I have a HELL LOT to explain..... idek how I'm gonna do it. I've lost tumblr friends and well lots of other stuff happenin too I can't write it here im sorry x )

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Praying for the woman I’ll be in 5+yrs I hope she’s happy, and loved, living life unapologetically, doing what she loves.

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No longer. I think of creepy dangerous thoughts, of random destructive thoughts mostly about myself, of the universe's randomness, of the suffering my mental side goes through because of my mild anxiety symptoms, of depressive phases I have had, of hopefully... Making it in the future. Finding the right one. Getting a tattoo. Just being satisfied with where I am in life. December 26 2017 today. And I better come back to ths post two years later, when I'm almost done with my first year in University. Fuck, things change. Fuck, I have kinda scary thoughts sometimes. But two years later I'll be back to edit this. Way to go 18 year old Alisha. All strength and wisdom to you, myself.

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Anonymously message me (1) thing you want to know about me.

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also, i want to apologize to people whose messages were ever ignored by me or took me ages to reply to. i have no excuses, i’m just shit at communicating and a lot of time get stuck in my own head, postpone replying and then either forget about it or think that it is too late to reply. i’m sorry if i’ve ever made someone feel bad bc of this - honestly, it’s never personal, it’s just me and my inner problems. i will try harder to work on it. thank you for ever initiating conversations with me

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also, i want to apologize to people whose messages were ever ignored by me or took me ages to reply to. i have no excuses, i’m just shit at communicating and a lot of time get stuck in my own head, postpone replying and then either forget about it or think that it is too late to reply. i’m sorry if i’ve ever made someone feel bad bc of this - honestly, it’s never personal, it’s just me and my inner problems. i will try harder to work on it. thank you for ever initiating conversations with me

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I SURVIVEDDD

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I SURVIVEDD

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I have a feeling il fail. I shouldnt. I fvcking hate myself.

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Fuck it. I thimk i I will wake up at 4. Sorry. Sorry. SORRY. Goodnight

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I can hear things at the back of my mind. Gtfo your bed ALISHA AND DO CHEMISTRY and fucking give up on sleeping tonight. I think I'll sleep at 4, guys. But I shouldnt sleep. ALISHA U shouldnt sleep, idiot.

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Im fucking sorry but I feel like ive given up on chemistry. I really didnt work correctly this year. Heck half of my year was just social anxiety staring me in the face. Fuck it man. 02:35 rn but il do it and idk i should overdose on coffee but my moms asleep but hey i just thought i should sneak down and grab milk and put some coffee and just come back up without heating it or shit.

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Things can't work out if I dont work for them.