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Monday, 7th April 2025

I haven't been sleeping that great. My mind is filled with scenes of tragedy (Being outed through someone reading a love letter I haven't yet written (but could) to an audience at the local sports bar or being pushed into the deep sea) while being surrounded by community, friendship and love from the people I am trying to connect to lately.

I recently joined a meetup group in my town and I am beyond excited to get to know people in the group, but due to social struggles (possibly caused by a mixture of autism and general worry) I am finding it difficult to make friends.

They are all so inviting and inclusive, and I can tell they are trying to break through the walls I'm finding myself behind. Subconsciously, I think I am afraid of being vulnerable and opening up, afraid that they will reject me.

For that reason I am nervous about even speaking to them, being perceived by them.

My brain struggles to make sense of their questions, and I have to ask them to repeat it or take a few seconds.

I'm worried I come off as cold or stand offish, when in reality I am putting way too much pressure on myself to impress them and make them like me.

I'm meeting up with them again on Sunday, and I'm looking forward to it. I was looking forward to it last time too, but it ended up not going as well as I'd hoped. I think it's tough when you're in a group setting also.

Nevertheless, I'm going to try harder this time to be more fearless and not worry so much about impressing them. The people who are meant to be in your life will be.

I was scrolling on YouTube Shorts recently and Aaron Doughty, a sort of spiritual/motivational type speaker, came up stating that being your most vulnerable authentic version of you is going to attract people that resonate with those parts of you, but it will also repel people who do not resonate with those parts of you.

He says you do not need the approval and validation of those who do not resonate with those parts of you.

"The only way people can really love you is if you are being you."

It sounds simple in theory and seems 'common sense' but it is difficult in practice, especially if you love and admire the people you are trying to connect with for always being authentically themselves. You are just afraid they won't reciprocate, and they won't feel comfortable around you.

It is something I am going to try and work on: Being more authentically me with new people.

"Be bold, be brave" is a phrase I tell myself often lol, and it is one I need to put into practice now.

Reflecting on the past week...

My wins of the week have been:

Graduating from the 5k running group, and becoming a member of the main group.

Showing up to hang out with people, even if it is scary.

Getting my eyebrows and face threaded. (Never had any hair removal done professionally before, but I have to say it looks amazing and I enjoyed the process of it. The threading itself was musical and like a performance, with the different ways it glides along your skin....and the sound it makes!).

Delights of the past week:

Spring is here, and I am blooming. The clocks went forward last weekend and the longer days, where the sun is shining and warm, are a welcome change. It is funny and strange how different it feels.

Reading - I read Women by Chloe Caldwell and it was incredible. It is a meditation on discovering your sexuality, complicated relationships, and mental health struggles. I also loved the descriptions of the main character working in the library and borrowing books, and I loved the references to other works and to The L Word season 1. I am now reading Our Wives Under The Sea by Julia Armfield for a book club, though I've only read the opening quotes so far.

Eating Bear Fruit - Packets of gently baked strawberries and mango.

Finally making more of the pasta I love. It's very simple to make, just some pasta of your choice, cheese spread, nutritional yeast, sliced mushrooms, smoked tofu and some garlic powder. It is very delicious and I'm glad I have leftovers for tomorrow. :)

Signing up for some running and walking events. I had to get a new diary, as my diary only goes up to July and these events are in August and October.

Being on the phone to my dad for 3+ hours, and coming away with a more realistic perspective on success and money.

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𝕄𝕠𝕟𝕕𝕒𝕪, 𝟙𝟟𝕥𝕙 𝕄𝕒𝕣𝕔𝕙 𝟚𝟘𝟚𝟝 - 𝕃𝕠𝕟𝕕𝕠𝕟

𝔾𝕠𝕠𝕕𝕓𝕪𝕖 𝕃𝕠𝕟𝕕𝕠𝕟, 𝕚𝕥'𝕤 𝕓𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕗𝕦𝕟!

𝒯𝒽𝑒𝓇𝑒 𝒾𝓈𝓃'𝓉 𝓂𝓊𝒸𝒽 𝓉𝑜 𝓉𝑒𝓁𝓁 𝒶𝒷𝑜𝓊𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝒹𝒶𝓎. 𝐼 𝓈𝓅𝑒𝓃𝓉 𝓂𝑜𝓈𝓉 𝒾𝒻 𝒾𝓉 𝒶𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒶𝒾𝓇𝓅𝑜𝓇𝓉, 𝒷𝓊𝓉 𝒷𝑒𝒻𝑜𝓇𝑒 ����𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝐼 𝒹𝒾𝒹 𝓌𝒶𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓇 𝒫𝒶𝒹𝒹𝒾𝓃𝑔𝓉𝑜𝓃 𝒶 𝒷𝒾𝓉.

𝐼 𝑔𝑜𝓉 𝒶 𝓋𝑒𝑔𝑔𝒾𝑒 𝒷𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓀𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉 𝒷𝒶𝑔𝑒𝓁 𝒻𝓇𝑜𝓂 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒷𝒶𝑔𝑒𝓁 𝒻𝒶𝒸𝓉𝑜𝓇𝓎 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒶 𝓂𝒶𝓉𝒸𝒽𝒶 𝒷𝓊𝒷𝒷𝓁𝑒 𝓉𝑒𝒶 𝒹𝓇𝒾𝓃𝓀 𝒻𝓇𝑜𝓂 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒦𝑜𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓃 𝓈𝓊𝓅𝑒𝓇𝓂𝒶𝓇𝓀𝑒𝓉 𝓃𝑒𝒶𝓇 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃.

𝒮𝑜 𝓁𝑜𝓃𝑔 𝐿𝑜𝓃𝒹𝑜𝓃, 𝓌𝑒 𝒽𝒶𝒹 𝒶 𝑔𝑜𝑜𝒹 𝓇𝓊𝓃. 𝐼 𝒽𝑜𝓅𝑒 𝓉𝑜 𝓈𝑒𝑒 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒶𝑔𝒶𝒾𝓃 𝓈𝑜𝑜𝓃!

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𝕊𝕦𝕟𝕕𝕒𝕪, 𝟙𝟞𝕥𝕙 𝕄𝕒𝕣𝕔𝕙 𝟚𝟘𝟚𝟝 - 𝕃𝕠𝕟𝕕𝕠𝕟

𝕊𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕟𝕕 𝕡𝕒𝕣𝕥 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕕𝕒𝕪....

𝒯𝒽𝑒 𝒶𝒻𝓉𝑒𝓇𝓃𝑜𝑜𝓃 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝓂𝓎 𝒻𝒶𝓋𝑜𝓊𝓇𝒾𝓉𝑒 𝓅𝒶𝓇𝓉 𝑜𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒹𝒶𝓎. 𝐼 𝓌𝑒𝓃𝓉 𝓉𝑜 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒬𝓊𝑒𝑒𝓇 𝐵𝓇𝒾𝓉𝒶𝒾𝓃 𝓂𝓊𝓈𝑒𝓊𝓂 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝐼 𝓁𝑒𝒶𝓇𝓃𝑒𝒹 𝒶 𝓁𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒷𝑜𝓊𝓉 𝐿𝒢𝐵𝒯𝒬+ 𝒽𝒾𝓈𝓉𝑜𝓇𝓎 𝒾𝓃 𝐿𝑜𝓃𝒹𝑜𝓃. 𝐼𝓉 𝓂𝒶𝒾𝓃𝓁𝓎 𝒻𝑜𝒸𝓊𝓈𝑒𝒹 𝑜𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓁𝒶𝓉𝑒 𝟤𝟢𝓉𝒽 𝒸𝑒𝓃𝓉𝓊𝓇𝓎.

𝑀𝓎 𝒻𝒶𝓋𝑜𝓊𝓇𝒾𝓉𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒾𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓂𝓊𝓈𝑒𝓊𝓂 𝓌𝑒𝓇𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓏𝒾𝓃𝑒𝓈 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒸𝑜𝓂𝒾𝒸𝓈 𝒻𝓇𝑜𝓂 𝒷𝒶𝒸𝓀 𝒾𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒹𝒶𝓎.

𝒜𝒻𝓉𝑒𝓇𝓌𝒶𝓇𝒹𝓈, 𝐼 𝒹𝑒𝒸𝒾𝒹𝑒𝒹 𝓉𝑜 𝓈𝑒𝑒 𝒾𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓂𝒶𝓇𝓀𝑒𝓉 𝐼 𝓈𝒶𝓌 𝒷𝑒𝓈𝒾𝒹𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓂𝓊𝓈𝑒𝓊𝓂 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝓈𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝑜𝓅𝑒𝓃 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒾𝓉 𝓌𝒶𝓈! 𝐼 𝑔𝑜𝓉 𝓂𝓎𝓈𝑒𝓁𝒻 𝒶𝓃 𝒸𝒽𝒶𝒾 𝓉𝑒𝒶 𝓌𝒾𝓉𝒽 𝑜𝒶𝓉 𝓂𝒾𝓁𝓀 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓈𝑜𝓂𝑒 𝒸𝒽𝓊𝓇𝓇𝑜𝓈, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓈𝒶𝓉 𝒹𝑜𝓌𝓃 𝑜𝓃 𝑜𝓃𝑒 𝑜𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒷𝑒𝓃𝒸𝒽𝑒𝓈.

𝒜𝓃𝑜𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝓌𝑜𝓂𝒶𝓃 𝓇𝑜𝓊𝓃𝒹 𝒶𝒷𝑜𝓊𝓉 𝓂𝓎 𝒶𝑔𝑒 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝓈𝒾𝓉𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇𝑒 𝒶𝓁𝑜𝓃𝑒, 𝒷𝓊𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇𝑒 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝓃𝑜𝓌𝒽𝑒𝓇𝑒 𝑒𝓁𝓈𝑒 𝓉𝑜 𝓈𝒾𝓉.

𝒲𝑒 𝑒𝓃𝒹𝑒𝒹 𝓊𝓅 𝓈𝓉𝓇𝒾𝓀𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓊𝓅 𝒶 𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓋𝑒𝓇𝓈𝒶𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝐼 𝑜𝒻𝒻𝑒𝓇𝑒𝒹 𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝒶 𝒸𝒽𝓊𝓇𝓇𝑜. 𝒪𝓃𝑒 𝓅𝑜𝓇𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃 𝑜𝒻 𝒸𝒽𝓊𝓇𝓇𝑜𝓈 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝓁𝒾𝓀𝑒 𝟣𝟣 𝒸𝒽𝓊𝓇𝓇𝑜𝓈, 𝓈𝑜 𝓈𝒽𝑒 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝒹𝑜𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓂𝑒 𝒶 𝒻𝒶𝓋𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝒷𝓎 𝓉𝒶𝓀𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝑜𝓃𝑒.

𝒽𝑒 𝒾𝓃𝓉𝓇𝑜𝒹𝓊𝒸𝑒𝒹 𝓂𝑒 𝓉𝑜 𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝒻𝓇𝒾𝑒𝓃𝒹 𝓌𝒽𝑒𝓃 𝓈𝒽𝑒 𝓈𝒶𝓉 𝒹𝑜𝓌𝓃 𝓃𝑒𝓍𝓉 𝓉𝑜 𝒽𝑒𝓇, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓌𝑒 𝓉𝒶𝓁𝓀𝑒𝒹 𝒶 𝒷𝒾𝓉 𝒶𝒷𝑜𝓊𝓉 𝒽𝑜𝓌 𝐿𝑜𝓃𝒹𝑜𝓃 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝒹𝑜𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒶 𝓁𝑜𝓉 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝒮𝓉 𝒫𝒶𝓉𝓇𝒾𝒸𝓀'𝓈 𝒟𝒶𝓎. 𝒲𝒽𝑒𝓃 𝐼 𝒻𝒾𝓃𝒾𝓈𝒽𝑒𝒹 𝓂𝓎 𝒻𝑜𝑜𝒹 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒹𝓇𝒾𝓃𝓀 𝐼 𝓈𝒶𝒾𝒹 𝒷𝓎𝑒 𝓉𝑜 𝒽𝑒𝓇, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓈𝒽𝑒 𝓌𝒾𝓈𝒽𝑒𝒹 𝓂𝑒 𝓈𝒶𝒻𝑒 𝓉𝓇𝒶𝓋𝑒𝓁𝓈 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒻𝑜𝓁𝓁𝑜𝓌𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒹𝒶𝓎.

𝐼 𝒽𝒶𝒹 𝒻𝓊𝓁𝓁𝓎 𝒾𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓃𝒹𝑒𝒹 𝓉𝑜 𝑔𝑜 𝓉𝑜 𝒲𝑜𝓇𝒹 𝑜𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒲𝒶𝓉𝑒𝓇 𝒷𝑒𝒻𝑜𝓇𝑒 𝐼 𝓁𝑒𝒻𝓉 𝑜𝓃 𝑀𝑜𝓃𝒹𝒶𝓎, 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝓀𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝐼'𝒹 𝓂𝒾𝓈𝓈𝑒𝒹 𝓂𝓎 𝒸𝒽𝒶𝓃𝒸𝑒 𝓉𝑜 𝑔𝑜 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝒹𝒶𝓎 𝒷𝓊𝓉 𝒾𝓉 𝓉𝓊𝓇𝓃𝑒𝒹 𝑜𝓊𝓉 𝓉𝑜 𝒷𝑒 𝓌𝒶𝒶𝒶𝒶𝓎 𝒸𝓁𝑜𝓈𝑒𝓇 𝓉𝑜 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓂𝓊𝓈𝑒𝓊𝓂 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓃 𝐼'𝒹 𝓉𝒽𝑜𝓊𝑔𝒽𝓉. 𝐿𝒾𝓉𝑒𝓇𝒶𝓁𝓁𝓎 𝑜𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓇𝒾𝓋𝑒𝓇 𝒾𝓃 𝒻𝓇𝑜𝓃𝓉 𝑜𝒻 𝒾𝓉.

𝐼 𝓉𝒽𝑜𝓊𝑔𝒽𝓉 𝐼'𝒹 𝑔𝑜 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝒶 𝓌𝒶𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓇 𝒶𝓁𝑜𝓃𝑔 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓇𝒾𝓋𝑒𝓇 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒻𝒾𝓃𝒹 𝑜𝓊𝓉 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇𝑒, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓉𝒶 𝒹𝒶𝒶𝒶𝒶. 𝐼 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝓈𝑜 𝒹𝑒𝓁𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉𝑒𝒹.

𝐼𝓉 𝒻𝑒𝓁𝓉 𝓂𝑒𝒶𝓃𝓉 𝓉𝑜 𝒷𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝐼'𝒹 𝒻𝑜𝓊𝓃𝒹 𝒾𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝒹𝒶𝓎, 𝒶𝓈 𝐼 𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓁𝓁𝓎 𝒹𝑜𝓃'𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝓀 𝐼 𝓌𝑜𝓊𝓁𝒹 𝒽𝒶𝓋𝑒 𝒽𝒶𝒹 𝓉𝒾𝓂𝑒 𝓉𝑜 𝑔𝑜 𝒷𝑒𝒻𝑜𝓇𝑒 𝓂𝓎 𝒻𝓁𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉 𝑜𝓃 𝑀𝑜𝓃𝒹𝒶𝓎.

𝐼 𝓉𝑜𝑜𝓀 𝓁𝑜𝓉𝓈 𝑜𝒻 𝓅𝒽𝑜𝓉𝑜𝓈 𝑜𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒾𝓃𝓈𝒾𝒹𝑒 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝑜𝓊𝓉𝓈𝒾𝒹𝑒 𝑜𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒷𝑜𝒶𝓉, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒷𝓇𝑜𝓌𝓈𝑒𝒹 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒷𝑜𝑜𝓀𝓈. 𝐼 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝓉𝑒𝓂𝓅𝓉𝑒𝒹 𝒷𝓎 𝒶 𝒷𝑒𝒶𝓊𝓉𝒾𝒻𝓊𝓁 𝓈𝓅𝑒𝒸𝒾𝒶𝓁 𝑒𝒹𝒾𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃 𝑜𝒻 𝒯𝒽𝑒 𝐿𝒾𝓉𝓉𝓁𝑒 𝒫𝓇𝒾𝓃𝒸𝑒, 𝒷𝓊𝓉 𝒹𝒾𝒹𝓃'𝓉 𝑔𝑒𝓉 𝒾𝓉. 𝐼𝓃𝓈𝓉𝑒𝒶𝒹, 𝐼 𝑔𝑜𝓉 𝒶 𝒷𝑜𝑜𝓀 𝑜𝓃 𝒰𝐹𝒪 𝓈𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔𝓈 𝓉𝒽𝓇𝑜𝓊𝑔𝒽𝑜𝓊𝓉 𝒽𝒾𝓈𝓉𝑜𝓇𝓎 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒪𝓊𝓇 𝒲𝒾𝓋𝑒𝓈 𝒰𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓇 𝒯𝒽𝑒 𝒮𝑒𝒶.

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𝕊𝕦𝕟𝕕𝕒𝕪, 𝟙𝟞𝕥𝕙 𝕄𝕒𝕣𝕔𝕙 𝟚𝟘𝟚𝟝 - 𝕃𝕠𝕟𝕕𝕠𝕟

𝔽𝕚𝕣𝕤𝕥 𝕡𝕒𝕣𝕥 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕕𝕒𝕪....

𝐼 𝓌𝒶𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓇𝑒𝒹 𝒶𝓇𝑜𝓊𝓃𝒹 𝒶𝓈 𝐼 𝓌𝒶𝓃𝓉𝑒𝒹 𝓉𝑜 𝓈𝑒𝑒 𝓈𝑜𝓂𝑒 𝓂𝑜𝓇𝑒 𝑜𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 "𝓉𝓎𝓅𝒾𝒸𝒶𝓁" 𝐿𝑜𝓃𝒹𝑜𝓃 𝓈𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉𝓈 𝓈𝓊𝒸𝒽 𝒶𝓈 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝐿𝑜𝓃𝒹𝑜𝓃 𝐸𝓎𝑒, 𝐵𝒾𝑔 𝐵𝑒𝓃 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝐵𝓊𝒸𝓀𝒾𝓃𝑔𝒽𝒶𝓂 𝒫𝒶𝓁𝒶𝒸𝑒. 𝒜𝓉 𝒮𝓉 𝒥𝒶𝓂𝑒𝓈'𝓈 𝒫𝒶𝓇𝓀 𝐼 𝒶𝓁𝓈𝑜 𝓈𝒶𝓌 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓂𝑜𝓈𝓉 𝒶𝒹𝑜𝓇𝒶𝒷𝓁𝑒, 𝒻𝓁𝓊𝒻𝒻𝓎 𝓈𝓌𝒶𝓃 𝐼 𝒽𝒶𝓋𝑒 𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓇 𝓈𝑒𝑒𝓃.

𝐼 𝑔𝑜𝓉 𝑜𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒽𝑜𝓅 𝑜𝓃/𝒽𝑜𝓅 𝑜𝒻𝒻 𝒷𝓊𝓈 𝓉𝑜 𝓈𝑒𝑒 𝓂𝑜𝓇𝑒 𝑜𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒸𝒾𝓉𝓎, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝑔𝑜𝓉 𝑜𝒻𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒷𝓊𝓈 𝒶𝓉 𝒮𝓉 𝒫𝒶𝓊𝓁'𝓈 𝒞𝒶𝓉𝒽𝑒𝒹𝓇𝒶𝓁 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓌𝒶𝓁𝓀𝑒𝒹 𝒶𝓁𝑜𝓃𝑔 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒲𝒶𝓉𝑒𝓇𝓁𝑜𝑜 𝒷𝓇𝒾𝒹𝑔𝑒, 𝑔𝑒𝓉𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝑜𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓉𝓊𝒷𝑒 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝑔𝑒𝓉𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒶 𝒽𝒶𝓁𝓁𝑜𝓊𝓂𝒾 𝓌𝓇𝒶𝓅 𝒶𝓉 𝒫𝓇𝑒𝓉 𝒷𝑒𝒻𝑜𝓇𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒶𝒻𝓉𝑒𝓇𝓃𝑜𝑜𝓃'𝓈 𝒶𝒸𝓉𝒾𝓋𝒾𝓉𝒾𝑒𝓈....

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𝕊𝕒𝕥𝕦𝕣𝕕𝕒𝕪, 𝟙𝟝𝕥𝕙 𝕄𝕒𝕣𝕔𝕙 𝟚𝟘𝟚𝟝 - 𝕃𝕠𝕟𝕕𝕠𝕟

𝕊𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕟𝕕 𝕡𝕒𝕣𝕥 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕕𝕒𝕪....

𝒲𝑒𝓃𝓉 𝓉𝑜 𝒢𝒶𝓎'𝓈 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒲𝑜𝓇𝒹. 𝐼𝓉 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝑜𝓃𝑒 𝑜𝒻 𝓉𝓌𝑜 𝑜𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒷𝑜𝑜𝓀𝓈𝒽𝑜𝓅𝓈 𝑜𝓃 𝓂𝓎 𝓁𝒾𝓈𝓉 𝓉𝑜 𝓋𝒾𝓈𝒾𝓉 𝓌𝒽𝒾𝓁𝑒 𝒾𝓃 𝐿𝑜𝓃𝒹𝑜𝓃, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝐼'𝓂 𝑔𝓁𝒶𝒹 𝐼 𝒹𝒾𝒹. 𝐼 𝓅𝒾𝒸𝓀𝑒𝒹 𝓊𝓅 𝟦 𝒷𝑜𝑜𝓀𝓈, 𝟥 𝑜𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓂 𝐼'𝒹 𝓃𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓇 𝒽𝑒𝒶𝓇𝒹 𝑜𝒻 𝒷𝑒𝒻𝑜𝓇𝑒 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝐼'𝓂 𝓈𝑜 𝓁𝑜𝑜𝓀𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒻𝑜𝓇𝓌𝒶𝓇𝒹 𝓉𝑜 𝓇𝑒𝒶𝒹𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓂.

𝒜𝓁𝓈𝑜 𝓌𝒶𝓁𝓀𝑒𝒹 𝒶𝓇𝑜𝓊𝓃𝒹 𝓃𝑒𝒶𝓇 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒽𝑜𝓉𝑒𝓁 𝐼 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓎𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒶𝓉, 𝒷𝑒𝒻𝑜𝓇𝑒 𝑔𝑜𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒷𝒶𝒸𝓀 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇𝑒 𝓉𝑜 𝒹𝓇𝑜𝓅 𝓈𝓉𝓊𝒻𝒻 𝑜𝒻𝒻 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒽𝑒𝒶𝒹 𝑜𝓊𝓉 𝓉𝑜 𝒞𝓁𝓊𝑒𝓁𝑒𝓈𝓈 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓂𝓊𝓈𝒾𝒸𝒶𝓁.

𝐼 𝓁𝑜𝓋𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓂𝑜𝓋𝒾𝑒 𝓈𝑜 𝓂𝓊𝒸𝒽 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝐼 𝒶𝒷𝓈𝑜𝓁𝓊𝓉𝑒𝓁𝓎 𝒶𝒹𝑜𝓇𝑒𝒹 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓂𝓊𝓈𝒾𝒸𝒶𝓁 𝓋𝑒𝓇𝓈𝒾𝑜𝓃. 𝐼𝓉 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝓈𝑜 𝒻𝓊𝓃𝓃𝓎 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓈𝓌𝑒𝑒𝓉.

𝐼 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝑔𝑜𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓉𝑜 𝓌𝓇𝒾𝓉𝑒 𝒶𝒷𝑜𝓊𝓉 𝓂𝓎 𝒻𝒶𝓋𝑜𝓊𝓇𝒾𝓉𝑒 𝓂𝑜𝓂𝑒𝓃𝓉𝓈, 𝒷𝓊𝓉 𝐼 𝒹𝑜𝓃'𝓉 𝓌𝒶𝓃𝓉 𝓉𝑜 𝓈𝓅𝑜𝒾𝓁 𝒶𝓃𝓎𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒾𝓃𝒸𝒶𝓈𝑒 𝓈𝑜𝓂𝑒𝑜𝓃𝑒 𝒽𝒶𝓅𝓅𝑒𝓃𝓈 𝓉𝑜 𝓇𝑒𝒶𝒹 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓅𝓁𝒶𝓃𝓈 𝓉𝑜 𝓈𝑒𝑒 𝒾𝓉.

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𝕊𝕒𝕥𝕦𝕣𝕕𝕒𝕪, 𝟙𝟝𝕥𝕙 𝕄𝕒𝕣𝕔𝕙 𝟚𝟘𝟚𝟝 - 𝕃𝕠𝕟𝕕𝕠𝕟

𝔽𝕚𝕣𝕤𝕥 𝕡𝕒𝕣𝕥 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕕𝕒𝕪....

𝐼 𝓌𝑒𝓃𝓉 𝑜𝓃 𝒶𝓃 𝐿𝒢𝐵𝒯𝒬+ 𝒽𝒾𝓈𝓉𝑜𝓇𝓎 𝓌𝒶𝓁𝓀 𝒶𝓇𝑜𝓊𝓃𝒹 𝐿𝑜𝓃𝒹𝑜𝓃, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓃 𝑔𝑜𝓉 𝓁𝓊𝓃𝒸𝒽 𝒶𝓉 𝒫𝒽𝑜 𝒫𝒽𝒶𝓂: 𝒱𝑒𝑔𝑒𝓉𝒶𝒷𝓁𝑒 𝓈𝓅𝓇𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓇𝑜𝓁𝓁𝓈, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓉𝑜𝒻𝓊 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓋𝑒𝑔𝑒𝓉𝒶𝒷𝓁𝑒 𝓅𝒽𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝑜𝒹𝓁𝑒 𝓈𝑜𝓊𝓅. 𝐼𝓉 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝒹𝑒𝓁𝒾𝒸𝒾𝑜𝓊𝓈!

𝐼 𝒽𝒶𝒹𝓃'𝓉 𝓈𝓁𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝓌𝑒𝓁𝓁 𝑜𝓇 𝒽𝒶𝒹 𝑒𝓃𝑜𝓊𝑔𝒽 𝓉𝑜 𝑒𝒶𝓉 𝒶𝓉 𝒷𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓀𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓉𝒽𝓊𝓈 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒻𝑒𝑒𝓁𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓉𝑜𝑜 𝑔𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓉. 𝐼 𝒻𝑒𝓁𝓉 𝓂𝑜𝓇𝑒 𝒶𝓁𝒾𝓋𝑒 𝒶𝒻𝓉𝑒𝓇 𝓁𝓊𝓃𝒸𝒽.

𝐼 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓃 𝓌𝑒𝓃𝓉 𝓉𝑜 𝒞𝒽𝒾𝓃𝒶𝓉𝑜𝓌𝓃 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒷𝓇𝑜𝓌𝓈𝑒𝒹 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓈𝓊𝓅𝑒𝓇𝓂𝒶𝓇𝓀𝑒𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇𝑒, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒸𝒶𝓂𝑒 𝑜𝓊𝓉 𝓌𝒾𝓉𝒽 𝓈𝑜𝓂𝑒 𝓅𝑜𝒸𝓀𝓎 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓂𝓎𝓈𝑒𝓁𝒻 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓂𝓎 𝓈𝒾𝓈𝓉𝑒𝓇. 𝒜𝓈 𝓌𝑒𝓁𝓁 𝒶𝓈 𝓈𝑜𝓂𝑒 𝒸𝒽𝑒𝑒𝓈𝑒 𝒻𝓁𝒶𝓋𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝓇𝒶𝓂𝑒𝓃 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓂𝓎 𝒷𝓇𝑜𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇.

𝐼 𝒽𝓊𝓃𝓉𝑒𝒹 𝒹𝑜𝓌𝓃 𝒶 𝓉𝒶𝒾𝓎𝒶𝓀𝒾 𝓈𝒽𝑜𝓅 𝓊𝓈𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝑔𝑜𝑜𝑔𝓁𝑒 𝓂𝒶𝓅𝓈 𝓉𝑜 𝒻𝒾𝓃𝒹 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓃𝑒𝒶𝓇𝑒𝓈𝓉 𝑜𝓃𝑒 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒸𝒽𝑜𝓈𝑒 𝓉𝒶𝒾𝓎𝒶𝓀𝒾 𝓌𝒾𝓉𝒽 𝓇𝑒𝒹 𝒷𝑒𝒶𝓃 𝓅𝒶𝓈𝓉𝑒 𝒻𝒾𝓁𝓁𝒾𝓃𝑔.

𝐼'𝒹 𝒶𝓁𝓌𝒶𝓎𝓈 𝓌𝒶𝓃𝓉𝑒𝒹 𝓉𝑜 𝓉𝓇𝓎 𝓉𝒶𝒾𝓎𝒶𝓀𝒾 𝓈𝒾𝓃𝒸𝑒 𝓈𝑒𝑒𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒾𝓉 𝑜𝓃 𝒥𝓊𝓃𝓀𝑜'𝓈 𝒷𝓁𝑜𝑔 𝓎𝑒𝒶𝓇𝓈 𝒶𝑔𝑜. 𝐼𝓉 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝒹𝑒𝓁𝒾𝒸𝒾𝑜𝓊𝓈! 𝐼 𝓉𝒽𝑜𝓊𝑔𝒽𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒻𝒾𝓁𝓁𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓉𝒶𝓈𝓉𝑒𝒹 𝓁𝒾𝓀𝑒 𝓉𝑒𝒶.