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She’s your first love. I don’t expect you to forget her, not now not ever. I know if she proved she had changed you’d go back to her in a heartbeat. You’re laying with me now and sleep on my chest and fall asleep at the rhythm of my heartbeats. You say you love me and I blindly follow. I memorized the way you breath too. 

 I swear it’s not that I don’t trust you. I just know that I’ll never measure up and I am terrified that I’ll have to let you go before I am ready. All I want for you is for you is that you get the happiness you deserve. I don’t wish ill on her, if you have loved her she must have a pure soul, I wouldn’t have imagined another way. 

You took a piece of my soul which is yours to play with. This is all so new for me. A last request I must make, dust off the memories we made every once in a while will you?  

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You kissed me once,

I giggled into your mouth

You kissed me twice,

I moaned into your mouth

You kissed me ,

I trusted you

You kissed me ,

I gave myself to you,

Solemnly swore to take care of you

You kissed me once

You kissed me twice

You kissed me

And I cried into your mout

You pushed me once

I fell twice

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@cummingforkylo is a blessing to my filthy Star Wars addiction and I love her forever.

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https://www.instagram.com/thepersonalquotes/

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fuck whatever the hell is goin on with the reylos and the sequel trilogy. we’re done with that. its clone wars time and nothing else matters

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I personally ship reylo BUT FUCK I HAVE BEEN SEEING SOME TOXIC SHIT here. If reylo is your thing sure. Go for it. I love it too. But attacking anti-reylos is honestly so stupid and shallow. We have our reasons to ship and they have their reasons not to. At the end it’s just a movie (a great one too) and is definitely bot worth attacking someone over. CALM DOWN EVERYONE.

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I’m allowed to be angry about what happened. I am allowed to be angry about what you did.

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“I don’t wanna die.”

“Then stop walking into death.”

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Tell me if you would like to see this as a one or two part fic

Kylo’s force ghost is slipping inside rey every time she has a conversation with finn don’t @ me on this

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Kylo’s force ghost is slipping inside rey every time she has a conversation with finn don’t @ me on this

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I , A Slut

It has always been very easy for me to fall in love, not once or twice. In fact, I fall in love 10 times a day. Sometimes with the howling wind and sometimes with how the rain falls down on my naked arms and hands so gracefully. It makes me tremble. My first love was cherrys, and the red juice dripping from the sides of my mouth. Now I love pomegranates more. My biggest love was towards a leaf that happened to fall right in front of me at the right time and place. Then I fell in love with my blanket and how it protected me throughout the most dangerous of times. I vaguely remember when I thought I was in love with a boy. Turns out I wasn’t but I’m forever thankful for the experience.

People tell me I’m a cold stone hearted woman. By now I think it’s just a stigma. It’s easier to call someone a slut then to call someone full of love.

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Keep Doing What You’re Doing

Well this is also inspired by what Rey might have felt if/when she found Ben again.

A fresh breath of air, it felt as if I was holding my breath now for a century. I didn’t realize then, but I was crying. Crying at longing I seeker and comfort I found. I vaguely remember him being taken away from me. To be honest, I’m ashamed that I’ve lost the details. It’s almost as vivid as only a blur and nothing more. Maybe it was for the best because if I did remember I would have lost all my strength and not find enough will to come rescue him this time.

How unearthly, I can feel the ground beneath my feet but I’ve never felt lighter. He’s in my arms now, head on top of my shoulder. I can hear his voice, hold him, touch him, stroke his hair and plant a kiss on his lips. The lips I’ve dreamt of speaking lovely gibberish to my ears. Hair I thought that might have gone matted by now. How silly of me, it was still as soft as cotton. He had lost a little weight, and his face looked like it lost all his color. However all of his freckles was still at their rightful places and he still hasn’t lost the glint in his eyes. He is still mine, bot exactly as I’ve left him but exactly as I’ve dreamt everyday since I’ve did.

But I have no time to make plans for tomorrow or debate about the past. I have him now, in my arms. That’s all it matters now.

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Deserve

This is inspired by @poethrotsvitha ‘s lines “It feels a bit like falling. It feels a lot like dying” from Noli Me tangere. I am nowhere as good as a writer that she is but I just wanted to share this little thing.

I can smell her scent on your skin,

I can feel where she touched,

And I can feel where she forgot to.

I can sense the emptiness she fills on your hearth,

And I can feel where she fails to contribute.

When I let my hands travel on your skin,

I can tell how damaged you are.

I doubt if you even know

But I seem to know you better then you know yourself.

Funny thing, love is.

I find myself wiping away my tears so you don’t get distressed.

Therefore be mine,

Because I’m the only one who deserves you

But I won’t push it through

I won’t stand naked before you

Nevertheless you know all my secrets

And I will stay away

Till you love me for who I am

Remember where your hands belong

And wherever you left them

Bring back what I have

Knowing this,

It feels like falling.

It feels a lot like dying.

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Perhaps what I ask isn’t too much.

Perhaps I’m just asking the wrong person.

What I tell myself everyday because of my abusive ex

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do you have a tag list for your kylo work?

I have both a tag list and a master list. You can find them both here & here respectively.