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                             The fearless flight… for the greatest tragedy of them all                                              Is never to feel the burning light.

Independent, private, highly selective IKARIS. MCU based. Written & loved by Caro.

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                             The fearless flight… for the greatest tragedy of them all                                              Is never to feel the burning light.

Independent, private, highly selective IKARIS. MCU based. Written & loved by Caro.

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Imagine if i came back... just imagine ;-;

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𝐋𝐎𝐊𝐈  𝐐𝐔𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐒 .

from  the   disney+  series .  mentions  of  death  present .

“ i  beg  your  pardon . ” “ on  behalf  of  the  time  variance  authority ,  i  hereby  arrest  you  for  crimes  against  the  sacred  timeline .  hands  up ,  you’re  coming  with  us . ” “ get  out  of  my  way . ” “ can  you  at  least  tell  me  what  it  is ? ” “ it  sounds  dumb . ” “ know  this .  you  cross  me ,  there  are  deadly  consequences . ” “ please  sign  this  to  verify  this  is  everything  you’ve  ever  said . ” “ oh ,  this  is  absurd . ” “ do  a  lot  of  people  not  know  if  they’re  robots ? ” “ this  is  a  mistake !  i  shouldn’t  be  here . ” “ who  actually  believes  this  bunkum ? ” “ i’m  sorry ,  my  friend  is  an  imbecile . ” “ madam ,  a  god  doesn’t  plead . ” “ look ,  this  has  been  a  very  enjoyable  pantomime ,  but  i’d  like  to  go  home  now . ” “ no  one  bad  is  ever  truly  bad ,  and  no  one  good  is  ever  truly  good . ” “ can  you  hear  me ?  are  you  a  recording ?  or  are  you  eve  alive ? ” “ love  is  a  dagger . ” “ i  thought  perhaps  we  could  work  together ,  but  now  i  see  you  lack  vision . ” “ come  any  closer  and  i’ll  kill  him . ” “ you’re  not  the  only  tech  savvy  loki . ” “ i  don’t  know  what  that  means ! ” “ i’m  sorry ,  madam .  didn’t  exactly  have  time  to  scan  the  brochure . ” “ by  the  way ,  i  thought  you  wanted  me  dead . ” “ so  we’re  a  team  now ? ” “ welcome  to  the  real  world .  down  there ,  we’re  awful  to  one  another  to  get  what  we  want . ” “ you  could  be  whoever ,  whatever  you  want  to  be ,  even  someone  good . ” “ every  moment  those  variants  are  out  there ,  we’re  all  in  danger .  find  them ! ” “ and  so ,  that’s  where  i  grew  up .  the  ends  of  a  thousand  worlds .  and  now ,  that’s  where  i’ll  die . ” “ do  you  think  that  what  makes  a  loki  a  loki  is  the  fact  that  we’re  destined  to  lose ? ” “ we  may  lose ,  sometimes  painfully .  we  don’t  die . ” “ we  survive .  i  mean ,  you  did . ” “ you  did  it  on  your  own .  you  ran  rings  around  them .  you’re  amazing ! ” “ well ? ” “ i  know  you  have  some  quip  you’re  dying  to  say . ” “ oh ,  i  don’t  have  a  quip .  i’ve  nothing  to  say  to  you . ” “ when  you  think  the  ends  justify  the  means ,  there’s  not  much  you  won’t  do . ” “ what  is  this  place ?  where  are  we ?  who  are  you ? ” “ this  is  the  void ,  that’s  alioth .  and  we’re  his  lunch .  come  on ! ”  “ i’m  as  in  the  dark  as  you  are . ” “ your  whole  reality’s  been  destroyed .  tell  me ,  how  does  it  feel  to  be  on  the  other  side  of  it ? ” “ this  is  it ,  isn’t  it ?  this  is  where  you  dragged  me  after  you  stole  my  life .  a  fitting  place ,  then ,  to  take  yours . ” “ and  what  if  i  said  loki  wasn’t  dead ?  not  yet ,  anyway . ” “ i’d  say  you  were  lying . ” “ maybe .  or  maybe  we  want  the  same  thing . ” “ i’m  telling  you  this  willingly . ” “ i  want  to  know  who  lied  to  me . ” “ that’s  nice .  super  believable . ” “ i’d  like  to suggest  we  take  a  quick  breather  so  i  can  ask  several  thousand  questions . ” “ it’s  been  a  very ,  very ,  very  trying  past  few  days .  ” “ all  i  know  is ,  i  got  pruned  and  i  woke  up  here ,  and  now  i’m  surrounded  by  variants  of  myself ,  plus  an  alligator ,  which  i’m  heartbroken  to  report  i  didn’t  even  find  all  that  strange ! ” “ tough .  got  to  keep  moving  so  we  don’t  die . ” “ why  the  hell  is  there  an  alligator  in  here ? ”�� “ okay ,  but  what’s  your  plan ? ” “ don’t  die . ” “ don’t  die  isn’t  a  plan .  it’s  a  general  demand  of  living . ” “ we’re  all  villains  here .  we’ve  all  done  horrible ,  terrible ,  horrific  things . ” “ all  i  know  is ,  i  don’t  want  to  hurt  you .  i  don’t  want  a  throne .  i  just  want  you  to  be  okay . ” “ well ,  if  you  think  it’s  a  bad  idea ,  i  prefer  you  to  speak  your  mind . ” “ we  write  our  own  destiny  now . ”

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self-reliance    is   a    survival skill.     it’s    darwinian.     self-reliance,    self-trust.     trust yourself.     because    everyone    else    is    the    enemy.

private. selective. independent natalia romanova —— the black widow 616 / headcanons based; mcu-adjacent

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is this the rest of my life? a rage that can only be quieted by violence? 

independent and selective hope mikaelson of cw’s the originals and legacies written by ace / 25+ / pst  ©

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Hii.. i know i kinda just disappear after coming back lol. I’ve just been dealing with some health issues, plus depression. But i’m here, and trying my way back. I love y’all, hope y’all doing okay!.

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youxmove​:

To say she wasn’t hurt or even angry about everything that happened, about being left with nowhere to go or any guidance on even what to do next…well that would be a lie.  And maybe she’d still feel angry if the Blip never happened- but it did and dealing with that was far more important than finding her….even if her time here had been anything but peaceful and safe.

She smiled softly at his words, her head lowering as she let out a quiet sigh.  “Thank you…and thank you for apologizing but…you had bigger problems right?”  A hand reaches out, gently resting on his arm as she gave him another small smile.  “It’s okay.  I promise.  But you shouldn’t be here- you really shouldn’t be here.   There’s already people here that know you’re in the city and if they find you…you should leave at dawn Steve…go back home.”

 In  a  sense,  he  supposed  he  did.  The  blib  had  erased  half  of  all  living  creatures  and  the  world  around  them  was  on  fire  with  everyone  struggling  to  adapt  to  this  new  space  that  opened  up  before  them.  To  this  massive  loss.  But  despite  all  that  ( because  of  all  that )  he  needed  to  be  here.  For  her.  For  all  the  time  he  wasn’t  when  he  should’ve.  Finding  hadn’t  been  easy,  but  now  that  he  had,  he  couldn’t  just  leave.

 Shaking  his  head,  he  looked  down  for  a  brief  moment  before  looking  back  up.  “ I’ll  deal  with  them,  but  I  can’t  leave  Sharon,  not  now  at  least.  ---I  just...  had  to  make  sure  you’re  okay.”  a  small  smile  reaching  back  into  his  lips.  “ There’ll  be  people  looking  for  me  everywhere  anyway,  what’s  the  problem  with  stretching  the  moment,  huh?.”  And  maybe,  at  the  back  of  his  mind  he  hoped,  that  with  everything  going  on,  he  was  the  last  of  the  governments’  worries.

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Imagine logging in with every intention to write and your laptop saying No c:

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@youxmove​ cont from ( x )

 Everything  since  Germany  had  felt  like  a  blur,  day  after  day  passing  him  by  in  a  rush  that  didn’t  leave  him  time  to  stop.  To  think  everything  through.  He  had  been  so  lost  in  his  need  to  stop  HYDRA  and  any  other  threat  while  keeping  hidden  from  the  governments  that  he  hadn’t  even  check  up  on  her.  And  even  if  Sharon  doesn’t  hold  any  resentment  towards  him,  he  does.  She  had  taken  the  brunt  of  his  actions  even  if  that  had  never  been  his  intention.  But  her  words  do  bring  a  small  smile  to  his  lips  and  he  looks  at  her  with  defeated  eyes.  “ But  I  do,  I  should’ve  at  least  been  there.  I’m  sorry  I  wasn’t.  ---but  I’m  here  now.”

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𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐃  &  𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐅𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐒𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄    (a  series  of  nonverbal  prompts .   mature  themes  present ,   ‘ my ’  muse  belongs  to  the  one who  posted  the  meme  -  send   “ + REVERSE ”   to  reverse  the  prompts .)

→     𝐈 .    GENERAL

❛   hush .   raise  a  finger  in  a  gesture  to  silence  my  muse . ❛   sit .   gesture  for  my  muse  to  sit  down . ❛   door .   hold  a  door  open  for  my  muse . ❛   tap .   tap  my  muse  on  the  shoulder  to  garner  their  attention . ❛   hunger .   give  my  muse  something  to  eat  /  drink . ❛   cook .   present  my  muse  with  home - cooked  food . ❛   brush .   work  a  brush  /  comb  through  my  muse’s  hair . ❛   read .   silently  read  a  book  alongside  my  muse . ❛   hand .   hold  out  a  hand  for  my  muse  to  take . ❛   dressed .   help  my  muse  put  on  an  article  of  clothing . ❛   note .   give  my  muse  a  note  saying :   [ content ] . ❛   amplify .   turn  up  the  music  in  the  car .

→     𝐈𝐈 .    ANGST

❛   patch .   help  my  muse  patch  up  a  wound . ❛   night terrors .   hold  my  muse  after  they  wake  up  from  a  nightmare . ❛   company .   silently  sit  with  my  muse  to  comfort  them. ❛   hospital .   my  muse  is  told  that  yours  is  in  the  hospital . ❛   revelation .   show  my  muse  evidence  of  a  lie  they  told . ❛   indulge .   find  my  muse  drinking  to  cope . ❛   downfall .   find  my  muse  collapsed  on  the  ground . ❛   console .   comfort  my  muse  as  they  cry . ❛   nurse .   give  my  muse  company  in  the  hospital .

→     𝐈𝐈 .    AFFECTIONATE

❛   wink .   wink  at  my  muse .  ❛   wrap .   wrap  an  arm  around  my  muse’s  [ shoulders  /  waist ] . ❛   caress .   gently  caress  my  muse’s  face . ❛   tousle .   mess  playfully  with  my  muse’s  hair . ❛   chest .   place  your  head  on  my  muse’s  chest .    ❛   comb .   comb  fingers  through  my  muse’s  hair . ❛   grasp .   run  to  my  muse  &  jump  into  their  arms . ❛   lean .   lean  on  my  muse’s  shoulder . ❛   tender .   kiss  my  muse  on  the  [ forehead  /  cheek  /  nose ] . ❛   abrupt .   kiss  my  muse  out  of  the  blue . ❛   chaste .   chastely  kiss  my  muse . ❛   good morning .   kiss  my  muse  the  morning  after . ❛   volumes .   gaze  at  my  muse  in  a  way  that  silently  says  ‘i love you’ .

→     𝐈𝐈𝐈 .    VIOLENT

❛   strike .   [ slap / punch ]  my muse in the face . ❛   gun .   wield  a  gun  at  my  muse . ❛   twist .   twist  my  muse’s  arm  behind  their  back . ❛   throttle .   aggressively  wrap  your  hands  around  my  muse’s  throat . ❛   parch .   burn  my  muse  with  a  hot  object . ❛   take down .   forcefully  bring  my  muse  to  the  ground . ❛   gouge .   wield  a  sharp  object  at  my  muse . ❛  shunt .   shove  my  muse  backwards . ❛  stickup .   yell  at  my  muse  to  put  their  hands  in  the  air. ❛  shoot .   [ fatally  /  non-fatally ]   shoot  my  muse . ❛  stab .   stab  my  muse with a  [ knife / other object ].

→     𝐈𝐕 .    NSFW

❛   surprise .   send  an  unexpected  nsfw  image  to  my  muse . ❛   pin .   push  my  muse  against  a  [ wall,  table,  other ] . ❛   go down .   go  down  on  my  muse . ❛   choke .   intimately  wrap  your  hands  around  my  muse’s  throat . ❛   belt loops .   pull  my  muse  closer  by  their  belt loops . ❛   skinny dipping .   go  skinny  dipping  with  my  muse . ❛   rip .   tear  a  piece  of  clothing  from  my  muse’s  body . ❛   mark .   leave  a  mark  on  my  muse’s  body  [ specify where ] .

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‘ you should see me as a threat. i will tear down everything you know until there is nothing left of you. i am a walking threat. ’

'Grave Suggestion'

Somehow, deep inside his mind, Steve knows the words to be honest. A fair warning from the man standing in front of him with eyes that don't recognize him. But he can't bring himself to fully believe them, not when there's still traces of the man he once knew hidden beneath layers or torment and death. Not when his heartbeat still speed up at the mention of his name and the world seems to stop around him. Like nothing else exist but the memory of Bucky and the promise of a new beginning. Not after all it took him to find him, like chasing smoke without a fire source.

And maybe it's all wishful thinking, the childish hope of a Brooklyn kid who still hung onto the memory of a lost friend. Maybe Sam was right and this wasn't the same man he used to know. But when there are only words coming from the other and he hadn't reached for a gun, Steve can't help but hope. That behind the empty, lost eyes staring at him threateningly, is his best friend desperate to come out. That he can help him.

So he doesn't move, and the helmet feels tighter around his skull and suddenly the shield ( lightest metal on earth ) feels heavy enough to weigh him down. He wants to reach out, a comforting hand like an olive branch but he doesn't move. He can hear his own heartbeat like a drum playing on his ears and nothing else, like the world had gone quiet just for this one moment.

" You know I can't do that." he speaks the same way he had all that time ago on the helicarrier bridge. His voice as firm as it ever was, without a trace of doubt. Like he expects them to help the other remember. " And we both know you won't do that either, you know me Bucky. You know you do... you're not hydra's anymore, you're not their weapon, you don't have to keep doing this."

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this ask meme is based on the blog gravesuggestion.  i’ve divided it up into two categories  ( light  &  dark )  based on the themes.  some of these can be somewhat triggering seeing that the darker ones deal with a lot of death mentions.  please be cautious before continuing on!!

L I G H T

‘  at night i dream of you.  ’ ‘  don’t give up yet.  you still have time to fix things.  ’ ‘  falling in love with someone else is not a personal attack.  ’ ‘  i am still so weak when it comes to you.  ’ ‘  i can’t believe i let myself let you down.  ’ ‘  i don’t care where we go when we die,  as long as i’m with you.  ’ ‘  i dream of saying to you all the words i held inside until it was too late.  ’ ‘  i feel so warm  &  safe when you talk to me.  maybe i could love you if you’d let me.  ’ ‘  i finally let the right people in  &  i have never felt so loved.  ’ ‘  i like the way your nails paint red stripes along my spine days after you’re gone.  ’ ‘  i lived in your permafrost for twenty years  &  then you looked at me  &  i felt the warmth of spring.  ’ ‘  i once wished you’d leave me alone,  but i take it back.  ’ ‘  i want to be able to love someone else,  but you stretch your arms  &  spread your legs inside my heart so that there is no room for anyone or anything else.  ’ ‘  i want to believe that we got it right this time.  ’ ‘  i wonder how much longer i can cling to your light before it expires completely.  ’ ‘  i would travel across the world to be by your side,  because as long as you are with me,  anywhere is a perfect place to me.  ’ ‘  it took me awhile to realize it myself,  but you are not what other people say you are.  ’ ‘  it’s not that i really need you,  but life would be pretty boring without you around.  there’s no one i would rather be with.  ’ ‘  i’d like to stay like this for awhile.  ’ ‘  life  &  death don’t have to be so boring,  let’s make both an adventure.  ’ ‘  life imitates art,  they say.  i didn’t believe it until i started to notice the way your eyelashes look so much like tiny ink stroke.  ’ ‘  live your life so that when you die,  souls will come for miles just to hear your historic tales.  ’ ‘  make your exes jealous  &  your past self proud.  ’ ‘  maybe you’re what i needed to find in order to move on.  ’ ‘  never get caught falling harder.  they’ll never let you back up.  ’ ‘  please don’t go.  ’ ‘  some days it’s easier to just stop fighting it  &  succumb.  ’ ‘  sometimes,  you’ll find it hard to keep going,  but you always will.  ’ ‘  the desire i feel for you is that same itching,  insidious hunger that an addict has for their addiction.  ’ ‘  the worst thing about you is that you weren’t all bad.  ’ ‘  there is absolutely nothing  &  no one who can stop me.  ’ ‘  there is no route of losing you that is without pain.  ’ ‘  there’s still room for adventure  &  there is no one i’d rather have by my side.  ’ ‘  things didn’t turn out the way i planned,  but i’m alright with that.  ’ ‘  we could be really incredible together,  you know?  ’ ‘  you are beautiful  &  vibrant  &  confident.  you are light  &  laughter incarnate  &  every fiber of your being screams freedom  &  joy.  when i am with you,  i am truly happy.  ’ ‘  you are starlight incarnate,  from the grand way you sway your hips to the wide mysterious way you think.  blessed are any to be loved by you.  ’ ‘  you are too afraid of the future to let go of a past that was never kind to you.  ’ ‘  you call me yours  &  i have no idea what that even means to you.  ’ ‘  you remind me of bubblegum  &  sweets;  soft  &  pink  &  warm.  you are strong in the gentlest way.  you are so stubbornly kind.  i wish i could be like that.  ’ ‘  you still visit me while i sleep sometimes.  your fingers trace my spine  &  i listen to you breathe.  please stop haunting me.  ’ ‘  ‘morbid curiosity’ is a wonderful way to describe how i feel about you.  ’

D A R K

‘  a thousand empty bottles  &  fist fights will never return to us what we lost that day.  ’ ‘  everyone else has moved on,  but i am still here.  ’ ‘  everything about you screams danger.  ’ ‘  everything is worthless to you  &  you,  in turn,  became worthless.  ’ ‘  for once in my life i want to be surrounded by people that i don’t feel like i need to impress.  ’ ‘  freedom is really hard to get used to.  ’ ‘  how could you do this to me?  how fucking could you?  ’ ‘  i am becoming everything we always dreamed of  &  i am leaving you behind.  ’ ‘  i buried you so well that you might as well have died.  ’ ‘  i can rest easy knowing that the person i love is dead  &  not the monster you became.  ’ ‘  i can’t look at you.  not now,  not ever.  ’ ‘  i don’t ask how you’ve been.  what’s the point?  you’d lie anyways.  ’ ‘  i dream of hearing the words i so desperately needed to lay your memory to rest.  ’ ‘  i haunted this house first.  there is no room for you here.  ’ ‘  i have a right to be upset.  i loved them too, you know.  ’ ‘  i just want it to end.  i want it to all go away.  i want to go away.  ’ ‘  i may be a wolf in sheep’s clothing,  but a snake hiding in the skin of a mouse is far more dangerous.  ’ ‘  i saw your face today  &  didn’t feel anything.  i am free.  ’ ‘  i tried to save you,  but you didn’t want to be saved.  you just wanted someone to suffer with you.  ’ ‘  it’s almost as if you were never here.  ’ ‘  it’s unhealthy to do these things,  you tell me.  you say it’s time to stop smoking,  time to stop gambling,  &  dammit,  i f you don’t stop drinking it’ll kill you.  i sure hope you’re right,  darling.  ’ ‘  i’m always pleasantly surprised by how easy it is to kill you in my mind  ’ ‘  i’m not really scared to die.  i’m more afraid that no one will miss me when i’m gone.  ’ ‘  i’m not the person you left behind anymore.  there’s no one here to miss.  ’ ‘  i’ve been dead far longer than i’ve been alive.  ’ ‘  i’ve eaten nothing but flower petals  &  ivy for weeks because i want to be beautiful inside like you.  ’ ‘  i’ve never been completely satisfied.  i most likely will still be unsatisfied long after my death.  ’ ‘  no motive other than pleasure,  my dear.  ’ ‘  one day i’ll go or you will.  either way,  it will be as if i’m losing a piece of myself.  ’ ‘  our dreams  &  promises decay along with you.  ’ ‘  the leaves change,  but nothing else does.  ’ ‘  the only difference between avoiding  &  leaving is that now i’m not waiting up for you.  ’ ‘  there is no such thing as a person who is required to love you.  ’ ‘  there’s only so much that can be done to repair old damage.  ’ ‘  things aren’t going as i hoped.  maybe if i die,  i can start over again?  better luck next time.  ’ ‘  this is not something to be proud of.  this is a tragedy.  ’ ‘  trying to get rid of me?  oh honey,  you’ll have to try much harder than that.  ’ ‘  trying to get under my skin?  you’re nothing more than a pesky itch.  ’ ‘  unlike you,  i can’t hide my identity when it becomes an inconvenience or a danger.  ’ ‘  weeping is for gods  &  martyrs,  we cannot afford such luxuries.  ’ ‘  would you even miss me?  ’ ‘  you are not important enough to earn an eternal place in my heart.  ’ ‘  you complain nonstop about being unloved  &  alone,  i can’t imagine what you’d be like if that were actually true.  ’ ‘  you don’t know what it’s like.  ’ ‘  you made this so fucking easy for me.  ’ ‘  you should see me as a threat.  i will tear down everything you know until there is nothing left of you.  i am a walking threat.  ’ ‘  you think i’m already gone,  but i’m still fighting.  ’ ‘  you think i’m dead,  but i’m just dying.  ’ ‘  you were never an addiction,  you were a fucking disease.  ’ ‘  you wouldn’t dare cross me.  i am god  &  you are the soil beneath my feet.  ’ ‘  your existence takes up so much more space in mine that we might as well be one entity.  ’ ‘  your fingers are so cold  &  bruised,  but you’re still slamming your fists again the barricade as if it makes a difference.  ’ ‘  your hair is tied in a noose  &  your fingernails are razor blades,  your lips are poison  &  i will gratefully kiss them.  ’ ‘  your hatred has a body count  &  we will not forget.  ’ ‘  your loss,  not mine.  ’ ‘  you’re a sick fuck.  you know that?  ’ ‘  you’re not gentle with me  &  i would never ask you to be.  ’ ‘  you’ve trapped yourself so thoroughly in your own mind that it’s not even a rut anymore,  it’s a pit.   ’

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 Hi!! i’ve never made a post like this but there’s this person who’s really important to me, one of the greatest friends i’ve ever had and they need help to get out of a really bad situation and start over. You can share this or donate if you’re able (or both) I’ll be forever grateful (it’ll mean a lot). I love y’all!! 

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 Hi!! i’ve never made a post like this but there’s this person who’s really important to me, one of the greatest friends i’ve ever had and they need help to get out of a really bad situation and start over. You can share this or donate if you’re able (or both) I’ll be forever grateful (it’ll mean a lot). I love y’all!! 

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i looooveeee you!!! *ugly sobbing*

i love you moreeeeeee ;-;

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            —the  fiction  that  we’re  living  in,    says  i  should  pull  the  pin.                              should  i  just  pull  the  pin ?                                       should  i  just    PULL THE PIN.  

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