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unforgettable

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pandæmonium girls they're unforgettable

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fornax sketches with some of my fave outfits on her...!

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against the darkness ⸺ an unbreakable shield of light and iron

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낮은 바람의 속삭임 초록빛 노랫소리와 너를 닮은 사람들과 이 별이 마음에 들어 윤하-별의조각 fits perfectly with my fav, Venat

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that said i think thancred's overall identity crisis read as-written, as a cis man, is still great on the long form. because he's the poster boy for toxic youthful masculinity early on (arr through post-stb) and it's VERY clear that some of it is real and some is an act, and which facets are which depends on who he's talking to. for example his jack-of-all-trades attitude is custom-tuned to let him jump on any grenade--it's real for the scions and an act for everyone else. whereas his womanizing is an act for the scions and real for everyone else (when it comes up in the rising stones in post-arr, he's super embarrassed that the scions are seeing this side of him).

so his pre-shb characterization is marked by performing masculinity for the right people in the right ways, running on an assumption central to his character: if he has no function, he's better off dead. yes, it's a self-image thing, but his self-image is centered around being minfilia's protector. in front of the world, he hides his need to protect her behind a nonchalant playboy persona because he's in some ways a little embarrassed by his own dedication. in front of the scions, he hides his need to be connected to other people (via being a bit of a slut, because it's easy for him) behind constantly volunteering for lone-wolf jobs that other people didn't realize were necessary.

this whole thing where he connects with his closest friends from a long physical distance (solo spy missions) while he connects with perfect strangers from a close physical distance (sex) is like... an incredibly coherent example and criticism of the ways you can perform cis masculinity. and it's all hinged on the fact that he's the Monster under minfilia's bed while lahabrea has him, and then she straight up dies under his care before he can recover from that--so he thinks that 1: he can't save his friends from the Monster and 2: he's directly culpable for bringing the Monster to their doors.

and then yknow. shadowbringers happens. and he graduates from youthful toxic masculinity to mature toxic masculinity, and his whole arc is about really truly discovering how self-harming his life philosophies have been up to this point. he changed them to suit the scenario of being on the lam, but their core never changes: he needs to physically distance himself from those he cares about and he needs to find that physical closeness with strangers.

lacking any good options for strangers, he just ends up getting close to ryne. he does it this time by teaching her the knives: he shows her how to get close to strangers so she can kill them. he says it's for self-defense, and he and ryne both believe that, but i can pretty easily fill in that gap to say it symbolizes his desire to keep her from wearing the masks he wears. unfortunately it's a bad plan, and his and ryne's main onscreen arc involves overcoming the damage he did with it (best-written part of shb to me). however, the reason he comes across so stable and healed in endwalker (compared to before; he's still pretty unwell) is that he DOES successfully conquer the Monster threatening ryne, in ran'jit. he never could do that for minfilia, because nobody ever came forward and offered themself up as the Monster. the closest he ever got was himself, when lahabrea had him. which is why it was so important that he basically died against ran'jit: both the Monster threatening ryne AND himself, who will always be a threat, died. she's safe. it's over. and then he lives with the catharsis of having died, and it's exactly what he needed to start actually living life as a human being.

and basically what im saying is that overcoming all those things really feels like an inflated allegory of my own and some of my friends' experiences with digging yourself out of masculinity-by-rote and creating a version of it that you actually want.

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Estininen, the guy who grew up poor in a war zone and lost his younger sib and also carrying the remnant soul of Nidhogg, the oldest possible brother, to a small child desperately trying to scam them to get money for their family: yeah bud you're doing such a good job scamming rich guys. I'm very scammed right now.

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Dawntrail Week - Koana

"So yeah, I would - I would send a text to be like 'I am coming to dinner.' Yeah, I'm coming to the dinner tonight. Like Kojima said, 'I'll keep coming,' like he did on his poster, that's uh… That's probably what I would type."

"Not sure that's what…"

"The word 'cum slut' may have… accidentally… gotten into… a text message I sent to Adam." - John Vignocchi

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VIERAPRIL ; DAY 15 . alternate universe (modern!au)

I want to watch the universe expand. I want to break it into pieces, small enough to understand,  and put it all back together again in the quiet of my private collection.

for my own amusement, have some modern!au bc I tried SO HARD:

ALSO special thanks to the museum on Faerie, lavender beds, w7!! this was on apt 42 but it goes for like 4 more, it's worth checking it out <3

+ few interations that I won't show you the face bc I didn't bother with expressions (also without the photo edits bc again. not bothering to lmao) but here I LOVE THEM

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梅雨の朝 | Tsuyu no Asa

Location : Aether DC - [Jenova] - Goblet - W19, P60 Twitter: https://twitter.com/SeimiyaK HousingSnap: https://housingsnap.com/?user=YMahohbX YouTube: SeimiyaK Discord: https://discord.gg/TtUGfQA

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They’re friends! 

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"...Say my name." - Themis When I first saw this moment, I melted because damn Themis looked fine as hell here; if this scene was voiced, it would've been over for me XD I been wanting to draw this part for a good while which I finally got around to working and finishing this screenshot redraw. This moment is from the cutscene, "Masks of the Father" during the Pandaemonium questline (Endwalker).

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thinking about robins crazy vibes as wol (making his demi summon size Large for intimidation)

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she just wrote a new song, probably calling it safe harbor or something like that

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