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emily!

“   shouldn’t   you   be   carrying   me   across   the   threshold   or   something   ?   ”   she   teased,   easing   herself   into   the   peculiar   situation.   if   he   was   attempting   to   make   light   of   their   situation,   she   would   also   follow   in   tow.   emily   debated   on   taking   off   her   coat.   the   idea   of   it   meant   she   would   be   staying   awhile,   but   she   didn’t   want   to.   her   plan   was   to   find   a   replacement   hotel   to   crash   for   the   night   (   as   soon   as   possible   )   before   giving   up   on   her   little   trip   entirely   and   heading   back   home.   she   looked   around   the   rental   as   he   spoke,   feeling   herself   smile   politely   in   his   direction,   “   no,   don’t   worry   about   it.   mistakes   happen,   right   ?   besides,   you’re   not   too   bad   to   look   at…   ”   it   was   a   bold   statement,   but   oftentimes   in   awkward   situations   she   was,   in   fact,   bold.   the   bottle   of   wine   sticking   out   of   her   bag   was   slightly   embarrassing.   that   is,   if   she   did   accept   a   drink   from   him.   but   he   was   a   stranger.   maybe   it   was   better   to   be   safe   than   sorry.   “   actually,   i   have   this…   ”   she   pulled   the   bottle   from   her   bag   and   held   it   out   towards   him.   “   i’m   assuming   there’s   glasses   here   ?   ”

not too bad to look at. a bold yet telling statement to how the night may go— all his lights are turning the brightest shade of green. “i could easily say the same with you.” he mirrors back to her with little to no hesitation, truthfully he might add. she was GORGEOUS, to say the least; on the prettier side of his list of victims by far. though, like the others, not any smarter. much to his liking. neil is genuinely surprised at her offer of wine— she skipped a whole STEP for him. saves him the bottle he had so nicely wrapped up in the pantry for his next conquest. “if i didn’t know better, emily, i would’ve thought you were trying to butter me up.” he sends her a smirk before making his way into the kitchen for some glasses. “so, it’s going to come up EVENTUALLY, so i’m better off asking it now— what brings you out here all by yourself?” neil reaches for the bottle, popping it open with a corkscrew and pouring each of them a glass. let the night begin.

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emily!

“   this   sucks,   ”   the   blonde   laughed   in   disbelief.   she’s   not   stupid.   she   wasn’t   raised   by   a   worrying   mother   and   protective   father   to   act   this   way.   emily   knew   better,   but   she   would   unknowingly   regret   the   decision   to   take   him   up   on   this   offer.   there   were   a   million   reasons   why   she   planned   on   saying   yes.   the   street   was   unfamiliar   and   dark,   the   lack   of   lights   suddenly   noticeable   now   that   he   pointed   it   out.   it   was   freezing,   the   cool   breeze   of   the   fall   air   brushing   her   bare   arms   and   making   goosebumps   appear.   not   to   mention   the   long   day   of   traveling   which   hadn’t   gone   as   smoothly   as   expected.   now   this   ?   stranded   and   homeless   on   a   street   in   a   city   she   didn’t   know   or   recognize   ?   this   was   stupid.   this   was   so   stupid.   she   pulled   her   suitcase   behind   her,   feeling   uneasy   about   this   irrational   decision   she   was   making.   “   uh…   alright,   yeah.   thank   you.   i’ll   be   out   of   your   hair   shortly.   you   know,   just   until   i   figure   out   where   i’m   staying   for   the   night,   ”   she   inhaled   sharply,   growing   closer   to   the   much   larger   and   taller   man.   “   i’m   emily,   by   the   way,   ”   she   offered   him   a   small   friendly   smile   -   a   “please   don’t   kill   me   in   my   sleep”   smile.   if   she   was   going   to   be   stuck   there   for   awhile,   she   wanted   a   peace   of   mind   and   the   only   way   of   getting   that   for   herself   is   getting   to   know   him.  

it took EVERYTHING in him to not show his delight in her acceptance of his offer. the hardest part was over, now he just has to wait for the rest to simply fall into place. neil made enough room for her to come into the house, closing the door behind them. “well, emily, i’m neil, pleasure to meet you. and welcome to... OUR humble abode, i guess.” he laughs, offering her his hand to take in hers to shake. jokes to lighten the mood always tend to help the process. “sorry again for this whole thing. i’m sure you were just looking for some alone time. i’ll try my best to be good company until we get this all squared away.” another smile is sent her way, grabbing his glass he had sitting on the coffee table. “do you need something to drink? eat, maybe? i don’t consider myself much of a chef, but i have some somewhat decent spaghetti and sauce left over if you want any. but.. i’m sure you can help yourself, since this is technically YOUR place too. playing host is kind of a force of habit, you’ll have to excuse me.” 

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emily!

     a   “   writer’s   retreat   ”   is   what   she   was   calling   it   -   albeit   cliché   and   overused   by   many.   and   even   though   emily’s   laptop   was   stowed   away   in   her   bag,   it   was   less   writing   and   more   retreat   than   anything.   her   mind   was   set   on   a   bottle   of   red   wine   and   a   bubble   bath   all   to   herself.   she   fumbled   around   with   the   lockbox,   attempting   the   code   more   than   three   times   before   completely   giving   up.   cursing   under   her   breath,   the   blonde   opened   rental   app   and   began   to   message   the   owner   of   the   property   when   the   front   door   suddenly   opened.   she   turned   back   in   horror,   wondering   if   she   had   gotten   the   address   wrong.   was   this   not   the   house   ?   “   i–   ”   she   began,   her   heart   pounding   within   her   chest.   god,   this   couldn’t   be   happening,   she   thought   to   herself.   “   i   booked   a   home.   this…   one,   ”   she   trailed   off,   glancing   down   at   the   photos   of   the   same   exact   front   door   that   showed   in   the   preview   pictures.   “   —   and   they   must’ve…   i’m   sorry,   ”   she   quickly   apologized,   stepping   back   from   the   front   steps.   “   you   got   here   first,   so   i’ll   just…   figure   something   else   out.   i’m   really   sorry   to   have   bothered   you.   ”

he continues to give her a look just bordering on pity enough to keep her from feeling overly embarrassed, all while feeling bad for the poor, CONFUSED girl. he has to play the part, after all. with a shake of his head, neil chuckles and pulls out his phone to bring up his ‘reservation’ for this address. “it seems we’ve been bamboozled.” but as soon as the words were coming out of his mouth, she was beginning to retreat back down the steps. NO. “but hey, wait! it’s getting late— and this neighborhood doesn’t seem.. the greatest.” he says with a nod down the dark and dimly lit street. “and if i let a beautiful girl like yourself go out there on your own knowing that, i don’t think i could forgive myself. please, come in and maybe we can figure this whole thing out.” the offer is subtle, but not overbearing, he hopes. he can’t rush into it necessarily, but he also can’t afford to waste any time. “really— it’s HARDLY your fault.” a hand gestures for her to come inside, a warm and welcoming smile accompanying it. it’s 2022, emily— strange men in your house isn’t exactly a green flag, and she knows BETTER than to follow the instructions of a complete stranger, right? neil sure as hell hopes not.

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@lovedycu​ !

after checking his watch a few more times than he’d like to, he finally hears a car pull up to the property. neil gets up out of the recliner to subtly check the front windows to see a blonde get out of her car. WONDERFUL. the last few trials of this process of his had mislead him to an unfortunate outcome, whether that be that they were spontaneously accompanied by a partner or some sort of group friend trip where he was easily outnumbered. but she— she’ll work JUST fine. right on cue, he hears a fumbling at the lock box, a handful of confused noises following shortly after. where’s that darn key? as soon as he notices her turn heel to go back to her car, CLICK— he flicks on a light to show someone is in fact inside what she thought was her dark, empty rental. and there, like clockwork, is the knock at the door. opening the door to the beautiful girl before him, he flashes her a smile. “HI, can i help you?” 

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blake!

“  seriously  ?  ”  blake  reached  for  the  box,  inspecting  the  sticker  placed  on  top.  it  was  definitely  the  wrong  address  -  again.  it  wasn’t  the  first  time  she  had  sent  an  order  from  victoria’s  secret  to  his  apartment  number  and  now  she  was  starting  to  feel  guilty  for  making  him  hand  deliver  her  lingerie.  it  was  like  the  start  of  a  really  bad  p*rn.  “  i’m  so  sorry.  i’m  literally  such  an  idiot.  ”

zeke lets her take the box from him, clapping his hands awkwardly to fill the now empty gap between them. “hey n-no it’s not your fault! we’re pretty close in numbers, i’m surprised i haven’t done it yet— the night’s STILL young, though.” he jokes, rocking on his heels a bit. “i’m just glad i’ve seemed to make it just in time every time it arrives... or else the neighbors might think i’m cross dressing..” zeke blushes at the mere THOUGHT, looking around to make sure none of said neighbors were around to hear. 

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maria!

“  i  haven’t  seen  you  around  before.  what’s  your  name  ?  ”  /  @eastsidc​

“VERY observant. i see you’re quick to identify the odd one out.” the man pushes a friendly chuckle, offering the beautiful woman his hand. “i’m harry. and you are?” 

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after knocking with his foot a few times, the door swings open, causing zeke to nearly stumble over his own feet. “these— uh THIS is yours.. i think.” 

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alycia! 

“  i  didn’t  want…  ”  she  could  feel  herself  getting  choked  up  over  her  words.  the  mere  sight  of  him  before  her  was  making  it  even  harder.  alycia’s  eyes  fluttered  closed  in  attempt  to  say  how  she  truly  felt  without  the  distraction.  “  i  didn’t  want  to  hurt  anyone.  that’s  why  i  ignored  you.  i  didn’t  want  to  hurt  you  because  i  love…  i  love  thor.  i  want  to  be  with  thor.  ”  alycia  could  feel  the  tears  that  had  fallen  down  her  cheeks  and  as  she  opened  her  eyes  carefully,  she  made  sure  not  to  make  eye  contact  with  loki.  she  didn’t  want  to  witness  his  reaction.  odin  had  made  it  perfectly  clear  that  she  was  to  dedicate  herself  to  thor  or  else  loki  would  be  banished  indefinitely.  it  was  why  she  had  been  avoiding  him  -  turning  down  different  hallways,  leaving  the  room  he  was  occupying.  odin  knew  of  her  undeniable  love  for  loki  and  had  been  taking  note  from  afar.  alycia  couldn’t  see  herself  living  a  life  without  loki  around.  the  thought  of  him  being  banished  from  asgard  for  an  unspoken  time  made  her  choice  to  fully  commit  to  thor  an  easy  one  to  make.  she  couldn’t  lose  him.  “  which  is  why  you  should  let  me  go.  ”

“but you DON’T!” he boomed, the words echoing through the corridor, anger and hurt seeping through his veins. luckily they were still stowed away in the far corner of the asgardian castle, not a soul around to hear their quarrel. “you say you didn’t wish to hurt anyone, so does that mean I’M the one left with the short end of the stick? i’m the one who must live in misery for your benefit?” the typical ending for the mischievous god. he should be used to it by now, but this time, it hurt EXPONENTIALLY more. loki’s head shakes, a dry chuckle passing his lips. “your lips desire mine and i know your heart does too. so if you wish to live UNHAPPILY with my brother, then so be it. but i want to hear you say it.” he took a step closer to her, closing much of the space between them until her scent filled his senses. “tell me that you don’t love me, and i will let you go.” though they were words he so dreaded to hear. 

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alycia!

“  don’t  !  ”  she  yelled,  turning  around  to  face  him  while  ripping  her  hand  away  from  his  grasp.  “  don’t  you  dare.  i  trusted  you  !  does  that  not  mean  anything  ?  ”  alycia  knew  she  should’ve  been  smarter.  if  she  had  opened  her  eyes,  she  probably  would  have  been  able  to  see  the  signs.  right  ?    “  you  betrayed  my  trust.  and  you  will  never  get  that  back,  loki.  ” 

a green glow washes over his female form, revealing the loki she is so used to.he remained silent, taking each of her words as a bullet in the chest. is she aware of just how much she means to him? he wouldn’t even DREAM of betraying her— not intentionally, at least. his thinking before this was that she would either not find out, his natural stealth-ness coming in handy as it usually does, or that she would maybe see it as flattering. loki simply couldn’t live without interaction with her, so he had to go in disguise. this was NOT how he intended it to come off as. “alycia, darling, the very last thing i would ever want is to hurt you. you should know this by now..” the god sighs, dropping his now empty hand to his side, flexing it once. twice. “you completely blocked me from your existence.. you ignore me in the hallways and make any excuse under the stars to avoid being in the same room as me. alycia i’d fallen in love with you and you’d put me in exile.. have you ever thought of how that made ME feel?” he let silence roar over them for a moment before speaking up once more. “and i apologize for deceiving you with my appearance, but t was the only way i could speak to you without conflict.. without argument or excuses.”  

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alycia!

disappointment  sank  in  alycia’s  stomach  when  she  heard  the  knock.  she  was  left  laying  on  the  couch  breathless,  her  cheeks  flushed   with  desire.  but  the  instant  shift  in  a  mood  while  seeing  thor  open  the  door  felt  unreal.  he  was  the  last  person  she  would  ever  expect  to  show  up.  and  while  she  half-expected  to  be  reprimanded;  instead  was  met  with  a  man  who  had  no  idea  the  truth  behind  her  visit.  “  thor  ?  ”  alycia  wondered  in  confusion.  brows  furrowed  as  she  sat  up  a  little  straighter,  the  color  completely  leaving  her  face.  but  his  booming  voice  filled  the  room  with  the  one  name  she  didn’t  want  to  hear.  her  heart  immediately  stilled,  face  falling  when  she  realized  who  alice  truly  was.  tears  filled  her  eyes  as  she  sat  there,  unsure  of  when  thor  actually  left  or  the  reasoning  behind  why  she  was  in  alice’s….  loki’s  presence.  “  i–  ”  she  began,  pressing  a  hand  to  her  stomach  as  she  attempted  to  catch  her  breath.  “  i  need  to  go,  ”  alycia  stated,  standing  up  and  walking  towards  the  door  in  a  daze.

“alycia..” is all she can mutter, but the tears welling in her eyes said enough to fill the room with silence. a VIOLENT silence, at that. the way she looked at loki was more painful than any dagger he’d taken in battle. it was under the skin— straight through the heart. and for once, he actually felt regret for a trick. actually regret wasn’t even a big enough for how he felt. doesn’t even scratch the surface. “alycia wait! please!” loki reached and grabbed hold of her wrist as an attempt to stop her from leaving. “you HAVE to understand i had no malicious intentions in this whatsoever..” 

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alycia!

     the  words  sounded  eerily  familiar  to  her.  and  she  realized  the  original  person  she  had  heard  it  from  was  loki,  having  said  them  to  her  once  or  twice.  rather,  she  assumed  it  was  because  asgardians  weren’t  used  to  someone  like  her,  not  of  this  planet,  and  not  the  fact  that  she  was  actually  in  loki’s  presence.  “  so,  was  that  a  yes  ?  ”  she  grinned,  looking  down  at  alice’s  lips  as  she  got  closer.  “  i  need  to  hear  the  word  so  i  know  i’m  not  being  left  alone  to  fend  for  myself.  ”  alycia  sat  up  straighter  and  taller,  her  dominance  taking  it’s  turn.  “  tell  me…  ”  she  whispered,  her  mouth  ghosting  over  the  other’s.

hands wrapped around alycia’s middle, holding her at her waist as she began to TOWER over loki. what had she just awakened in this beautiful maiden? the god absolutely loved it. and just as she was to whisper the word into her mouth, footsteps were heard just beyond the door. STARS, some timing. their heads turned to the closed door, then back to each other. “i see we’ll have to continue this conversation another time, darling..” her fingertips traced the fabric of her dress so gently to distract her from catching onto her next move. quickly, loki flipped the two, alycia now laying on the sofa with her hovering over her. “STAY.” she quietly orders, getting up and smoothing over her garments to check the door. 

but before she could even make it there, thor busted through the door with a passion. “LOKI!” thor grinned from ear to ear, completely unaware of their previous activities in secret. she froze, the feeling she would normally get when caught in a trick. in a way, that’s exactly what this was. the god of thunder’s eyes turned to alycia to see her laying on the sofa. loki could tell the change in demeanor immediately to concern, quick to keep the questions he had at bay. “she had a mere dizzy spell. i presume she’ll be recovered for dinner.” she lied so easily, turning her head to look at alycia once more, though sure to make it brief as he knew the BETRAYAL in her would be boiling. the reassurance must’ve worked because it sent his brother out with a hint of relief, closing the door behind him. loki remained with his back turned to her, facing the now closed door. 

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alycia!

“  i  think  i’m  going  to  love  having  you  as  a  friend,  ”  she  admitted  breathlessly,  the  aura  of  the  woman  in  front  of  her  simply  taking  her  breath  away  -  never  mind  the  way  she  had  been  kissing  her.  “  would  you  like  to  come  to  the  ball  ?  it  would  be  nice  to  have  a  friendly  face  there.  ”  alycia  felt  her  heart  leap  at  the  question,  but  ignored  it.  she  had  to  remind  herself  she  was  committed  to  thor  -  no  more  distractions.  no  more  loki.  having  a  friend  around  that  could  keep  her  grounded  would  help  aid  her  in  focusing  on  the  things  that  were  good  for  her.  “  but  it’s  okay  if  you’re  too  busy…  or  something.  i  would  understand.  ”

the invitation was sincere— heartfelt even for the brief moment she’d known ALICE. but how was she to attend when loki was of the main court? the god always made his way around obstacles similar to these, so perhaps it could work. party guests hardly notice him anyways. “oh darling, nothing could occupy me enough to keep me from you, i FEAR.” she admits, a finger gliding ever so gently over alycia’s cheek. “if i’m being honest, i find you to be quite ADDICTIVE.” enough to sneak around under her nose in order to still be around her. who knows, maybe she’d find that flattering when— or if— she were to ever find out. “your TASTE in particular..” each word brought her closer and closer to aly, their lips practically ghosting over each other. a wicked grin spread on loki’s lips, one that would never go unrecognized in her usual form, but as alice? just a mere smirk, is all.

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alycia!

“  i…  i  try  not  to,  ”  she  whispered,  every  single  thought  in  her  mind  disappearing  as  soon  as  alice’s  mouth  brushed  upon  the  softest  part  of  her  neck.  alycia  reached  up,  placing  a  hand  behind  her  head  to  hold  it  there.  her  breath  escaped  heavily  past  her  lips,  face  heated  with  a  rosy  flush.  “  it’s  nice  having  you  around,  ”  she  managed  to  say,  the  distraction  from  the  feeling  that  pooled  between  her  legs  more  than  welcomed.  “  …s-someone  to  talk  to,  ”  she  continued,  “  …to  la-laugh  with.  ”  having  left  all  family  and  friends  back  home,  alycia  was  essentially  alone.  and  although  she  hated  to  admit  it,  loki  had  been  the  only  one  to  give  her  the  time  of  day.  “  is  this  what…  friends  do  here  ?  ”  she  questioned,  still  curious  about  asgardian’s  customs.  she  rarely  ventured  outside  of  the  castle.

those innocent little hitches in her tone were missed, ringing so sheepishly in loki’s ears. aly’s caught onto her antics as of late, making her more CLEVER and less shy. though he loved the challenge of her remarks nonetheless, it was good to hear the memorable nervous shuddering that hooked him in the first place. a laugh huffs from loki’s nostrils, gently, but enough to be heard by her. her head lifts from her neck to watch her straight on. “it very well COULD be...” the words roll off her tongue in a way that’s almost velvety to the ears. a finger traces over the bit of skin exposed just above the neckline of aly’s dress. “... in good company, of course.” her touch lingers up the side of her neck, grazing over the spots she’d kissed, making sure not to leave a mark. no matter how badly she wanted to. a flick of her digit from the underneath of aly’s chin caused a small chuckle to shake loki’s shoulders. “but only if you want me to.”

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alycia!

completely  breathless  and  at  a  loss  for  words,  alycia  pressed  her  forehead  against  the  other’s  in  attempt  to  gather  her  thoughts.  but  she  found  herself  smiling  instead,  entirely  unaware  that  was  the  effect  loki’s  kiss  usually  had  on  her.  rather,  she  believed  it  was  alice,  this  incredible  woman  she  had  met.  a  welcomed  distraction  in  the  form  of  an  ethereal  being.  in  the  end,  that  left  alycia  feeling  incredibly  guilty.  why  did  she  always  have  to  ruin  everything  ?  she  pulled  back,  her  brows  furrowed  at  the  bridge  of  her  nose  as  the  distraction  she  had  wished  for  suddenly  backfired.  loki.  loki,  loki,  loki.  he  was  all  she  could  think  about,  even  while  sitting  in  this  girl’s  lap.  “  it  was….  very  good,  ”  she  replied,  biting  her  lower  lip.  although  it  was  a  hesitated  statement  and  despite  how  much  alycia  was  truly  enjoying  her,  she  did  appreciate  her  for  trying.  “  you’re  beautiful,  ”  she  leaned  in  and  pressed  her  lips  to  her  cheek,  butterflies  swarming  her  stomach.  unaware  that  the  reason  she  couldn’t  stop  thinking  about  him  was  because  he  was  right  in  front  of  her  in  disguise.  and  because  of  it,  she  felt  like  an  idiot  as  she  assumed  it  was  herself  that  was  the  issue.  however,  it  was  a  start.  she’d  continue  avoiding  him  and  keep  alice  around  instead.  

oh to bite that bottom lip of hers. loki’s hand rises to thumb over her freshly bitten lip. such an inviting sight it is. “oh, sweet thing.. if i’m beautiful, then i couldn’t POSSIBLY imagine what that makes you. i’m not so sure they even have a word for it yet..” that thumb that was once on her lip was now caressing her cheek. NORMALLY, this kind of trickery wasn’t out of the god’s element, but with the way he’d grown attached to her, there was a tinge of guilt in the air. but what else was he supposed to do when he’d tried everything he could to get her attention? she had to face the facts— that while she was set to be thor’s, but she was MEANT to be with loki. the chemistry was just there. she sighed, looking between the girl’s eyes to try and assess how she’s feeling in this moment. “...you stress far too much— i can sense that.” the hand on her face rises up to brush some hair behind her ear. her lips leaned in for a kiss onto aly’s cheek, mimicking her previous action, but couldn’t help but lay a cheeky one on her neck shortly after. you NEED to hold yourself back, loki had to remind herself in her head. 

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alycia!

she  hadn’t  expected  this  at  all.  it  wasn’t  her  intention  when  she  requested  that  they  would  spend  time  together.  alycia  was  looking  for  a  friend  -  nothing  more.  the  amount  she  had  on  her  plate  was  more  than  one  could  imagine.  maybe  this…  form  of  distraction  was  what  she  needed.  alycia  realized  she  thought  too  much.  when  she  wasn’t  saying  what  was  on  her  mind,  she  was  thinking  it.  so,  rather  than  allowing  her  head  to  get  in  the  way,  she  leaned  into  alice  more.  alycia  blindly  set  the  teacup  down  before  moving  herself  on  top  of  the  other.  she  brushed  long,  dark  locks  of  hair  behind  her  ear,  lips  moving  in  sync  with  each  other.

loki’s hands found themselves around her waist as she sat comfortably on her lap, bringing her closer as the kiss continued. she had to remember to refrain from her usual god of mischief antics, as it might blow her cover. and STARS.. she was in too deep to want to stop kissing her like this. it felt like the first time they’d kissed.. innocent and hesitant, but also this hint of rushed tension. it was addictive— SHE was addictive. loki hummed under her breath, her tongue teasing aly’s lips as a hint to glide inside. it took everything in him at this moment not to change back and absolutely RUIN her on this couch— the placement of these quarters was so far out of the way she could easily scream their name without a peep being brought back to the council. but of course.... she couldn’t. “how’s THAT for a distraction?” loki asks with a breathy laugh as she attempted to catch the little breath she’d lost in their embrace.

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alycia!

“  that’s  what  scares  me,  ”  she  whispered,  closing  her  eyes  to  envision  what  she  truly  desired.  the  first  place  she  pictured  was  the  throne,  sitting  before  a  large  crowd  of  asgardians.  which  wasn’t  her  goal  in  life,  but  it  made  sense  to  see  that  first  as  that  was  the  one  thing  she  was  most  concerned  of  as  of  late.  however,  someone  stood  beside  her.  she  could  make  out  distinct  features  from  her  peripheral,  but  couldn’t  bring  herself  to  turn  her  head  fully.  she  didn’t  have  to.  she  knew  who  that  person  was.  it  was  loki.  alycia  opened  her  eyes,  shaking  her  head  at  her  realization.  whether  it  meant  she  wanted  him,  wanted  to  be  with  him,  or  rule  alongside  him  as  he  lived  out  his  desire  -  she  believed  he  didn’t  return  those  emotions.  “  i  can’t  talk  about  this,  ”  she  looked  alice  in  the  eyes,  a  hidden  apology  written  in  her  gaze.  “  distract  me.  please.  ”

distract me PLEASE, the girl practically pleads to the god. loki can’t help but bite her lip at the ideas her mind stirs. no... she shouldn’t.. although she looks and sounds desperate for something— ANYTHING— to free her mind from these decisions. their heads were already so close to one another, the holding of hands and deep stares into each others eyes not helping either. before she could hold herself back any further, her nose brushed aly’s, their lips finally closing onto one another. oh how loki could DROWN in the softness of her lips, the hand that once laid overtop their linked ones now caressing her cheek. 

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alycia!

alycia  smiled  in  return,  finding  her  giggle  to  be  the  prettiest  thing  she  had  ever  heard.  “  well,  yeah.  he….  infuriates  me,  ”  she  shook  her  head,  looking  down  at  alice’s  hand.  alycia  reached  for  it,  holding  it  between  her  own.  she  laced  their  fingers  together,  feeling  her  stomach  flip  in  response.  “  but  he  knows  me.  it’s  so  stupid,  but  he  just…  reads  me  and  knows  what  i  want.  ”  alycia  knew  she’d  never  be  able  to  say  these  words  to  loki  -  the  idea  of  confessing  to  him  made  her  want  to  ask  heimdall  for  a  one  way  ticket  to  another  planet  in  a  different  universe.  “  i’m  supposed  to  marry  thor.  i’m  supposed  to  be  a  queen,  but  how  can  i  do  that  when  he  exists  ?  ”  she  wondered,  looking  over  at  the  woman  in  hope  of  a  clear  answer.

their hands lacing together made her usually cold exterior warm right up. it was her effect on loki. “don’t they all.” she mused, giving her hand a squeeze. she sat in silence to let alycia’s words fill the room. loki loved the HONESTY— sure it was blind, but she craved to know how she felt. she always boarded up how her feelings on the matter in fear of her eventual fate with thor, not allowing herself to really admit it to him. but alice was ALL ears. “you must think about those very words you speak. supposed. what do you think is best for you— what you are SUPPOSED to be, or what you truly DESIRE to be?” she brought her other hand overtop alycia’s as a sign of comfort. “fighting against how you feel in order to fill a mold made by others will only bring you pain, alycia. if you ever live as long as i have, you will learn to live for yourself, not your peers.”