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I don’t remember if I ever said this here but I have a new Ao3 and tumblr. I don’t write for The Old Guard anymore but maybe something I’ve written over there would interest someone?

Summary: What if August never told Wilhelm he knew Simon was going to the police? In doing so things changed enough that Simon never ended up pulling Wilhelm aside to tell him he loved him. And Wilhelm never changed the speech.

Excerpt:

Wilhelm had even managed to do the speech. It might not have been his words and he didn’t really mean anything he said, but he had done it. He had made August sit back down and spoke the words he was supposed to, and he had done it well. He might have been shaking, and felt like he was a second away from vomiting the whole time, but he had done it.

Simon had smiled at him afterwards and it felt like something had healed inside of him. Hope had bloomed in his chest and then the world decided to stomp on it, crushing the buds into dust ensuring that nothing like that would ever grow inside of him again.

“You were right,” Simon had told him yesterday, after he had found out what August had done to escape the blame, “August is a fucking snake. I hate him so much.”

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Sylvia Plath, from “The Jailer.”

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PRINCE IN A BLANKET YOUNG ROYALS | 2.05

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I don't want to see a single damn person laughing about this picture again and I'll tell you why:

Wilhelm is fighting a panic attack. He is actively battling every ounce of anxiety in his body. He cannot have a panic attack right now. He is on the phone with The Royal Court explaining (albeit not effectively) that he does not want to be King. He does not want to give a speech. He does not want this title. And, yes, this realization and the willingness to call stemmed from stupid teenage bullshit like his ex being out on a date with someone else, but it's a truth nonetheless. Wilhelm is telling the truth. And it makes him anxious.

When you have severe anxiety, it often feels like you are not in control of your body at all. You want to climb out of your skin. We see it with Wilhelm in season 1 when he bangs on his head or picks at his nails. He cannot control it.

In season 2 we see it with his shirt collar, we see it in his inability to keep still, and in the fact that he literally throws up at the thought of talking in front of his classmates. So, yes, getting on the desk was odd and unexpected, but he's actively pushing down years of anxiety. He has been fighting this phone call for years and now he cannot ignore it anymore.

Edvin did a spectacular job with Wilhelm's anxiety this season. He did amazing last season, too, but this is next level. Seeing people laugh at this screenshot makes me physically sick.

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Summary: What if Chauncey had been more cruel and vindictive and less clumsy?

The man cracked his knuckles as he stalked down the stairs towards him and Stede couldn’t help the way he scrambled backwards until he was pressed flush against the wall. He regretted it almost instantly when Chauncey started laughing. He sounded utterly mad. It was terrifying.

“Chauncey,” Stede croaked, his throat was so dry and speaking hurt, but there had to be something sane left in the other man that could be reasoned with, “think about what you’re doing.”

“Oh I have.” Chauncey said as he strode forward, sucking in a long sharp breath as if needing to calm himself, “I have thought about it in great detail.”

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Here is what they don't tell you:

Icarus laughed as he fell.

Threw his head back and

yelled into the winds,

arms spread wide,

teeth bared to the world.

(There is a bitter triumph

in crashing when you should be

soaring.)

The wax scorched his skin,

ran blazing trails down his back,

his thighs, his ankles, his feet.

Feathers floated like prayers

past his fingers,

close enough to snatch back.

Death breathed burning kisses

against his shoulders,

where the wings joined the harness.

The sun painted everything

in shades of gold.

(There is a certain beauty

in setting the world on fire

and watching from the centre

of the flames.)

-Fiona

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Andrew Minyard, Jeremy Knox, Laila Dermott, Alvarez (All For The Game) Additional Tags: Trojans - Freeform, Hurt/Comfort, AFTG Winter Exchange 2021, Angst with a Happy Ending, Fluff, Alternate Universe Summary:

Andrew never left California and ended up with the Trojans instead of the Foxes. This is just a peak at his life with them.

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My @aftgexchange gift for the Winter Exchange 2021 for @ebbatriestowrite

I hope you like it

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A gift for Lexi (@ bazerella on twt) for the @aftgexchange

Summary: 

Jean was just settling down on his bed with his laptop in his lap, the opening credits of Love Actually rolling, when he heard a knock at his door. He frowned in confusion as he paused the movie and padded over to his door, he was sure everyone had left already, Christmas was in two days after all.

He opened the door and was met by the sight of Jeremy staring up at him with red-rimmed eyes and a pout on his lips, “Wha-”

“My flight got cancelled.” Jeremy interrupted Jean’s question and promptly burst into tears, throwing himself forward, letting his suitcase fall to the floor in favour of wrapping his arms around Jean.

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miscellaneous snowbaz

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Happy Birthday @fight-surrender ! 🖤

A commission by @carryonsimoncarryonbaz that I'm so grateful to have received...! Viv is an incredible person, and I loooove this fic, Howlin' Forever! Go give Viv some birthday love!

Read Howlin' Forever on AO3

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So um, my gay girl demographic really liked my last Niamh Brody art, so… Here’s another, with her girlfriend

Commissions

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Summary:

Booker and Quynh are living with the rest of the team but they aren’t aware of their strange arrangement. Quynh ends up revealing it in a fit of rage and it sparks a few important conversations.

“-the hell happened here?” Booker could hear voices arguing, although slightly muffled by the blood rushing in his ears, “Stop yelling!”

“She fucking killed him!” Nicky sounded angry for some reason.

“Quynh you need to breathe, please darling, we’re not mad at you.” Andy just sounded sad.

“You should be mad.”

And nope. Booker's heart may be pounding painfully hard in his chest but he wouldn't let Quynh spiral like this. It wasn’t her fault she became violent, “Quynh,” he said, voice rough and he broke off in another wet cough, blood splattering his jeans, “come here.”

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writing the beginning of a fic: fuckin' awesome. this is going so well. honestly why am i not a published author?

writing the middle of a fic: i am absolute garbage. what is this fucking plot? is there a plot? ffs is this over yet? what are words.

writing the end of a fic: i'm pretty sure i've used this word 20 times, but i'm dead inside and if anyone cares that much they can fight me. fuck it, i'm not even running spellcheck.

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some incredibly important things the director (rojda sekersöz) and head writer (lisa ambjörn) said during deep talk- netflix about the creation of young royals and their inspiration

“Representation isn’t about pressing things into places where they don’t exist. It’s about portraying reality as it actually is, because we don’t do that.”

“ when you do stories about the working class or the lower class, it’s very obvious. Then, you talk a lot about class. Journalists ask you those questions, those issues are debated. But when you do stories about the upper class, the class issue isn’t brought up in the conversation surrounding the piece.

“When we depict the working class through Simon and Sara, I don’t want it to be portrayed as the working class is usually portrayed. That it’s dirty, poor, problematic, with problematic family relationships.... it also shows how the working class can be.”

“that it’s still hard to be homosexual or bisexual or LGBTQ+ at these schools. You think that the rest of Sweden has come far, we’re at the forefront, we have democracy and equality and equality between the sexes. But there are people at these schools who might be together with their roommate, but that’s not talked about until a long time has passed”

“I think it was important that this LGBTQ+ theme that it isn’t a sign, that it just exists in the world.”

As filmmakers at some point you have to take a stand about reproducing certain stories around LGBTQ+ characters, and instead just let them be people and characters who “happen to” have a certain sexual orientation or a certain identity, but that’s not at the forefront, it’s there as part of their character.”

“Creating representation is just about saying: Let’s look at the whole world. Let’s look at all the stories that can be told and that aren’t told, and are actively disregarded”

“That’s what I like about making this into a youth series, we constantly show and we trust our audience. We don’t have to tell our audience how they should feel and think or what is right or wrong”

“ so important to have a wide search in casting, and not be stuck on a particular skin colour or a certain clothing size, or whatever”

“in film or tv, you look for the things you’re familiar with. It’s a vicious circle when you don’t see people like you portrayed. Then you don’t think you stand a chance, and you don’t apply for things.”

“And then somebody is watching this and seeing themselves in it. Maybe they cry maybe they laugh, it’s magic”

“That we talked about, was that we’d cast real young people. That they’d look like real young people, because a lot of the dramas I watched, I loved everything, everyone I saw... but I was never able to feel that “she looks like me”, we might think about the same things but that person is gorgeous. We have the most beautiful cast in the world.. but they look like real people.. it’s so damn important ” “and most importantly they’re not 30 year olds playing 16 year olds”

That’s something.. the pressure, that anxiety, that coverage that isn’t just like normal media, but anybody could film you... that’s something we worked hard on in this series because it’s something that is part of everybody’s not just young peoples lives.”

“Whereas now, you’re meant to have YouTube channels or you can look at the whole Megxit thing, and just posting or participating in the media where ordinary people are. This causes that last wall to fall, in front of the small private space you may have”

“You want to get famous. You want attention. You might think that you want attention, when you might need acknowledgement. But attention doesn’t have to be positive. It can be very damaging. Everybody needs that acknowledged. To feel that you’re capable and pretty or whatever it is. That you are enough.”

“Those who become known on social media... often have a particular socioeconomic background. You must be able to afford to buy things or be able to generate collaborations.. the class structure is perpetuated”

“At that age, you feel a lot of things very deeply. You think it’s your last chance. Or, “I will never” it’s rewarding to dramatise and work with..

In conclusion- the incredible people behind young royals- especially these talented and more than important women - ingrained so many important and essential things into this show that is v cool and necessary to acknowledge and appreciate.

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spring cleaning shenanigans (or, is there really just the one way booker? is there really)

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a new style that I’m trying, I hope you like <3