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I feel like im never in tumblr anymore bit yeah. Im restricting to 500 cals a Day and going to The gym every day so hopefully i'll lose some weight. Although i probably wont cause my metabolism is fucked.

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I'm on a ckass trip and it would be great, but I cant restrict an I hate it. I cant purge either and I just feel like I'm gonna get really fat. If I restrict my teachers will send me home. I'm eating about 800 cals a day but my metabolism is fucked so I'll probably gain weight anyway.

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I'm turning bulimic, fuck.

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I honestly just feel like a fat fucking pig. Just started a fast and im scared to ruin it. I hate being inpatient, its literally like a fucking prison. I'm not allowed outside until i eat and I won't.

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Just realised I haven't been active on tumblr for months and I kinda miss just ranting about my life. I was finally discharged from hospital two months ago, but then I had a major relapse, took an overdose and now I'm back. Still restricting and not being force feed at least. I'm eating about 100-200 cals a day, but still barely losing any weight and it's driving me insane. I really wanna go back home, due to covid 19 I'm not allowed to see anyone and I just feel so lonely. Fuck.

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I'm kinda back again. Restricting, purging and literally feeling like shit. Hopefully I'll be skinny though, really wanna lose all the weight I gained in hospital.

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I'm kinda

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I'm just sitting here, binging on chocolate and feeling shitty about myself.

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Anyone want to be ED buddys? Please I really need someone to talk to.

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Some low quality ed memes

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I hate my life i just want to be skinny pls?

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Please help, I'm restricting to 800 cals a day but I'm still gaining weight. Can someone explain this please?

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Im so happy i can finally restrict again. Its not as low as id like but at least ill lose weight hopefully

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I had this friend who I chatted with on tumblr and now I can't find her account and our conversation has been erased and it's fucking annoying and I hate it.

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Christmas

Finally I'm geting to Come home for Christmas. This past week I've gained way more weight than usual, so I'm hoping to go home and restrict. Also, during Christmas there is a lot of new staff at hospital Who doesn't know the rules around me, which means I can walk in my room as much as I want and they don't know that I'm supposed to have extra food.

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Aaahhhhh!

I'm gaining so much weight and I hate it. I'm determined to go home as often as I can to eat less.

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When I'm skinny I'll be happy

At least that's what I tell myself

When I dont eat for a day, I'll be good

At least that's what I tell myself

When I starve so much people ask questions that's when I'll be enough

At least that's what I tell myself

When I lie dead on the bathroom floor, that's when I'll finally be OK.