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[12:00AM]

“Do you think we could have been better off as friends?,” you asked.

Younghyun smiled bitterly.

“No. I would still have pursued you.”

“Even knowing beforehand what would happen?”

He stayed silent. You were sitting beside each other at the bar. Fiddling with your bottles, not looking each other at the eye. You were scared that looking at his eye would bring back memories and make you want him back, and you can’t.

“Yeah.” He said it with so much confidence, you can’t help but look at him.

He just smiled at you.

You immediately retracted your gaze and looked at your bottle again. Shoot, way to go y/n.

“Why?,” you can’t help but ask.

“I didn’t want to have any regrets.”

“We lost our friendship, you don’t think that was worth any regret?”

He can’t help but let out a long sigh.

“Just when I realized how much I loved you, you then realized you didn’t want me back. That’s what I regret most, y/n.”

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Empty

“What do you want to hear from me?”

“The truth of why you broke up with me.”

You can’t help but drink the liquor in front you. Maybe you just want to stall time or you needed that boost of confidence. You were never one to confront your ex boyfriend, Doyoung about what you felt. You held everything inside until it bursted, then you felt emptiness.

“Doyoung…”

He waited for you to continue, not saying anything. But if you were looking at his eye, you would see how miserable he felt.

“I know you loved me. But it felt like you were trying to force me to become someone I’m not. You hated it when I didn’t meet your expectations. When you were tired of me not following you, you tried to distance yourself from me. You didn’t try to love me for who I am… You tried to own me.”

Doyoung was unable to stop his tears from flowing. Your words made him realize how controlling he was yet he was unable to recognize it before it was too late. He remembered every fight you’ve had like flashbacks.

“You didn’t ask me once how I felt. You just acted on how you did.”

He remembered how you remained silent, how you just bowed down your head while he shouted, how empty your eyes were.  

Just like how your eyes seemed like now.

“I can’t remember how many times I’ve doubted if you truly loved me.”

You then looked him in the eye for the first time and asked him.

“Did you really?”

All you heard was him crying. If you were the you before, you would have cried with him and comforted him but you weren’t anymore. You just felt empty.

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Remember

A constant beeping sound woke up from your slumber. You could also smell the antiseptic around the room. You slowly opened your eyes, feeling someone holding your hand firmly.

“Who are you?” You tried saying, but was only able to let out a croaking sound. The man suddenly woke up and frantically called your name. From then you realized you were in an unfamiliar place.

“Can you tell me your name?” The doctor asked you.

You were able to respond, along with his other questions.

“Can you tell me the names of everyone inside the room?”

You were able to name them much to the relief of everyone but one person.

You were told that the man you didn’t recognize was your fiance, Rowoon. You were about to be married in a month but was postponed due to your accident. He stayed by your side the whole stay in the hospital.

You just stared at him, still thinking hard, trying you remember him. But nothing came up. What strikes you most is why do you feel lonely upon looking at him.

He didn’t leave your side except when your mother comes during the night. But he still comes back early the next day.

He tried holding your hand to help you when you went to the bathroom. You immediately removed his hold as if it was a reflex for you. You looked the your hand, confused of your actions while he looked at his, trying to keep his tears at bay.

———

When you got discharged from the hospital, Rowoon took you to places to help you remember. From your school, where you first met, to the cafes you always had dates on.

“You know, one time, you suddenly had me carry 10 books in the library even though they were lightweight.”

“Really? Wonder why.”

You finally were comfortable with him. You appreciate all the things he does for you, recognizing his efforts.

“Maybe that was your way of trying to flirt with me”

“Yah!”

You both laughed. Both of you thinking, this is progress.

———

At times you find him staring at you sadly. Maybe, he’s just sad I can’t still remember him, you thought.

———

“Y/N, I have something to return to you. Open that drawer.”

It was a beautiful yet simple ring. He told you this was your engagement ring.

“I was gonna get something more extravagant but you insisted that you wanted something simple.”

———

That day, Rowoon didn’t come visit you. You were sad since you were already used to having him around. You asked your mom if he told her why he couldn’t come. Your parents looked at each other, both didn’t know what to say. Your mother tried to redirect your topic to another one.

3 days had passed, still no sign of Rowoon. You asked your mother again if he said anything. She just answered, “I’ll bring you to him.” You were excited of seeing him again so you dressed prettily.

“We’re here,” your mom said, making you curious as to why this was the meeting place.

“The doctor said not to stress you out because of what happened. But you have to know the truth.” She said but you were unable to hear what she said. You were still trying to process everything.

Here lies, Kim Rowoon. A loving son, and friend.

You repeatedly read the tombstone, still trying to comprehend everything.

Everything came back to you. How you met, all your memories with him, and until your accident.

Then you blacked out.

———

You two had a fight one night, leading you to walkout from your apartment. You were still crying while walking when a blinding light came from your left. You heard Rowoon call your name then you were out of it. The next day, you woke up in the hospital seeing your mother cry beside you. She was relieved to see you wake up. But then, when you asked if Rowoon was with you, she cried again.

You were told he died, trying to save you.

Your family and friends thought you were coping quite well. You smiled and laughed as if nothing happened. You were known as a tough one. Eveyone was thankful for that, since they didn’t know how to comfort you. Everyone thought you got better. But they were wrong.

You tried to commit suicide by overdosing. Thankfully, your brother saw you before it was too late and rushed you to the hospital. But when you woke up, you forgot all about him.

———

When you woke up, you saw him beside you. You can’t help but tear up.

“Y/N…”

“I came here because I wanted to see you one last time.” He smiled.

“It’s okay if you forget all about me. As long as you promise me you’ll be happy, I’ll be fine.”

“You said you would never leave me. You promised me, Rowoon-nah.”

He hugged you while you cried hard.

“Don’t cry. I’m happy I was able to protect you. Promise me you’ll try your best to keep on living okay?”

And then, he was gone.

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[7:00PM]

“Y/N, I’m sorry.”

Doyoung hugged you from behind as soon as you entered your room.

You immediately removed his hold then proceeded to get your luggage and packed your clothes. You remained silent and maintained a cold facade. He was scared to see you like this. He’d rather you beat the shit out of him than be like this. You didn’t say anything and continued to pack your stuff.

“Can you pack the rest for me? I’ll just come back to pick them up.” You said as you went outside the room, with the luggage in tow.

“Please. It was just a mistake. Please, y/n.”

“It wasn’t a mistake, Doyoung. It wasn’t a one time thing.”

“Listen to me, please.”

“Let’s break up.”

“W-what? No. C’mon y/n. You’re just angry right? The next time we meet each other …”

“No,” You cut him off. “We’ve been together for 3 years. Not even once have I asked to break up out of anger.”

You felt relieved to say this. You didn’t even cry in front of him. You just know that you’re tired and want to leave him immediately. Then you went out, out of your house and out of his life.

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masterlist

NCT ✨

Kim Doyoung

Memories

Empty

[7:00PM]

Jung Jaehyun

Promise me

[10:00PM]

Enough

WANNA ONE ✨

Kang Daniel

Pink Hydrangeas

Chances

We Loved

Park Jihoon

Do you want to go out?

Ong Seongwu

Drunk confessions

DAY6 ✨

Kang Younghyun

4:00PM

5:00PM

12:00AM

SF9 ✨

Rowoon 

Remember

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Enough

You can’t help but sigh. You were running the whole day, trying to catch attention of the school’s bad boy, Jung Jaehyun. The teachers were tired of running after him so they made the best decision they can think of, passing the responsibility to you.

He was always sleeping on his desk, playing soccer, always had something to do. You lost count of how many “Ya, Jung Jaehyun!” have you uttered.

Enough is enough, you thought.

“Let’s talk outside. Follow me.”

Jaehyun had no other option right now. You looked like you’re about to burst.

He followed you to the rooftop of your school, panting hard. You gave him no mind, continuing to walk to a more secluded area.

“Ya. You walk too fast. What did you wanna talk about?”

You suddenly pulled him and pushed him on the wall. He was shocked to say the least. Never had he been this close to you before. He always had a crush on you, pushing you to your limits since with this way, he always had your attention.

He was busy daydreaming about his sweet, kind y/n when you suddenly slammed your hand at the wall beside his head.

“Ya, you little punk, what more shitty ways have you planned to make me so furious. You probably don’t even know the most basic formula our math teacher had taught us, don’t you. Ya, listen up. I’m the top student of this school. I have more things to do than run after you. I can’t waste my time on a little shit like you if you have no respect for me and the sacrifices I’ve done for you. I could have been answering 5 practice questions right now!”

You then slammed a workbook on his chest. He was still in shock at what happened. His sweet, kind y/n all gone.

“Answer these problems. If you won’t, you’ll face hell. Understood?!”

Then you left him, you were still fuming.

He can’t help but clutch his chest. His heart was beating hard. He liked the you before but he realized he liked you more now.

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[4:00PM]

Being back in Korea after 5 years was strange. It changed a lot, the scenery, the buildings, the people, but you were thankful that your favorite cafe was still there. It had most of your memories in Korea, memories with Younghyun.

You stayed there for a good hour, just people watching, you were comfortable being alone. Being away from the hospital had its perks. You needed this.

When you went outside, you heard his familiar laugh. You can’t help but watch him. It’s been 5 years yet he didn’t change much. What only changed was he was with another girl. You can’t help but think, I was the one who made him laugh like that before.

You can’t help but smile. You were truly happy for him. You still loved him, but he deserves this.

Your eyes met each other. His expression changed, he was shocked to see you. You just gave him your heartfelt smile. Then left him.

As you did before.

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[10:00PM]

It was a cold night outside but you disregarded it. What you were feeling now was much worse. You were in front of the river, your favorite place to think. Both your favorite place.

Jaehyun sat beside you silently. It was the first time you’ve met after a week. After many months of fighting, you decided to leave your shared apartment.

“Jaehyun-ah”

He waited for you to continue.

“Let’s break up.”

You were crying but still willed to finish your words. You couldn’t bear to look him in the eye so you had no idea of how he looked miserable right now.

He wanted to fight for your relationship. You were together for 3 years but he couldn’t say anything. Anything he could have done to save it, he would have done already.

“I know it’s a loss. But we can’t ignore the fact that we’re already miserable. It’s better to do this.”

He can’t say a thing but he’s trying to hold back a sob.

“We’re both in pain right now but I hope you’ll find happiness soon, Jaehyun-ah. I mean it. You deserve it. We both do.”

“Just know, the 3 years I had with you, I didn’t regret anything. I was happy with you.”

You just stared at the view in front of you. Letting the tears flow, you didn’t bother to wipe them off.

“So I guess this is goodbye.”

You finally looked at him, trying your best to smile. You kissed him one last time.

After you left, jaehyun finally let out that sob. He cried so hard, clutching the ring he planned to give you before everything happened.

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[5:00 PM]

It’s fine. I can do this. I practiced.

You’ve lost count at how many times you’ve repeated it over and over again on your mind. You almost felt like you’re having a breakdown.

Entering the classroom, you see Younghyun reading a book, not paying attention to you.

“Sorry to make you wait, Younghyun.”

“It’s okay. I wasn’t even bored.” He said, nodding at his book.

“So… What did you wanna talk about?”

“I know the past few days I looked out of it. I just want to get this over with so I can get this load off my chest.”

Him staring intimated you so you preferred to transfer your gaze to the floor.

“I love you. For a while now.”

He stayed silent for a while leading you to almost overthink again.

“That actually sounds good.”

“What?”

“I’m going home now.”

He’s not getting it. He thinks I’m practicing on him again.

You can’t help but get teary-eyed. You were getting frustrated.

“Wait! This time it’s real! I just said I was practicing the first time because I got nervous you didn’t feel the same way. Please just listen.”

“I know I’m not girly. I know I’m not your type. But it’s already unbearable. I want to go on dates. I want to hold hands. I hate it when you talk about other girls. I know you I’m being selfish and stupid but…

Tears were already streaming down your face so you can’t see him properly. Neither do you want to look at him right now.

You just felt him hug you, making you cry harder. He was laughing loudly at you but you didn’t care. You liked him hugging you.

“Ah, really. I’m the only one who can handle you.”

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Promise Me

[Member: NCT - Jung Jaehyun]

Jaehyun was still sitting on floor, staring at nothing when you suddenly showed up at your room. He was ecstatic to see you, not even minding if he looked pathetic. You were smiling at him.

“You’re here. Please tell me this is real.” He uttered.

You kneeled down beside him, holding his face. He can’t help but close his eyes, feeling your touch. He missed you so much.

“You had a hard time waiting for me.”

“No. All that matters is you’re here now.”

“I’m sorry, Jaehyun.” You can’t help but sob. He immediately wiped your tears away.

“Please don’t cry. You know I hate seeing you cry.”

“Jaehyun-ah”

He waited for you to talk. Eyes expecting, he was holding your hands tightly.

“I love you.” You smiled.

He can’t help but cry.

“I’m sorry for being mean to you. I’m sorry for acting like I didn’t care.” You continued.

He was unable to speak. He cried so hard, all his emotions leaking out.

“But Jaehyun-ah…” You tilted his chin letting him look at you.

“You have to let me go.”

“Why? Why can’t we just stay like this? Just come back to me, please.”

“Force yourself to be happy. Please. For me. Hmm?” You continued smiling at him.

“You’re scaring me, y/n. Why are you talking like you’re not coming back?”

“Promise me, Jung Jaehyun.”

You hugged him for a long time before letting him go.

Jaehyun woke up from the ringing of his phone. He was still on the floor, and he had dried tears on his face.

“Everything was a dream, huh.”

Looking at his phone, it was your mom calling him. She was sobbing as she talked.

“Jaehyun-ah, y/n’s gone.”

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Memories

[NCT -  Kim Doyoung]

Inspired by Doyoung’s performance on King of Masked Singer. Enjoy! ☺️

You were an up and coming actress known for your fun and quirky attitude. Being very vocal about being a fan of the show King of Masked Singers, it wasn’t shocking for you to be invited as one of the guest panelist for that day. After knowing you were invited with a fellow actor friend, you weren’t as nervous as before.

Being there compared to just watching at the television was a totally different experience. You were actually having fun guessing who were the guest singers. In between takes, you were engrossed with talking to your fellow panelist that you didn’t realize the next singer was preparing on stage.

“Ajikdo…”

You were surprised as you looked at the stage, thinking “No. It can’t be…”

One word from the song and the other panelists and the audience were already giving out mixed expressions.

neoeui sorireul deudgo

Ajikdo neoeui songireul neukkyeo

Oneuldo nan neoeui heunjeog ane saratjyo

The singer had a deep, soulful voice that can raise goosebumps. Totally like the person you knew. You just continued watching him, not giving any emotions out.

Ajikdo neoeui moseubi boyeo

Ajikdo neoeui ongireul neukkyeo

Oneuldo nan neoeui sigan ane saratjyo

As the instrumental started, you can’t help but smile. You can’t be wrong. You totally knew whose that voice was belonging to. The way he sang, his mannerism, even just by his stance. You loved watching that thousands of times before. You were his number 1 fan, bringing back memories together.

Gireul jinaneun eotteon natseon ieui moseub sogedo

Barameul thago sseulsseulhi chumchuneun jeo nagyeom wiedo

Ppyameul seuchineun eoneu jeonyeoge geu gonggi sogedo

Naega bogo deudgo neunkkineun

modeungeose niga isseo

You were stressed with your work not getting recognition and feeling helpless as if you weren’t gaining anything. That’s when you decided to take a breather. You decided to walk at the park in front of your home. You had a favorite hanging spot there. A long chair under a big tree overlooking the city. Just looking at the scenery makes you feel at ease. You noticed someone beat you to your spot, but you just proceeded there anyway.

“Pretty, isn’t it?”

He was surprised to see you talk to him. He was wearing a black mask with a black hat. Noticing he had really pretty eyes but you diverted your attention back to the scenery. He just nodded at you. You just felt comfortable together in silence, not asking any questions thinking that was the last time you were gonna see him.

Geurae Eotteongayo geudaen

Eotteongayo geudaen

Dangsindo nawa gathnayo

Eotteongayo geudaen

“How are you?”

To your surprise, he was there again. This time you introduced yourselves. You said you were a rookie actress and you discovered he was a rookie idol. It became your tradition to meet at the same spot every Friday evening. You both shared problems and comforted each other. You were getting closer and closer as time went by.

Gilgae deong geureoni nohyeojin jeo euijawiedo

Mureul masiryeo musimkho jibeodeun yurijan anedo

Nareul barabogi wihae majuhan geu geoul sogedo

Gwitgae salmyeosi naeryeo ajeun eumag sogedo

niga isseo

It was already a few years and your friendship was stronger than before. He became overprotective of you, even mocking your leading men saying he was not really suited with you. You just laughed. You were already accustomed with his petty antics.

“So, if you were to choose. Who would be the best guy for me?”

He just shrugged. You didn’t even notice how red his face was.

You had feelings for each other, you both knew that. But nobody acted upon it because he was already starting to get known on his field. You weren’t ready to become the center of the news because of a relationship scandal. So you both settled to just stay friends.

Eotteokhajyo ijen

Eotteokhajyo ijen

Geudaeneun jiwosseulthende

Eotteokhajyo ijen

With his popularity, your casual meetups were getting fewer. Even the phone calls and messages are getting close to none. Without realizing it, you were getting farther and farther apart. You decided to meet up for the last time.

“Ya. I like you, you know.” You said.

He kept silent. He didn’t know what to reply to that. If he decided to say he felt the same way. Maybe you’ll get conflicted and decide on a choice you both knew were not good for your careers.

You took one final look at him and smiled.

Eotteokhajyo ijen

Ohhh

“I just wanna say it out there. I’m leaving tomorrow. I decided to study acting abroad. I think it would be best for us to focus on both our careers. You’ll do great, Doyoung. I know you will.”

You left after leaving him one last smile. Not letting him see your tears falling. You were not the only one heartbroken that night. Doyoung felt helpless. He kept thinking of what ifs. What if he proceeded with what you both wanted. Would you have stayed? Will you come back?

Geuroumeui muneul yeolgo Neoeui gieogi nal chajawa

Jakku nunsi uri bureojyeo

Geuroumeui muneul yeolgo Neoeui gieogi nal chajawa

Jakkuman gaseumi mieojyeo

Even when you left, you always watched his shows and supported his group. You were also able to make a successful comeback after studying. You were now recognized for your talent. Looking back at him, you were proud at the man he’s become. You secretly swept a tear that fell. You remembered both your happy and sad moments. You both sacrificed for your dreams and you think you have both made the right choice. He deserves to be given all the love he has now. The love you weren’t able to give before.

Geuroumeui muneul yeolgo Neoeui gieogi nal chajawa

Jakkuman gaseumi mieojyeo

Eotteokhajyo ijen

Ajikdo neoeui sorireul deudgo

Ajikdo neoeui songireul neukkyeo

Oneuldo nan neoeui heunjeog ane saratjyo

Applause was heard all over the place. After the show, you went to say bye to everyone. You really felt like going home now. You didn’t know coming here would leave you a roller coaster of emotions.

As you were returning to your car, you noticed someone leaning on your door. Your steps faltered. He was still wearing that suit and the messy necktie. Now he didn’t have his mask on and was wearing that smile of his you missed so much.

“How are you?”

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We Loved

Member: Kang Daniel

Daniel’s phone kept on ringing. He just stared at it. You were calling him. But he can’t answer. He doesn’t know what to say. You had a big fight and said harsh things to each other. This wasn’t the first time you fought in your 2 years of relationship. But this was the only one wherein you really hurt each other both deeply. He still even remember the words you’ve said.

“Maybe we should break up.”

You said it with no strength. As if you were already tired of everything. He would have preferred it if you shouted, but you didn’t. He didn’t reply and just went outside your apartment. He didn’t know what to do.

Should he?

Will he be able to move on from you?

At that time, he wished you were both strangers. Just to escape the pain.

He knew you both already invested so much in this relationship. It’s not gonna be easy. If you break up, he doesn't even know til when will he still be affected. Or will he even survive it. You shared many good memories. He loves you so much, or loved. He doesn’t even know now.

The tears won’t stop flowing from your eyes. You stared at your phone, waiting for Daniel to pick up. After the fifth time, you threw it on the ground. It got destroyed, it looked like a mess, just like how you looked now.

You’ve had these fights before. But with this one, you realized you’ve grown tired of it. You didn’t know what went wrong with your relationship.

Will you be able to move on from him?

At that time, you wished you were both strangers. Just to escape the pain.

You can still remember the days you were still happy. It’s as if nothing can break your relationship. You were always talking about the future. On how your house will look like, on how many kids you’ll have, on how you’ll have your wedding. Guess those are all worthless now.

You know you both pretended to be okay. Even with things getting harder more and more, you still smiled as if it was nothing. But you both also knew, with what happened last night you have to make a final decision.

And now you decided, your time together has stopped. This relationship has gone toxic. It would be better for you both to break up than pretend like before.

Daniel came home to you sitting in the sofa. As if you were waiting for him. He sat beside you like he always did before. But both of you said nothing.

You were waiting for him to say it.

He was waiting for you to say it.

The silence was defeaning.

He was startled when you opened his hand and left something there. Then you left the house with your suitcases.

Minutes after you left, he opened it to see your engagement ring.

He didn’t even notice the tears flowing until it fell on the ring.

He was not able to control his sobs as he wished for you to come back.

Guess now he knows if he still loves you or not.

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Drunk Confessions

Member: Ong Seongwu

Regular - normal conversation/narration

Italic - Y/N’s POV

Bold - Seongwu’s POV

This is suspicious…

I hope she didn’t notice…

“What’s this Seongwu? Why are you suddenly treating me out?” You asked while glaring at him.

“Yah, you make it sound like I’m a bad friend!” He nervously replied.

Hmm… Pretty sure he’s up to something. This is not normal.

Please don’t notice. Please don’t notice.

“Go. Order anything you want.”

“Really? Anything?”

What's this? Is he sick or something?

Play it cool. Play it cool. What was I supposed to do again?

He’s been whining about being single. Is he gonna ask me to hook him up?

Gosh, I actually made effort on my outfit.

He looks pretty cute today.

Oh God, I’m freaking out. Keep it cool, Seongwu. You don’t wanna mess this up.

“Uhm, hey. In a girl’s perspective, what can you say about me?”

I knew it! He is totally asking me to hook him up. This bastard.

“Really? You’re really asking me when in fact you’ve been treating me like a boy the whole 4 years?”

Oh dear. Here we go.

“But with your looks, you’re pretty decent. Well, ignoring the fact that you’re annoying.”

That came out easier than expected. How embarrassing!

“Yah! Why?! That’s part of my charm!”

Hmmm… Who is it?

“Girls don’t usually like guys who talk a lot, Seongwu.”

What?! I was not prepared for this level of disrespect! This was not the expected scenario!

Maybe it’s Somi? Was this because we’re becoming closer and he’s planning to use me as a bridge? Gosh, this friendzone thing sucks.

“Hey Seongwu, Somi was very pretty yesterday right?”

Come on, Seongwu. Take the bait.

She said I’m annoying. Does this mean, she doesn’t like me as well?

“Huh? Ah… yeah sure.”

This ruins everything. Can I go to bathroom right now and call Daniel for help?

Bingo.

“But just so you know Seongwu, she already has someone else she likes. Someone pretty charming.”

Charming? What charming? Is she also attracted to that guy?

“What about me? Am I not charming enough?”

Whoa. Is he desperate or something? He’s still willing to pursue her?

“Don’t push it, Seongwu.”

Is this the end?

“So why did you treat me all of a sudden?”

When will my time come? Come on! I’ve already been liking her for 4 years!

“No reason. I just thought you’ll become more of a decent woman when fed.”

Why do I even like you? Am I retarded or something?

“Yah, do you have a death wish or something?”

“Let’s just drink!”

I’ll just wallow myself with liquor.

Why is he sighing? Is he that heart broken?

I just hope I’ll not get drunk before her.

Seems like I’m gonna have to bring him home again.

Shut your mouth, Seongwu. Don’t babble or else you’ll get rejected even before the confession.

“Are we getting wasted tonight?”

Seongwu just nodded while taking that one shot. You smirked, sure that he would already get drunk after 10 shots.

You both continued drinking, already consuming 10 bottles by yourselves. You both were pretty drunk already but managed to call Daniel to come pick you up.

“Ya! You know I’ve been liking you for 4 years already! I was actually gonna confess to you tonight you know!”

“Shut up, Seongwu! I already know you like Some! You bastard! You always do this! I’m the one who liked you for 4 years!”

“Don’t make fun of me! You said you don’t like annoying men!”

“I was just making fun of you!”

“You’re a brat! I was bothered by that you know!”

“Well, you didn’t even compliment me on what I look like! I wore makeup, Seongwu!”

“Really?! Omo! I didn’t notice. See! You look pretty even without them! I didn’t even notice!”

Daniel sighed. He already arrived when you started shouting your drunk confessions to each other. This isn't something new, you’ve been doing it for a year already. But when you both wake up in the morning, you don’t remember a thing. He didn’t tell you anything since he knew you’ll be awkward with each other and he wanted you both to have a normal confession. That’s why the whole year, he’s been helping Seongwu come up with strategies and listen to you rant about Seongwu.

He just listened to you both shout at each other, not even bothering to calm you down, knowing it’s useless. He then took a shot.

“It’s gonna be a long night.” He sighed. 

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Do You Want To Go Out?

Member: Park Jihoon

You caught yourself staring at Jihoon. Fortunately, he was focused on studying for the exams. He was trying to focus, eyebrows furrowed, lips pouting, constantly sighing. You laughed at him.

“Ya! You shouldn’t laugh at someone who tries hard!”

“Sure Jihoon, sure.”

You and Jihoon were childhood friends. Even though he was quite popular for his looks and attitude, he sticked to you. You were the opposite, the frank, cold girl who doesn’t filter anything she says, people try to avoid you as much as they can. Little as you are, you scare people a lot.

They were confused as to why Jihoon likes spending time with you. They don’t why, even you don’t why. You tried to ask him once.

“Dude, go find other friends. Why are you always here? Am I that charming for you?”

He just looked at like you lost your mind.

Childhood friends are cliche in every story line. And just like that every cliche story, you fell for your best friend too. You don’t know when it happened, it just did. You suddenly realized how special he was for you.

“Hey Y/N, you’re not that ugly you know.”

“Wow, thanks. Means a lot.”

“But seriously though, what your ideal type? You’ll never know maybe I’ll introduce your future husband to you.”

You felt a stab on your heart. Twisting it, then pulling it out. But you stayed indifferent. You were not known as the ice queen for nothing.

“Someone who doesn’t like to wear pink.”

“Hey! What’s wrong with pink?!”

You wear pink a lot and it looks great on you.

“Someone who likes to eat spicy food.”

“That’s nasty! Why let your tongue suffer?!”

I hate spicy food too, at least we have that in common.

“Someone who’s not that friendly.”

“You’re just anti-social so you don’t understand.”

Yep. And it makes you more adorable, making it hard to not like you.

“Why are all those things the opposite of me? Are you mocking me?”

You just smirked at him.

How I wish Jihoon, how i wish.

“Hey Jihoon, wanna go out?” You tried to say.

“Uhuh! Let’s go get ice cream!” But he misunderstood.

Can’t I just tell you I like you? I just want to be honest.

But you can’t. You’re not ready to risk your friendship.

You tried to push him away from you, but unconsciously pull him right back. You tried to talk to him rudely, but he just ignored you thinking here we go again. You glared at him all the time, but he just made you laugh.

“Do you wanna just go out?” You tried again.

“Uhuh! Let’s go to that pet cafe you wanted to go to!”

You tried your best not to become awkward with him. You still ate with him whenever he had cravings. You still answered whenever you’d have your daily phone calls. You know you can't bring things back the way they were before. You already had deep feelings for him and you wouldn’t like to dwell on what ifs in the future. But then you were still scared and can’t directly confess. So you did what you do best.

“Do you want to go out?”

You were nervous the whole time but you were determined to do this. If he misunderstands you again, you’ll take as a sign to just back out and forget this feeling.  

You expected him to answer his usual one but when you looked at him he was staring at you seriously.

“You know I like pink right?”

You nodded.

“And I hate spicy food.”

You nodded again.

“ And I’m also very friendly and I’m happy with that so I’m not gonna change.”

Another nod.

“I’m everything your ideal type isn’t.”

You just stared at him.

“So, Y/N. Do you want to go out?”

Hello! Thanks for supporting Chances. I didn’t expect that reaction so I was quite overwhelmed but I’m very thankful. I’m not sure if this one would be as good as that but I also had fun writing this. Hope you enjoy! :)

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Hiii!!! Your fanfics are so good!!! I'm in love with chances, it's so well written !! AaAaAAaaAaAa anyways thank you so much for your writings and hopefully more come out soon !!! I'm excited hoOhOhO anyways keep up the very good work and good luck!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Aww, thanks hon! Hopefully, you’ll like the next ones. I’m thinking of writing one for Jihoon soon! :)

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Chances - Kang Daniel

You had no time to date. You were the type of person who would rather stay inside the house or go to the bookstore. So when your friend told you to go on a blind date, you were pissed.

“Cmon Y/N! Live a little. You’ll never know, maybe he’s the guy of your dreams.”

You just glared at her like you wanted to strangle her.

And so here you were at the local coffee shop waiting for your date. You intentionally came earlier so that you can still read your book while waiting. You were too engrossed, not realizing someone was already sitting in front of you.

“Hi. I’m Daniel.”

You thought that was the last time you would see him. Daniel had an eye smile anybody would love. He was so pure you had the urge to protect him even though he was bigger than you are. But having a love life was not part of your plan. You loved your freedom. So you told him that.

“That’s okay. I’m willing to wait.”

He did everything for you. He gave you flowers, took you home, hanged out with you, gave you medicine when you’re sick, made you laugh a lot. He told you he loved you every day, even if you stayed silent afterwards. He was everything your dream guys from the books were. You were slowly falling for him.

Soon after, you guys dated. You were happy with your relationship. You dated like any couple would do. Even if Daniel was still a trainee, he dated you secretly. Even if he was tired from practice and you with school, you both were contented with what you have. When he debuted you were ecstatic for him. His dream was finally coming true. However, as he had his success, your dates were becoming less frequent, the phone calls close to none, you were frustrated but you had to support him. This is his dream we’re talking about. You can’t ruin this for him.

Daniel was becoming more and more popular. You can see his face every where. He’s on every famous tv shows and commercials. You can see he’s happy. Tired, but happy.

He’s constantly followed by the paparazzi anywhere. You scheduled a date for your birthday and accidentally you were caught. It became a big issue. People were bashing you on every social media account you had that you were forced to delete them. You kept silent about it but Daniel was angry for you. He was hurt for you. He was even forced to tell everyone you were just a friend just to lessen the hate you’re getting. You felt like you were already a burden for him so you decided to have a talk.

“I’m sorry.”

You were silent.

“Are you still happy?”

“…”

“Y/N, talk to me.”

“I don’t know anymore Daniel. This, it’s not worth it.”

You didn’t look him in the eyes. You can’t handle whatever emotion he must be having right now. You didn’t want to waver. You didn’t mean a thing you’ve said. You didn’t mean that your relationship was not worth it, you just had to let him go.

You broke up.

Years passed, you both grew up. He was still a big star, and you graduated. You lived your own life.  You tried to become happy. You tried to meet other people. You tried to forget him. You tried.

Now, you’re on your way again to another blind date your friend scheduled for you. As you arrived, you can’t help but smile. This was the cafe where you met him. You hope this was also the cafe where you’ll finally forget him.

The guy texted you that he was at back part. You were curious why he chose an isolated space. It seemed like that whole part of the cafe was rented out. Then you saw him, his back was facing you.

“I’m sorry I’m late. Hi, I’m …”

“Hi. I’m Daniel.”

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PINK HYDRANGEAS - KANG DANIEL.

They said a woman’s most beautiful moment is during her wedding. I thought they were exaggerating. I was wrong.

You were practically glowing as you walked down the aisle. Your eye smile that I loved so much was showing it’s presence right now, goes to show how much happy you are. On your hand were a bouquet of pink hydrangeas you thought you hated at first sight but then fell in love with as time had gone by. You were wearing that lace gown you said you were never gonna wear but yet today you are wearing. You’re wearing heels which you despised so much that you even planned to wear sneakers at your wedding.

We’ve known each other for such a long time now, I know almost everything about you.

You hated Mondays, you loved blue, you adore dogs more than cats and I don’t like that but I still love you. You make everyone laugh with your antics yet scare people when you’re pissed. You have a great sense of justice but you hate watching the news. You love reading novels but you get sleepy when you read your books for school. You love annoying your brothers so much but you also worry about them too. You love watching thriller movies but you hate horror ones. You tend to cry a lot but hold it in when you are in front of many people. You hated attention, you want to become a chameleon.

I still remember how it all started. It was in kindergarten when our classmates were making fun of me. I was always bullied for being fat and ugly. You were adored by many because you were smart and pretty. We were different and never had an interaction before.

“Ya, Kang Euigeon! Why are you so ugly, huh?”

“You better move to another school. You don’t even belong here.”

“Fat kids don’t belong here! Go away!”

I just kept on crying when I heard you.

“What do you think your doing?”

“Oh hey, Y/N! Come join us! We’re making the fat kid go away.” They laughed.

“Why should I?”

They became silent. No one expected this. I even stopped crying.

“Ya, answer me. WHY SHOULD I? Don’t expect me to go down on your level. I am nothing like you. If you don't want him here, you go away yourself, why bother the poor kid?”

“Ya Kang Euigeon, stand up. Come with me.”

You were my first love.

We were inseparable after that. We became best friends which was a shock for other people. You couldn’t care less what other people say. You made sure I was not bullied anymore. Your image of being a sweet child was long gone. You became the fearless little girl who protected her friend.

(High School)

“Euigeon-ah.”

“Oh? Why?”

“Do you have someone you like?”

“W-what? Why?”

“I’m just worried you might die old and alone. You better step up your game. Many of our classmates have already started dating. You should too.”

“Speak for yourself.”

“Ya! I could date if I want to you know! I just haven’t found the one yet. Promise me that we’ll tell each other when we find our special others okay?!”

I already did.

(College)

“Euigeon-ah”

“Ya, i changed my name already. You should call me by that name now.”

“Shiro! You will always be my Euigeon-ie, okay?” you pinched my cheeks hard.

“Ya! Stop that!”

“Oh? Kang Daniel!”

“Seongwu-hyung! What are you doing here?”

“I was just passing by. Hello, Y/N!”

“Hello, oppa. How are you?”

I felt uncomfortable as hyung talked to you as if you two were long time friends. Also, I knew he liked you.

Our graduation came and I bought pink hydrangeas for you. They meant heartfelt emotion. You were happily talking with your friends when I came to greet you.

“Congratulations, Y/N.”

“Ohhhhh yah Kang Euigeon.You grew up well, huh. You even know how to buy flowers for a girl. Am I your guinea pig for this?”

“Ya!”

“I was just joking! Thank you, Euigeon-ah, Ya! Why pink?!”

“To remind you of me.”

“This will wilt and die Kang Euigeon. Why should that remind me of you?”

I shouldn’t even bother anymore. You were hopeless.

I thought I couldn’t love you much more than I already did. I was wrong.

I’m planning on confessing to you after graduation…

You were nearing me already. I was nervous. I felt like having a breakdown. This was it. The moment everyone was waiting for. You were finally getting married. You smiled awkwardly at me, you were also nervous. You waved your flowers as if telling me “I regret saying I hated them.” I laughed at you. You laughed back. We were having our own moment as if we were the only ones in the room.

But then he took your hand. Your attention went to him. He was the reason for you glowing, not me. He made you feel butterflies, not me. He was your whole world, not me. Seongwu-hyung was making you happy, not me.

I was nervous of not being the one for you. I felt like having a breakdown for regretting everything.

“You may now kiss the bride.”

I already lost you.

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NEW AUTHOR! :) I was frustrated with seeing a limited amount of daniel fanfics that i decided to write one myself. I know it wasn’t that good but I would appreciate it a lot if you would give requests or just talk to me.