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hi! I am very new to the Azris fandom (the ship has consumed me) do you have any fic recs?

Hey! Welcome to the fandom <3

There are more fics than I can possibly name, so I pinged some of my Azris buddies to get some recommendations to share with you. Here are fics they've written or recommended. And be sure to check out @azrisweek for past azris fics (and future fics coming to you this June!)

In no particular order:

what hath night to do with sleep by @iftheshoef1tz

In 1968, Eris Vanserra is leading a double life. In West Berlin, he is a promising new doctor who frequents queer clubs, fucking his way through his friend circle. In his parents’ village, though, he walks the thin line between success and failure under his father’s brutal repression. Eventually, he realizes there can be no way forward unless he takes matters into his own hands. He summons a demon.

All Things End by @acourtofladydeath

Eris struggles with losing his memory due to complications from traumatic brain injuries caused by Beron's abuse. He forgets parts of his life and steps down from the mantle of High Lord. Azriel and their children take care of him the best they can, until he eventually passes away. After losing his mate, Azriel tries to move forward, but eventually dies from a broken heart. This is a very sad fic, but they love each other very much. Based off a tumblr post and written with permission from the creator of the original idea.

Red Ferrari by @ysmtttty

Azris AU, where Azriel is a mechanic and has his own service station. One day, Eris comes there because something is wrong with his car.

Collateral Damage by @g00seg1rl

Eris is having a bad day. His twerp of a little brother, Lucien, crashed his car into a motorcyclist. Eris expects chaos and insurance nightmares. Instead, he gets a hot date.

I Need You by @neciebee

Azriel had always wanted a mate. Both of his brothers were so happy with theirs. It used to be the three of them together, but now his brothers had their own lives and wives and Azriel could not contain his envy. All he had was this. Dirty, secret, meaningless. Perhaps he could pretend it was something, if he’d just take one bite.

Once More to See You by @buffy-vanserra

Days after Feyre and Lucien are rescued from the Winter Court border, Eris finds Azriel snooping in his father’s woods. They fall into old habits and discuss a path forward. Or: The story of how Eris entered his alliance with the Night Court

Fall by @gravitysthrall

Eris knew cruelty and kindness could grow in the same soil. The existence of his parents fruitful centuries under the same roof was proof enough. Fall in love. Fall from grace. Fall through worlds. Azris series continuation of ACOSF / HOFAS. 3rd person multi-POV

What We Deserve by @chunkypossum

Once upon a time, Eris thought that he and Azriel could be mates whose bond just hadn’t settled yet. It didn’t make sense for him to be so drawn to the male when they were at odds in every other way. It had to be the Mother, had to be fate. Now he knew for sure, it had been none of those things, only simple, stupid want. What happens when Azriel finally finds his mate but it isn't the male he is already in love with?

What Lies Inside by @ofduskanddreams

Like a cloak of heat and flame, the power of the Autumn Court settled on his shoulders. The air crackled and sparked as the very foundations of the Forest House trembled beneath the blood-spattered boots of its new High Lord. Eris Vanserra opened his eyes, expecting the world to be shrouded in flame. Instead, he saw the shadowsinger standing near the foot of the dais, wreathed in wisps of darkness. The Illyrian's green-bronze eyes glinted with curiosity and caution and flecks of burnished gold. There was only gold. A golden thread spooled out of his chest towards the winged male. The one who'd been his sworn enemy for over five-hundred years. Rhysand's spymaster. The feared shadowsinger. Azriel. His... mate.

Caged in Gold by @aurorasleeps-27

Adorned in Eris’ gold, shadows streaming down his face, Azriel is the most beautiful thing Eris has ever owned.

If you want some VERY dark stuff, and don't mind Nesta being thrown into the mix, read And The Hounds Bayed 🐶🐶🐶

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He wasn't the only one to think that, just the first one.

Can we talk more about this, please?

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All of my Elriel fanfiction can be found on AO3. Profile is NikeTheStatue

General Trigger Warning:

My writings often contain mature content, which includes, but not limited to hardcore sex, group sex, swearing, violence, at times somewhat dubious consent.

Sexual content includes, but not limited to: M/F or MM/F or MMM/F, oral, fingering, vaginal, anal, rough, double penetration, praise, breeding, pregnancy, public, spanking, etc. 

Fanfiction Masterlist (Elriel)

Moodboard by @casuallivi

The Kings’ Wife

Moodboard created by @casuallivi

The Three Kings of the NYC mob run an empire built on sin, violence and greed. The stories Elain Archeron heard about the way they rule their underworld are enough to make her heart race and her face pale. But those rumours have nothing on the truth. Truth, that will soon become her reality.

Azriel, Ruhn, Fenrys. One of them owns Elain now. The head of this brutal kingdom is her husband, but the two savages who enforce his wrath have their eyes on the new bride as well.

They made a peace deal with Elain’s family which came at a cost – her. A mafia princess gifted to them as a bride.

Will Elain become their plaything? Their victim? Or their prize?

The war between the families might have ended with this union, but she is starting a battle of her own in her new family and in this dark and violent world.

Will she become the Queen to her Kings?

(Dark Mafia Romance/Reverse Harem)

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

The Date (Bonus Chapter/Elain/Ruhn)

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OF FAWNS and SHADOWS (abandoned)

Elain Archeron and Azriel centered tale. Set 9 months following the fateful Solstice (Azriel’s POV) this is a story of love, loss and a developing relationship. (Canon compliant)

Most chapters have some element of NSFW (please be advised). Certain thematic elements of the relationship may be unsuitable for some readers.

Snowed In (Prequel) (Part of 25 days of Elriel Solstice)

Five Golden Rings (Prequel/Continuation of ‘Snowed In’) (Part of 25 Days of Elriel Solstice)

Mistletoe (Prequel/Continuation of ‘Five Golden Rings’) ( Part of 25 Days of Elriel Solstice)

One Day in Velaris (Prequel)

Part One   Part Two  Part Three    Part Four Part Five   Part Six  Part Seven

A Gift from Father Winter (sequel) (Rated E***)

The Possession (E*) Elriel’s first kiss

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The Heirs of Shadows (set in Of Fawns of Shadows world) (completed)

Chapters I and II (***Rated E)

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Revenge Served Cold (completed)

‘Tis the Damn Season (Rated ***E) Bonus Chapter

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La Dolce Vita (4 chapters / ongoing)

Modern AU (***Rated E)

Chapter One (La Vie en Rose)**

Chapter Two (On the Wings of Desire)

Bonus Chapter (Ice Skating) (part of 25 Days of Elriel Solstice)

Bonus Chapter (Solstice (Baby Come Home) or Solstice at IKEA (part of 25 Days of Elriel Solstice)

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Imbolc

Chapter 1: Chocolate

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The Agreement

**Azriel’s Mansion in Belgravia 

Historic AU Victorian England / Arranged Pregnancy

Chapter 1/Elain Archeron

Chapter 2/Azriel, Lord Night

Chapter 3/Elain Archeron

Chapter 4/Azriel, Lord Night

Chapter 5/Elain Archeron

Chapter 6/Azriel, Lord Night

Chapter 7/ Elain Archeron

Chapter 8/ Elain Archeron and Azriel, Lord Night

Chapter 9/ Elain Archeron (explicit)

Chapter 10/ Azriel, Lord Night (explicit)

Chapter 11/Elain Archeron

Chapter 12/Elain Archeron

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A Match Baked In Heaven (Completed)

Modern AU/Matchmaker Elain hired to set up single footballer Azriel

(A modern day continuation of The Agreement. Standalone, no need to read The Agreement)

Art/Illustration (art by Tessorange)

Moodboard (by nivem-vv)

Summary

Chapter One: Lonely Boy

Chapter Two: Tighten Up

Chapter Three: Gold on the Ceiling

Chapter Four: Thickfreakness 

Chapter Five: My Girl

Chapter Six: My Mind is Ramblin’

Chapter Seven: Girl Is On My Mind

Chapter Eight: Heavy Soul

Chapter Nine: Too Afraid to Love You

Chapter Ten: Howlin’ For You

Chapter Eleven: The Weight of Love

Chapter Twelve: The Moan

Chapter Thirteen: I’ll Be Your Man

Chapter Fourteen: Strange Times (explicit)

Chapter Fifteen: Things Ain’t Like They Used to Be

Chapter Sixteen: You Are the One

Chapter Seventeen: Everlasting Light

Chapter Eighteen: I Got Mine

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Princess Tea Party (completed)

Modern AU/Single Parents Azriel and Elain meet at a Princess Tea Party

Chapter 1 Azriel and Darius

Chapter 2 Elain Archeron (Explicit)

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A Ballad of Sorrow and Love (Completed)

Canon AU/ Azriel loves Elain to the point of madness

Part 1: Death and His Lovely Fawn (EXPLICIT)

Part 2: Death (EXPLICIT)

Part 3: Lovely Fawn 

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All Hallow’s Eve (Completed)

Canon/Post ACOSF Azriel and Elain plan a Halloween celebration together 

All Hallow’s Eve (Explicit)

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Drabbles and One Shots  (mind the content and what’s rated E) Canon

Just Breathe (Canon)

The Distance Between Us (Canon)

Invisible String  (Canon)

Through the Centuries (Canon)

Your Lips on My Scars (Canon/light CONTENT)

Elain Waits (Canon/light CONTENT)

Against Your Morning Skin (Canon/Elriel Month 2021 Prompt)

The Immortal Beloved (Canon)

Dreamland (Canon/Elriel Month 2021 Prompt angsty fluff)

Your Ivy Grows (Canon/Elriel Month 2021 Prompt)

Depth of Your Eyes (part 1) (Canon Elriel Month 2021 prompt/Baby Fluff)

Name Day (part 2) (prompt) (canon/baby fluff)

Hold Your Hand While Dancing (Canon/Elriel Month 2021 prompt)

Wing Sin (Explicit) (Canon)

The Stars Were Falling (prompt) (Canon/angsty fluff)

The Summer Barge (prompt) (Canon/fluff)

The Braid (Prompt) (Canon/angsty fluff)

At the End of All Things (Prompt) (Canon/Angst. Character death) (PART 2 of The Heirs of Shadow)

Ode to Joy (Canon/Fluff)

The Prince, The Cat and the Fight (Canon/Elriel month 2022. Week 1 ‘Forbidden Romance’) (Angsty Fluff)

Magic is Hard (Elain Week 2022, Day 1, Powers) (Canon/Fluff)

A Girls’ Night In (Elain Week 2022, Day 3, Friendships) (Canon/Fluff)

Elain Throws a Punch (Canon)

Rest Your Weary Head (domestic fluff) Canon

The First Solstice (Solstice 2022) reimagining of the first Solstice from ACOFAS (fluff/angst/canon)

Solstice Night (Secrets and Lies) Alternative Azriel POV (angsty)

After the Rain (Fluff/Canon)

How To Make An Illyrian Baby (Elriel Month 2023, Canon/Fluff/Smut) Nessian and Elriel

The Last Flight of the Shadowsinger (Elriel Month 2023, Peace and Quiet, Canon/ Angst/Death)

Elain’s Potatoes (Elriel Month 2023, Canon/Fluff/Solstice)

Butter My Bread (Elriel Month 2023, Canon/Fluff)

The Little Black Dress That Could (Fluff/Canon Reimagining)

Do That To Her (Nessian fic. Fluff, mildly suggestive)

Elain Archeron Week 2024:

Salted Cashews (Canon/Fuff) How The Mating Went (Canon/Fluff)

How the Gift Was Made (Canon/Fuff) Elain’s Necklace (Canon/Fluff) The First Flight (Canon/Fluff)  When She Said ‘Beautiful’ (Canon/Fluff)

When Elain Flew (Canon/Fluff)

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MODERN AU

The Paperman (Elriel Month 2023, Fluff/Modern AU) Part 1

Doggy Style (Elain Archeron Week 2023, Fluff/Modern AU) Part 2

There Was Only One Bed (Fluff/Modern AU)

Plot Twist (Fluff/Modern AU)

Rami the Bat (fluff, Flufftober) Modern AU

Breed Me (explicit) Modern AU

Strangers In the Night (Suggestive/Modern AU)

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Not Another Hallmark Christmas Story

Modern AU boss/employee dark romance

Chapter 1

Chapter 2  (TW: non con)

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Headcanons

Elriel and Nessian Baby Headcanons

Elriel in the Kitchen Headcanons

Lorcan the Wyvern Headcanons

Flower Crowns Headcanon

10 Kilos of Love

Elain in a Yellow Hat

When Elain Touched Azriel’s Wings

Choose Me (Azriel’s letter to Elain)

Once Upon a Dream (Elriel Month 2024)

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Bruce: Damian care to explain why Dick is covered in blue highlighter ink?

Damian *who's holding said blue highlighter*: it's because he's important. I'm supposed to highlight only the important stuff.

Dick *who's face is covered in blue highlighter while also trying not to cry*: YoU tHiNk iM iMpOrTaNt?

Bruce: you can't just color on his face Damian

Dick *actually crying now*: he said I'm important-

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I'm 25. Pretty sure I have high-functioning depression. Half the time i'm at work, acting like everything is okay, and in the other half i'm at home on the sofa or in the bed. There's nothing going on in my life. I have 2 friends who i talk to like 2 times a months. I have no big achivements to show. My life is worthless. I never really got to go to parties and live (overbearing parents) and by the time i had the chance, i didn't want to. Those places weren't comfortable to me. So now i don't have anyone, no big friendgroup, no partner (tho i'm not unhappy about that). What i really wanna say with all this is:

When does life get fucking better? It will, right? It has to. How to live? What is happiness?

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I wonder if when i finally have enough money to move out from home, and never come back to visit or call, will my parents ever realise how much their hatred for me was showing in their attitude, how they talked to me, and acted with me, or will they be surprised and be like ' i dunno why my child never visits us 🤷‍♀️'.

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Eruri

"And if a ten-ton truck kills the both of us: To die by your side, well the pleasure, the privilege is mine."

#eruri.thoughts | #eruri.thirsts | #eruri.pic | #eruri.fic

headcanons

-> if Levi died during RtS | and…

drabbles

→ Fleeting (fluff)

On late nights like these, when Levi and Erwin find themselves tired of the monotonous nature of paperwork, they have a preferred way of relaxing: stargazing.

→ Levi dies in his arms (angst) | alt. happy ending (hurt/comfort)

→ Valentine’s Day special (pwp)

→ equal intensity (pwp)

→ pillow talk (fluff)

→ A Win is a Win (fluff)

→ after the first (fluff)

→ Levi when he's sick (angsty)

oneshots

→ Not Disgusting (fluff+smut) (ao3)

It must be… six months since he last bled? They stopped with time after beginning his monthly shots, along with a vast assortment of other qualities. But Hange warned Levi that this may happen.

→ Saccharine Secret (pwp)

 Levi has been keeping a dirty little secret since last night. Naturally, Erwin figures him out. But not even he predicted how delicious Levi’s secret would be.

→ Little Death (pwp)

Erwin is way too ambitious with Levi's cock for his own good.

→ Break Time (fluffy comfort)

Erwin and Levi have returned from another expedition. Now it's time to come home.

→ Burdens (fluffy comfort) (ao3)

Practicing how to swim should be useless to a mer.

Then again, Levi has become useless. He and Erwin talk about it.

→ (Please Don't) Change Your Mind (hurt/comfort) (ao3)

Erwin and Levi’s first time doesn’t go well, but Levi doesn't have to fear the worst.

Or: A post-traumatic episode is accidentally triggered in Levi, and Erwin comforts him.

→ In Total Darkness (hurt/comfort) (ao3)

Levi isn't used to sleeping in Erwin's bed.

→ Refuge (hurt/cumfort)

Erwin is his refuge, and he's Erwin's, each other's only ones. Whenever they're together this way, Furlan's words occur to Levi—that it takes strength in equal measure to be weak in front of someone else.

→ The Weight (hurt/cumfort)

Years down the road, Erwin has to make a visit to the Underground, which stresses the hell out of Levi. He's so weak... right?

→ Safe & Eager to Obey (cumfort) (ao3)

Another visit to Mitras to procure funding for the Survey Corps goes up in smoke for Levi. Erwin shows him where his own priorities lie. And makes it up to him, too.

multi-chaptered works

→ We’ll Live (ao3) - 8/8

Reverse RtS where Levi is the one who needs the syringe and the (mostly lighthearted because I refuse to write heavy angst) events that follow.

→ My One Good Thing - 4/4

At no particular place or time, Erwin and Levi were together, and now in ways both beyond Levi's most hopeful dreams and anxious nightmares. What does it mean to be together? There is no rulebook for this.

They'll make their own.

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updated 04/01/24

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WHAT IS THIS AND WHY IS IT SO PERFECT?!

If you know the author, please let me know

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Hello! I'd like to just say first, thank you so much for always answering fic recs for people. It's so kind of you to go out of your way and write them all down, with thoughts and research into them as well! And I'm so sorry to come at you with a recommendation of more fics but I'm struggling to properly fall into a story at the moment and eruri always fixes it! Do you have any good recs that are super long, multi-chapter? I seem to have read all the common ones!

Hello Anon! Thank you for you lovely message.  Honestly it’s a real pleasure to reply to fic rec asks because there are so many insanely talented writers in this fandom who have given me many so hours of reading enjoyment 💕 I compiled a rec list of long ass slow burn fics not long ago, but there are a lot more to add to the list.  I suspect you may already have read a lot of these, but hopefully you’ll find one or two that hit that sweet spot.  I should add that I haven’t read all of these, but I know others have enjoyed them. 

I wish the sea would wash you away (then bring you back to me) by kusuriuri, 15,063 words, 1 chapter.

I’m only going to heaven (if it feels like hell) by @stereobone, 16,970, 1 chapter.

Again by @cherryamber, 39,712 words, 8 chapters.

all your demons and desires and dark sides by Carthage, 65,024 words, 10 chapters.

Gilded by Night by rivai-lution, 66,797 words, 18 chapters.

Toeing the line by @stillmadaboutpetra, 72,838 words, 18 chapters.

HMS Maria by @lostcauses-noregrets, 85,512 words, 19 chapters.

Four Years Later by @everythingshiny, 92,279 words, 18 chapters. 

Sugar by @damnchou, 101,447 words, 12 chapters. 

Final Tour by @ackbang, 131,964 words, 22 chapters.

Project Leviathan by Palmira, 135,568 words, 5 chapters.

Spellbound by @ladymacbethsspot, 181,597 words, 34 chapters. 

The Companion by @everythingshiny, 189, 365 words, 31 chapters. 

Audacity by shoi, 195, 284 words, 49 chapters.

In These Fallen Leaves by @masksarehot2, 210,263 words, 32 chapters.

CODA by @tidal-sehnsucht, 222,217 words, 27 chapters.

In Full Bloom by @damnchou, 245, 387 words, 32 chapters (ongoing).

Smack by @valisi-clark, 275,865 words, 34 chapters (unfinished).

He Chose Titans by @masksarehot2, 486,106 words, 43 chapters.

ETA…

The Flap of a Butterfly’s Wings by DrButtons / @drbuttonsss​, 105,155 words, 12 chapters (ongoing).

The Blue by bowowline, 176,103 words, 14 chapters.

When in doubt, use violence by no_tengo_porque, 494,702 words, 38 chapters, (ongoing). 

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My Din & Grogu comics 💚

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AU where everything in the world is the same, except Soap can read minds. PART THREE (trigger warning for descriptions of gore, violence and extreme levels of stress, anxiety and fear displayed by a character)

Soap can't stand the energy banging around in Ghost's mind. It feels like a man dying, a potent ocean of fear and repulsion.

His stomach twists, ill at the idea he's caused this feeling in another, but he swallows it and reminds himself that he is here for a reason.

"Why do you see me as a dead man?" he asks. His own voice is foreign in his ears.

The image of himself in Simon's mind wavers, the wounds fading and the skin tanning - before the death regains control. Ghost is whispering something that Soap can't hear out loud, but the words gurgle in his skull, guttural and horrific:

"He's dead, he's dead, he's dead."

Soap repeats the question, louder this time.

"Get out." Ghost's voice is a shadow of itself, low and guttural and brittle and hurt and all these other horrible things that Soap doesn't dare to name.

Soap shakes his head.

Ghost is backed fully into the corner of the room now, his whole body trembling. The knife he wields looks unsteady in his hands.

Everything in Soap screams that he should leave, that this whole thing is a bad idea, but he just can't let it go. There has to be an answer.

"Please, Ghost," Soap says, softening his voice, taking another slow step forward, "I just need to know why you see me that way. That's all, I promise."

It takes Soap a second to react when he sees the thought of Ghost throwing his knife- he ducks out of the way, hearing as the knife plunges into the wall behind his with a thunk exactly where his head had been moments earlier.

"Get out," Ghost snarls, his shoulders squaring, his voice rising to a scream as he says, "Get the fuck out of my head!"

Soap freezes. There is no way that Ghost could know that.

"Get out or I'll fucking kill you!" Ghost says, and Soap sees images of different ways Ghost can kill him, each one more gorey and depraved than the last.

Soap opens his mouth, but before he can utter another word, Ghost is barrelling toward him, grabbing him before he can react and slamming him into the wall with a knife at his throat.

All he can see is the dull glaze of Ghost's eyes. All he can taste is fear. All he can hear is screams that bounce around in his skull. All he can feel is the head of Ghost's hand and the cold of the blade. All he can smell is blood.

"I'm sorry, Ghost," Soap chokes out, not daring to move, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to upset you-"

"You're going to die a slow and painful death," Ghost hisses. His voice doesn't sound real.

A slow, painful death plays out in Soap's mind, shoved into it by the mind of Ghost.

"I'm sorry," Soap cries out, now beginning to push at Ghost's chest, his eyes beginning to burn, "I'm sorry, I can't control it- I swear I won't tell anyone what I've seen, I swear!"

Ghost grip on him slackens slightly. "What do you mean?"

Soap doesn't even know where to begin to explain.

Part four will be coming!

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Shepherd to Ghost:

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NOT BARRY SLOANE TELLING NEIL HE CAN GIVE HIM SOME BUTTONS FOR HIS SHIRT BRO

All my ass can think is Price walking in on Soap taking shirtless photos and just fucking sighing in dissapointment. I’m cackling

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shhh!!!!! they’re sleeping 😴 💤

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Tiny Soap rizzing up Ghost hardstyle!!