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The saddest thing about getting the flu a few weeks back was after I had recovered, the way my congestion/mucus was set was that I couldn't talk well/had to use a lower tone of voice to not trigger a coughing fit.

Which was fine until I'd try to drive home and Hadestown would come up on my playlist and my voice would crack and die within the first song bc I'm INCAPABLE of not singing along to Hadestown.

But! Today!!! I sang along to every musical song that came up on my drive home!!! Perfectly fine!!! (At least, back to my normal, lol, idk what my singing voice is like and tbh that's none of my business)

But the voice crack would always get me. Never had that happen before.

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when cishet guy friends tease me about being a lesbian and ask how i "know" i'm gay i like to go "well have YOU ever had sex with a man?" and when they say no (they always say no) i go "then how do you know you're not into men?" and like... what IS it with how insecure cishet men who are scared of gay thoughts always assume they would bottom. like they talk like that's the inevitable outcome if they were to ever get bicurious. today i hit these two guys at work with a "what, are you scared?" and they frantically described to the most detailed prophetic visions of the biggest burliest bear topping them to death. which could mean nothing

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I FORGOT JEFF HOLIDAY

Did I write anything when I got home? No.

Did I finish my rewatch of Jenny Nicholson's video on Evermore? Yes.

Did I decide to make a playlist on youtube of video essay like content to send to my mom bc I think she'd like to watch them but doesnt go on youtube? Also yes.

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I guess what's yalls favorite video essay content? I have videos by Jenny Nicholson, Hbomberguy, Defunctland, bobbybroccoli, and munecat (just off the top of my head without going through my own watch history)

Did I write anything when I got home? No.

Did I finish my rewatch of Jenny Nicholson's video on Evermore? Yes.

Did I decide to make a playlist on youtube of video essay like content to send to my mom bc I think she'd like to watch them but doesnt go on youtube? Also yes.

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Did I write anything when I got home? No.

Did I finish my rewatch of Jenny Nicholson's video on Evermore? Yes.

Did I decide to make a playlist on youtube of video essay like content to send to my mom bc I think she'd like to watch them but doesnt go on youtube? Also yes.

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"the three dots on the side" call her by her REAL NAME.. Meatballs Menu

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It is genuinely fascinating how many feminist cis women, including those who are on paper openly supportive of trans people, struggle to actually think about trans men as a concept.

A few months ago I ended up having a very long talk with a friend of a friend. She told me that she'd never really spoken to a trans man before, the only trans people she knew were trans women. There was a point, after the third time I reminded her that I was a man, that she just sorta of slotted me into her mental box of "man", and I could tell that happened because after that point she started trying to explain things to me as if I was a cis man.

I categorically do not "pass" and likely never will. I'm very short, my hips are prominent because I'm fat, I keep my hair long, charitably I could be said to have a baby face, I have D-cups and cannot bind due to spinal problems. To the majority of cis people I do not "look like a man".

But for the rest of the conversation I had with this friend of a friend I had to keep reminding her of how other people are going to view me, because there was no room in her mental idea of "man" for a man who is not treated as one. This was not malicious on her part, she was very nice to me, and I believe her when she says she wants to support trans people. I do not think she was lying when she told me how horrified she was to learn about how her trans woman friends were treated.

She said she was envious of me going out alone and how I need to understand that's a facet of male privilege and I asked her to look at me and explain why I'd be any safer. She was shocked to learn that I've been catcalled, been assaulted, that I regularly get spoken down to by cis men, shocked to learn I don't have a single transmasc friend who hasn't. She couldn't understand that I'm going to be treated the same by misogynists as any fat cis woman who doesn't wear makeup. There was no room in her feminism for trans men, because there was no room in her understanding of gender for men who are not cis.

We ended up talking about politics. She told me she was terrified of abortion being banned, and that this would never be a threat if men could get pregnant.

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im developing cataracts in my right eye and ill be getting surgery for it on sunday so art might be paused for a bit next week ...

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Hey is it ok to interact if I’m vegan?

no. welcome to meat world boy

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its just so fucking funny being a not really interested in sex or having a libido aroace bc whenever I start then imagining like, explicit nsfw scenarios for any of the ships I have I'm like "i should probably check my period calendar" and then I'm right 😭

just got my period which. explains a lot.

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my mom is 61 and her bf is a huge nerd and he’s teaching her to play magic the gathering and he had her watch avatar the last airbender with him and his ringtone is terra’s theme from final fantasy 6 and he paints pictures of sephiroth. my mom’s bf is nerdier than i’ll ever be.

and she does all these pinterest crafts and now she makes little bejeweled vials of healing potions for him and his buddies. my little geek heart can’t handle all this.

edit: just picture a 60-something woman with a VERY thick minnesotan accent saying “mike is having me watch the naruto”

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just got my period which. explains a lot.

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Its so awkward to be like "nah, I haven't really been reading lately" to all my coworkers bc I'm normally reading on every single break, but even WORSE when I try to gently mention writing because like. Yes I'm writing. But it's fanfic about a deer and a television. 😭😭😭