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What would you do?

Taking 5 classes with a lab and I am a part of an org. I also work. I am pretty stressed 

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Fool me once shame on you; fool me twice shame on me

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I don’t know how to feel about this

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A Letter to Toxic Parents

Dear toxic parents,

Why don’t you shove your lies up your own ass. I mean god do you think I am that stupid to believe another word you say. You controlling, manipulative, vile people. You suck me dry like an succubus. I feel empty, hollow, and cold when I am around you. You told me I was your burden and that I should not have been born. Well you should not having have been fucking. You narcissistic pile of shit human. Your actions disgust me. Your words entrap me. I now have to teach myself how to love myself and develop healthy relationships with others because you guys didn’t want to take the time or the effort to instill that in me as a child. Yes you tried. You tried to fuck me up, over and under. You tried to tear down my self-esteem...actually you did. 

Oh and also you were envious of my successes. I tried to please you by making honor-roll, straight A’s but even that wasn’t enough for you. You still call me a “screw-up,” “a bitch,” “a whore” if I didn’t do all the dishes or if I wanted to spend time with friends. In fact I only have one good friend and you are trying to divide that as well.  Dad you used to hit because you thought you could. Verbally abuse me because you thought you could. Mom you would get upset over the littlest things. “Why did you eat that?” “Why can’t you just stop talking?” or my favorite “You remind me just like your father get out of my fucking face?”  

You guys are unhappy and should stay unhappy by yourselves. Do not apologize for things that you don’t mean. I just want you to know that I will be successful. I will not look like my struggle. I will overcome and rise. You best believe that you couldn’t deter me from dreams and goals I will control my future from now on. 

Sincerely,

The kid you never wanted :)