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Desperate to know where this kitty is going

kitty just left Balmora from the South and is headed toward Fort Moonmoth. Hope kitty has potions and scrolls, cliff racers are everywhere this time of year.

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really wish i saw more people interpret nerevar as truly gone. im the only person i know for whom their nerevarine is completely disconnected from nerevar,has none of his memories, personality traits, or cannot see or hear him.

the majority of people i see have some element of nerevar alive with their nerevarines and like memories or talking to him and that's like fine and I don't mean to demean it anyways but to me personally the idea of nerevar being deader than dead and gone forever is so interesting i want to explore that idea with other people but!!!!!! :(

like in a high fantasy world were ghosts are like Irrefutably Real and everywhere to the point of ancestor worship and summoning being part of dunmer culture.... wouldn't it be particularly weird and fucked up if one guy died and just. NEVER came back? at all? yeah ghosts are real. there's even dwemer ghosts in morrowind! except this fucking guy. he got killed so hard even his ghost is gone. the nerevarine having a crisis of faith over not having his memories or being able to hear or see him. the nerevarine who wants to be nerevar but is just all alone. vivec almalexia and dagoth ur waiting thousands of years to see their old friend again but he never comes. Please talk to me about this before i start breaking my teeth gnawing on the cage bars oh my GOD

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*poses like malacath shrine* *poses like malacath shrine* *poses like malacath shrine*

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“For who am I? The bastard heir of a dead Emperor.”

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One thing that bugs me about the setting is that it would be pretty simple to reverse engineer the dwemer steam systems and use them for basic stuff. it's not the spooky mindfuck technology its fine. and even if the general sentiment was "oh no, the dwemers' hubris may have been their downfall, we must not walk in their footsteps" I can't imagine accepting that if I was, say, a tenant farmer or something. like FUCK y'all man the gods are not gonna disappear us for inventing a tractor. me and all my ancestors seven generations back have repetitive strain injuries from harrowing the fields every year. u like to starve? that's what I motherfuckin thought. take those machines apart and figure out how they work or by Talos I will beat you to death with a rake

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vivec does a little dance for you

say thank you

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I've been thinking a lot about how Martin mantled Akatosh, the eldest of the gods, the one who literally brings life to the planet through sunlight and growth to everything on it through time, who is the source of empires and control, whose existence brought the concept of law into the world. And he did it in a single moment of desperate necessity, giving up everything and leaving the mortal realm forever for just a few seconds with the power needed to save it.

And then I think about how the Hero of Kvatch mantled Sheogorath, the (arguably) youngest of the gods, the one who was inadvertently created by the others and fills in all the spaces between them, who makes life worth living through music and color, who allows and enables the mortal mind to expand past the limits placed upon it by all the others, the only one who believes in free will and is willing to destroy anything to preserve it. And how they had chance after chance to turn back, to give up, but set their feet and held their ground and took the reins of eternity to protect a world that wasn't even theirs.

I think about how Akatosh is a reflection of Anu on the surface of Nirn, and Sheogorath is the Sithis-shaped hole in the world, and I wonder if that's why it turned out like this. If the world was meant to end in the Oblivion Crisis, and the two of them together re-anchored the pillars that support reality by mantling the two mortal-compatible aspects thereof. I wonder if they saved the world in ways they didn't even understand at the time.

I wonder if they know that they're still working together, even now, even if they'll never see each other again. I wonder if they know they're still halves of a whole, a Chosen Two who will never be remembered for what they actually did, only for what they left behind. Martin will only ever be a name he didn't knows was his own, Septim, and The Hero will never be anything but their first harrowing battle, Kvatch, losing their own name forever by becoming Sheogorath.

I think about it, and I wonder. I hope they know. It seems the least of what they both deserve.

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editing is so funny because it's like "damn, i wrote 'before' two times within three paragraphs. they are going to stone me in the town square for this"

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i think i vaguely remember something about spheryite’s– nvm post cancelled i meant to write “peryite’s sphere” but this is ten times funnier

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no remaster can beat the version of the shivering isles that only exists in my head as nebulous concept art

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hi! i'm too chicken to leave a proper comment on ao3, but i just wanted to say i adore adore adore your writing!! how you manage to pack so much Stuff into so few words is just positively brilliant, and all your characters have such vivid Voices, and and your descriptions are so Tactile...! anyways. just wanted to say thank you for all your lovely work, so... thank you! <3 :)

aw this absolutely made my day, thank you!! I'm so so glad that you enjoyed my writing and very chuffed that you took the time to seek me out and let me know. it genuinely means a lot. I totally understand feeling intimidated by talking on some platforms, but if you ever do feel up to it I would love to hear whatever you have to say (esp if it's this nice lol. love being complimented.) regardless thanks very much! hope you're having the most splendid day in the world :D

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Glqd too see another person who loves their siblings, so much of the stuff on here about siblings is too often about hate and rivalry which is alien to me bc yeah i love them and would die for them idk what everyone else has going on

I've seen some stuff like that and it is always a bit sad to me! my siblings and I bickered a lot as kids but now we're all marginally more mature it's grand, we get along great. we joke together splendidly and try to engage in each other's interests and find things that we all enjoy together (I'll talk about my extremely basic language learning, my sister will talk about a movie they just watched, my brother will talk about trains, and then we will all sit down and watch a tv season finale and scream together when it ends.) it's lovely! I love them dearly!! I can't wait to see how they continue to grow

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my brother is a weird little nerd with a deeply irritating habit of responding to everything with their own made up words that we're meant to somehow understand, they're fixated on public transit and have a current project of biking to every train station in the city, and they're incredibly thoughtful and aware, especially for their age. my sister is a cringefail creature who is always so so ready to share his interests with me and it's so awesome to see him get more independent and confident as the years go on. sorry you guys got stuck with the DUDS i'm keeping all the cool ones for myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hasta la vista baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dude I love my siblings so much they're so sick.... sorry to everyone who doesn't have siblings there must be such a hole in your heart. and sorry to everyone who does have siblings it must be so hard to know that they'll never be as good as mine. my dear wretched little brother and sister. little infants. everyone clap and cheer for them or i'll blow up the moon

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dude I love my siblings so much they're so sick.... sorry to everyone who doesn't have siblings there must be such a hole in your heart. and sorry to everyone who does have siblings it must be so hard to know that they'll never be as good as mine. my dear wretched little brother and sister. little infants. everyone clap and cheer for them or i'll blow up the moon

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*doesn't post about/draw a character for 50 years* i am basically the CEO of beinf a fan of this character

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just another zana ☀️