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A SENIOR AND A JUNIOR

I was very determined to get a bf in clg.well i did try my best until he ghosted me and dropped out.i couldn't bear it at first. Well Accepted,he was an asshole.i liked him.got over him....kind off.the memory are hard to let go.so i started looking for another boy to renew my memories and to make new ones.

Thats when a senior who at my clg caught my eye.he was very friendly with his friend but always put up a front before others.acted cool.well he had muscles.ik shouldn't judge a book by its cover.i was not going to ask him out the moment i saw.i wanted to know more about him before that stage.

So yea i started looking for his acc in insta and got to know a bit about him from my friends.and no,i didn't let them know i was looking for a guy to get over my last situationship.

I went to the spots where he went to get a look at him.the usual one sided shits.

Well things took a turn when i started noticing that i was not the only one looking at him.we started making eye contacts.my delulu was sure that he was looking at me.

but yea DELULU IS NOT THE SOLULU.

Some time passed.our clg was conducting ethnic day.so i got all dressed up.i wanted to look pretty incase he looks at me.not like' he will '...duh.

I went to the usual spots.didn't see him.well there is a chance that he might skip this event cuz we have been having regular classes for the last 2 month and haven't gotten a single leave.even i wanted to take a leave,i came cuz i wanted him to see me all dolled up.

I even wore a saree,a pink one.this colour suited me well.and i am not boasting.its the truth.it looked nice but was not that easy to wear.i am chubby and i know it.i am insecure.i don't expect anyone to love me back but it doesn't stop me from loving them and they don't have the right to stop me either.So yea i had a little tummy.still i was cute🫣.

So yea i was looking for him.he wasn't anywhere to be seen.my friends called me to take photos so i have finally given up and was walking down the hall when i saw him.he was wearing a black kurta with embroidered works and a mundu.he had also tied tiny mundu in his head.we crossed path.i was not expecting him to be here and i couldn't hold my excitement in when i saw him.we had a slight eye contact.he was talking with his friends when i passed.turned out he was helping out back at the auditorium for the prgms.i looked at him and as he did back.

I was content with this tiny eye contact.i took the photos and spent my time with my friends and went to see the prgms.ne and my friends sat at the last seat.almost every seats were taken.thats when i saw him again.he too was getting in and finding seats for him and his friends.i gazed at him as usual.he looked at me just as he was sitting.

My delulu mind again went with 'i told you na...he is looking at you.my mind told me that it thinks he knows.he knows that i have a crush on him'.

Well technically it has become a crush now.i concluded.

Where did i left it off?...yea the eye contact.just when i saw him looking at me.i turned my head away.i was not yet ready for him to know.and as i told you i was insecure about my weights.In the back of my mind one question always haunted me 'who would love a girl like me?'.

And yea i know fuck it.i can love even if they don't love me back.i sighed and watched the prgms.i felt thirsty and decided to get some water from the canteen.i asked one of my friends to come with me.as i got up i noticed that he wasn't in his seat anymore.he must've gotten up midway with his friends.i was not feeling confident anymore.my mind sucks...ik.it is what it is.

I was walking through the hall on my way to the canteen.i saw him again.he was chatting with this one girl.she was pretty....really pretty.my heart sank.i felt hurt.

My brain went'i told you delulu is gonna betray you some day'.and my mind was like i know.

I didn't have it in me to look at him again.he hadn't seen me yet.i saw him from a distance.i passed by him and no,i didn't dare look at him now.i don't want to see him laughing or smiling with another girl.it made me jealous for some reason and more insecure.

Fuck this.

My mind had completely shutted off and my mood was not great.my friend asked me if i was okay after seeing my face.i didn't wanna ruin their day too with my sorrows.i went ahead with yea i am okay.we bought the water and sat there for some time.my friend was called by some coordinator for work.so she had to go.she is a really good friend.she made sure i was okay before leaving me.i told her not to worry about me and to go ahead.

I got some alone time which is something i wanted and not at the same time. I bought a chocalate cone to remove this stress that is slowly consuming me and yea i like to eat icecreams to relax my king.

I decided to go back.since it has been some time he must've gone back.i was holding onto my saree and eating the icecream.as i reached the hall where i saw him earlier,he wasn't there.i was a bit relieved.

there was a corner on the way to the auditorium. No one would be there usually during this time,that is the time to eat lunch.and just when i thought he wasn't here.i saw him at the corner.he was slanting towards the wall and looking at his phone.he looked up from his phone and saw me.and yes we had an eye contact again.i could feel his stare.my whole body tensed up.the icecream that was midway to my mouth stood still in my hand.i clenched on the pallu's edge which i was holding on my other hand.

My head instantly went down.i couldn't lift my head up.i forced my body to walk.my mind told me not to make a big deal of it.it's a silly crush and this too shall end soon.i fought off my mind as i walked through the hall.i ate the icecream on my hand.i didn't want it to melt and cause a mess.i could still feel his stare but i didn't dare look up to see if he is actually looking.

Just as i was about to pass him,i was grabbed by my wrist to the corner.yes the exact corner where he was standing standing.i was flustured.my wrists wanted to be freed from this sudden tug.i looked for the source of my cornering.there stood the face which i was so familiar with but at the same time distant.

I was confused and my face clearly showed it.he looked at me.this is the first time i was ever so close to him.i bowed my head again.i didn't wanna see him.ik i didn't do anything wrong but still not the right time to see him.

He asked"why were you looking at me for idk....for about 1 or 2 month?"

My mind :'well it was 3 month and that didn't matter right now'

I raised my head and replied "i didn't ".

He scoffed"then who did i see looking at me for the past 2 months"

I said in a low voice"not me".i know its a lie.i don't want to admit i have a crush on him if he is in love with another girl.

He heard it.he loosened up my wrist and asked "are you sure?".

I rubbed my wrist which was on his hand a few secs ago.i look at him again.he seemed cold with that front he usually puts up with strangers.i wanted him to talk with me as he did with that girl.i said while looking at his eyes"and if i am not?"

He smirked and said"then we will see about it".he slowly held the part of my wrist which he held earlier and asked"it doesn't hurt...right?"

I snapped out of the daze not knowing what's happening.i replied"no it doesn't "

He let go of my wrist and said"then its all good.see you".he took a bite of the icecream i had in my other hand all this time and went away.

I had completely forgotten about the icecream and had melted all throughout my other hand.i swirled up my bangles and took a bite of the cone.the part where he had bitten a few secs ago.it tasted good...real good.i licked the icecream on my mouth and went on to the auditorium.

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