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we strive so hard to find happiness in things and places that we forget to find it in ourselves

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i hope you’re doing okay :) here’s something i wrote a couple days ago, no real point j felt like i needed to write how i felt

truth

the truth is that everyone hurts. everyone. even the people that seem like they’ve got everything figured out have skeletons in their closets that haunt them at night. and although people don’t know they’re hurting doesn’t mean their pain isn’t valid. it doesn’t mean your pain isn’t valid either. every person you’ve ever encountered in your entire life has cried about something, and a lot of them probably think that they have to hide their pain in order to protect their image. no matter if that person is big or small, successful or not, everyone has an ego. but in the end all that pain and suffering is something we all we have, and it needs to be appreciated and accepted, just like happiness. once everyone realizes that, the world will have peace. but that probably won’t happen for a while because people are stubborn and non-understanding. and that’s okay. the pain is just happiness that hasn’t been uncovered yet. sometimes (and a lot of the time) the sadness overwhelms you and feels never ending, but as long as you keep going it does. right now i’m in the process of losing my mind and finding myself and my heart. i KNOW things will be okay, but when i feel sad none of that matters because all i can do is cry and feel bad for myself. once again- because i have an ego. once my ego dies i will be one with all, and i can’t wait for that. but for now i’m only a child and i’m going to have to deal with bad bad times for a long long time. and that’s okay, because i’ve done it many times before, and i’m okay. everything will be okay. even when it feels like the world is ending. i promise.

-myself to myself

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for all i am is human, but my soul is ethereal.

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“That’s who you really like. The people you can think out loud in front of.”

— John Green (via quotefeeling)

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here’s something i wrote about my dad. pretty personal but i hope someone understands

“to the moon and back”

i miss my dad more than i can even put in to words. i don’t remember much from when i was really young, but i’m sure i loved your big bear hugs just as much as i do now. i love you so so so so so so much and i’m sorry i don’t show it, and i’m sorry you’re unable to show your love for me. i wish things could’ve been different. i wish you didn’t have to deal with so much, i wish you wouldn’t have gotten addicted. i don’t really know what you were like before you were addicted, but i’m sure you were different. i’m still glad, though, that i got to visit you in rehab. those were always the happiest days/weekends for me. seeing your face light up every time you’d see me and reach down to give me a hug is a sight i will never forget. seeing you happy is all i want and all i’ve ever wanted. you somehow have managed to make me happy every time we’re together. i’ll always cherish every moment of listening to music and watching tv shows, although i can’t really do that too often anymore. i hope you know that i remember every single time we’ve gone to the arcade or the movies together, those are some of my favorite memories. i wish you hadn’t changed. i wish we could still be happy together. i wish we could make more happy memories, but you can’t make happy memories if you’re not happy. and we both aren’t. it shows. i love you no matter what though, there’s not a single thing you could do that would make me stop loving you, i’ll always want to be attached at the hip. which kind of sucks, because you’ve made a lot of mistakes. somehow i will always look up to you and i’ll never be able to think of you as a bad person. i will love you forever and always. to the moon and back.