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if y’all thought i wasn’t gonna turn this into a gif IMMEDIATELY…

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the h in nhl stands for homoerotic

bonus intricate rituals:

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hello ghost of deceased World War Two veteran please forgive me for calling you a dumb slut and a sexy whore and my wet little meow meow I promise that I meant all of it

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Since Lieb is a tits guys I don’t think he would’ve survived seeing Web in the showers. All hairy tits out full glory. Sopping wet. Glistening from the soap. One glance and It would be so over for Joe. One round knockout flat on his back. Done.

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bob requests 👍

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what do u think about Speirs and Lipton sharing a bed because there is. only. one. bed 😌

i’ve thought about this the regular amount

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happy webgott new year

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choppy speirs thesis..

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the thing is I find Dick Winters SO fascinating in the same way I do Eddie Kaspbrak. these seemingly “uptight” rule-followers lacking in self awareness, who are actually anything but this shallow fanon characterisation. Dick isn’t uptight, he doesn’t really care what other people are doing to the point of being a scold, he only cares that they allow him to do what HE wants to without hassling him about it. He only wants to follow rules that make objective sense. That is so funny to me, not just for how relatable it is, but because he’s this figure lionised as a hero by the show and yet he clearly has such disdain for how the military works. The paperwork and the politics of it all. He’s like let me get on with my job and stop sending me memos. I’m fine. Yes this is hard and frustrating but I’m fine. No we’re not doing that, it’s a bad stupid decision. I don’t want to be in charge but I will be because nobody else is doing it right. Please stop bothering me.

Nix can bother him though because he’s not trying to change him, he recognises that Dick isn’t some naive backwater idiot just because he’s an introverted celibate teetotaler. I also think Dick knows himself more than people think. He’s clearly very perceptive about others, that’s part of what makes him a great leader. It would be easy to write him as repressed and ignorant about his own emotions but there’s an element of pride and a simple, self assured, almost self-righteousness about him that’s more interesting to me. And way funnier. He’s like, I have examined myself and I know exactly who I am and so I don’t need to do that any more, thank you. (Seethes with jealousy when people take his friends away. For no reason)

The fact that he actually said of their friendship that he could “understand Nix and help him understand himself” is incredible. He’s so presumptuous lmao because, to me, Nix’s problems come from the fact that he ACTUALLY knows and understands himself in minute detail and has a lot of self loathing about what he finds there. I don’t presume to know more about his relationship to his real best friend than he did, so I’m taking this from the actor’s performances more than the real people here, but there’s something about the way Livingston portrays Nix so chock full of want. In his most emotionally vulnerable scenes it’s desperation and need for companionship that come through the strongest. Communicating what he wants even if it looks gutwrenching in the process. Ironically, as perceptive as Dick is, I think a big part of what makes their relationship compelling in the show is the way they’re always surprising each other. They’re interested in one another, and are the ones who know each other best because of it. Nix allows these surprising moments of vulnerability only around Dick, and in return Dick sees what it is he needs and, surprisingly, indulges him. That indulgence (being more kind, being bitchy, being silly) is in turn something Dick only really allows himself when he’s around Nix.

In simplified terms, I guess the arc of the dynamic is that Nix knows what he wants, and is distressed by it, and needs to be allowed to want at full volume without self consciousness. Dick isn’t fully aware of what he wants, and needs to come to that realisation; once he does become aware however, there would be little to no distress. To him, his desires are righteous and uncomplicated by virtue of being his - the conflict coming of course through period-typical logistics and homophobia. He might also come to his realisations and determine once again that ok, now he has realised these things, there’s no need to do anything about it. This is the way he feels about Nix and that’s fine, now it needs to be put away and never spoken of (Seethes with jealousy when Nix dances with a woman somewhere. For no reason)

Now, the thing is. I have always found it easier to write from the Self Aware Distressed character, because that’s closer to my own experience. The entirety of my 100k+ of Richie Tozier POV was just, “I know what I want and I’m gross for it. Unless?” It was pure wish-fulfilment. Imagine being allowed to want someone without shame. Imagine people seeing you want and not pelting you with rotten fruit like you’re Quasimodo.

It would be a really fun challenge to write from Dick’s POV where he’s not exactly repressing his feelings, but suppressing them. Getting on with it. Not ashamed, but not allowing himself to look, because that’s not pragmatic. HOWEVER there’s very little that hits harder for me than the moment an emotionally reserved character slips up and lets something show, and that would come more easily from being in Nix’s POV. But I’ve already written over 100k from a similar-ish character voice, and if I wrote in Dick’s POV I can write ad nauseam about Nix’s Big Brown Eyes, which is something I clearly didn’t do enough of in my reddie fic because I keep latching onto the same archetypes apparently. I can even put all of my unused Eddie Kaspbrak “physical exertion as conduit for self possession” tinhatting to good use, since Dick is a jock freak too. Rotating them in my mind like a compulsive rubik’s cube champion

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happy ww2 yaoi friday

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Finally a motivation video without fitness models, but with ordinary girls!

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as much as the concept of Jesus being a fairly normal lad has its charms, im personally very intrigued by the idea of him being just… extremely weird. not even in a mystical sense, just…….staggeringly BIZZARRE. 

you go to the well to get some water, and here’s Miriam’s boy, staring at the sky, completely still. his expression is unreadable. you hazard a hello and ask how he’s doing, and he slowly, unblinkingly, lowers his gaze on you (he’s 8 and is missing his frontal teeth, not that this is making you any less uncomfortable) and says “I cannot speak of the state of my being, Nathan son of Saul, my brother, but rejoice for the water you shall take today will be as pure as the soul of the children of Heaven”

…you start sweating

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wowww jkr youre so brave and intelligent. you smashed those libs!

anyway this has like 80,000 likes as of now lets see if i can ratio her.

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