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happy wednesday to all my fellow aroace folks

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so my thing is that. what was hangfire even planning to do with the bombinating beast once he had it under his control? obviously he's mad about the sea being drained and his home being flooded and all these environmental naturalist problems. but i do not understand why his thought process was "summon mythical monster raise lots of mythical monster babies" . what is the next step here.

we dont talk enough about how dhandler randomly threw a lovecraftian monster into his snicket books. like that was insane actually come to think of it.

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any female born after 1979 cant cook. all they know is dinner party, write their diary, murder, be lesbian, eat baked brie and lie

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was thinking about something

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last read: the forgetting spell by lauren myracle (because when im bored i default to rereading middle grade books with plots i don't remember)

current read: the chalice of the gods by rick riordan (!!) i am always and forever a percy jackson kid this series is everything to me.

next read: i think im gonna take another crack at cains jawbone, or borrow my mom's agatha christie mysteries

thanks for the tag :)

@croquel @ elisa i dont remember ur new url and anyone else who wants to

@thefinaljediknight, thanks for the tag!

Last reads: I've just finished 'Dune' by Frank Herbert and I really enjoyed it. There's such a pervasive sense of doom throughout the entire book.

Current reads: Nearly done with 'Als ich ein kleiner Junge war' (meaning 'When I was a little boy', there seems to be no English version) by Erich Kästner. A super heart-felt and witty memoir.

Next reads: Spooky season is upon us, so I'll pick up the one creepy book from my TBR, which is 'The White Dominican' by Gustav Meyrink. And I need to check out some horror fanfiction.

Tagging: @al-val-meadow, @volunteerfelinedetectives, @snowdropnature, @dragoneyes618, @cleverqueencommander, @jacobsnicket, @acacia-may, @virginian-wolfsnake, @wimplee, @insane-author, and anyone I forgot and/or feels free to join. 😊

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Could a homosexual lend me, an asexual, a single use of the word flaming?

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bringing this back it will never not be funny to me

the fact that the basic eight is something that danhan actually did in high school is WILD bc that means he wrote a group of characters based on his real-life friend group and then had them do THAT.

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I really don’t like the way the water looks in any of these so don’t be surprised if I post another variation eventually but you get the point right

(Lyrics from “like a child hiding behind your tombstone” by slothrust)

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juliet: [long super well thought out convincing analysis of why flan is gay]

also juliet:

why flan is a lesbian (and why it’s important)

when i first read tb8, i thought, “well, i think flan is a lesbian, but maybe that’s just projection,” and then i went online and saw that everyone else had come to the same conclusion. now i actually do think theres quite a bit of canon evidence pointing to her being gay. this post puts it really really well :)

spoilers below cut

for one thing can we talk about how differently flan talks about female characters from male characters in general? if you look at how she describes the photograph in the beginning it’s obvious. flantasha nation for life but how many times has flan gone on about jennifer rose milton being beautiful or v____ looking pretty? not even adam gets description to this extent.

also, transvioletbaudelaire made a really good point about flan’s reaction to this. it was a big tonal shift despite the paragraph having nothing to do with what was going on. flan was more affected by a few sentences about being gay than the rest of ron’s speech about adam being missing……

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something i’ve recently noticed is that most of natasha’s idols are queer. marlene dietrich had the first on-screen kiss between two women ever, as well as being openly into women irl. bette davis and dorothy parker were historically popular within gay communities, and anais nin wrote about wlw sex in her diary. this is coming from the book that foreshadowed douglas’s sexuality by having him be associated w/ gay artists!!!!

even natasha’s very first and last mentions are associated with gayness. her first mention being how she watched a fellini movie with flan (context says it’s la dolce vita, which has an explicitly gay plotline), and of course, dr. tert explicitly stating that a version of natasha is a lesbian (!!) ofc dr. tert isn’t the most reliable source, but the point is that after you just finished the book, the final thought youre meant to have about natasha is that she’s gay!!!

another one of the most important scenes is halloween, which literally opens with natasha pinning flan to her bed. then, natasha yells at flan to break up with gabriel and get over adam. natasha empathizes in her speech that flan isn’t being true to herself by liking them. considering that flan is natasha and usually natasha has more awareness over what flan knows but can’t admit.....

and then they go upstairs and undress together.

flan notes:

they were constantly looking at each other’s bodies

flan feeling “liquid and naughty” when they did. even before putting on the dress, she feels powerful.

“[natasha] looked at me as i felt the sudden true flush of desire.” <- actual line from the book

later during the party, while flan and adam are having sex, flan spends half the paragraph thinking about how gorgeous she/natasha is. flan really does not miss an opportunity to talk about natasha’s beauty throughout the book lmao

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another thing flan does is describe natasha using romantic metaphors.

like she literally associates natasha’s gum with a kiss and then admits to using pathetic fallacy.

flan does it a lot throughout the book.

and not just that. natasha also plays the role of a boyfriend in flan’s life, and flan is always happier to be with natasha than with gabriel or adam.

and when adam flakes on his date with flan, natasha literally takes her out to the movies.

speaking of movies, the day flan was supposed to go to the movies as a date with gabriel is the first day that she helps douglas hide his homosexuality. most of flan’s friends’ issues mirror flan’s own, as shown in the halloween party. callous breakups, jealousy, etc. struggling with being gay in a homophobic society is a major theme in the book with characters like douglas and ron, and it would make sense for flan to experience it, too, even if she doesn’t realize.

a lot of gabriel and flan’s relationship reads to me as a metaphor for comphet. not only does flan not like him, but she talks about how things are supposed to be.

(also, on the previous page, flan compares kissing gabriel to opening an old carton of milk. she isn’t thrilled lol)

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even though flan’s feelings for adam are more intense than the ones for gabriel, they’re also forced to a certain extent.

heres the first time she talks about adam:

natasha is shocked. if flan truly loved adam, wouldnt she love him fully? if she did, natasha’s inital reaction would be supportive, but instead she just makes fun of him. flan never even admits why she likes adam, not even to herself. flan doesn’t even think that she and adam will work out, judging by her hesitancy. over and over, natasha tells flan that adam is a jerk and to get over him.

flan tries very hard to convince herself that she likes adam, and it works. she’s telling everyone (and herself) that she loves adam while also avoiding him and not having any reason to love him, other than the superficial.

“he is the only appropriate person for me to like”

natasha didn’t find out gabriel’s crush on flan until september 21st, over 60 pages later. lily might have known, but who was natasha thinking about???

also, flan and adam are also cast as husband and wife in the play. they are literally playing the parts that were given to them!!

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even though flan has gotten herself in deep, there have been multiple times where flan almost does get over adam! she mentions feeling bored of him, avoiding him, just not caring until he always ropes her back in at the last minute. she’s put her self-worth in his opinion of her, and doesn’t give up until the very end.

from the beginning, adam was always more of a symbol than a person. he represents men as a whole, or the idea of them. flan literally falls in love with an image of a man (the statue of david) rather than an actual one, and projects that image onto adam. kate and flan talk about how they would be better off without all the adams.

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all her life, flan has been fed these societal expectations on what kind of relationships she should have and who she should be. she clings onto those expectations, even when she never loved adam to begin with. it takes her until halloween to accept that whether he likes her or not doesn’t matter -- he’s a jerk. in general flan’s arc is about how societal pressures, to act a certain way, look a certain way, love a certain way, etc etc can mess with their own self perception and maybe cause them to kill someone.

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Trigemine is such a funny character when you think about it. He’s a genius when it comes to math. He hates math. He’s a time traveler. He somehow broke his time traveling device. He’s quasi-immortal but he’s afraid of a child with fireworks. He’s godawful at his job. No one can remember his name. He regularly makes kids do his job instead of him. His childhood crush literally died because he liked her. He basically has pattern recognition autism™ and is in a constant state of overstimulation but he thwarts it by hunting down people with magic powers. He was brought along to a dance battle with the devil. He was never heard from after said dance battle with the devil. He truly is just nagspeake’s biggest loser

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jo is aroace. argue with the wall

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⚠️ BEWARE ⚠️

the homoerotic girlbestfriend situationship CAN and WILL kill you

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just watched ari and dante and i am filled with emotions.

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i'm rereading the end of tb8 and can you imagine how it would feel to be one of flan's friends then? like you have this friend and she's comforted you through breakups, kept your secrets, always had something clever to say. a good friend.

sure, sometimes people might say things about her or sigh when she tries to stifle a laugh for no reason at all, but they also roll their eyes when they see you wearing pearls to school or when you tell them your favorite musician is some classical composer who died a hundred years ago. of course flan doesn't fit in with the rest of the roewer populace--she's one of you.

but then it's halloween night. youve already thrown up, cried, gotten drunk and whatever else you can and can't remember, but you're shocked into sobriety when you see her. frantically wiping the stains off the carpet. hydrogen peroxide is good at removing blood, right? where does v____ keep it? you're only eighteen. you have your whole life ahead of you. so did adam. lily, put the fucking kettle down! hot water will only make it worse.

and then you don't know when you stopped cleaning but somehow you're at the lake with the rest of your friends, and you can't forget the smell of flesh splattered on neatly-cut grass but flannery can, it seems--except when she remembers, in sudden bursts of clarity, which is almost worse. and you can't always recognize her when you look into her eyes but sometimes you think you can still see dried blood in her fingernails. and it hits you, flannery culp, editor-in-chief of the literary magazine, shakespearean actress, your friend, murdered someone. you love her and for the first time in your life you're scared of her. would that be fucked up or what