You know what i can’t stand the saying if you don’t look for it, it will come to you. The whole reason why we are here is to reproduce, literally most girls dreams is to meet her prince charming but how comes we never find that prince charming that everyone has a true love but some people don’t even find that true love till they get really old.
I really don’t think this world is real because how is that possible. What about the old couples who had been together for years and then sadly one of them dies does that mean that wasn’t there true love or even when you are young you find someone who is true love and they die, for instance Kobe and Vanessa who loved each other deeply but he sadly passed away was that not her true love.
It makes me question things so much! Not only that, why is it hard to find someone genuine, I don’t want to be waiting till i’m 40 to find someone to love me or settle for shitty abusive guys. I have no clue with all this stuff.
the love I experience feels like a caterpillar dying to form into a new body a beautiful butterfly, but does it emphasise at the end of the formation you’re free from the hurt and pain or is it he has changed? but do you want to risk that?
You know where you are stuck in a situation, where you have to decide if you stay with the man you love or leave for your self love?
It’s one of the most impenetrable situation to face, it’s damaging because you want everything to succeed however, when you haven’t been the same for months, how are you meant to cope. They say it’s just rough patch and will work it out but not when the relationship hasn’t been itself for months, arguing is a religious cycle, and is extremely diffcult to cope with, tears fall from my eyes every day and night for just some connection which should come easily regardless, but never seems to be found. So what do you decide... yourself or them?
I've started a film journal, and it's really fun not gonna lie, people should really do this! Even my professor told me to do it! I wish I could find some old French books but don't know where to get them or name of them lol as like the aesthetic of it!
Now I'm 21, I've gone through a lot from the past 7 years, I suffer with anxiety and did 7 years ago, I suffer with depression and get stressed a lot and trying to work on it, I've deleted social media lie Instagram and snap chat and changed it by doing uni work or reading a book I've been trying to finish as I have dyslexia it takes away for me to read! But I love reading! Would love to hear your recommendation on books if anyone see this. Ellirose🤎