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Hmmmm haven’t been here in a while…. Life ain’t too bad atm. Still a nurse but now I work in the emergency department and it’s pretty cool. Socially this year has been pretty fun. I’ve greatly enjoyed spending time with my friends and getting closer to them! Dating is dating lol, had an old fling recently re-enter my life and I’m trying to navigate that in a healthy way as well as keeping myself from being hurt. Also recently met this other guy on hinge, we’ve been on 2 dates so far pending the 3rd. He seems like an intelligent and really nice guy so I’m excited and hoping it goes well between us. But I still do have TONS more to learn and know about him. So like mentioned life ain’t so bad. Excited to continue my growth and see where I end up. Also refreshing to not be writing such a depressing post hehe. anyways here’s a song I really like right now

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Well today is my 7 year anniversary for this tumblr so woo!! I think I’m gonna try to post on here more because I really do enjoy this emotional outlet. I have now been a nurse for a 1yr and 3mo and I’m doing pretty damn good. I was surprised but I’m now a preceptor which means I get to train new graduate nurses on our unit! As far as my self love journey, I think we’re moving in the right direction lol. Some days I feel like the baddest bitch on the planet and some days are the opposite. It’s crazy how much a person can grow if given the time and I’m very proud of my progress. I’m definitely no where near done but still happy about where I am today. It’s been a few months but I bought my own place so I’m officially a homeowner and I love it! There is so much beauty and freedom in living alone and I’m so content. I debated a roommate but ultimately am glad that I didn’t get one. Eventually whenever I decide to start a family I won’t get the opportunity to be selfish so I’m taking advantage of my time now and it’s awesome. I’m at the point in my life where I need to decide my next move. I’m debating if I should go back to school, switch units at my hospital or get a part time job. I’m still young so there’s no need to rush but the voice in the back of my head is doing so regardless. Anyways, here’s a song I really like atm

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Well here we are… idk why but I whenever I decide to update on here I’m usually sad. No changes today because I’m currently depressed hehe. But I am working on celebrating my wins so I’ll do that first. It’s been 4mo since but I’m a nurse now! I’m working at my first choice hospital and I’m seeing/learning so much. I’m really proud of the progress I’ve made in my career and I’m stoked to see where things go for me! And I’m not one to toot my horn but honestly I think I’m doing a damn good job for being a new grad nurse and sometimes I even feel like a bad ass lol. Buuut despite things going well for me professionally, I’m still sad. It’s very frustrating because when I look at my life, I really don’t have anything to complain or be sad about. I wish I didn’t have these feelings or emotions but yet here I am. Recently I’ve been moping about being lonely, which is something I’ve always done but right now in this moment of my life I’m seeming to hyper focus on this. When I do go down that rabbit hole of being sad ultimately it leads to my insecurities. I have struggled with insecurities my whole life which is also frustrating. Overcoming my insecurities is something that I need to do and want to do. Ofc it’s easier said than done though. I’m trying to actively put in the work but I’m so susceptible to my sad, dramatic, and sometimes untrue thoughts of myself. And literally all it takes is one insecure thought about myself to set me back. I think overall I’m making progress on this journey but it’s very often I get sidetracked. I promise to myself to keep working on this and give myself the love I deserve. I know one day I’ll get there and I can’t wait. But in the meantime I guess I’ll keep celebrating my wins and I’ll also try to not be so dramatic lol. I’m not sure what the topic or goal of this post was but honestly who cares. Till next time ig

Current fav song 10/26/21

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Lol it’s sad time

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Wow, I’m honestly doing great. Still in school but graduating in 7mo. I’m learning more and more about myself everyday. Learning to love myself more and more everyday. Things are genuinely going well. Sure I have small blips along the way but in the grand scheme of themes I’m happy with my life and excited for the rest of my journey.

10/9/20

Current fav song atm: stay x mac ayers

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Sometimes I forget how far I’ve come which is terrible because I’m really proud of myself and where I’m at/on my way to in life.

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Wow

These niggas really ain’t shit

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2/26/15 At seventeen, the hardest choice you should have to make is what clothes you want to wear, or what food you want to eat; not sitting at the edge of your bed at four in the morning considering whether or not your existence matters in this world. (A.)

(via halluzinogen)

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*hits rock bottom once a week* 

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me: *discussing w/ myself in my head*

me: my thoughts exactly

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Be the person you needed when you were younger.

Anonymous (the best advice you could ever give someone)  (via indapendent)

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shoutout to me for ruining my own life

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