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Leaving [Raleigh Becket x reader]

Hello, lovely! This is my first fic + English is my second language. That being said, I hope you enjoy this, feel free to reach me - like, share or write to me!     I'd be happy for anything.

Warnings: angsty, reader smoking

A/N: [Y/E/C] = your eye colour        [Y/N] = your name        [Y/H/C] = your hair colour        [Y/H/L] = your hair lenght

After his brother's dead Raleigh Becket felt horrible, there weren't the right words to describe his feelings - guilt, regret, murmuring, sadness, anger, and many more. He was so confused about all of this, but there was one thing he was sure about it. Without his girlfriend [Y/N], he'd be lost. She was there for him. She took care of wounds he had received in battle with Kaiju. Her fingers trailed hair on his scalp, and she hummed sweet melodies into his ears while he couldn't sleep. She stayed with him during the worst part of his life, and he hadn't been so grateful for anything else that had happened to him. Raleigh hadn't realized how stressful it was for [Y/N] until he caught her smoking on their's balcony. "I thought you had quit." The tall blonde muscly man was leaning against the doorframe of a balcony. "I did. This is...It's just-" She didn't have a chance to finish it. "[Y/N], please, don't do this." Raleigh sounded hurt. She knew that he wasn't okay with it. He hadn't been since the first day of their relationship. She cut her bad habit, but occasionally, when she was in stress, she would light a cigarette or two.

  Eventually, they move to Sitka, Alaska. Raleigh was helping to build the Wall of life, which was supposed to protect people from Kaijus, and [Y/N] was working in a local hospital as a nurse. Though it was a simple monotonous life, they were enjoying it. Finally, they seemed to be truly happy after a long time, but it didn't last long.

  [Y/N] had been home already, when Raleigh got there. Usually, he would call her 'sweetheart' or 'love' or some other of her many pet names, but this time he didn't. He said only 'hi', and went straight to the bedroom. Of course, she followed him, immediately she knew something wrong very very wrong. She found him sitting at the edge of the bed, head in his dirty hands. She walked in front of him, kneeling to be at the same eye level. "Hey, what's wrong, huh?" She asked him kindly, but he didn't even look at her. "Raleigh...." This time there was more pleading. "Pentecost wants me back piloting Jaeger. He visited me on the wall today." He mumbled, still had no courage to look directly at his girl. "And? What have you told him?" After a moment of deathly silence, Raleigh looked at [Y/N], answer to her dreaded untold question in his beautiful blue eyes. She got up, tears forming in her [Y/E/C] eyes, and then falling to her rosy cheeks. After a deep breath, Raleigh got up as well. He embraced [Y/N] into one of his big comforting bear hugs, slowly rocking her back and forth. "I'm leaving tomorrow morning, but I promise you that I'll come back as fast as possible. It'll be okay. Nothing is gonna happen." The rest of the evening was quiet, and since Raleigh had to leave soon in the morning, they went to bed early. All night was Raleigh tossing and turning around, unable to find any comfortable position. It was roughly three in the morning when his hand instinctively went to the opposite side of the bed, expecting to find warm smooth skin underneath it. It wasn't there. He opened his eyes, in an attempt to find [Y/N]. A small light coming from a nearly closed door caught his attention. Groggily, he got up and followed the light to the kitchen. There she was, sitting on a chair smoking a cigarette. Her whole body was shaking because of her cries, watery [Y/E/C] eyes looking so dull and without usual lively spark. "Honey, come on." Raleigh took a chair next to hers. He reached to grab a cigarette from [Y/N]'s shaky hand and crushed it to an ashtray. Then he pulled her to his nap, caressing her [Y/H/C] [Y/H/L] hair. "R-raleigh... don't go, please don't leave. What if you won't come back?" She whined into his chest. "[Y/N] look at me. They need my help, but like I said earlier today after I'm done beating that Kaiju's ass - I'll go home to you and I'll make love to you, so much that you won't be able to walk for a week. Okay?" A bitter-sweet chuckle escaped his lips. Deep inside, he was scared as [Y/N], but he knows, how much she will be worrying about him. He can only imagine how many packs of cigarettes she will smoke out, and there will be more - sleepless nights, lack of eating. It'll be just the same as the previous time of his serving. Yet he had no choice. From what he heard from Pentecost, he could say it was pretty serious. For now, he wanted to cheer up his girl, at least a little bit. "Okay, but if you get hurt, I'll kick YOUR ass." "That's my girl. Wanna cuddle?" Raleigh spoke excitedly, [Y/N] just nodded and wrapped legs around his torso. He walked them to their bedroom and they shared last peaceful moments.