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watching videos with that beautiful guy and learning how to use chopsticks (i dont have chopsticks)

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china and hungary connected, i knew it, my conspiracy teories were right...

is xi hungarian

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is lifelover became trendy band for edgelordy ekids? sounds horrible but literally in the last week i saw 2 kids wearing lifelover tshirts. first one was a girl who looked like she saw the tiktok with e-goth essentials-jewerlies-fishnets-makeups, bought and put it all on and going to make a tiktok herself with her same e-looking friends. and the second is just today, a boy who look like yung lean probably looked in 14 (i guess) in tshirt with their edgiest album cover (that ugly one with bloody naked blonde), and his hair wasnt long wasnt even medium lenght... like i cant know for sure but really doubt they do listen to the music like this. how its happened? what is this world become in which every schoolkid can hype on lifelover? i wonder if kim carlsson knows about his ex-band popularity and what does he thinks of it if he does...

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ok i didnt know that keiji haino has a cat

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i know i know i can be a bit of naive but i seriously thought that keiji haino is a guy everybody knows, loves and respect. but then i read comments under a stunning live show of fushitsusha... i keep on forgetting that most people are stupid

specifically these two are similar to something my sister would say even when she was in her "punk phase" (she literally was a poser btw). she used to think that nobody can really like things like this and that i listen to noisy experimental music just to look edgy and cool. feeling almost nostalgic when think abt this lol. but it acually hurted (maybe it wasnt if i knew how fake is she. maybe she just projected her own insecurities on me idk. all the other ppl keep on saying that im always so honest)

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fuck i shouldve steal an unused roll of wallpapers from a rent flat i lived few years ago. and some more ware. and i shouldnt have left those broken garlands, i couldve used them like some decorations now, like a glam version of barbed wires SIGH at least i stole few tiny cups, weird dog-shaped moneybox and a glass orb...

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im just really really lonely. just so utterly, absolutely lonely. its destroying me.

you may think that its well deserved, that im a bastard, a disgusting miserable prick. then you dont understand. you dont understand anything at all.

its unbearable. i cant take it. i cant kill it. i tried everything i could. yet im still lonely. i have nobody. nobody get it. nobody knows how its like.

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Fuck My Stupid Baka Life And Living In Fucking Ukraine, The Biggest Fucking European Country That Still Happened To Not Having A Single Chinatown like wtf theres so little chinese or even just any asian ppl the whole europe has and yet this motherfucking biggest european country doesnt like some fucking biggest loser and i stuck in it like an idiot with no chinatown like what the fuck

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was in a city centre with mom, got the most chinese can of herbal tea ever (red with gold hanzi). joked that its probably some very all-healing tea. then read the ingredients and theres some "heal-all" flower. and amongst thhe hanzi i could translate "bright years" i guess and definitely "hundred years" (+also "drink", "tea" and "many")

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also today i saw a hobo woman, sitting in a company of pigeons and munching on some crumb she found on the ground. i havent seen a femal hobo in years. nature is healing i guess?

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btw yesterday i listened to random yt playlist with random chinese music and there was a video of some song from some live show of some band who were all old dudes in caps with ugh red star on them. song was evenkind of rock but slow, not heavy at all, somewhat melancholic and repetitive (and 8 minutes long) and somewhy it was nice, despite red star caps and everything it was very nice. i think that song made that chinese grandpa who lives in my soul feeling very nostalgic, i felt it...

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i dared to follow the blog of chinese modern history and now tumbur keeps on suggesting me communist/socialist/leninist blogs =( =( =( =( =( =( =( fuck off, i dont want this ussr shit, i just love china, why dont you suggest me some good chinese blogs, why its only substracting the worst of it =( =( =( =( =( such a disgrace =( =( =(

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fun fact: i have a second bottle =) my mom once got some set of perfumes in funny little bottles and gave me those when theres no perfumes left bc im honorable admirer of useless but pretty things

dior poison perfume series ౨ৎ ⋆ ｡ ˚

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horrible sugar blast death is cancelled, i was magically cured by listening to japanese nursery rhymes and tuluum shimmering at the same time