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Ada Limón, from “The Hurting Kind,” in The Hurting Kind

[text ID: Before my grandfather died, I asked him what sort / of horse he had growing up. He said, / Just a horse. My horse, with such a tenderness it / rubbed the bones in the ribs all wrong. / I have always been too sensitive, a weeper / from a long line of weepers. / I am the hurting kind. I keep searching for proof.]

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there's a man giving a talk in Paris, France. his talk is called 'the anatomy of a dive'. he can hold his breath for over 8 minutes. he once saw a whale in the water. he competes sometimes, he says. and the audience there ask him what the trick is.

"the trick is to never look up, you look up and you've lost." he says, "your body can't help itself, if it sees the surface, it'll try to take in air.'

yeah, okay. that's a good trick.

i wasn't there to listen to you but this guy was. he liked your speech, he brought your picture over to us. you know the one with you in your gear, in the water-- the anatomy of a dive?

he projects it on the big screen. he says, "it's good advice. know your goal but keep your eye on the rope in front of you."

so, the entire walk home from the auditorium i try to practice the trick. i'm here to look for the rope. but it's early April, it's an unusually cold night, and the wind makes me stop to catch my breath. it's dark, it's a sketchy neighborhood, i have to pick up my pace sometimes and that, too, makes me stop to catch my breath. walking up these stairs, unlocking my door, taking off my shoes, makes me stop to catch my breath.

yes, i know this was never the point but i'm sitting on the couch now. i'm on the phone with someone and i'm saying 'yes' when i think i should say 'yes'. i'm thinking about how i'll never be a competitive diver.

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oil and steel by henri cole

this is all to say i think mark scout is essentially mark s' dad

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Soot by Kaveh Akbar

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Three Times My Life Has Opened by Jane Hirshfield

happy march 1st everybody

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after a death by Roo Borson

so i watched severance

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Afraid so by Jeanne Marie Beaumont

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Mary Oliver, "Sometimes", from Red Bird.

John Green, The Anthropocene Reviewed: Essays on a Human-Centered Planet

Richard Levine, "Believe This", from That Country's Soul

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God Says Yes to Me by Kaylin Haught

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Romanticism 101 by Dean Young

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in paris with you, james fenton

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my friend doesn't dream often

so when she does dream, she makes sure to write it down in her journal. it's very important to her that she remembers these things and it's important to me to remember these things about her. a few days ago she messaged me to say she had a dream wherein she was waking up in my apartment as the kettle clicked off.

my partner in life dreams often and vivid. she wakes up in the middle of the night to recount every detail and sometimes, even thinks about them late into the afternoons. i wonder aloud if they mean anything and she says they should mean something.

snow and dirty rain, richard siken; turpentine, richard siken; housing shortage, naomi replansky, ii from twenty one love poems by adrienna rich

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snow and dirty rain, richard siken; turpentine, richard siken; housing shortage, naomi replansky, ii from twenty one love poems by adrienna rich

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Now That I am In Madrid I Can Think by Frank O’Hara