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“I swear, gentlemen, that to be too conscious is an illness—a real thorough-going illness.

-Fyodor Dostoyevsky,

Notes from Underground, White Nights, The Dream of a Ridiculous Man, and Selections from The House of the Dead

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i want you to be ok

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Exhaustion

Feeling tired is a natural part of being human, but it can be especially difficult when there's no one to lean on. The weight of exhaustion can become overwhelming when there's no support system to help carry it. It's easy to feel isolated and alone when you're exhausted, and the lack of someone to share the burden with can make it feel like the exhaustion will never end.

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Clarice Lispector, from “A Breath of Life”, published posthumously in Brazil in the late 1970s

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“The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren’t paying attention to before.”

— Good Will Hunting

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My little revolution.

I believe this world needs more compassion. And why not start right here? With this next thought. With this next feeling. 

Can I just let it be exactly as it is?

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In this kind of reality, it's both a blessing and a curse.

- Beau Taplin

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The tighter we grasp the sand, the more sand falls through the hand.

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“I hope I haven’t already driven past my greatest moments. I hope there is something beautiful on the horizon that’s just as impatient as I am. Something so eager, It wants to meet me halfway.”

— Rudy Francisco, Helium

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“I’ll tell you about it if I ever get it straight in my head.”

— Ernest Hemingway

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But I’m sure you have people who can help you. That’s a special right you only have at your age, so enjoy it. It’d be a waste to blow it. 

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Low Effort Magic 🌙

I have a hard time doing something that involves magic every day, even though I've been on this path for quite some time.

Practicing magic a lot is by no means mandatory but it does help (in my opinion) to get better at it and it just helps with everyday problems. So here are some low effort activities you can do everyday that will hopefully help those of you with similar problems!

Write words like "protection", "healing" or whatever you want into your drink with a straw or spoon before you drink it. Or draw sigils in it.

If you feel super exhausted for no apparent reason, open a window and scream or, if you like it, put on some angry punk or metal music to banish whatever is feeding on your energy. While you're doing that, keep in mind that you want to banish. Otherwise you're just playing angry music. Yelling "Fuck off" also does the trick.

When you eat or drink something, try to pinpoint at least one magical property of each ingredient in your drink/food. It can also be one that has no historical evidence but is personal to you. That will help keep you in the magic mindset and also helps you to get all if that info into your long-term memory.

Open the window, stand in front of it and breathe in the air deeply with your eyes closed while you remind yourself that tge wind is part of nature and that you're connected to it. It doesn't have to be a half hour meditation, 5 seconds get the job done as well.

Offer everyday activities to your deities. For example: cooking for Hestia, standing up for yourself for Loki, practicing magic or **self care time** for Freyja, disposing of trash the correct way to your local nature spirits, etc

Take a shower or a bath, or just wash your face or brush your teeth with the intent of cleansing yourself from all that negative energy that has built up over the day.

That's all for this time. If you like it I'll do another one. :)

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“I didn’t grasp that the shadows that sometimes crossed her face weren’t momentary clouds passing in front of the sun. Her deep silences were more than daydreams. And her habit of standing with her arms wrapped around her ribs was a way of holding herself together.”

— Chelsey Philpot, Even in Paradise