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Update!

It’s been a while! College has taken up my time, more specifically my food funds, but I’ve been trying to make the most of it. Due to the lack of time to chill I lost a small amount of weight BUT I’ve been able to somewhat keep the spirit going!

Holidays have been my friend lately. Halloween I got this huge bucket of candy that I’ve only just started reaching the bottom of (and I am about to refill it). This fall I’ve been able to relax more and eat how I wanted to. Let’s see if I can get back what college stress took.

Meanwhile I have started to get some weight back it’s definitely a different composition. It’s mainly going to my belly atm and I DEFINITELY DON’T MIND. Literally just reclined in my desk chair after playing some games and I saw my belly jiggle like jelly =Ô- Ô=… I was like “gosh I gotta write an update now!”. Let’s see how winter continues to treat me.

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Trying to eat a fair amount today. I typically eat a lot but today I want to try to go further. So far I had a large stack of pancakes for breakfast and tried something different today. Eating a whole cake. Note it was simply a 2 layer 6 inch cake, Not those big cakes, but I ate it all. I had to space out the slices but I had the goal of at least finishing before family came home (to hide the evidence). Mission accomplished. I have a bunch more I plan to eat today. Gonna go to McDonald’s in a bit, I still have the half dozen donuts I got this morning, I have a bunch of pizza to work with, and I have a half gallon of milk and a liter of sprite left.

Just some thanks to my tummy lately- especially after how long of a week last week was. Ôu Ô

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Gosh I’m so soft now. While I haven’t gained much lately I’ve just gotten softer. When I used to just get a large pinch of my belly I can now get a handful. It’s become a comfortable armrest when I’m reclining in my bed or car. My tummy has been treating me well 🥺. I wish I didn’t have to work tomorrow- I would have rewarded it with a large pizza for its kindness. I guess cookie will have to due for now…

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Been a while.

Sorry I haven’t been posting lately. Been busy with life in general and it’s been getting in the way of me doing things related to this blog.

Bad news: lost some weight. Only about 8 pounds. Still 160+ but darn it!

Good news: sure I lost weight but what I lost was the fat that was rather temporary (visceral) and I didn’t mind that much because if I could choose what fat I wanted sticking around it would be subcutaneous fat. If you know me- you know I LOVE jiggly fat. Visceral, appreciate you bud but you don’t achieve that personal goal. ANYWAY- how is this good news? Well I am trying to gain again it’s mainly doughy fat now and I’m 100% down for that. My belly is getting super doughy. The layer of soft fat on my gut has gotten so thick that feeling my organs (aka when I try to gauge how full I am) is starting to become a challenge. I have to push down so much now it’s silly.

More updates below the cut:

In other news. I’ve befriended McDonald’s. So much so it’s kinda of a problem. And by problem I mean I have to plan out which ones I go to to eat within a given day because I’m eating so much there I’m embarrassed of the employees catching on to my gluttony (=Ów Ò=). I’m a shy gainer. Not my fault I’m going so much- their prices are so cheap for the amount of food I get AND they are 24 hours?! Ngl they are why I gained back 3 pounds of the 8 I lost so quickly. My belly has really been craving McDonald’s and it’s not like it’s financially taxing like it’s demands for Pizza Hut. While I say that- I am taking advantage of the 2 medium sized pizza deal going on atm for Pizza Hut. Really spoiling myself with two of my favorite foods.

Lastly, as for the size of my belly atm. It hasn’t changed much. Since the weight loss was more a change of the type of fat that was there my waistline just got doughier instead of smaller. Not sucking in, I just have this round dough ball that rests shyly in my lap.

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Out of Shape

I’ve been skimping a on my biking lately. Eating and sleeping and eating again is far more my speed after all. I just biked again since 3 weeks (even 3 weeks ago that was the first time in months) and oof was it tiring. 3 weeks ago it was tiring but I could still do a few things afterwards. Now? Was rushing my garage door to close faster so I can immediately lay on the couch. I weighed 172 this morning and when I put my muscle shirt on (it was always snug as it’s stretchy and goes over your form) my roundness lately can’t be hidden in this shirt. Had to put a hoodie over it to hide my softness from my mom. I love it but her, not so much.

Now here I am. Laying on the couch to recover while my hunger exponentially begins to increase as my body demands 2 grill cheese, a pack of sugar cookies, ramen, and pizza as an apology. It’s been so kind to me creating a soft tum to hug at night so I have to follow through with its demands, right?

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Softness survives

I have lost a bit of weight (about 3 pounds) BUT I’ve definitely gotten softer. I think I mainly lost hard fat as my belly mainly stayed the same in circumference. Well, more actually it went down when then when back up again but this time softer. I love playing with my tum when I have the ability to I think I’m at my largest waist yet (about 40 inches) and I can grab all of it. Every step I take my belly giggles a noticeable amount.

I’ve been doing a bit more in different types of work outs than my usual. And it my honestly be a factor in this? I’m no expert on it. But I think my pattern of eating a lot after I work out (I work out at the start of my days off and then I’m eating about 1.5-2x my daily calorie intake) has contributed to the “staying mostly the same but getting softer” thing. I see what this does in the future but I’m definitely curious.

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TRAGEDY STRUCK

I’ve made so much progress and it’s going to be undone! It’s not all bad and I have many plans for the future for gaining and the blog. The details are behind the read more.

TL;DR: encountered “living with family” obstacle for gaining. Gaining will be slowed down for now. Still want to gain and love the blog. Hope I can keep a soft tummy through all of it.

I still have to live with my family as this economy makes it impossible to move out without stress when you don’t have a college degree (hence me in college). It will still be stressful when I move out but at least a tad less. ANYWAY. Because of this I’m stuck with my mom. Love her. Great mom. So great in fact that she CAUGHT ON to me gaining (I have no clue how as I wear baggy clothes normally….. actually she’s a sluth and noticed my eating habits… that’s probably how) and she’s road blocking me. She wants me to be dieting and exercising (more than I usually do) for at least 3 months😭. I mean sure but my progress mom!

Yeah this is all personal preference and all and I can met her demands but there is just ONE thing I will hate about this. My periods will suck again. While I hate having to think about owning a uterus because enby moment I unfortunately have to acknowledge it monthly but with my weight gain the pain actually borderline went away. It has never skipped a month nor has it gotten heavier or lighter than normal. Everything is the same except it stopped hurting and I find that win! But it will probably pull out the knife again if I loose weight.😔

POSITIVES: because let’s look on the bright side of this. I can just gain the weight back again! I’ll have to do it much slower and subtly to avoid mom detection. Guess that can be a neat challenge! I know my mom is worried about me but I have a personal limit weight wise (regardless of how I feel when I get there 200lb is my limit. It’s just for my overall personal health history. I love to gain but I know my limits……if only I could gain without having that issue…. A perfect world.). Overall this will just be another chapter in my history. I could also spend this time figuring out ways to gain that are less obvious. It might be hard but I’m thinking large amounts of healthy food (calories are calories) might work but healthier food is more expensive. I eat healthy food already but only eating it to gain will be a challenge. Let’s see how that goes! I hope that even with the weight loss I get to keep a jiggly tummy- even if it’s not big. If the visceral fat went away but the subcutaneous fat stayed mostly my tummy will still be soft and that’s what I’m here for in the end. =ÓwÒ=

Will I still be active on this blog? Yes. I’m still interested in this and I’ll be sharing my thoughts on bellies when they come to mind as usual! The gaining part will just be slowed down for a while. I still got two weeks! This dieting thing isn’t official until March thankfully. (I have time to eat the cake I literally just bought and was about to try to sneak in when mom stopped me to talk about this)

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New Stuffing Record!

6,000+ Calorie stuffing (last record was 4,000+). An all day stuffing as I was in a cycle of eating what I could then falling asleep for 1-3 hours and repeating. My breakfast was my entire expected calorie intake for the day and I just kept going from there. Was stuffed so much that by morning I wasn’t quite empty yet. Unfortunately I now have to work for a few days so I can’t keep it up as I would want. But hey, I work mornings so I have all night to myself.

I also may be pushing the 170lb mark. Not entirely sure as when I weighed myself it was while I was stuffing myself so it’s not too accurate lol. But the scale said 171 this morning and if I adjust it a tad it’s probably 168/69.

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Outgrowing

Was putting on one of my older pants. I have 2 of these pants (when it comes to the time I bought them)- I’ve had them for a while. When I started weight gain they fit for the most part. Was able to put them on fine. My belly started to make it’s way over the waistline but otherwise they fit. That was when I could see my waistline with them on. Lately I noticed that my belly now completely obscures it a solid inch out. Not only that but it has become slightly challenging to put them on. Had to suck in slightly to button them. Might need to get new pants soon.

Not only have I started to outgrow my pants, A hoodie of mine that fitted perfectly when I got it started to show signs of it’s time running out. First my belly pressed against it (I typically like baggy clothes) but nothing crazy. When I put it on today, on the other hands, it barely fits. It now can barely fully cover my belly that is now peaking out slightly from the bottom of it. Will definitely expose it if I raised my arms. So if I keep growing my belly will make itself known. I also have this other shirt that was a normal T-shirt in high school (it’s design had it slightly raised at the hip a smidge). Now it’s nearly a crop top. The bottom rests at the top 3rd of my belly and I honestly treat it like a crop top at this point.

I love my chubby belly and it’s quite take over and command of my old clothes.

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Goal Met!

I can confidently say I have reached my goal of 160lb. My new job, while not fantastic pay, pays just enough for me to maintain eat how I wanted for the past few months and I give it thanks for making my goal.

My waist is now about 38 1/2 inches -39 inches. When I was at my smallest I was 33 inches. It’s so soft now. It comfortably sits in my lap now and jiggle a bit wherever I go. It’s gotten so doughy that whenever I try to feel my stomach (to see how full I am so I can eat some more) I can’t feel my stomach. I’m just pressing my hand into a soft hungry pillow. The proto side rolls I had before have matured to full ones. Now they are always there and not just when I lean to the side. I love how I can sort of hug my belly when I lay down (especially when I’m going to bed. like a teddy bear). I just have a cute belly to play with now and I appreciate it. Idk if I’ll be intentionally gaining as I’m pretty happy where I am now. I’ll just keep being me and whatever happens down the line will happen. My prediction is I might gain a bit more by accident but I think I’ll stagnant after that. Only time can tell!

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So I’ve just remembered about the calorie tracker I was using a while ago. It truly has been a while because I’ve been so busy. I decided to put in what I’ve eaten yesterday just for grins. It was a slower day than a I was hoping so I would probably not met the thresh- WOAH I WAS 1,000+ OVER? No wonder I’ve been gaining a bit lately (stress helped too). I’ve been eating so much lately all that had to go somewhere. WELP time to just keep at it. :]

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A Predicament

Wanting to lay around all day and be on and off sleeping. Maybe because of food coma, maybe because being lazy. BUT this prevents me from eating as I only have so much food near by when laying down.

Me: “It’s time to eat some more I’m hungry”

Also me: “tummy too heavy to get up. Time for sleep.”

My body: [wants to do both at the same time]

Me: ….. hmmm. This is a slight issue.

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Not used to drawing this realistic but I think it came out good- ANYWAY this is pretty much my body rn. Reference from a pic I took while in older pants. Those pants still fit but as low rises lmao. This peep might be my persona for this blog. I’ll see if I can find an earlier pic to reference for a comparison drawing.

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Update? Possibly? Progress I think???

So life’s been busy lately so finding the time to eat as I please is a bit hard. BUT I have been eating what I could when I could and I think I gained a bit. I wasn’t checking the scale while it happened because just eating and seeing what happens way later is more fun. I noticed that my pants that were barely hanging on (in a “I’m slightly too small” way) now fit comfortably nice (in a “still need a belt but I’m more in this pant size than before). Shirts that used to be the perfect size now fit in that “kinda fit but belly is noticeable” way. I HAVE GAINED A SIDE ROLL. It’s a baby one but it is indeed a forever present crease of my belly’s sides. My belly has been jigging a bit more than before when I move around. Belly also started to eat more of my underwear/pants in muffin topping (belly would slightly touch thighs when sitting before. Barely counted. But now it is certainly resting on my thighs a bit). My belly has gotten softer than before (can grab most of my belly and play with it a bit now, not just my lower belly). Belly has leveled up to point that it is very slightly in the way now when I eat in the car.

So yeah! Definitely something! From what I can conclude from a few days of weighing myself (typically after bathroom breaks to eliminate that external factor as close a possible) it looks like I’m about 157-8 LBs. slowly but surely I’m approaching my goal :].

Anyway- back to eating as much as I can before folks get back into the house. They can’t find out about my growing appetite if I eat all the evidence >:3c

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Chubby/Fat belly weight gain “problems” ;)

Having your pants/skirts leave impressions on your belly after wearing them for a while.

Figuring out the sweet spot when using a belt between “comfortable but new pants are falling down” and “pants not fall down but I need to release my belly because of this isn’t comfy”. This sweet spot changing as you get bigger

Mid rise pants being forced to be low rise because ya tum is too big for that old pants size.

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Here’s a new self portrait for ya. Gained a bit lately. I’ve been using a tracker to keep up it and it has paid off. I go into detail in my new weight below :]

To give a bit of perspective of the changes now:

- My belly is starting to rest on my lap a bit.

- From my pov, I can no longer see my nether region while sitting (pants or underwear)

- My belly is the doughiest it’s ever been

- I can feel my belly jiggle when I walk now. ESPECIALLY after sudden movements (all the stopping and going I’m doing at work for example)

- I can grab a handful of fat from my gut

- I have pre back rolls

- tummy is really pushing the limits of my formal work pants

- belly button gotten deeper

- sucking in just makes look “slightly chubby” then “average” like it used to

- don’t need belts anymore for the pants that used to need them

And for the measurements, I’m pretty sure I’m 155+lb (I’m always eating so It’s hard to be sure lol) When I weighed myself this morning on an empty stomach I was 158lb pushing 159lb. My belly, though, has DEFINITLY gotten bigger. 34-35 inches was before and now its 37-38 from the look of things (also measured in the morning on empty stomach). Oh and that’s another thing. It was slightly more challenging than the ease I had before when measuring my waist because my belly is starting to make it hard to see the results looking directly at my belly. I have to line the tape up to get the measurement THEN move it up a bit if I want to read it while still wrapped around my waist. Gosh I remember having to stuff myself silly to just get a bloat of 36 inches when I used to have 33 inches. Now its just... IS.

I’m going to keep going while I have the money to. College is going to cut my money hard so my fun gluttony will be halted but I’ll have this soft stress ball to comfort me in the meantime. :]