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Goodbye

Everything and everyone has chapters. Chapters hold memories, experiences and feelings. Then, when everything is drawing to a close and the last chapter is written it all comes together to create a story. Stories that are passed down through generations. Each one totally different but also, very simply, exactly the same. The chapters in my life are a mixture of happy and sad. Black and white, and then all the greys in between. This particular chapter of my life had so many things in it that it definitely falls in with the grey. This chapter started off on tumblr, we will call this the root. A site that I found my freedom in. I found myself in amongst that freedom. I could write, reblog and like everything that on other sites and in reality would have been frowned upon. It was my happy place that I would spend hours scrolling through, totally content, the root slowly grew into a bud. That freedom then stretched to me writing my feelings down and in particular writing them to one person that I allowed into that bubble of freedom. It became an indirect communication source that caused the bud to blossom and it grew into something beautiful, exactly like a flower. If flowers aren't cared for they begin to wither. Tumblr withered in this case. The flower died and then suddenly it wasn't a happy place anymore. All good things must come to an end. The site does not bring a smile to my face now. It caused unwanted desires for things that I know are toxic to me. It made my impulse stronger than my head. Causing me to fall into toxic things more than once. No ones fault, only mine. You learn some thing new in every chapter of any book or any movie. You also learn something new in every chapter of your life. You gain new feelings along with those lessons. I've never learnt more about myself and the world than I have in this chapter. This chapter has come to an end, I'm moving on from it. I'm not saying goodbye to the feelings, memories or people in this chapter. I'm simply letting them go. Which is why englishcoffeeaddict won't be deleted, i will just log out (i was too proud of the name when I thought of it to delete it) . So the heart isn't beating anymore but the soul is still there. The flowers DNA. I hope future me comes back to this chapter and remembers the lessons, the feelings and the memories and that she is in a safe place in which she is content. I also hope that this chapter and its lessons helped carry her through what ever is coming next. So long, farewell and thank you.

One last thing for the flower in this chapter, you know what to do with this;

gracias por todo. Siempre te necesitaré en mi vida. siempre te apoyaré. las promesas nunca fueron nuestro punto fuerte. eres mi amigo te amo

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I'm always going to be here if you want to come back. I promised I'd never leave and that's a promise I swear I'll keep.

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you might not have been my first love but you were the love that made all the other loves irrelevant

Rupi Kaur, Milk and Honey (via thelovejournals)

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Rose & Rosie

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Understand that shes mine. (:

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Forever

I can’t wait to marry my wife. We will both be wearing white dresses. I’ll probably be wearing converse. Then off to our two week long honey moon and then back to our cute little home right out side the city when we both start our big world jobs. Two dogs. One child. One love. One dream. I can’t wait for forever.

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I’m the type of girl who even after 10 years of marriage will still want to sleep in each others arms. I’ll still surprise you with thoughtful gifts to show you how much I think about you when we’re apart. I’ll always try to see your side first in a fight. I’ll build you up when you feel like the world is tearing you down. I’ll leave you little post it notes to find that tell you how beautiful you are, how much I love you, or how lucky I am to have you. I’m the girl who will never stop showing you how important you are in my life or the value I see in you, no matter how much time goes by

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If you meet somebody and your heart pounds, your hands shake, your knees go weak, that’s not the one. When you meet your ‘soul mate’ you’ll feel calm. No anxiety, no agitation.

Monica Drake, Clown Girl (via thelovejournals)

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Okay but, I don’t think people appreciate kissing enough. Like, you’re just sitting there with someone and transferring your energy to each other and it’s so beautiful. In that moment, it seems like all your worry just melts away. There’s no school, no work, no priorities, it’s just the two of you in the moment. Stop fighting, just kiss.