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introduction to the haunting of hill of house by shirley jackson, by laura miller

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The Book of X, Sarah Rose Etter

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by Roger Karlsson

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LOVE QUINN | 3.05 “Into the Woods”

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@warbyrds says " i've been having weird dreams. " and she's almost sure her heart - beat becomes a war chant in his chest, hitting hard against her rib cage and leaving her hands shaking, leaving her feet unmoored on the floor. she's been having that feeling again, the one where the eyes feel like fire on her skin and she can see the fingers slipping under the window pane, and when her ears fill with the sound of a long lost lullaby. under every moment of happiness, there lingers this dread, a sensation that the ground could fall out from under her feet at any moment. the house will swallow up anyone who thinks they can save her, waits with jaws unhinged and claws waiting, and she's never been able to free herself. and now, the panic sets in, bile rising in her throat as she thinks it's coming for carol, imagines that these strange dreams are a passing infection, something that will slip around another's bones and drag them to the grave too. she feels apologies building through her body, words she cannot explain for why she imagines that she's something to do with this. " what ––– what kind of weird dreams? " there's a shaking in her voice, a firmness to the way she clutches thin fingers around carol's arm, holding tighter than she ever has before, knowing it will never really cause anything. she can feel her own heart - beat through her hand, knows carol can probably feel it too, and the worry comes off her in waves. " have they been happening long? "

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↪     ᵗʰᵉ 𝑫𝑼𝑺𝑻𝒀 𝑻𝑶𝒀𝑩𝑶𝑿 .    (  a  collection  of  various unsorted sentence starters .  adjust  phrasing  as  necessary .   no longer updating .  )

why are you here ?

drive .  drive fast .

i think we should make an informed decision .

are you coming or not ?

you’ve been avoiding me .

[ name ] ,  what were you thinking ?

this should be your priority .

let me hold you for a minute .

get out of my way .  i won’t tell you again .

that wasn’t supposed to happen .

can you keep a secret ?

i don’t know what i did to deserve you .

you seriously think i could’ve done something like that ?

you’re safe with me .

sorry isn’t good enough .

where is all this coming from ?

who told you about that ?

sorry i’m late ,  i got caught up .

you’re being paranoid .

why are you looking at me like that ?

you’re the single most important thing to me .

all i’m asking is that you hear me out .

whatever they told you ,  it’s a lie .

we shouldn’t stick around here .

hold my hand ,  i don’t want to lose track of you .

[ name ]  …  truth or dare ?

i love you .  nothing’s gonna change that .

can you tell me what happened ?

you can’t come around here anymore .

back off ,  okay ?

what ,  you don’t have time for me anymore ?

you’re asking for too much .

i’m trying to start a new life .

what do you mean ,  you aren’t coming back ?

sometimes i think you must hate me .

why can’t we just talk about this ?

i know i fucked up ,  you can stop rubbing it in .

you’ve got quite a reputation .

i’m not usually like this ,  i’m sorry .

please ,  just let me explain myself .

i love watching you work .

we’re on the same team .

did you ever tell anyone ?

you’ve got a lot of explaining to do .

really funny ,  you’re very mature .

you call THAT a PLAN ?

can we get out of here ?

i thought things would be different .

this is not up for debate !

do whatever you have to do .

karma’s going to get you for that .

it could’ve been a lot worse .

i asked you to leave me out of this .

maybe it’s time to take a leap of faith .

i never want to see you again .

can you see how many fingers i’m holding up ?

i’m gonna be there when you get what’s coming to you .

you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me .

i’ve been waiting all night for this .

i told you not to contact me .

sometimes i really think you have a death wish .

what do you need ?  —  what can i do ?

i would do literally anything to keep you safe .

that was supposed to be a secret .

you haven’t called me that in years .

stop telling me to calm down !

we make a pretty good team .

i have so much i want to say to you .

i’m not going to let anyone hurt you .

can we please not do this right now ? 

wait ,  wait  …  just breathe for a second .

how are you holding up ?

why don’t you stay the night ?  i’ll take the couch .

i don’t need your protection !

you’re not making this easier on yourself .

are you going to let me in ?

i’m supposed to be protecting you .

i will kill you if i have to .

do whatever you have to do .

this is going to hurt ,  i’m sorry .

what happened to you ,  where have you been ?!

there was nothing you could’ve done .

you’re all i need right now .

i don’t believe in love at first sight .

have you been following me ?

i need you to believe me .

what do you remember ?

i’m not a good person .

what the hell’s going on with you ?

you’re being followed .

just when i thought my day couldn’t be any worse .

i’ve been having weird dreams .

so you’ve been lying to me this whole time ?

are you trying to get us killed ?

this is the worst thing that’s ever happened to me .

i never asked for your help .

you’re being followed ,  pretend you know me .

why has it started to feel different with you ?

don’t worry ,  i have a plan .

i heard everything .

do you need to sit down ?

i have the right to know what’s going on .

i’ve just gotta catch my breath .

stay out of my business .

what did you think was going to happen ?!

don’t cause a scene .

tell me something about you that i don’t know .

can i buy you a drink ?

what if  …  we played spin the bottle ?

this was never a problem until  [ name ]  came around .

you can’t ask me to make that choice .

are you seeing anyone right now ?

i need you to listen to me ,  we don’t have long .

you’re lying ,  that doesn’t make any sense .

you look  …  stunning .

what are you trying to prove ?

who died and made you the boss of me ?

you can’t just show up here like this .

let me make it up to you .

there’s no way i’m leaving you like this .

can we stay like this ?  just for a little longer .

i don’t need you to fight for me .

so  …  you lied to me ?

you’re the only one that can help me .

i can’t help you if you won’t let me .

i never introduced myself ,  i’m [ name ] .

i expected more from you .

you have no idea who i am ,  do you ?

are you real ?  is this real ?

can i stay with you ?  just for the night .

you’re going to get yourself killed .

why did you help me ?

tell me what i can do to help .

pick a card ,  any card .

i never wanted any of this .

i love you .   you don’t have to say it back .

do you wanna get out of here ?

what the hell are you talking about ?

i should have trusted you .

get your head out of the clouds .

how is any of this MY fault ?!

what aren’t you telling me ?

i can’t help you if you won’t let me .

it’s never just one with you ,  is it ?

you’re not supposed to know about that .

shut your mouth .

i haven’t kissed you yet ,  today .

where is this coming from ?

come over here and make me ,  then .

keep lying to yourself ,  see where it gets you .

i’m not a bad person .

is that what you wanted to hear ?

we can’t be seen together .

i can’t give you what you want .

i need you to leave .

are you drunk ?

i’m here ,  i’m here .  i’m not going anywhere .

you might want to take a seat for this .

have you been listening to anything i’ve said ?

i haven’t heard from you in weeks .

you’re jealous ,  aren’t you ?

who do you think you’re talking to ?

what are you reading ?

you could’ve killed me !

come on ,  we don’t have time for this .

i just need ten minutes of silence .

really ?  that’s all you have to say ?

we could leave ,  you know .  go far away .

you don’t look too good .

i never want to see you again .

why can’t you just leave me alone ?

i thought you died .

you’ll do anything for attention .

give me another chance .

how’s the weather up there ?

all you do is hurt people !

i’m sorry ,  none of this makes sense .

you need to get out of here before anyone sees you .

i told you i didn’t want you around here .

is that supposed to be a threat ?

you’ve changed .

don’t look at me like that .

it’s a beautiful day ,  don’t you think ?

i did what i had to do .

you never know when to stop .

i’ve got to get home ,  it’s getting late .

i have nothing to prove to you .

stop LYING to me  …  all you do is lie .

you don’t have to be nice to everybody .

don’t tell me what to do .

pull your head out of the past .

nobody can help me .  i can’t even help me .

we are not talking about that right now .

are you new around here ?

you have no idea what you’re starting .

i’m gonna get us out of here .

whatever you came here to say ,  i don’t want to hear it .

everyone’s staring at us .

is there anything i can do to help ?

i won’t cause you any more trouble .

– just follow my instructions for once !

do you want to come in ?

i just didn’t know what to do .

you need rest ,  lie down .

i’m not who you think i am .

i don’t know what you want me to say .

you’re not like anyone else i’ve ever met .

i feel like i’m going insane .

stop asking ,  you’re not going to like my answer .

i didn’t want you to see me any differently .

i wish i knew what to say to you .

don’t give me that look ,  you know what i mean .

you should be afraid .

do you still love me ?

i never thought i’d get this far .

the world doesn’t revolve around you .

i need you to give me some space .

i know what you’re doing ,  don’t play games .

you left me to die .

i’m beyond repentance .

when are you going to get it through your head ?

i missed you more than i thought i would .

i’m in love with you .

what do you need from me ?

i’ll kill them ,   just say the word .

[ name ] ,   what are you doing here ?

how can i help ?

you’re pathetic .

i need you to come pick me up .

where have you been ?  it’s eleven o’clock .

i couldn’t live with myself if i let you get hurt .

i can’t just pretend it didn’t happen .

you’re a real piece of work .

do you remember how we first met ?

when did all of this fall apart ?

that’s not what i came here for .

i would do anything for you .

i don’t need you to hold my hand through this .

are you sure this is the right thing to do ?

can’t we try to pretend things are okay ?

what is THAT supposed to mean ?

you’re always late ,  what am i supposed to think ?

there’s nothing you can do to fix this .

you’re far too kind to me .

can we go now ?  like ,  right now ?

i have to do this alone .

where’s your common sense ?

we aren’t supposed to be in here .

can you feel my heartbeat ?

i think i’ve seen you around before .

why are you acting weird ?

i have a really bad feeling .

i hate seeing you like this .

how am i supposed to react to that ?

what do you want most in the world ?

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@bravegroupie says, " don't get mad at me, but the cactus at my desk died. " and the thing is ––  it feels almost normal. he's gained this habit of crashing into her life and shaking the ground until the carefully built walls she's kept around her start cracking. newts presence seems almost inevitable, an earth - quake that she cannot run or hide from, and she's never been one for thrill - seeking but maybe she'll stand in the eye of a storm for him. the coffee in this place isn't good enough that it warrants a visit at three pm every week day when she's working, so she's started thinking that maybe, just maybe, there's another reason he comes back relentlessly, always with some new problem or story to put a smile on her face. she's been smiling a lot more these days. it's starting to feel like she isn't choking on the laughter, like her lips know how to form around the sound again, and she swears her cheeks have re - found the colour pink around him and she cherishes it. it's a funny thing when the ghosts fall back and butterflies start flying through her chest. something to enjoy. " ne –– wt. " his name almost sing - song on her lips, becoming two syllables in the way she savours it, swears to keep it safely tucked between her tongue and teeth. what a lovely thing to have a name to say like that on a tuesday in the rain. " i only just came to save it the other week!! how do you even kill a cactus? they're so low effort that it should be impossible, newt. " but she's laughing through the words and the scolding falls so far short that it can hardly be called that, a fondness wrapped so tight around every word that they could stick honey - thick to his bones. she's drawn a heart in the foamy milk at the top of his coffee, a strange progression from the way classmates would write the names of boys on the football team in their notebooks. maybe she's always been one for showing up to life later than the rest of the world. " did you at least bring him with you so i can take a look and see if he can be saved? "

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bringing back my hc that when nell likes a person she says their name constantly ... like multiple times in a sentence constantly ... bc they're real and they're there and she's spent so long with everything unspoken and feeling like a ghost that she really likes the physicality of having someones name to say

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THE HAUNTING OF HILL HOUSE    1.05 The Bent-Neck Lady

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baby 🥺💚

nellie at newt always:

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— Franz Kafka, The Blue Octavo Notebooks

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she should say no, should say it's a family thing and there's people waiting for her but the truth is, she hasn't managed to call any of them yet, hasn't the bravery to stomach their sighs. and she can feel all the worry and panic in luke's voice sitting in the back of her throat, and she's tired of carrying all of this alone, of being the one with the belief, the one who always gets the phone call and drags herself across the country to try and bring her brother back. she'll do it every time, always anything for luke. "he's an addict." and it's heavy, gravity dragging her limbs down to the floor; how long did she go without admitting it? she shouldn't say yes, but tiredness lingers so she follows him on without protest, desperate to share something of it. "he's not been in contact for a while and he called this morning. i don't know what happened but it's never been good before, and i don't know how long he'll stay at the address he's in... or how long he can stay convinced not to go back out and get something else. do you have satnav? i can put the postcode i got in... if you're sure you don't mind driving."

HE'S IN THE MIDST OF A NOD when eleanor better details the reasoning behind the request , and all of a sudden sebastian's face changes in understandable concern . ❝ christ , of course you can , of course — DO YOU WANT ME TO DRIVE ? i can come with you . ❞ he jogs to his front closet to pull out a coat , fling it on , then dart around for his keys . ❝ not judging your driving , of course , BUT I'M FAST ; if this is an emergency , let me help . i'll help . i'll join you . ❞ fast talking as he locates his keys , bundles into his jacket , and beckons her out the door . ❝ here — my car's just down there . WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOUR BROTHER ? what sort of trouble is he in ? ❞

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gaze widens slightly at the use of a full name, initial bristles pushed back into a laugh by the moment, carol taking the statement more seriously than nell had thought possible. when she's honest about the years spent moving, avoiding the gaze of an old house, she never quite realises what other people hear, how many obvious moment she'd missed out on. "it wasn't that high on my list." but the movement leaves her laughing, and the connection of the moment fills her lungs, and she'd stay for the whole series if it would make carol happy. "do we need supplies?"

❝       eleanor crain.       ❞ it comes out more of a gasp than a name, the disbelief so absolute all she can do is stand there, wide-eyed, mouth ajar. the seconds tick by until upwards of a minute has passed and she thinks to press her lips together at last. ❝       you did not just tell me you've never seen star wars.       ❞ with a light shake of her head, carol sets a determined course for the dvd shelf in the back corner of her living room. ❝       that's it, we're correcting this travesty right now.       ❞

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"he's really trying you know." there's a slight defensiveness to her tone, attention seemingly more taken with the dirt that gathers on her shoes, the back and forth of a swing that creeks. from aunt janet's kitchen. shirl watches them, and they're all ten years older than every memory she has of them here, wrapped in this strange family reunion built of silences. it takes a moment before she's smiling at @cathaedra. "i think it'll stick this time. luke really wants it to stick."

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"i heard a story that went something like this once." there's a horror in the newspaper again, and she's skimming over it with a disinterest she has forced, last remnants of self - preservation. her stomach turns when she thinks about it too hard, when she gets stuck on the details and imagines people more complexly than a movie. it's a passing comment she overs out to @batinstincts. "i think it was the son who did it in that."

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LOVE QUINN | 3.07 “We’re All Mad Here”

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something about it unnerves her, settles strangely in her bones. people tend to know their story, have seen it plastered through magazines and books, and dissected on podcasts, devoured it as if it couldn't possibly be real. arms become a cage around her as she looks to @banehaunt, hopes that she's right, and that this gaze is something else. (hopes that she's wrong and nothing worse than an assumption is happening.) "that's a funny look you're giving me."