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Having a traumatic childhood means you cannot talk even objectively about your basic foundational experiences without it being "venting", even if you're not actually venting. You just straight up have a huge chunk of your life you can't talk about, full stop, without it being trauma dumping.

And it not being socially acceptable to talk about your own childhood is super alienating. Sometimes people want to know why, and any answer you can give them is going to be off putting.

It's to the point I get irritated when something I said is framed as venting when I'm literally just talking about my life experiences, doing my best to keep emotion out of it.

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Playing the game where I other parts of myself in order to help change my behavioral patterns. Anyway, now we have Tom who represents my trust issues and my desire to isolate myself from people who could "hurt me"

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Ah man my therapist is leaving. Starting over with a new therapist means I have to explain the whole shitload of family trauma all over again

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You know you're fucked up when you say "I don't know how to justify fun"

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My mother says she will no longer send me letters begging me for attention anymore. I'll believe it when I see it.

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I think one of the most damaging ideologies towards children is the conviction that having children isn’t a calling but a moral obligation.

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Forgot the songs about suicide

Re listening to my favorite songs from my childhood is like "song about running away", "song about feeling like a monster", "song about begging for relief", "song about feeling unrecognizable", "song about disassociation"

Like damn bitch? You really lived like that, huh

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Re listening to my favorite songs from my childhood is like "song about running away", "song about feeling like a monster", "song about begging for relief", "song about feeling unrecognizable", "song about disassociation"

Like damn bitch? You really lived like that, huh

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My sister (different mother) was kind enough to ask my mom for a medical family history. My mom clued into why she asked and I am betting will send me another letter within the next couple weeks to try and guilt me into reestablish contact

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my teacher: you are so good with people, you should be a therapist :)

me, having vivid flashbacks to my childhood:

me:

me: hahaha it's funny you should say that-

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idgaf if my parents are disappointed in me I'm not impressed by them either

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Mentally healthy children don't master the art of a silent break down

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"You can't cut your family off! They're your family! You only get one!"

Snip snip bitch

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When you're a texter, not a caller, specifically because texting gives you proof of a conversation which you feel like you need because your mom was a hardcore gaslighted who loved saying "you didn't say that"