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we were faster than a bullet, you faded ‘til you lost your hue.

wish i saw what i couldn’t, cause i was left a sunny blue.

and you buried your emotions; you swore that we were both in tune.

became everything you wouldn’t while i married the thought of you.

i thought that you would follow through and through, through and through.

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I confuse people. i have a happy personality and a sad soul. i'm bold but shy. i love deeply but sometimes i feel heartless. i'm healing and hurting at the same time. i'm dedicated to growth, but i self sabotage

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Staying in a relationship just because you love someone is not worth it. love is not all you need. Respect is what you need. Time is what you need. Reassurance is what you need. Happiness is what you need. A bestfriend is what you need.

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I am a mosaic of everyone I have ever known and loved and touched and I find fragments of them in my playlists and how I make my tea. we may not know each other any more but we will stay connected like this. I hope a fragment of me is with you too.

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THE OMKAR (OM)

Om is the first mantra. It is the seed syllable of reality Itself.

Om begins and concludes every ritual, meditation, and mantra. Om begins and concludes that Thing we perceive as the Universe.

Om encodes the destination, the map, and the practice of the spiritual path.

The dot embodies the non-dual divine reality inherent in/as all Beings. The loops of the symbol demonstrate the shapes of human consciousness: waking life, dreaming, and dreamless sleep. Dividing the space between Reality and the shapes of human consciousness is a single swoosh, the Illusion.

This symbol is the reason for why some make a distinction between awareness and consciousness. Consciousness can change into many shapes, textures, and flavors. While dreaming, waking, and dreamless sleep are a few, consider also the shapes consciousness takes when exposed to psychedelics.

Yet even while consciousness can shift and change, there is an unknown knower of all these changes that is itself changeless. By unknown, what is meant is that consciousness cannot know this awareness any more than a cartoon character can know its cartoonist. However, that awareness can know itself.

The awareness in all living Beings is that divine reality. Some call it awareness because it is aware of consciousness due to the knowing capacity inherent in awareness but awareness is much more than just that. So why not call it Divine? That is just as good a description for its staggering majesty as any other.

Through an inexplicable and illusory occurrence, this awareness (or Divinity) has mistaken itself to be a single fragment of existence confined within the three shapes of human consciousness. From this arises the experience of separation, individuation, and suffering. All the while, the divine awareness is still the divine awareness. That's why this is called an illusion. It doesn't actually and never actually happened.

And that's also why Enlightenment isn't really a transformation but more like finally remembering or realizing how things actually are, hence realization. A person doesn't become enlightened just as a cartoon character doesn't realize they are the cartoonist. It is the cartoonist who remembers themself.

A non-dual teaching summarizes this succinctly: "There are not two selves, one that realizes the other."

In the end, the only real Self that we have and are is that divine awareness.

All of this and more is encoded in this lucid symbol and simple mantra...

OM

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The "I'll break my own heart before I break yours" kind of love

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via weheartit.com

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I have learned that the kindness you put out into the world is returned to you tenfold. You lose nothing from showing others kindness, but have everything to gain.

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I have my family and friends to thank for helping me through a lot of tough times. But in the same breath, there is a lot that I deal with on my own. I don't expect them know this or to carry my burdens for me, they are mine to face alone. But it just feels like when I take time to take care of myself, when I focus on making myself happy whether it's through my actions or who I spend time with, someone will find something criticize. Why doesn't anyone ever just ask how you're doing? They're so quick to blame me for my lack of presence or communication without asking me why. We all have our own demons to deal with. I guess my friends are so used to seeing the happy me that it doesn't occur to them that there might be more below the surface. Sometimes I don't have the energy to be in an environment that consists of mainly friends taking shots at each other. In a perfect mental state, I'm all for it, but there are moments where I just want to relax, be with company that feels soothing and exudes positivity. What's more frustrating is the fact that relationships work both ways. Most of the time I'm in town, I try to make plans with the group. The only exception are the past month or two months, but before that, I always took the initiative. Did anyone ever ask when I was coming down? Did my true friends visit me without me asking? It's exhausting being blamed for small things because you're suddenly the outcast. There's no point in even trying to explain myself because it'll all sound like an excuse to someone. And people tend to be so set in their ways, they're not even listening to what is really being said. All I can do is deal with the consequences until I can get myself together. It's the perfect example of how no one looks out for you the way you do.

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Got so much love for you and you don't even know it

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Just a random photo drop c:

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And be, with those who make you feel most alive.

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