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I don’t know how to love you.

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I think about you. But I don’t say it anymore.

Marguerite Duras, Hiroshima, Mon Amour (1959)

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currently battling my insecurities .. one minute I’m moping around and the next I’m like, “nah, get your shit together”. *sighs* Just need to breathe.

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In love with Kauai

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the idea versus the reality

Nothing ever comes easy, but the fear is kicking in. Taking the time now to make a solid decision and get a head start planning. I still have 5 weeks before school starts and if I do this right, maybe I won’t be so stressed out later. 

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I have so many opportunities ahead .. Am I willing to give it up for some change/challenge? Currently weighing the pros and cons, but it looks like I’m really going to go for it. I have a couple of months to decide. I know whatever I choose, I’d be okay. I know whatever I choose, I can make it. In need of prayers.

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364/730

Originally, I had saved tomorrow for a day to stay in, lay in bed, and reminisce .. but, it turns out that I have so many plans for tomorrow with my mom, then my friends. It’s funny. What I thought would be a day that I’d be sad .. I’m not. And I’m glad. I’ve grown so much. Who/where I was 365 days ago is, well, not the same. Next week, I finally get to go on vacation for 10 days, come home for a week, and pack another bag for another vacation. I feel so content. 

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