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Announcement

I’m going on another break Sasha ( @infcct3d-zw0mb1eez) will be taking over my account again any posts/messages from this account will be from them

I feel like I do this way too much so I’ll put an explanation below- (tw? Idk read at your own risk)

So basically I have moderate to severe depression and mild OCD (along with other stuff but yeah) and I just moved to a new state and it’s been really rough to say the least. At my last school I was fully out as trans and I got bothered sometimes about it but people mostly left me alone and the teachers were all super supportive and great. I moved to a new school in the middle of the school year and it has a dress code which sucks because I express myself through my clothes. This school is awful the first day people wouldn’t stop saying the N word and other slurs (ppl who couldn’t reclaim them) and it was a really rough transition. I’m openly bisexual at this school not trans because I’d be hate crimed bisexual is the most they’ll take but I’ve been called the f slur, given death threats, and repeatedly harassed over my dyslexia. I’m not being bullied per se but I am just receiving a lot of shit. I feel like I lost my main support that I could lean back on and I’ve been having a hard time coping. I’m going to a different school next year so that’s cool it should be a lot better but currently I just feel a bit lost and I’m really just tired and I’m not in therapy like I’m supposed to be because my old therapist isn’t licensed where I moved.

This break shouldn’t be too long I’m not planning on leaving that long just till I can get back on my feet.

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The fire extinguisher is a last resort.

(Don’t mind the quality I couldn’t be bothered to fix it 💔)

Collab Gacha

An old little collab that I created but didn't post. Hoping there will be some takers. 😌

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“Why don’t you do free art/editing commissions for your friends anymore?”

I don’t do requests because it takes so much of my time. If you want something from me that I say will take me awhile please offer something in return. Sometimes I’ll do things for friends that take me like 20 minutes max but I won’t be spending 6+ hours on something without any compensation in return.

I’m not asking for money just some kind of trade so it doesn’t feel like your using me for my efforts cuz that has happened to me and the person liked to mark my edits as their own and even started taking edit requests from other people and made me edit the persons oc cuz they said they would but they didn’t know how to edit.

I do gifts like the birthday edit for Sasha shown above but please don’t ask me to do that for you I do it if I want to/have time to/care about you enough to spend hours my time to make something that just might make you smile for a second.

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skk

I feel like posting stuff a made a bit ago that never saw tumblr

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Sorry I haven’t been posting or responding on here my depression has been kinda messing me up lately and I don’t have the energy to do much of anything but here is a quick post featuring @n3no-n3o-neur0n and @glitchthemagician ocs cuz I have the screenshots already lol

Once again I apologize but I’m not currently in therapy when I’m supposed to be and frankly my meds aren’t enough. I’m fine I just probably won’t respond to DMs on this platform for a little till I’m feeling a bit better. Feel free to message me on discord or any other social media app you may have me on it’s less stressful for me to look at a few messages on there rather then a bunch of messages, comments, tags, ect ect on here. :)

(This isn’t me saying I don’t want to be interacted with on here just don’t expect a response)

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THANK YEW!!!

OMG?! my dad whose always been a bit transphobic but not like harassing ppl over it or anything just showed me his amazon cart asking which book was better and they were all books like "life as a trans teen" or "how to help your trans teen" ect ect. IS THIS GROWTH??? I MEAN HE ALWAYS CALLS ME A GIRL AND REFUSES TO ACKNOWLEDGE I'M TRANS UNLESS IT BENEFITS HIM SO IS HE ACTUALLY GONNA TRY? Holy fuck I've had a bad relationship with my dad for awhile is he finally gonna try and fix it???

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:p

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Firstly, when you get this, you have to answer with 5 things you like about yourself, publicly. Then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool)

Oh fuck you sound like my therapist lol /silly /pos

Okay uhhh

1. I like my eyes

2. I like my grades (3.8 GPA yay!)

3. I like my writing

4. I like my fashion sense/style

5. I like my taste in friends! Recently cut off the toxic ones :)

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CONGRATS!!!

Alt BFs also say congrats!!

WOWWIE

I just realized I've hit 200 followers!!

Thank you everyone 🥰🥰

Love you all

@espressodepressoconan @g1r-ap0ca1yps3 @ender-afton @tis-iroh @k3nnyb4by @theoisgay0 @bamgyuuu-2001 @worshiptheslice @creationverseblog @alternatememory @atlasprefects @ning-ningx300 @heart-2-hearts @cage-an-angel @matheusgaytriste @ravene @izumi-san888 @itzzzzzzyyyyydaaaaa @cadence-is-silly

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Happy gay time

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Just so everyone knows I will be making a pride month post as well as a men’s mental health awareness month post but it may be a bit so hang tight!

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I love this post! Yes June is also men’s mental health awareness month and it needs to be addressed not just pride month. Everyone should be able to freely express their feelings regardless of gender or sex.

June isn't just Pride Month.

It's also Men's Mental Health Awareness Month and that's something that should be talked about more. Social media and society often pushes hate onto men as a whole and it's honestly disgusting and I've seen from the people close to me irl and online that this affects them a lot.

A lot of the men in my life don't really talk about their feelings too much or at least don't say why they feel a certain way. There's stereotypes that men have to bottle up their emotions to be 'tough', which is so outdated and stupid. NO ONE has to feel like their emotions and struggles don't matter, they always matter. Holding it all in doesn't define strength, strength is in being able to show your feelings.

Pride Month often overshadows this and it's very upsetting. Not saying that's anyone's fault I'm just saying this should also be observed. We also just need to stop hating on men a whole, just because some men in your life may suck doesn't mean all men need to fuck off. I see hate towards men the MOST on social media, more than any other sort of discrimination (just my own social media experience but I know there's a ton of hate as a whole).

Let's look at some tags I found on Tumblr while putting tags in on this post.

Like I was DONE writing before the tags but I found these and put them just to prove my point. Fucking stupid. Can we just stop hating on people, this is part of the reason why they struggle so much.

Obviously I'm not a man so I can't fully speak on their behalf. But IF you're a man, know that you're not weak for your emotions. You are not weak for struggling. Your struggles are valid too. You are not inferior. You're human. And you're great. Please talk about your problems and feelings, it makes you strong. Your mental health matters, just like anyone else's.

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Happy Pride month!!

Remember to exist as loudly as possible, especially this month! We cannot be erased and will always exist, and that's exactly what we celebrate for pride!:D

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HAPPY PRIDE!

HAPPY PRIDE TO THESE PEOPLE IN SPECIFIC TOO

@pro-depresanti @patrik6090 @spaghettihell @frost-the-soulcrow-elytrian @ghostcat96 @deadskincellsonyourpillow @toppettehat @grownupchangeling @unt1ed-sh0el4ces @itzzzzzzyyyyydaaaaa @vex-ria @iri-desky @ning-ningx300 @lonely-abstraction @kens-a-dreamer @pennyroyald @system-of-cats @twiliartsdreams2017 @alastorssimpforever @sira0909 @m1stycl0udz @sashathegirl @frostfae-thesoulcrow

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Happy Sasha month y'all!

(Get it? Cuz your name is Sasha and your queer. God I'm fucking hilarious.🥳)

Happy June and happy pride month. I hope everyone has a great fabulous pride month.

Have a great pride month🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️

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I don't really like hugs but if its from my lovely mooties 100% yes.

Reblog if you want to give a hug to your moots

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Happy June and happy pride month. I hope everyone has a great fabulous pride month.

Have a great pride month🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️