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ethelcainlvr
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18. Black and Queer. Aspiring Author
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ethelcainlvr Ā· 3 months ago
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Oh my gosh. I just found this website that walks you though creating a believable society. It breaks each facet down into individual questions and makes it so simple! It seems really helpful for worldbuilding!
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ethelcainlvr Ā· 4 months ago
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this is what it feels like to not be into anyone
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ethelcainlvr Ā· 5 months ago
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How to use weather as a mood enhancer in scenes
Weather is more than a backdrop—it’s a tool that can subtly amplify the mood, tension, or theme of your scenes. Done well, it can evoke emotions and foreshadow events without being heavy-handed.Ā 
Melancholy:
The rain tapped against the window, steady and unrelenting, much like the weight pressing down on her chest. She pulled the blanket tighter around her shoulders, wishing the storm outside could drown out the one inside.
Restlessness:
The wind howled through the cracks of the old cabin, rattling the loose shutters. It wasn’t the kind of wind that swept things away—it was the kind that stayed and gnawed, a restless echo of her own unease.
A Happy Scene with Gloomy Weather:
Rain poured down in sheets, soaking her to the bone, but she didn’t care. She laughed, spinning in the middle of the street, her soaked dress clinging to her legs. For once, the world’s misery couldn’t touch her.
A Tragic Scene on a Bright Day:
The sun was too bright, its warmth mocking the cold numbness spreading through him. People bustled past, smiling under the clear blue sky, while he sat on the curb, clutching the letter that had just ended everything.
In a Chase Scene:
Fog blanketed the forest, turning the trees into looming specters. Each snap of a branch or crunch of leaves felt amplified, like the forest itself was working against him. He couldn’t see his pursuers, but he could feel them closing in.
During a Confrontation:
The wind picked up as they stood in the open field, her hair whipping around her face like a fury she couldn’t contain. Lightning cracked in the distance, illuminating the raw anger in his eyes. Neither of them would back down.
Redemption Arc:
The first snow of the season fell gently, covering the world in white. It felt like a fresh start, even if he didn’t deserve one. He reached out a hand, watching the flakes melt against his skin, and wondered if he could ever be that clean again.
Grief:
The fog rolled in every morning like clockwork, smothering the town in its heavy embrace. It had been that way since the accident, as if even the weather couldn’t bear to let go of what had been lost.
Loneliness:
The snow piled up around the cabin, burying the path and muffling every sound. She’d never felt the silence so keenly before, as if the world had decided to forget her existence entirely.
Isolation:
The heat hung heavy in the air, making it hard to breathe. The cracked earth stretched out in every direction, offering no shade, no solace. She was utterly alone.
Subtle Anxiety:
A bead of sweat slid down her back, but she wasn’t sure if it was from the heat or the unease that had settled under her skin. The humidity pressed in, making the air feel heavier, like it carried secrets she didn’t want to uncover.
Lingering Sadness:
The drizzle wasn’t enough to drench anyone, but it clung to her skin, a persistent chill she couldn’t shake no matter how fast she walked.
Weather isn’t just a backdrop—it’s a storyteller in its own right. Whether it mirrors your character’s emotions, foreshadows danger, or contrasts with the scene’s tone, it can elevate your writing when used thoughtfully. Just remember: subtlety is key. Let weather enhance your story, not overshadow it.
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ethelcainlvr Ā· 9 months ago
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If you're reading this...
go write three sentences on your current writing project.
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ethelcainlvr Ā· 10 months ago
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Wicked Game Pt 2 - Armando Aretas
Armando Aretas x Black! OC (Helena)
Part 1
After each fight, he’d sit down at the bar, cuts and scratches littered on his face and arms, discoloring his perfectly tan skin.
They’d exchanged naught but a few words since he popped up three months ago, most of them pertaining to whatever drink he ordered, his low raspy voice sending shivers down her spine all the same.
That all changes one evening.
It’s a few hours before Spades opens for the night. Despite the fact that she’s off for the day, Helena makes her way through a back entrance. She waves to the bartender in her place once she’s inside, along with a few of the dancers she’s come to know, all getting ready for the long night ahead.Ā 
Javier’s ā€œofficeā€ (she’s yet to see any work being done) is crowded like usual. His posse is gathered around the pool table, playing, drinking, talking.Ā 
Helena notices him first. His reserved demeanor is a stark contrast to the crew he’s with.Ā 
Helena watches Armando, settled on the arm of a chair right beside Javier. His eyes find hers quickly, as they tend to do, like he can sense her or something. He smiles, raising the bottle of beer to his full lips.Ā 
The sound of her own name breaks Helena out of her trance. Javier’s in front of her all of a sudden, blocking Armando from her view. He’s staring at her expectantly, a question in his furrowed brows, giving Helena the impression she’s completely ignored something he’s said.
ā€œI got what you asked for,ā€ she supplies, taking her best guess.Ā 
In lieu of a response he steps her out with her into the hall. The overlapping chatter and underlying music dim, and they're out of earshot of anyone still in the room.
Javier looks around the empty hallway, then stretches out his hand.
ā€œWhat did you find?ā€
Helena places the slim thumb drive in his open palm.Ā 
ā€œEverything you asked for.ā€
Javier closes his fist around the drive, rubbing his thumb across its surface thoughtfully as he nods, his sharp jaw flexing.Ā 
Helena’s come to know Javier as a relatively quiet man. Most of their conversations are just like this one, consisting of few words and many gestures.Ā 
ā€œThank you.ā€ His voice is grim when he replies finally.
Helena’s good with computers. In a way that allows her to blur the lines between public and private information.
In places like Spades, to people like Javier, information is invaluable.Ā 
When Helena, a 23 year old grad student, moved to this city, she’d needed money badly. She was more than grateful for the job, but bartending simply didn't cut it, when you factored in school, and the medical expenses her type one diabetes racked up.Ā 
Watching the kind of people that flowed in and out of Spades, from low level drug runners to the most powerful politicians in the state, she’d quickly learned the signs of status, the value of taking in information from all around her, and how and when to use it.Ā 
Javier, with his similar skill of discernment, had quickly taken notice of her, and they soon fell into a simple sort of arrangement.Ā 
Cash, for information. Names, addresses, bank statements, even blueprints like the ones on the flash drive she’d just handed over. The most important part of this arrangement is that, however tempted she may be, she never asked questions, never asked what he needed the information for, who it was going to.
Ā It kept her from falling in too deep, allowed her to keep what she did at this club in a small compartment of her life, kept her from having to ask herself the tough question of what exactly she’d be willing to do for money.
ā€œHe workin’ for you now?ā€Ā 
It’s likely the reason, when she asks this, Javier stops in his tracks and shoots her a quizzical look.
Helena has been around long enough to have somewhat of an understanding of how Javier operates. He keeps his inner circle tight, and from the looks of things, Armando has managed his way in, in just a few short weeks. She tries to convince herself this is the extent of her curiosity, but Helena doesn’t need to turn her head to know Armando is staring, she never does, and she’s felt his eyes on her for weeks. She wants to know why exactly he’s so interested in her.
Ā She nods subtly in his direction for Javier’s benefit.
He glances inside, following her lead.Ā 
ā€œSomething like that.ā€ He replies, as cryptic and dismissive as ever.Ā Ā 
Helena takes him turning away as a sign the conversation is over and despite the fact that her question remains unanswered, she turns to do the same. She should have known better than to expect a straightforward answer from Javier.Ā Ā 
She’s all the way by her car, after stopping to grab some things from her locker when she stops in her tracks.Ā 
There’s no reason, scientifically at least, that you should be able to feel someone looking at you.Ā 
And yet, inexplicably, when she turns around he’s there.Ā Ā 
Leaning against the back wall of the bar, arms crossed over his chest.Ā 
There’s a beat. Just a moment of the two of them watching each other. Then he stands, nods to the right, and steps out of the light, gradually disappearing in shadow of the rapidly disappearing sun.
She waits until the curiosity overcomes her, before she follows him into the quickly expanding dark.Ā 
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ethelcainlvr Ā· 11 months ago
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You will not use AI to get ideas for your story. You will lie on the floor and have wretched visions like god intended
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ethelcainlvr Ā· 11 months ago
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Wicked Game Pt 2 - Armando Aretas
Armando Aretas x Black! OC (Helena)
Part 1
After each fight, he’d sit down at the bar, cuts and scratches littered on his face and arms, discoloring his perfectly tan skin.
They’d exchanged naught but a few words since he popped up three months ago, most of them pertaining to whatever drink he ordered, his low raspy voice sending shivers down her spine all the same.
That all changes one evening.
It’s a few hours before Spades opens for the night. Despite the fact that she’s off for the day, Helena makes her way through a back entrance. She waves to the bartender in her place once she’s inside, along with a few of the dancers she’s come to know, all getting ready for the long night ahead.Ā 
Javier’s ā€œofficeā€ (she’s yet to see any work being done) is crowded like usual. His posse is gathered around the pool table, playing, drinking, talking.Ā 
Helena notices him first. His reserved demeanor is a stark contrast to the crew he’s with.Ā 
Helena watches Armando, settled on the arm of a chair right beside Javier. His eyes find hers quickly, as they tend to do, like he can sense her or something. He smiles, raising the bottle of beer to his full lips.Ā 
The sound of her own name breaks Helena out of her trance. Javier’s in front of her all of a sudden, blocking Armando from her view. He’s staring at her expectantly, a question in his furrowed brows, giving Helena the impression she’s completely ignored something he’s said.
ā€œI got what you asked for,ā€ she supplies, taking her best guess.Ā 
In lieu of a response he steps her out with her into the hall. The overlapping chatter and underlying music dim, and they're out of earshot of anyone still in the room.
Javier looks around the empty hallway, then stretches out his hand.
ā€œWhat did you find?ā€
Helena places the slim thumb drive in his open palm.Ā 
ā€œEverything you asked for.ā€
Javier closes his fist around the drive, rubbing his thumb across its surface thoughtfully as he nods, his sharp jaw flexing.Ā 
Helena’s come to know Javier as a relatively quiet man. Most of their conversations are just like this one, consisting of few words and many gestures.Ā 
ā€œThank you.ā€ His voice is grim when he replies finally.
Helena’s good with computers. In a way that allows her to blur the lines between public and private information.
In places like Spades, to people like Javier, information is invaluable.Ā 
When Helena, a 23 year old grad student, moved to this city, she’d needed money badly. She was more than grateful for the job, but bartending simply didn't cut it, when you factored in school, and the medical expenses her type one diabetes racked up.Ā 
Watching the kind of people that flowed in and out of Spades, from low level drug runners to the most powerful politicians in the state, she’d quickly learned the signs of status, the value of taking in information from all around her, and how and when to use it.Ā 
Javier, with his similar skill of discernment, had quickly taken notice of her, and they soon fell into a simple sort of arrangement.Ā 
Cash, for information. Names, addresses, bank statements, even blueprints like the ones on the flash drive she’d just handed over. The most important part of this arrangement is that, however tempted she may be, she never asked questions, never asked what he needed the information for, who it was going to.
Ā It kept her from falling in too deep, allowed her to keep what she did at this club in a small compartment of her life, kept her from having to ask herself the tough question of what exactly she’d be willing to do for money.
ā€œHe workin’ for you now?ā€Ā 
It’s likely the reason, when she asks this, Javier stops in his tracks and shoots her a quizzical look.
Helena has been around long enough to have somewhat of an understanding of how Javier operates. He keeps his inner circle tight, and from the looks of things, Armando has managed his way in, in just a few short weeks. She tries to convince herself this is the extent of her curiosity, but Helena doesn’t need to turn her head to know Armando is staring, she never does, and she’s felt his eyes on her for weeks. She wants to know why exactly he’s so interested in her.
Ā She nods subtly in his direction for Javier’s benefit.
He glances inside, following her lead.Ā 
ā€œSomething like that.ā€ He replies, as cryptic and dismissive as ever.Ā Ā 
Helena takes him turning away as a sign the conversation is over and despite the fact that her question remains unanswered, she turns to do the same. She should have known better than to expect a straightforward answer from Javier.Ā Ā 
She’s all the way by her car, after stopping to grab some things from her locker when she stops in her tracks.Ā 
There’s no reason, scientifically at least, that you should be able to feel someone looking at you.Ā 
And yet, inexplicably, when she turns around he’s there.Ā Ā 
Leaning against the back wall of the bar, arms crossed over his chest.Ā 
There’s a beat. Just a moment of the two of them watching each other. Then he stands, nods to the right, and steps out of the light, gradually disappearing in shadow of the rapidly disappearing sun.
She waits until the curiosity overcomes her, before she follows him into the quickly expanding dark.Ā 
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ethelcainlvr Ā· 11 months ago
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my dream as a fanfic writer is to write a story which people want to talk to me about and send asks about afterwards and discuss things the characters did and the symbolism and meanings behind certain lines and I'll be all "hehe thanks" but irl I'll be in literal tears because I wrote something that means something to someone
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ethelcainlvr Ā· 11 months ago
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Anyways here is the official gofundme set up by sonya masseys surviving family if you have the ability to give her family real tangible support
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ethelcainlvr Ā· 11 months ago
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Like, I get anxious to pay the rent. Like, to pay for groceries, like, real shit, right? And I was thinking it would be real easy for me to get really angry at these kids. Like, "Fuck them kids. They don't know shit." They haven't been through nothing, they don't know real stress. But I'm also like "I would give anything to be one of them motherfuckers." I'm jealous as fuck.
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ethelcainlvr Ā· 11 months ago
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Wicked Game - Armando Aretas
Armando Aretas x Black! OC (Helena)
warnings : descriptions of blood, injury
Helena wakes up with a start, heart thundering in her chest, the digital clock reading 3:00 am on her nightstand illuminating her otherwise pitch black room. She can’t parse what pulls her awake until she hears it again. A thud, the sound of various things tumbling to the ground coming from outside her door.Ā 
She creeps up slowly from her bed. Eyes wide, she fumbles around her bedside table until her hands clasp around her keys, and the attached pepper spray. Cringing at the way the metal jingles in her hand, she makes her way to the door.Ā 
Apprehensively, she steps out and flicks on the light, baring her spray.Ā 
What she sees draped over her couch makes the keys drop to the floor, the loud clatter echoing throughout the room.Ā 
He's dressed in black, like usual. His left arm, bloody and tightly gripping his side. His typically golden brown skin has taken on a pale ashen color.Ā 
For a moment she’s frozen, fear and confusion keeping her rooted to the floor.
Then she hears Armando’s low, pained groan and is spurred into action.Ā 
Ā Ā _____
She remembers the first night she’d seen him all too clearly. His first fight in the Pit, the well guarded, hidden sub level of Spades, the nightclub Helena bartended at.Ā Ā 
She hadn’t been paying much attention to the fight, but when a hush fell over the rowdy crowd Helena took notice.Ā 
The image of him was forever burned into her memory, this stranger towering over the Destroyer, the club’s reigning champ, a man likely twice his size and weight, immobilized at this newcomer's feet.Ā 
He stared out into the crowd, his searching glare inexplicably finding Helena. She sympathizes with the man at his feet. She too is frozen under his heavy gaze.
Ā He seemed relatively unscathed apart from the blood leaking from his bruised nose, marring his pristine teeth when he smiled at her.Ā 
ā€œYou know him?ā€
Ā Javier, Helena’s friend and the club’s owner, questions from beside her, breaking the spell she seemed to be under.Ā Ā 
ā€œNo,ā€ she replies, then shakes her head, as her voice is lost under the thundering cheers that erupt as this stranger is named victor.
He’s around much more after that. She learns his name quickly.
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ethelcainlvr Ā· 1 year ago
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Help me until we get out of Gaza. The situation has become unbearable. Help me before it is too late
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ethelcainlvr Ā· 1 year ago
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š“š‡š„ š“š‡šˆšš†š’ š‡š„...
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ā˜†å½”SUMMARY.; Things I believe he would do in a relationship that you’d (us.. all of us..😭) would find attractive
ā˜†å½”FEATURED.; ARMANDO ARETAS x READER
ā˜†å½”TROPE.; Established Relationship
ā˜†å½”FORMAT.; HEADCANON
ā˜†å½”GENRE.; FLUFF + SUGGESTION + A TINY BIT OF ANGST
ā˜†å½”WARNINGS.; mature language, mature actions, a lil bit of Armando’s toxicity shining thru, brief mentions of choking (not in like he’s gonna kill u type of way😭) brief mentions of violence, a little bit of spoilers ahead.
ā˜†å½”NOTES.; heyyyy thank u guys SAURRRR much for the love on the last Armando work I posted, I’m glad so many of yall liked it and I will continue to post and write about him šŸ«¶šŸ½. (And yeah I took that picture on the middle so be free to save.. cause whew lord..). I hope you guys enjoy this onešŸ˜›šŸ’•.
REBLOGS ARE APPRECIATEDšŸ«¶šŸ½.
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[IN PUBLIC]
✬ Armando would keep an eye on you, especially since he’s not a very trusting person to most
✬ He’s like very aware of the space you’re both in so he’d keep you at least within arms reach of him if it’s just a regular kind of day
✬ And he’d also do that thing where if he wants you to move, he’ll grab your waist and either shift you to where he wants you to do, or he’ll do that just to pass behind you
✬ And he a quiet person so instead of using many words, he just stares and expects you to know what he’s thinking
✬ If a situation arises where you’re doing something that he thinks you shouldn’t be doing, he’ll simply clear his throat and stare and he knows you should know what he’s thinking
✬ also this man has no filter whatsoever, so if you’re talking, it doesn’t even have to be to him, you could be taking to his dad or something and he’ll just blurt out some of the most insane stuff in either Spanish or English
✬ (like he did to that girl when he called her fine)
✬ like if you say ā€œim so hotā€ on a day when it’s scorching outside he’d def say stuff like ā€œI definitely agreeā€ or some shit like that just to embarrass you
✬ He’d also stare at your lips while you’re talking to him, especially if you’re mad at him
✬ and openly stare at your body too
[ON CASES || MISSIONS]
✬ you don’t even have to be in a relationship for this one but just watching him fight
✬ Each movement of his is so effortless and he just looks good each and every time
✬ He’d also probably see you staring and raise an eyebrow at you and tell you to pay attention
✬ would tease you on missions definitely
✬ especially if it’s a mission together
✬ only a bit tho cause he’s very focused on missions
✬ makes you be his backpack on his motorcycle
✬ he’d adjust your hand to where he wants it when riding the motorcycle
✬ drives it with one hand and occasionally taps at your leg with the other
✬ and if he has time, he’ll teach you to fight like he does
[IN PRIVATE]
✬ in private he’s definitely an attitude fixer
✬ if you do something to piss him off he’ll probably just stop talking all together until you apologize
✬ when that happens tho he furrows and raises his eyebrows a lot while clenching his jaw as a way to not get too annoyed with you
✬ curses in Spanish a lottttt
✬ and when you’re being bratty or rude to him, he’ll literally grab you by the neck and bring you real close to his face then say in your ear ā€œarregla tu actitud antes de que yo la arregle por ti..ā€ (fix your attitude before i fix it for you..)
✬ ofc he’d do that in public too
✬ I feel like he’d be a bit clingy when alone because he doesn’t like pda, so he waits until it’s private and will literally grab all over you
✬ he cooks shirtless (idc it’s true and yes he can cookšŸ¤ššŸ½)
✬ has told you the most mundane every day things in the sexiest voice ever
✬whistles when you walk in a room
✬ and slaps your butt regularly (sue me ik he doesšŸ¤ššŸ½)
✬if you’re sleeping in the same bed there’s only two places he’ll sleep, on your butt or on your stomach (no in between šŸ¤·šŸ½ā€ā™€ļø)
✬ uses that same condescending voice on you to tell you what to do, when you’re wrong, or to stop acting up
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eugh I love him sm🄹
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ethelcainlvr Ā· 1 year ago
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the butch/femme scene of 1990s san francisco by chloe sherman
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ethelcainlvr Ā· 2 years ago
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Original characters are really just a random assortment of personality traits and physical features taken from myself, from people I saw on the street, and from my favourite characters from other people.
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ethelcainlvr Ā· 2 years ago
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some avatar sketches except theyre human
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