ethrealeunwoo

[ethrealeunwoo]

no feeling

summary: moonbin can’t take it anymore, and he feels like he needs to break up with eunwoo

warnings: eunwoo raises his voice?, break up, and a lot of crying

word count: 1.3k

okay i just really needed this to be written so here you go. be blessed with this fruit my sad children. hope you cry. this also lowkey references my first fic but you really don’t need to read it to understand it, but here it is just in case you want it too. (x)

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"I'm so sorry Eunwoo. I think we need to break up."

With every single second ticking by, the clock struck 2 a.m. Moonbin had been in the bathroom for a little more than an hour, and Eunwoo began to get worried. "Binnie, are you okay?" With five ticks of the clock, Eunwoo began to hear a bit of sobbing through the door. Moonbin would always the one to share his personal feelings, so he was a bit worried. He’d make sure to tell at least one of the boys, and if they felt like he needed it, they’d have a group discussion. Eunwoo ran his hands through hair as he asked again. This time Moonbin replied quietly with a "yes." It didn't seem so convincing to Eunwoo. He knew when Moonbin would lie -- from eating someone’s leftovers to taking their clothes. "Hey, can you please come out? Or let me see you. I need to see that you're okay Bin. I’m just feeling a bit worried." After a moment of silence, Moonbin slowly unlocked the door and walked straight to their dorm room. Before he stepped inside, he turned around and said, "I'm so sorry Eunwoo. I think we need to break up."

Eunwoo's vision went a bit blurry. He abruptly placed his hand on the wall to keep himself from falling. Break up? He felt like nothing had been going wrong these last few months. On the contrary, they'd been the best months of his life so far, and for it to all end? It was beginning to turn into a nightmare. There, he immediately ran to the room, hoping Moonbin didn't lock the door behind him. Eunwoo made sure to knock on the door again -- not wanting to disturb Moonbin that much. Eunwoo had decided that maybe Moonbin was just feeling a bit emotional since their comeback was coming soon. he too could get a bit overwhelmed.

"Hey Binnie, let me in, please. Let's talk this over, alright? You do know I sleep in the same room as you." He heard a small creak as the door began to open slowly. His heart was torn into little pieces as he saw what Moonbin had become. One could definitely tell that Binnie was crying for an hour and maybe even more. His eyes were red and puffy. There was redness from blowing his nose so much. The redness of scratch marks from him constantly digging into his skin. His cheeks were especially flushing with red, now being embarrassed with Eunwoo seeing him in this state. Everything about Moonbin was red. There was still tears running down his face. It seems like Moonbin had immediately started crying again once he closed the door.

Eunwoo went in for the hug when he noticed that Moonbin wasn't going to hug back. He just stood there with tears running down his eyes as he said it again. "Eunwoo, we need to break up." Moonbin was trying to take deep breaths now. He knew he needed to cry everything out, but he at least had to act strong for Eunwoo for a bit. "I'm not good enough Eunwoo. You deserve way better, and I just get too overwhelmed." Eunwoo started to tear up himself. The boy of his dreams was beginning to run away, and now he's feeling like there's nothing he can do. "Binnie, how many times have I told you that I love you. Think about all the kisses and cuddles. You are good enough, and I think you're even better that what you think. Have I not showed you enough?!" Eunwoo was screaming at this point. He couldn't control himself. He took his time to apologize and face the door. He needed to breathe. It took him a couple of seconds to regain himself, and as he turned around, he asked, "Hey Binnie, what did I do wrong?"

Moonbin took longer that expected to answer. He bowed his head as he began to cry again. He's now made his hands into a fist and kept them to his side. He wasn't going to hurt Eunwoo. That's not a thing that either of them would do. The tears were now falling onto the floor, and he'd definitely need a tissue soon. "Eunwoo, you haven't done anything wrong. It's all my fault. I get too jealous. We just don't have time for ourselves. The company is going to eventually find out, and we'd definitely have to end it there. Listen, I'm just trying to look out for us. This hurts my heart, and you know it, Eunwoo. I don't want us to end, but it'll have to happen sooner or later." Moonbin turned to look at his boy, tears were running down his face. It seems like everything was feeling too overwhelming to them. Everything that Moonbin had been feeling is finally coming out now. They both decide to move their conversation to Eunwoo's bed. Eunwoo got into bed and offered Moonbin to lay next to him. Bin was hesitant at first, but he decided to sit on the chair next to the desk. The chair itself was sort of a gag gift that Manager Hyung gave the boys on their debut. It's been there from the start. They had all signed, and Moonbin remembered that he made sure that his was next to Eunwoo's signature.

"This is where we first kissed. You took the initiative because I was terrified," Eunwoo said, wanting to break the silence. Silence would fill in the blank moments. Moonbin hated the feeling, but he knew that he was falling out of love. "Please don't bring that up. I don't need it right now. Our relationship has been too emotionally draining. I'm not jealous of the fact that you're getting more work. It just feels like all your coworkers are getting more time with you than you are with me." The bed began to creak as Eunwoo got out of bed and tried to hug Moonbin. It was a bit awkward not being able to hug him correctly. Eunwoo had to lean over and wrap his arms around Bin's neck. It was a simple embrace position that he'd love to share with the younger boy, but he wasn't feeling the usual warmth that other would give off. The Moonbin in front of him wasn't the same one from a few months. Bin didn’t move to hug Eunwoo back; he didn't want to. He just l stood there at looked towards the door. Even though nothing much had happened, it hurt to move.

Moonbin just didn't love Eunwoo anymore. He didn't have the heart to tell him, though. He was trying to make everything work. He wasn't enjoying himself. There was an agonizing feeling in this chest. He was slowly being torn. They'd sneakily hold hands during broadcasts. Constantly move the other members so they'd be next to each other. The fans were aware of this and so were the band. They didn't want to bring it up, and Moonbin and Eunwoo were fine with it at first. That was the beginning of the relationship. Everything was flourishing then. Everything was easier. Things started getting harder as the year went by. They started to get more popular, and the company was demanding more, and Moonbin just couldn't keep everything together. He knew that Eunwoo would try his best to help, but Moonbin just wanted to be alone. He knew that there were going to be times when he'll want to call Eunwoo, but he'll have to teach himself to not be so dependent anymore. It was for the better.

Eunwoo would always let moonbin win. It was out of habit. He wanted Bin to be happy, but then again, it wasn't the same boy that he'd met all those years ago. He used to be full of energy after a long day at work. Now he's just too tired to do anything. Eunwoo didn't want his favorite boy to be miserable. He choked on his words as he began to shed some tears again. "Alright, Moonbin. We're through."

[ethrealeunwoo]

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[ethrealeunwoo]

binnie... are you still awake?

summary: a sleepy eunwoo is cold and moonbin is there to help 

warnings: no warning but there’s fluff I guess. this is also a binu fic so don’t read if you don’t like it?  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

word count: 1.1k

wow this is my first fic. i hope you enjoy it and send me some feedback please! i also take requests any times and i accept hcs too! honestly i can’t find many binu fics so i decided to write my own. hmu if you know any good ones. i also finished writing this at 3:49 am so i hope there aren’t many errors. thank you so much for reading!

It had been a long day at work. Hours upon hours have been used to get the boys ready for their latest comeback. It would be no surprise that manager lets Astro out early to get a bit more rest. Overworking them wouldn’t be the best idea. Whenever the boys arrived at the dorms, they all threw their belongings on the floor and went to their rooms while saying goodnight.

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“Binnie… are you still awake?” Moonbin heard rustling from the bunk underneath him. It had been hours after manager Hyung had let them leave early, and he’d figured everyone would have been asleep by now. The moonlight was shining through the curtain windows. The windows in the dorm were small but still large enough to illuminate the room. He studied the shadows that the light was providing before he actually answered.

“Yeah, I’m awake. What’s up.” He started rubbing his eyes. The boy was a bit sleepy, but he decided not to fake it for Eunwoo. They were extremely close, and they had been that way since their trainee days. Being inseparable since the start.

“Can you come down here? I’m feeling cold.” Eunwoo sounds a bit hesitant -- not sure if Moonbin heard him. There was a small pause when the older was about to say it again when the other replied with a simple, “Sure.” Eunwoo crinkled his nose a bit -- happy with the response.

Moonbin bed creaks as he begins to make his way from the top of the bunk to the bottom. He stops to slightly fix his blankets that were jumbled in a corner. Bin figures he won’t be in his own bed anytime soon so fixing it was the least he could do. He skips a couple of step and stomps onto the ground. He immediately shivers like a puppy. It was freezing cold, and his bare feet were feeling the consequences. As he skips around the floor, Eunwoo laughs a bit and gives him a warm welcome.

Eunwoo opened up his covers to let Moonbin lay with him. He shivers a bit too. It was starting to get cold around the area, and the heaters weren’t working so well in the dorms. The clock was keeping track of time. The constant ticks reminded them that their youth is being measured. The boys always argued whether time was just a concept. They more they discussed it, they more confused they’d be.

They both looked at the bottom of Moonbin’s bunk. Eunwoo had kept some pictures of his family there. Just like any other idol, he missed them dearly. Being an idol wasn’t easy. A few moments passed when Moonbin broke the silence when he asked a question.

“Why did you call me down here?”

Eunwoo was a bit surprised. Moonbin sounded a bit worried. Eunwoo didn’t really ask for anything unless he really needed it, and Moonbin knew this. The bed started to shuffle as the moved to face each other. They could hear each other’s slight breathing, their chests moving in and out in unison.

Eunwoo cracked a small smile. “You’re so silly. I told you that I was cold, and I figured that two people in the same bed would be even warmer. You can leave once I fall asleep if you’d like. Or you could leave right now if you think this is too much…” To his relief, Moonbin replied with, “No, I’m good. Might stay here the whole night.”

“Eunwoo, I have another question.”

“What is it?”

“How long have you liked? And please don't lie to me. I can read you like a clock.”

Eunwoo was shocked. He raised his arm to scratch his head, thinking about how long he'd actually liked him. After a few short moments of thinking, Eunwoo finally replied with "It was during the filming of ‘To Be Continued.�� Remember the scene whenever we got out of the police station and made up? That’s whenever I realized I liked you. I never wanted to have a fight like that in real life, even though I'd probably let you win to be honest.." Moonbin thought he was dreaming. “That’s the exact time whenever I found out that I liked you too.”

There was a long pause before Moonbin slowly began to lean in. He was somewhat hesitant, not knowing how Eunwoo would react. Moonbin closed his eyes, waited to be pushed away. He wasn’t sure if that’s what Eunwoo wanted, but it was worth giving a shot. Moonbin wasn’t pushed away. The oldest actual pulled him closer. At first, their lips lightly brushed, a feather kiss. Bin pulled away. This was what he dreamed about since their debut, and now he’s finally getting it.

The one to commence again was Eunwoo. He lightly pecked at the other’s lips but with more confidence. Things started to heat up when Eunwoo wrapped his arms around Binnie’s neck and started to kiss him deeply. He was surprised by the roughness of the other’s lips, but he enjoyed the feeling. They were both fighting for dominance, but Eunwoo eventually gave in. Moonbin couldn’t believe it. Sparks were flying, flying, flying. They were two birds in flight. They would pause every once in awhile to catch their breath -- both knowing what they were becoming together. Not much time passed as they started to crave each other again.

The both looked beautiful underneath the moonlight. Their silhouettes mixing together as a shadow on the wall. They couldn’t really see each other that well because it was still dark with the moon.

Light touches were being given as they started to explore each other more. Moonbin crawled on top of Eunwoo and started to give light pecks to his neck. Trailing down the other’s neck, moonbin kissed until he reached the older’s collarbone. There he lightly sucked, not wanting to leave marks since the other members and the company would be very suspicious. As Moonbin began to trail down his neck again, Eunwoo was free to run his hands through the younger boy’s hair. He’d give light tugs every now and then. He’d squirm and pulled on Bin’s hair whenever he’d reach a sensitive spot.

“Binnie, please never stop.”

Before it could get any more heated, they heard a knock at the door. Moonbin started to make his way out of the bed when Eunwoo tugged at his arm. “Don’t go. Pretend we’re asleep alright?” Moonbin sighed a bit and said, “Sorry Eunnie. It’s probably one of the members saying that the heater is broken again. I’ll see if I can fix it at least so we won’t freeze to death together.”

The clock ticked four times before Moonbin said, “That’s how far we’ll go tonight,” with a smirk and gave Eunwoo a quick kiss. He looked into his friend’s eyes. Chocolate brown -- his favorite.

“Okay,” Eunwoo whispered as Moonbin left the room to see what the other boys needed.