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fmdyoojin​:

with the busy month coming up, yoojin feels like she should be basking in the short period of relaxation before they’re back on to busy schedules. instead, yoojin’s been in her head about just about everything, and already feels exhausted about the schedules. thinking too far ahead, knowing that there wasn’t going to be time to do much else but practice, record, and practice some more. yoojin wasn’t sure how some groups did this – yoojin wouldn’t say it was common for 7ROPHY’s schedule to be so jam-packed. it’s also been quite some time since yoojin felt so completely overwhelmed, and back then it hadn’t been because of their schedules. 

when eunah knocks on her door, yoojin doesn’t expect the other to be asking her to come out with her, and even less does she expect to agree. but then, here she is, sitting at a late night café with her dear friend and groupmate. 

“ it is … quiet … ” yoojin states with a smile. it’s what they need, quite honestly – somehow, being there helps yoojin’s mind calm a bit. the atmosphere is inviting and cozy, which yoojin can’t say for many other places. “ how’d you find it, anyway ? i swear, i’ve been waiting to get out of here since we landed in the us. ” yoojin chuckles – although, she’s not exactly lying. after all, yoojin hates making these trips, she’s never been the adventurous type. she hates flying, gets terrible jet lag not to mention motion sickness if she can’t fall asleep. she hates it. she hates travelling. but, her members make it bearable. “ how’re you doing, by the way ? i feel like we don’t get the chance to ask and answer that honestly, most of the time … ” yoojin states quietly, a sad smile on her lips. “ you have a comeback soon – how’re preparations going ? ”

“ or … do you not wanna talk about work ? ” yoojin suggests, brows raised. “ we don’t have to talk about work … isn’t it what we always do ? ” she chuckles lightly, stirring her drink lightly.

“ah, i have a nose for places like this,” eunah says, smiling at her reflection in her tea. she laughs, and shakes her head. “no, i asked a friend if they knew anywhere quiet. they’re back home --” she means seattle, of course, “-- for a couple of weeks. it’s kind of bad timing that we came here right now...” her gaze wanders, fixing itself on the blurry lights and figures moving outside the window, as she continues talking. “he’s a couple years older than me, he was always, you know, the guy who got the lead. everyone knew he’d end up out here.” waiting tables, mostly, dragging his jazz shoes from audition to audition. still, part of her thinks she’d still trade. “he’s actually got a nose for places like this.” she’d felt guilty, messaging him out of the blue, when usually they only call or text to congratulate each other on a break.

she’d felt guilty then too, when he said he saw how a-teen was blowing up. 

“well, my hair’s not falling out too badly,” eunah says, gingerly touching her bubblegum pink scalp. she’d had pink hair once before, back during latata promotions, and she’d gotten a lot of attention for it. the company was keen on bringing it back -- you have scripts to read in the meantime, don’t you? and they’ll all want your hair boring and black or brown, said the hairstylist folding foil into her hair. eunah wanted to remind her that her hair had been auburn at the start of the year, which she thought was quite interesting, actually, but she kept her mouth shut and hummed in response instead. back in the present, eunah laughs. the sound is lacking in any kind of support. “sixteen days until release. i’m proud of it, but...” eunah takes a long sip from her drink, and neglects to finish her sentence, choosing to latch onto the way out yoojin provided instead. 

“there’s actually a spot our casts used to go to after shows at home that was a lot like that place. i think that’s why he recommended it to me.”

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[MV] Eunah _ Dancing Cartoon

Uploaded by the Dimensions Entertainment Youtube account on July 30.

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COLLA3ORATE releases “Zero:Attitude″, sponsored by Pepsi Zero Sugar

base’s COLLA3ORATE project has released the final pairing single for COLLA3ORATE season 1.5 today. The track is executive produced by BC Entertainment in collaboration with Pepsi Zero Sugar. “Zero:Attitude” is a confident dance pop track co-written, co-composed, and co-produced by Knight’s Haon. The project single includes Lucid’s Jeonghwa and Alice, former Element member Yujin, Chroma’s Ahri, Fuse’s Sooah, 7ROPHY’s Eunah, and Unity’s Sunghee. The project group will be holding a special mini-concert later this month on July 31 at Nodeul Island Live House.

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@fmdyoojin! / #fmddmsq321 a night in new york city.

rather than giving into the feeling that she should let herself pass out, and allow yoojin to do the same, it’s their mutual experience of persisting exhaustion that actually prompts eunah to knock on yoojin’s hotel room door that night. it might seem counterproductive, but eunah’s reached a stage where sleep feels almost like a chore in itself -- it’s something that she does as part of her regular routine of running around from schedule to schedule, not something she’s able to even enjoy anymore. she isn’t sure if yoojin’s gotten there quite yet, but she’s still convinced that it would do her member good to spend more time out in the city that never sleeps, doing something out of the norm, doing something different.

though, she supposes there isn’t actually much different about visiting a café late at night, sitting on brown leather sofas as jazz plays on a record player from the corner. it is a change of scenery, however, and that’s good enough for eunah to finally feel like she can let out the breath she’s been holding. it’s better than a hotel room, anyways, the most constricting of liminal spaces, in eunah’s opinion. bag half unpacked, barely cracked open complementary toiletries, a foreign bed, no time to settle in before rolling her suitcase down the corridior all over again -- no, thanks. she sips at her green tea with that relief in mind. for the time being, they can pretend to be normal. 

“this place is nice, right?” she likes the anonymity its dim lighting provides, a world away from the eyes that were all over them as they danced in times square earlier in the day. 

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@fmdyuzu​! / #fmddmsq321 en route to new york city. 

eunah’s eyes slowly blinked open, the back of the seat in front of her, complete with its folded up little tray table, emerging in her vision. blurry, the rest of her surroundings gradually materialize around her, as her dry, itchy eyes finally adjust. she’s small, so she’s lucky -- the limited space on the plane doesn’t bother her much. she rolls her neck around, and silently examines yuzu, her partner for their almost fourteen hour flight. “are you comfortable?” she suddenly breaks the silence, soft voice cutting through the gentle whir of the air conditioning. 

“yuzu, i’m actually really excited for this trip.” not least because they have tickets booked for a show. as a kid, she always dreamed she’d end up in new york full time. seattle was good for theatre -- she’d get cast in a show that opened at the rep, that dominated the season for the length of its run. after that, the show would transfer to broadway, and take her along with it. from there, her career would be set. thirteen year old eunah would probably be satisfied enough with her working mostly in television, with her being an idol when she isn’t filming, but twenty two year old eunah still shares in her dreams. “i know we were just in california but,” she shrugs. “this is much more ... my thing.” fully awake now, her energy is higher than it has been in weeks, and it shows in the way she sits with her back lined up straight and tall against her seat. “i might vlog it or something, like, for my instagram.”

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fmdkiana​:

steps away she was, when kiana’s mouth finally caught up with her brain… if you could call it that. “h- eu- wait!”

kiana had never been the type for exercise. if it wasn’t for her mother and her company, she might have enjoyed a life where she only walked to where she needed to go, and spent the rest of that time sitting on her butt. as ann perkins once said, ‘jogging is the worst. i know it keeps you healthy, but, god, at what cost?’ yet, here she was, a hypocrite, with fear propelling her forward. ki kept an arm against her to prevent her clothes from billowing too much as she jogged the short distance up to and around eunah to face her once again.

although, meeting eunah’s face had kiana at yet another mind blanking instant. when she did manage words, they came out in a breath, “how are you?” the most simple, baseline thing she could possibly ask, and probably the worst question she could have come up with. she attempted at a smile but it fell apart. “that’s probably not the right question, i mean, what’s new? what’s… is there anything i could do for you?” which question she ultimately wanted answered, even kiana wasn’t sure. in any other circumstance, she wouldn’t have wanted to have this conversation at all, but- she’d been asked, and connections, no matter how far away they physically were from her, were paramount.

wait, said kiana. eunah didn’t, opting to keep on walking, hands clasped by the pinky fingers behind her back. apparently that wasn’t enough for kiana to get the message, who faced her again with a breathless smile. eunah dropped her hands, letting them hang, unimpressed and unenergised, at her sides. she raised an eyebrow at her, listening to her babble out three questions in a row. eunbi. the whole thing had bibi written all over it. why else would kiana approach her like this? like she was shadowing eunah’s sisters all over again, as they stuck their heads around eunah’s childhood bedroom door. 

back then, her sister only ever wanted her to shut up and stop belting showtunes. how the times changed -- this had happened before, but she’d only gone as far as blowing up her phone in the past. now, she was employing liaisons to try and get her to speak. the corners of eunah’s lips twitched downwards, flashing a momentary frown before her face returned to neutral.

“oh, you know.” she answered, leaving out every detail possible. she supposed it wouldn’t be enough though -- and if kiana was willing to jog, something eunah couldn’t ever remember her doing before, then she figured she’d need to say a little more to clean herself of this situation. skepticism lacing her voice, eunah tapped her feet against the ground impatiently, left then right, and added, “what about you? enjoying your new song?” a hint of a smile played on eunah’s face. “fuse proving that they can do any concept, as usual. you must be busy. too busy to be standing around here, i’m guessing.”

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luxfmd​:

“i am,” milk acknowledges, noting how thin, how tired their best friend looks. eunah was always a tiny thing issues notwithstanding, but milk’s worried. dimensions is obsessed with keeping her busy, it seems, and the toll is showing even in the smile she tries to offer.

dumdi dumdi is no great feat, though with the way eunah is working, they’re glad the line distribution doesn’t entirely fall on her this time around. any preparations are exhausting, and the girl is working doubly hard. 

leaning down to gingerly stroke crys, milk considers the question, though not half as much as she considers the smile and the worry it brings forth in them. they wished dearly for it to be genuine, but no part of them believed it. 

“about as well as expected, i guess. i’m no seola, but i think i’m getting the dance.” they said, glancing down at crys then back up to study eunah again. “how was today?” one day at a time - they didn’t expect full disclosure, but they wanted to give her room to speak. they knew eunah would see the question for what it really was - how can i help you?

eunah pulls her eyes away from milk, and sidesteps her way from her spot in front of the window, where her frame was outlined, a willowy silhouette, over to one of their comfortable armchairs. she sits with her legs folded over each other, squeezing a pillow tightly in her lap. eunah allows her head to loll to one side, lips pursed, as she thinks her words through carefully. she doesn’t want lux to worry, but figures that the ship has probably already sailed on that front. 

“-- i’m sure you are. i mean, of course you are.” of course. those gangly arms and legs of milk’s are a set of assets that eunah’s always been jealous of. they make them look effortlessly graceful, at least when they’re not moving, anyways. but once lux has a dance down, they look wonderful. they look wonderful off stage too, in casual clothes, in pyjamas, in anything. eunah looks like a troll doll next to them. but, thinking like that about her nearest and dearest is one of the things eunah catches herself doing that she hates most. it’s the most perilous sort of comparison she could make. if she does it too many times, she’ll find herself even resenting the people she loves the most. 

“long.” a pause, followed by a sigh. fiddling with the hem of her skirt, eunah adds that, “i had chicken for lunch.” neither answer satisfies milk’s real question, though, and she knows that. “can i sleep in your room tonight?”

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hey everyone! jsyk, my arm is basically falling off thanks to me getting the vaccine (yay)! but it’s much better today than it was yesterday and the day before LOL so hopefully by tomorrow i’ll be in typing condition again bc even rn my arm is like please halt

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heading for a (late) night’s sleep! welcomes & dms will be returned tomorrow morning, with replies to come in the afternoon/evening!

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@luxfmd!

“you’re home.”

it’s a funny kind of greeting, uncharacteristic of the kind usually exchanged between the two of them. but eunah’s barely in the door herself, her thin cardigan still wrapped tightly around her beneath her folded arms. the cat rubbing against her legs quickly abandons her to do the same to lux. she watches crys cross the room with a smile, and then turns away, preferring to stare at her reflection in their blacked out tv screen than at her best friend and roommate of over six years. they’d seen each other earlier that day -- dumdi dumdi dance rehearsals were inescapable, even for eunah, who’s already missing half of them for her solo promotions. 

she’ll make up for it though, through no voluntary effort of her own, of course. the manager assigned to eunah these days is the strict kind, the overbearing sort that eunah hates so much.

with a fresh smile, painstakingly painted onto her features, eunah whips back around to face lux. she knows they won’t believe her, but she does her best to put her best foot forward. for an actor, she’s one terrible liar. 

“how are those long limbs of yours faring?”

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fmdjackie​:

“i mean, its what i signed up for, you know? don’t got a choice, so gotta make it fun someway.“ jakyung explained with a shrug, sliding down the sofa ever so slightly. being on tour for so long, only seeing his members and the gold star staff was definitely getting to him. however, that didn’t stop him from going out in the middle of the night to eat or have a walk. “well, if you are going to promote for a while, i doubt they will be flying you in and out. plus, i’m only going to osaka from seoul, could be worse.“ he explains, but he still understands eunah. he glances over at her when she doesn’t finish her sentence, but he doesn’t push. he knew better than to do that. “now that i’m here, i need to buy it. you promise to sign it for me next time we meet?“ it was a little something jakyung did. buying the albums of people he was close to. 

“two blocks away..“ the rapper repeats, scrolling through his phone with a hum. “i found it. you can pick whatever you want.” he says, handing his phone to eunah to chose. it was going to be faster that way.

“hm.” for a moment, eunah says nothing for a moment, gaze veering away from jakyung’s eyes. “is it really? this is what you signed up for?” this, of course, is the flights back and forth. the constantly growing amount of advertisements she sees jakyung and his members’ faces plastered on all over seoul. gold star’s increasingly obvious trend towards locking their moneymakers up in their basement until they need a big injection of cash and investors. eunah sits back and looks up, out at the city beyond her window rather than at jakyung. “i didn’t.” she didn’t know what she was signing up for at all, back then. she turns her attention back to her visitor, the corners of her lips quirking up momentarily. “though i can sign albums. there’s no harm in that. -- but you don’t have to buy it. i haven’t given out the copies i got from dimensions. they’re still sitting in my backpack.” 

she snaps up jakyung’s phone, and quickly inputs her usual order. squid sashimi, tamagoyaki ... and usually, that’s where she would stop. her thumb hovers over multiple other options for several seconds, but ultimately, she scrolls past each of them, and hands jakyung back his phone. she’s too tired to decide if anything else sounds appealing to her in the moment, and her favourites will comfort her. hopefully. that’s the idea, anyways. 

“thanks.”

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Eunah makes comeback with second solo mini-album Like Me

Shortly after her group made their return with a new single in the form of throwback track “Uh-Oh” last month, 7ROPHY’s Eunah has released her second solo mini-album today. Eunah was last active as a solo artist as summer turned to autumn with her first full-length solo album re:new. Since then she’s worked as an Inkigayo MC and starred in the drama Cheese In The Trap, further fleshing out her varied portfolio.

Eunah once again greets listeners with her individual solo sound with her new release, the five-track mini-album Like Me. It opens with the music box-like piano melody of the beginning of “Dandelion”, which fleshes out into an acoustic guitar ballad. The track list continues with the same light sound and often acoustic pop production as a glue bonding the mini-album’s songs musically. Even as songs such as “So-So” and “Jealousy”, which features Lucid member Jeonghwa, explore less pleasant feelings, the musical and vocal through line remains, even through the more bouncy and retro “Dancing Cartoon” that closes off the mini-album. Eunah contributed in part or in full to the lyrics, composition, and production of three tracks: “So-So”, “Chocolate”, and “Dancing Cartoon”.

Eunah’s single for this mini-album, “So-So” is a mid-tempo track lamenting the vocalist’s dull feelings of indifference toward love and dating, with everything feeling little more than just “so-so”. “So-So’” will be promoted on music shows through July 30 and b-side track “Dancing Cartoon” will also be staged for the first week of promotions.

The track list and notable song credits can be found below.

TRACK LIST

Dandelion

So-So (lyrics, composition, and production by Eunah)

Chocolate ft. Yoojin (lyrics, composition, and partial production by Eunah)

Jealousy ft. Jeonghwa

Dancing Cartoon (partial lyrics, partial composition, and partial production by Eunah)

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chocolate - full lyrics credit, full composition credit, partial production credit.

date: january 2021, around/after writing so-so. word count: 1,634, not including lyrics. this starts off decently but as it nears the time of me writing this note (03:31 am), it gets considerably worse. anyways please point and laugh at dumbass sarah from months ago for thinking she’d get all of eunah’s verifications done in time, bc she did not know abt the big storm comin’ that she had irl. 3/5 isn’t bad though considering. as usual, big ups to beth for reading through my eunah brain nonsense. and tyvm to ark for letting me rob @fmdyoojin for the feature last minute!! eunah thinks of things as gas cloud vibes and i think that’s very cool of her, except when i have to turn those gas cloud vibes into words. why is this note so long. i am sleepy so i’m rambling. i walked 10km today so now i will go pass out.

CW: very brief references to disorderd eating habits + eating disorders, primarily in the first paragraph and the final sentence..

but love isn’t all bad, even if it is so-so. eunah doesn’t believe that one bit. however, it is something that no matter what, she can’t seem to keep hold of. it’s a temporary thing, something that she places in her mouth to let melt, like chocolate. it never lasts on her tongue for as long as she wants it to. a wry smile spreads across her face and eunah sighs. of course she would. of course she would find a way to bring it back to food -- the crutch that she’s leaned on for the better part of a decade. it’s sad, but she doesn’t laugh or cry at the thought. eunah’s well past the stage of crying, or laughing just so that the tears don’t fall. something about that leaves a bitter taste in her mouth. is it that her identity is free from the shackles of all those strict rules, and now is trying to form itself into a personality, years too late? or is she still mad, despite herself, that she gave up her teens for training, and then handed over what joy her days might’ve still held to disorder?

bitterness. a bitter taste ... melting ... dark chocolate. back on track. eunah pushes the newly brewing crisis to one side, to bring to her therapist at their next appointment, and focuses on the matters at hand -- love and chocolate. as she scribbles down her first lyric ideas, she questions whether it’ll be enough to go off of. she supposes that it can’t hurt to try. 

for some reason it’s slightly bitter but also sweet am i eating dark chocolate right now? when i’m with you i melt with just one word i flow i like you so much

the hook comes to her quickly, a tune beginning to form as she sings the word chocolate over and over to herself again, like chunks from a bar of chocolate that she can’t stop breaking off to eat. she finds that she keeps coming back to that, over and over again, that simple repetitiveness that’s present in so many pop songs -- it’s so sweet. too sweet to really be 85% dark chocolate. it’s so sweet, that it’s bordering on pure sugar. that’s not what she wants one bit. 

it’s only once she’s worked a little on that melody floating around in her head a couple of days later, that an idea strikes her. maybe ... just maybe, she should write this song to share. that way, she can separate the super sweet, non stop repeating hook that she’s grown quite attached to out, and bring back the bitterness she came into the song carrying with a change of pace. and hopefully, in the process, it would make the song a tad bit more interesting. it could be a rap break, maybe. she’s spoken a couple of lines in songs here and there before, if the song ends up being used and dimensions want to keep it as just her, but really, she writes with other dimensions rappers in mind -- primarily yoojin.

you’re my chocolate, you live as a dream, i’ve had it i see you and smile, your eye smile makes me melt melt melt i want to reach to you, when i see what you do the more i see the more it hurts do you feel now meet up with me today too the things i want to do, become things i can’t do i keep looking for you like i’m addicted my heart keeps doing that

it’s the unhealthy side of chocolate, she’ll laugh and tell any interviewers that ask. eat too much and you’ll get addicted. or maybe your tongue will become numb to its bitterness, and you won’t be able to see its downsides anymore. something like that, she thinks. just because someone is your chocolate, doesn’t mean you’re theirs. melting, she feels, is a fitting metaphor. the way a square of chocolate will melt on her tongue, and she won’t notice until it’s gone is a pretty apt way to describe how most of her relationships have fizzled out. next thing she knows, they won’t meet up when their schedules are free, and all of their would-be plans, the ones they made half jokingly, become something to laugh off. like, as if.

the melody is something that comes as easily as the initial few lines of lyrics ... at least at first. like that first set of lyrics, it almost comes too easily as she thinks of the types of pop songs comparing love to candy and chocolate that she’s heard before. it’s swaying, head bopping music. soft and summery, not possessing any of the edge or seduction that she usually hears associated with dark chocolate specifically. milk chocolate or white chocolate, sure, but never dark. eunah fancies that as a subversive note of her little work in progress, tucked among the sugar for any of her fellow overthinkers to find and mull over. there’s an issue though, the same issue that she faced with the lyrics of the very aptly named ‘chocolate’ -- because what else is she going to call it? it’s then, that she thinks she should take this as an opportunity to give the song and the repetition a break, to change it up altogether. 

once she has a rough first draft of a tentative rap break, eunah repeats the lines to herself over and over, doing her best to find some sort of melodic flow to link them all together. something a little less innocent in tune, a little more sombre, than the rest of the song, as its purpose, at the end of the day, is still to inject some of that bitterness back into the chocolate. the lyrics will get that across either way, she supposes, but they’d sound stupid if the tone didn’t shift up at least a little to match. she probably sounds like she’s casting a spell, repeating the words over and over into her and lux’s recording set up, copying all the different orders of intonation she’s heard yoojin use over the years. if she gets to use the song for herself eunah decides that yoojin has to be on the track now, whatever dimensions say. she’s already helped out with it more than they know. eunah’s a lyricist in her own right, she’ll claim that easily, even if she is still learning, but when it comes to composition, she still considers herself somewhat of a novice, borrowing and transforming borrowed ideas from all those around her, 7rophy’s main rapper included.

but after that break from cotton candy monotony, the hook rises back up, ready again to chirp chocolate, chocolate, chocolate at the listener. she likes the contrast a lot. the downbeat rap verse’s sentiments, lowkey and almost defeated sounding in her head, sound even sadder than she originally intended when they’re bookended by the toe tapping lovesick melody of the rest of the song either side of it. maybe it’s because of, or at least influenced by, the odd back and forth thoughts she had with herself at the beginning of this particular writing process over the value of chocolate to her, but eunah likes that sort of subversiveness within a song like this, and is happy to try her hand at recreating that kind of feeling. 

she’s not sure just as yet if she’s successful, or if the combination will end up sounding hopelessly and unremarkably cliche to any ears aside from her own, those that have spent all this time with the song during the writing process, subconsciously elevating its drollness to something above the status it actually deserves to protect her own fragile ego in advance.

or maybe she’s thinking too hard about that too.

when, a couple of months after she hands the demo for chocolate, complete with her own highly questionable rapping, over to dimensions, eunah finds out that they want to use it for her summer solo comeback, she’s surprised. she’d half forgotten about the song completely. probably on purpose, to shield her from internal embarrassment, specifically because of that highly questionable rapping. the finished product is thankfully a lot more palatable. of course it is. she got yoojin on the track, after all, just like she’d wanted. she’s still not a confident producer -- it’s not something she feels she could do as her job, all by herself, all the time. it’s nice, sometimes, on pet projects, when she gets really into it and can feel it going right with each sound that she layers atop another. when she’s in the zone like that, her confidence bolsters itself, and eunah believes in herself. the rest of the time, she wonders why she needs to do more than record her piano backing and her voice. why can’t that be enough? then, she gets into the studio with the team of writers and producers she’s been working with on and off for the last couple of years. she doesn’t sit in on the process for every song, and she’s starting to think that might be something she has to change. when she does sit in, she’s able to chime in with her opinions, and the team know her well enough, trust her judgment enough, to at least try out her suggestions. they help her bring her ideas to life, and teach her the language she needs to explain the differences she wants between the rap verse and the rest of the song -- though first she describes it in that terrible, abstract way actors and directors always do. the language is still such a learning curve, after years of speaking and creating in doodles and scribbles. 

the final result is something she’s pleased with, somehow both exactly what she expected from the song while simultaneously going above her expectations. the end, where they’ve overlayed eunah’s sweet insistence that the mystery love interest is her chocolate, with yoojin’s statement that she’s addicted to it, really pleases her. eunah’s final chocolate almost seems to cut her off, as if the eunah of the narration has decided that maybe giving into her chocolate dependence is an unequivocally good thing. 

she hits play one more time, and does her best to shake herself of that thought. like she’ll tell any interviewers who ask, this song is about the unhealthy side of chocolate. eunah would do well to remember that.

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POW POW!

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@fmdkiana​!  #fmddmsq321 / #fmdgsmq321 at cheonan world dance festival.

tired. that’s all she is these days, dragging her feet from one schedule to the next, and barely even speaking to her members, somehow even more quiet at home with lux and crys the cat than she had been before too. there’s a black cloud above her head, and she knows it -- the rain’s been brewing inside of it for a long time now, and eunah can’t be bothered to dispel it. instead, rather than bring the mood down in 7rophy’s waiting area backstage, eunah wanders off by herself, bottle of water in hand. 

foggy eyed, foggy brained, eunah eventually bumps into someone back stage, and unfortunately, it’s someone that she knows, someone that she has known for a long time. her lips curl into a strained smile as she meets kiana’s eyes. ki has always been nice to her. back home in seattle, when eunah was just a kid, and again in the idol industry -- though she suspects that has more to do with her meddling older sisters than it does to do with kiana. she wonders if the fuse member is influenced by them at all, if she sees eunah as the kid she was all those years ago too. she knows her sisters see her that way. they deny it, but they must. she just knows. maybe kiana is smarter though, and knows better. no matter what bullshit she’s being fed, maybe she knows she should leave eunah alone to deal with her problems herself. 

“ki, hi. i didn’t know you were performing today.” though, she thinks it rings a bell. someone read off the setlist to her earlier, but all she remembers is that lucid are around here somewhere too. “well, i’ll see you around. break a leg out there.” and then, she spins on her heel, intent on walking away. 

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fmdjackie​:

“thank you for having me over.“ is all what jakyung could really say. he was usually definitely more considerate of people, however, with the few free days he had on his hands without any schedules he was really trying to make the most out of it. especially seeing people he hadn’t seen in over a few months.

“like i said, its one of the few days i don’t have a manager within 5 feet of me. we literally fly in and out of osaka for the next month, not really fun if you ask me.“ there is a small pause in his answers, taking of his shoes and neatly placing them next to the entrance. “i saw, i also listened to it. it’s a good album.“ jakyung says, nodding his head ever so softly as he follows eunah further into her place. he gives the cat a smile, quickly moving past it in case it had forgotten him, and he didn’t really want any bad blood with the animal, before sitting not so far from eunah, “sushi it is. any specific place?“ the rapper asks, already pulling out his phone to see where they could actually order from.

“no. i don’t think i’d call it fun either,” eunah answers, tone melancholy as she considers what that would even look like for 7rophy. there’s been no word on whether or not they’ll be going back to japan anytime soon. instead, dimensions have set their sights farther afield. “it looks like dimensions is setting us up to promote in the states. i don’t really feel like flying back and forth from there all the time either though so ...” as much as the opportunity to see her family more sounds lovely, as much as that is something she’s dreamed of for years, eunah knows it also comes with the added annoyance of them potentially being on her ass more about her health. “i dunno. yeah. it feels kind of weird when ...” when they’re doing so well domestically for the first time in their careers. she feels like their position is still much too precarious to justify branching out so far. “well, i’m glad you like the album. i worked hard.”

too hard. not hard enough. all things, all at once. 

“mm. i have a favourite place.” eunah holds out her hand to jakyung, opening and closing her fingers in a grabby motion. “it’s only, like, two blocks away, so it’ll be here soon if we order now.”

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fmdjackie​:

the thought that he maybe had to call or message in advance came to him, but it was late. it wasn’t the first time he had done such a thing. his schedule was packed to the maximum, especially with their recent tour. flying in and out of osaka, while preparing for their newest song.. it wasn’t anything jakyung couldn’t handle, but he really just needed to see someone else. someone who wasn’t their regular staff or origin.

“oh- yeah, sure, take your time.“ he says, nodding his head a bit and looking at the door next to him. it opens quicker than he though it would and the origin leader felt like a deer in headlights. “hey.“ he says, smile pulling on his lips as he slips his phone into the pocket of his sweats. “yeah, of course. whatever you say. i probably should have called in advance but-“ jack pauses, a frown threthening to form on his features “its literally one of my few free days this month while im back in seoul.“ he says, smile pulling on his lips soon after. “anyway! we got a lot of catching up to do and you can pick what food you’d like. all on me.“

she wants to tell him that she agrees, that yeah, he probably should have called before he came over, so that she could’ve told him not to bother. instead, eunah smiles and shakes her head at him, stepping aside so he could come through into her apartment. “nonsense. it’s nice to have a surprise visitor.” 

she’ll be kind. she’s learned to be kinder, to be less selfish over the last couple of years. this is the ultimate test of that knowledge. “don’t you guys get any time off? i swear, they fly you across the world, and then bring you home just to drive you all around the city. my schedule’s no better nowadays though ... my mini-album came out yesterday, so i don’t see it slowing down for the next while either.” she shakes her head with a tut, as she shoves the front door closed with her shoulder before padding back over to her spot on the couch. crys is stood to attention at the sight of their new visitor, ears pushed back and alert. “shh,” she says gently, giving the cat a pat on the head. “it’s only jakyung.” she’s switched altogether to english now, a sign of her tiredness. “mm, how about ... i dunno, how about sushi?” her ultimate comfort food. it’s the only thing she was ever gonna suggest on a night like tonight.