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Leo heard there's more snow coming this weekend ❄️😴🩵

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The me I see myself as

Is curled up

On the ground in tears

Drowning

She is unable to protect

The tattered shreds

Her heart now

Lies in

How is she supposed to

Handle this change

If she can’t even

Fix herself

I lock the door to

The bathroom now

Just me and my reflection

No one else

Wishing the pain

Would stop

Wanting the tears

To cease

Real heart break

Looks like a lahar

Unending flow

Leaving nothing behind

Not even a shell

Tears flow from eyes

Not dried

My soul screams out

No comfort found

It ended suddenly

My heart clenched

“Always” was my vow

Whispered now in darkness

No light found

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I don’t really have anyone to talk to…and I know this is like whispering into the void…but I am sad. And maybe grieving? I dunno. I need a therapist probably. Just prepare for word vomit.

My husband in the last few days has blindsided me with his (their?) discovery that they are not cis. Which is not a problem. I am bi and I am totally for discovering your sexuality and gender preferences (which I know sounds a lot like “I’m not racist, I have friends that are [insert race here]” like racists do).

I guess I feel like they were hiding this from me? And I know they are saying they were kind of hiding it from themselves…but to go from he’s my husband and very male presenting to now all of a sudden he wants to try on women’s clothes?

Maybe it’s because I feel like he went behind my back? We have been married for six years and together for nine. And not once has this come up. Not while we helped take care of his younger sister. Not when said sister came out as bi. Not when she also said she’s asexual. We have always supported her and will continue to do so.

I currently just feel like I have to hide what I am feeling because he’s so happy to have figured out that he’s different and starting his road of acceptance. But what about me? I obviously care for him and love him and he’s always supported me.

I’m upset. I’m scared. We made vows to each other. We always talked about starting a family. But now…now I am crying and he has no idea. I thought we shared everything with each other.

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Everything is La’an and Kirk. Nothing else exists at the moment.

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it’s time to look at some photos of pikas carrying plants and flowers in their mouths

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im naming this guy rotisserie chicken

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THIS IS SO SAD NOOOOOOOOOOOOO

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Hi y’all-

I’ve been on tumblr a long time, too long some would say. And I’ve been very fortunate to not have to ask for help for anything in that time. But I’m doing it now.

This is our cat Leon, we rescued him a year ago and he’s transformed from the most shy spooked little guy to the most affectionate cat I’ve ever seen.

We had to take him to the vet today, he hasn’t been acting like himself for the past two days and it turns out our little guy has a bladder obstruction.

We’ve been hit with a 3k bill for his treatment and it’s just not something we’re prepared for as a household.

Anything helps, if you can’t donate at least please signal boost so we can bring our sweet boy home.

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Do you ever just not know what to do? Like something happens and you aren’t sure how to respond? Or you know you need to get your shit together and have some serious conversations with other parties, but you don’t know where to start and your best friend in the whole world doesn’t help matters and instead becomes incredibly antagonistic even though you both have the same goals.

No? Just me? Okay. Cool.

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Illegally small

(via)

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