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normal people about their shows symbolism: the curtains aren't yellow, they're blue actually

2021 era black sails fans: there are no curtains and now there never will be, rope is out to get you, chairs and boats and clocks are haunted, mimetic crises are real & out to get you, you can never escape the narrative because this story's ending is already written but you can slip through the cracks of it if you're lucky & favored by the narrative enough

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i am once AGAIN thinking about the scene in black sails where flint has just been forced by miranda to confront his overwhelming grief over losing thomas, which has been fueling his unholy rage for the past two seasons. flint is sitting there, having a flashback, drowning in the tragedy and injustice of his gay lover’s death… then vane bursts into the room like a roided-up kool-aid man and immediately tries to kill him. 10/10, flawless tonal whiplash, one of the funniest moments in the entire show.

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birthdays are just so stupid

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im 23 today and i dont really remember who i am

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thinking about the casual intimacy of showing someone you love an unfinished work of art, the underlying message saying, i trust you with my unpolished heart

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its the way Fez took off his nice cable knit sweater before he curbstomped Nate’s ass because he didn’t want to get any blood on it. 

 we love a king who takes care of his garments!

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● the intricacies of violent love.

cherry wine, hozier // vampire, edward munch // favorite crime, olivia rodrigo // cut that always bleeds, conan gray // blood bank, bon iver // happiness, taylor swift

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/Oscar Wilde, The Picture of Dorian Gray / MARINA, "Oh No!" / Kayleb Rae Candrilli / Ocean Vuong, from On Earth We’re Brief / unknown.

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your lionheart

dictionary.com // bbc merlin 3.08 // @belinsky // bbc merlin 4x02 // bbc merlin 2.06 // @/belinsky // bbc merlin 5.05 // king of my heart, bethel music // bbc merlin 4.12 // king and lionheart, of monsters and men // bbc merlin 5.03 // bbc merlin 5.03 // king of my heart, bethel music // the song of achilles // bbc merlin 3.10 // the song of achilles // bbc merlin 4.06 // bbc merlin 4.13 // exile, taylor swift // bbc merlin 5.04 // bbc merlin 5.05 // epiphany, taylor swift // bbc merlin 5.05 // @/camelotsheart // bbc merlin 2.09 // @/camelotsheart // bbc merlin 5.03 // bbc merlin 5.13 // dynasty, elephante // bbc merlin 5.13 // king and lionheart, of monsters and men // bbc merlin 5.13 // king and lionheart, of monsters and men

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Rina Sawayama via Jake Gallagher’s Instagram

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“I hope you find someone you can’t live without. I really do. And I hope you never have to know what it’s like to have to try and live without them.”

— Kiera Cass

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Jodi Picoult, Handle with Care

Anaïs Nin, Fire: From a Journal of Love

Gregory Maguire, Wicked

Carol Ann Duffy, Medusa

David Foster Wallace, Infinite Jest

Joey Comeau & Emily Horne, A Softer World (#908)

Pedro Calderón de la Barca

@rbhvleo (x)

Tony Kushner, Angels in America

Lorde, Writer In the Dark

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Tbh I think something that really struck me about It's A Sin was the focus on community and solidarity, and the importance of the bonds that formed within the LGBT+ community during the epidemic.

To me, it feels like a show about community, about found family and lifting each other up during times of darkness in any way possible, even if all you can really do is try to reach out to people who are suffering and let them know you're thinking about them- like Colin did by visiting Henry in hospital, or like Jill did with Gloria, Ritchie and all the other men she tried to be there for.

But it also showed how easily these bonds can be dismantled when people outside of the community have the final say in which parts of your life matter in the end, and when you can be plucked away from your friends and loved ones at any moment, and they might never know what happened to you.

The Pink Palace gang never find out that Gloria died (or at least, it's heavily, heavily implied that they never find out) and that's just one example of that happening within the context of the show. The only reason they know what happened to Colin is that Eileen respected that they were a part of his life too, and didn't shut them out at any stage, and it's entirely possible that they wouldn't have found out about Ritchie if Jill hadn't kept persisting and followed him to the Isle of Wight (and even then, she and Roscoe still didn't get a chance to say goodbye, and Ash didn't even get to go at all.)

Tbh, as someone who is just coming to terms with her own LGBT+ identity, seeing this insight into what the community was like back in the day was really enlightening. It really highlights the importance of building a strong community, even if those on the outside don't value it or want to break it down altogether.

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Sylvia Plath // Holly Warburton // Working for the Knife, Mitski // Are You Satisfied?, MARINA // House of Hummingbird, directed by Kim Bora (2018) // Lady Bird, directed by Greta Gerwig (2017) // Tender Offerings, First Aid Kit // Play it Again, Sam directed by Woody Allen (1972) // Ruins, First Aid Kit // Ikiru, directed by Akira Kurosawa (1952) // Nightlife no. 1, Sangram Majumdar // Sorry to Myself, Alanis Morissette // Sabrina, directed by Billy Wilder (1954) // The Book of Disquiet, Fernando Pessoa (1982) // Rashomon, directed by Akira Kurosawa (1950) // It's Not, Aimee Mann // Les Animaux de Distance, Paz Boira

The complexity of being free, but forever imprisoned by the idea of not knowing what you could or should be

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SZA - Good Days (Official Video)