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ooc ::  i’m alive, just having a hard time with motivation to rp on tumblr since all the updates made it super hard to try and do anything on here...

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in most timelines, shinji doesn’t die. in fact, there was only one instance where kaworu witnessed shinji’s death… && it was not pretty.

things  hadn’t  been  like  this  before.  this  timeline-  this  reality…  it  was  so  new.  kaworu  had  made  so  many  decisions  that  they  had  never  made  before…  it  was  almost  exhilarating  for  them.  many  of  those  decisions  had  been  spurred  on  by  something  animalistic-  a  desperation  sparked  from  one  who  had  lost  the  one  they  loved  one  to  misery  too  many  times.  it  was  out  of  the  need  to  see  shinji’s  smiling  face.  they  would  do  anything  to  see  it…  they  would  do  anything  to  bring  him  joy. that  was  why  things  had  been  so  different.  when  they  met  on  the  beach,  kaworu  had  told  shinji  that  they  would  help  him  out  of  his  situation.  they  agreed  to  help  shinji  run  away.  who ��cares  if  they  run?  who  cares  if  they  leave  all  of  this  to  the  other  lilin?  it  didn’t  matter.  shinji  was  the  only  thing  that  mattered.  even  if  another  impact  came  about,  kaworu  had  been  convinced  they  could  run  away  with  shinji  and  protect  him  just  as  easily. it  wasn’t  hard  to  convince  shinji  to  run  away.                                                 of  course  it  wasn’t  hard  to  do  that.                                                             as  much  as  it  would  pain  kaworu  to  admit  it’s  predictability. they  had  mapped  out  plans  in  a  single  night.  where  to  go,  what  to  do  if  they  were  pursued,  ways  to  live  out  their  life  together  without  worrying  about  piloting  the  EVAs  ever  again.  kaworu  was  rejecting  everything-  the  safety  of  the  world,  the  word  of  NERV,  the  word  of  SEELE…  none  of  that  could  ever  stack  up  to  shinji  ikari,  anyway.  and  what  was  so  wrong  about  running  from  what’s  painful,  anyway?  why  not  leave  everyone  hurting  you  in  the  dust? shinji  didn’t  need  any  of  them.  not  asuka,  who  spat  hostilities  at  their  beloved  shinji-kun.  not  rei,  who  barely  offered  two  words  to  their  beloved  shinji-kun.  not  misato,  who  put  their  beloved  shinji-kun  in  danger.  and  certainly  not  his  rotten  FATHER,  who  brought  beloved  shinji-kun  to  their  world  but  did  not  care  if  he  took  beloved  shinji-kun  right  back  out. why  would  they  need  any  of  those  people?  why  would  shinji  need  any  of  those  people? that’s  what  kaworu  told  themself  when  they  ran  away  with  shinji.  and  for  a  while,  it  worked…  but  kaworu  running  with  UNIT  01′s  valuable  pilot  didn’t  exactly  make  NERV  happy,  and  their  abandonment  of  their  agreement  didn’t  leave  SEELE  very  happy  either.  it  didn’t  take  long  for  lilin  with  guns  to  come  chasing  after  the  fugitives.  shinji  had  admitted  defeat  instantly-  but  kaworu  saw  red. for  the  first  time,  they  felt  like  a  true  monster.  for  the  first  time,  their  lack  of  humanity  was  very  evident  to  themself. they  scooped  shinji  up  in  their  arms,  and  ran  away  as  fast  as  they  could.  shinji  didn’t  protest  despite  his  shock.  despite  everything,  it  delighted  kaworu…  he  must  love  them,  to  not  protest.  so  they  kept  running,  a  smile  unwavering  on  their  face.  they  were  convinced  they  could  outrun  the  guns…  the  bullets.  none  of  that  could  outsmart  kaworu. it  got  bad  fast.  there  were  too  many  people-  too  much  going  on.  it  wasn’t  going  to  be  long  before  a  different  UNIT  would  be  deployed.  kaworu  was  getting  desperate,  though  it  didn’t  show  on  their  face.  and  so,  in  order  to  escape,  they  did  the  unimaginable…  and  let  their  facade  break.  the  tattoos  of  angel  wings  prominent  on  their  back  shifted  and  transformed  into  real  feathered  wings,  and  they  took  flight. shinji  was  silent  with  fear  at  first.  but  then,  his  voice  met  kaworu’s  ears. “you-”  he  whimpered  within  kaworu’s  tight  grasp.  “you’re  an  angel…”  the  realization  came  with  a  cracked  voice.  kaworu’s  smile  twitched.   “i’ll  explain  everything  to  you,  shinji.  i  swear.”  kaworu  promised.  shinji’s  eyes  widened.   “let  me  go.” “shinji-” “LET  ME  GO!!!”  shinji  yelled  at  the  top  of  his  lungs,  terror  overtaking  him  all  at  once.  he  began  flailing,  falling  from  kaworu’s  tight  grasp  close  to  their  chest  and  instead  sliding  so  that  kaworu  was  grasping  his  hands  as  he  swung  underneath  their  flying  figure.  they  held  on  tight,  despite  shinji’s  horrified  wriggling.  “you  betrayed  me!!”  shinji  claimed.  it  hurt  to  hear,  but  kaworu  did  not  falter. “you’ll  fall,  shinji.  please,  calm  down.”  of  course,  kaworu’s  attempts  were  nullified.  shinji  continued  to  writhe.  but  kaworu  was  fine…  they  knew  they  could  keep  their  grip. rather  suddenly,  a  round  of  loud  bullets  were  fired  in  their  direction.  they  didn’t  dare  look  back  to  see  the  attackers  again.  they  heard  shinji  scream  a  shrill  screech.  they  knew  he  must  be  afraid…  dangling  so  dangerously.  they  ignored  their  despairing  protests  until  eventually  shinji  conceded  and  stopped. eventually,  they  reached  a  point  that  they  could  rest  without  the  vicious  pursuit.  it  would  prove  just  long  enough  of  a  respite  for  them  to  explain  themself  to  shinji…  so  they  stopped  there,  bringing  shinji  down  and  bringing  him  close  to  their  chest  in  a  hug.  they  landed,  and  wrapped  their  wings  around  him. “i’m  sorry  for  scaring  you.  please  understand  that  even  though  i’m  an  angel,  i  wish  you  no  harm.  i  care  about  you…  i  love  you.  so,  please,  keep  running  with  me??”  kaworu  said  delicately. shinji  did  not  reply. “…shinji?”   shinji  still  did  not  reply. in  fact,  he  did  not  even  breathe. kaworu  slowly  brought  shinji  away  from  their  hug.

their  expression  dropped.  eyes  wide,  feathers  standing  on  end,  hand  clasping  over  their  face.  before  them,  shinji  sat  limply  in  the  position  they  had  him  in  when  they  hugged  him.  his  body  was  full  of  holes,  dripping  blood  from  every  direction,  bullets  lodged  deep  within  his  skin  if  not  completely  gone  all  the  way  through.  his  face  was  twisted  in  horror,  tear  streaks  fresh  on  his  newly  deadened  facial  features.

shinji  had  been  killed  by  the  gunfire. he  had  screamed  in  agony,  not  terror. he  had  stopped  screaming  because  he  was  dead. because  he  was  dead.

kaworu  gripped  their  own  face  with  both  hands,  digging  their  nails  into  their  own  cheeks.  they  had  never  seen  shinji’s  dead  body  before.  their  body  lurched  forward  as  they  now  gripped  their  own  shoulders,  tears  pooling  up  at  the  corners  of  their  eyes  before  spilling  freely  onto  their  dead  beloved’s  face.  it  was  their  fault.  they  had  killed  shinji.

the  thought  breaks  them.

they  started  screaming,  as  loud  as  they  possibly  could,  keening  into  the  open  air  with  no  regard  for  people  finding  them  here.  they  just  made  as  much  noise  as  they  could,  sobbing  harder  than  they  even  knew  they  could.  they  really  were  an  angel.  a  monster.  so  far  from  human.  had  they  deluded  themself  into  believing  in  a  happy  ending  for  something  like  them?  

kaworu  didn’t  even  blink  when  the  sound  of  gunfire  broke  out  again.  nor  did  they  stop  bellowing  whenever  asuka  came  rocketing  in  with  UNIT  02.  they  didn’t  register  asuka’s  cry  of  realization  when  she  saw  shinji’s  corpse.  they  didn’t  even  feel  it  when  she  beat  him  into  the  ground  as  many  times  as  she  could.

and  they  certainly  didn’t  fight  back  when  asuka  killed  them.

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ooc::  look whos online- its me!

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touch-starved starters!!

❝ no one’s ever done that to me before. ❞

❝ could you play with my hair? ❞

❝ i can’t remember the last time i did this with someone. ❞ 

❝ that feels nice. ❞

❝ i haven’t been hugged in years. ❞

❝ i never want to let go. ❞

❝ let’s just cuddle forever. ❞ 

❝ you put your arm around me and i literally felt my knees buckle, this is so pathetic. ❞

❝ i just want to be held for a little while. ❞

❝ you’re legally obligated to keep holding me. ❞

❝ i think i forgot what human contact felt like. ❞

❝ i need to remember what hugs feel like. ❞

❝ do you mind if we stay like this for a little longer? ❞

❝ my family was never the touchy-feely type. ❞

❝ i’ve never been in a relationship before, so i don’t really know how to do the whole…kissing thing. ❞

❝ you were my first kiss. ❞

❝ could we cuddle, like, platonically? ❞

❝ i’m in desperate need of a hug. ❞

❝ i didn’t even know i was ticklish there! ❞

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reply  speed   ≠   my  interest  in  our  thread  /  plot  /  or  you,  in  general.

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ooc: list of blogs i am genuinely considering eventually making; lucario (lucario & the mystery of mew pokemon movie) asuka (nge) tom nook (animal crossing) ((yes for real)) (((probably mainly humanized))) phoenix wright (ace attorney) makoto naegi, kokichi ouma or kazuichi souda (danganronpa)

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ooc ::  i’ll be doing some replies today & tmrw!

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A quick and easy plotting guide

Send me ✔ and I will bold my preferences for your muse!

My muse(s):

Do I know your muse(s):  yes | no | a little | tell me about your muse

Setting: our verse | my verse | your verse | modern | alternate universe | other

Pre-established relationships? yes | no | depends on the relationship

Possible relationships: friends | classmate | co-worker | roommate | family, real or adopted | dating or blind date | married | friends with benefits | unrequited love | lending a hand | teacher - student | rivals | allies | partner-in-crime | enemies | protecter - guarded | business partners | spy - infiltrated | manipulator - manipulated | star-crossed | first meeting | other 

I’m in the mood for: fluff | angst | horror | romance | humor | crime | hurt / comfort | action | supernatural | slice of life | crack | dark threads | light threads | any genre | multi-para | shorter para | one-line | any length | plotted threads | unplotted threads | other

Feel free to: message me ooc | message me ic | tell me your ideas | write a starter | answer one of my opens | send a meme | reblog this with your preferences - let’s find common interests!

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Reblog this is your muse has straight up actually died

Optional: they’ve returned from the dead

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ooc :: i will have to... figure out a better way to edit html my color text does not want to work.

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eluf!! ·

{ ♱ } · – — Eluf didn’t really know what to do in this situation he walked into. He had only came to the river in order to clean some low hanging fruit he had been gifted by friends and caught a stranger by the seam instead. The uncertainty of whether or not his presence had been noted of brought him unease. Eluf would liek to avoid any conflict and he would hope that the stranger would too. ❛  …  ❜

❛  I'm  pretty  sure  it  just  reaches  out  to  the  sea.  Never  bothered  to  actually  follow  the  river  but  you  sure  can  try.  ❜

kaworu  isn’t  surprised  in  the  slightest  to  pick  up  on  hesitation  from  the  other  person.  after  all,  the  average  person  is  usually  so  on  edge  about  strangers  approaching  them  with  conversation.  it  didn’t  matter  to  them,  though,  as  they’ve  always  been  slightly  abnormal  by  a  person’s  standards.

“it  ‘just’  reaches  out  to  see?  but  isn’t  that  fascinating  at  all??  a  stream  like  this  seems  so  disconnected,  but  who  knows  how  many  other  bodies  of  water  it  actually  reaches  out  to  touch?” they  pause,  and  then  chuckle  softly  to  themself. “am  i  bothering  you?  you  seem  wary.”

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ooc :  how do you guys find faceclaims for ocs... this is impossible.

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ooc : ooooh you wanna read my character study so bad... /hj

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in most timelines, shinji doesn’t die. in fact, there was only one instance where kaworu witnessed shinji’s death... && it was not pretty.

things  hadn’t  been  like  this  before.  this  timeline-  this  reality...  it  was  so  new.  kaworu  had  made  so  many  decisions  that  they  had  never  made  before...  it  was  almost  exhilarating  for  them.  many  of  those  decisions  had  been  spurred  on  by  something  animalistic-  a  desperation  sparked  from  one  who  had  lost  the  one  they  loved  one  to  misery  too  many  times.  it  was  out  of  the  need  to  see  shinji’s  smiling  face.  they  would  do  anything  to  see  it...  they  would  do  anything  to  bring  him  joy. that  was  why  things  had  been  so  different.  when  they  met  on  the  beach,  kaworu  had  told  shinji  that  they  would  help  him  out  of  his  situation.  they  agreed  to  help  shinji  run  away.  who  cares  if  they  run?  who  cares  if  they  leave  all  of  this  to  the  other  lilin?  it  didn’t  matter.  shinji  was  the  only  thing  that  mattered.  even  if  another  impact  came  about,  kaworu  had  been  convinced  they  could  run  away  with  shinji  and  protect  him  just  as  easily. it  wasn’t  hard  to  convince  shinji  to  run  away.                                                 of  course  it  wasn’t  hard  to  do  that.                                                             as  much  as  it  would  pain  kaworu  to  admit  it’s  predictability. they  had  mapped  out  plans  in  a  single  night.  where  to  go,  what  to  do  if  they  were  pursued,  ways  to  live  out  their  life  together  without  worrying  about  piloting  the  EVAs  ever  again.  kaworu  was  rejecting  everything-  the  safety  of  the  world,  the  word  of  NERV,  the  word  of  SEELE...  none  of  that  could  ever  stack  up  to  shinji  ikari,  anyway.  and  what  was  so  wrong  about  running  from  what’s  painful,  anyway?  why  not  leave  everyone  hurting  you  in  the  dust? shinji  didn’t  need  any  of  them.  not  asuka,  who  spat  hostilities  at  their  beloved  shinji-kun.  not  rei,  who  barely  offered  two  words  to  their  beloved  shinji-kun.  not  misato,  who  put  their  beloved  shinji-kun  in  danger.  and  certainly  not  his  rotten  FATHER,  who  brought  beloved  shinji-kun  to  their  world  but  did  not  care  if  he  took  beloved  shinji-kun  right  back  out. why  would  they  need  any  of  those  people?  why  would  shinji  need  any  of  those  people? that’s  what  kaworu  told  themself  when  they  ran  away  with  shinji.  and  for  a  while,  it  worked...  but  kaworu  running  with  UNIT  01′s  valuable  pilot  didn’t  exactly  make  NERV  happy,  and  their  abandonment  of  their  agreement  didn’t  leave  SEELE  very  happy  either.  it  didn’t  take  long  for  lilin  with  guns  to  come  chasing  after  the  fugitives.  shinji  had  admitted  defeat  instantly-  but  kaworu  saw  red. for  the  first  time,  they  felt  like  a  true  monster.  for  the  first  time,  their  lack  of  humanity  was  very  evident  to  themself. they  scooped  shinji  up  in  their  arms,  and  ran  away  as  fast  as  they  could.  shinji  didn’t  protest  despite  his  shock.  despite  everything,  it  delighted  kaworu...  he  must  love  them,  to  not  protest.  so  they  kept  running,  a  smile  unwavering  on  their  face.  they  were  convinced  they  could  outrun  the  guns...  the  bullets.  none  of  that  could  outsmart  kaworu. it  got  bad  fast.  there  were  too  many  people-  too  much  going  on.  it  wasn’t  going  to  be  long  before  a  different  UNIT  would  be  deployed.  kaworu  was  getting  desperate,  though  it  didn’t  show  on  their  face.  and  so,  in  order  to  escape,  they  did  the  unimaginable...  and  let  their  facade  break.  the  tattoos  of  angel  wings  prominent  on  their  back  shifted  and  transformed  into  real  feathered  wings,  and  they  took  flight. shinji  was  silent  with  fear  at  first.  but  then,  his  voice  met  kaworu’s  ears. “you-”  he  whimpered  within  kaworu’s  tight  grasp.  “you’re  an  angel...”  the  realization  came  with  a  cracked  voice.  kaworu’s  smile  twitched.   “i’ll  explain  everything  to  you,  shinji.  i  swear.”  kaworu  promised.  shinji’s  eyes  widened.   “let  me  go.” “shinji-” “LET  ME  GO!!!”  shinji  yelled  at  the  top  of  his  lungs,  terror  overtaking  him  all  at  once.  he  began  flailing,  falling  from  kaworu’s  tight  grasp  close  to  their  chest  and  instead  sliding  so  that  kaworu  was  grasping  his  hands  as  he  swung  underneath  their  flying  figure.  they  held  on  tight,  despite  shinji’s  horrified  wriggling.  “you  betrayed  me!!”  shinji  claimed.  it  hurt  to  hear,  but  kaworu  did  not  falter. “you’ll  fall,  shinji.  please,  calm  down.”  of  course,  kaworu’s  attempts  were  nullified.  shinji  continued  to  writhe.  but  kaworu  was  fine...  they  knew  they  could  keep  their  grip. rather  suddenly,  a  round  of  loud  bullets  were  fired  in  their  direction.  they  didn’t  dare  look  back  to  see  the  attackers  again.  they  heard  shinji  scream  a  shrill  screech.  they  knew  he  must  be  afraid...  dangling  so  dangerously.  they  ignored  their  despairing  protests  until  eventually  shinji  conceded  and  stopped. eventually,  they  reached  a  point  that  they  could  rest  without  the  vicious  pursuit.  it  would  prove  just  long  enough  of  a  respite  for  them  to  explain  themself  to  shinji...  so  they  stopped  there,  bringing  shinji  down  and  bringing  him  close  to  their  chest  in  a  hug.  they  landed,  and  wrapped  their  wings  around  him. “i’m  sorry  for  scaring  you.  please  understand  that  even  though  i’m  an  angel,  i  wish  you  no  harm.  i  care  about  you...  i  love  you.  so,  please,  keep  running  with  me??”  kaworu  said  delicately. shinji  did  not  reply. “...shinji?”   shinji  still  did  not  reply. in  fact,  he  did  not  even  breathe. kaworu  slowly  brought  shinji  away  from  their  hug.

their  expression  dropped.  eyes  wide,  feathers  standing  on  end,  hand  clasping  over  their  face.  before  them,  shinji  sat  limply  in  the  position  they  had  him  in  when  they  hugged  him.  his  body  was  full  of  holes,  dripping  blood  from  every  direction,  bullets  lodged  deep  within  his  skin  if  not  completely  gone  all  the  way  through.  his  face  was  twisted  in  horror,  tear  streaks  fresh  on  his  newly  deadened  facial  features.

shinji  had  been  killed  by  the  gunfire. he  had  screamed  in  agony,  not  terror. he  had  stopped  screaming  because  he  was  dead. because  he  was  dead.

kaworu  gripped  their  own  face  with  both  hands,  digging  their  nails  into  their  own  cheeks.  they  had  never  seen  shinji’s  dead  body  before.  their  body  lurched  forward  as  they  now  gripped  their  own  shoulders,  tears  pooling  up  at  the  corners  of  their  eyes  before  spilling  freely  onto  their  dead  beloved’s  face.  it  was  their  fault.  they  had  killed  shinji.

the  thought  breaks  them.

they  started  screaming,  as  loud  as  they  possibly  could,  keening  into  the  open  air  with  no  regard  for  people  finding  them  here.  they  just  made  as  much  noise  as  they  could,  sobbing  harder  than  they  even  knew  they  could.  they  really  were  an  angel.  a  monster.  so  far  from  human.  had  they  deluded  themself  into  believing  in  a  happy  ending  for  something  like  them?  

kaworu  didn’t  even  blink  when  the  sound  of  gunfire  broke  out  again.  nor  did  they  stop  bellowing  whenever  asuka  came  rocketing  in  with  UNIT  02.  they  didn’t  register  asuka’s  cry  of  realization  when  she  saw  shinji’s  corpse.  they  didn’t  even  feel  it  when  she  beat  him  into  the  ground  as  many  times  as  she  could.

and  they  certainly  didn’t  fight  back  when  asuka  killed  them.

[evolvitangelus]

@rhodologies​  //  shinji!!                ( plotted starter : my true nature )

“shinji-kun.”  their  voice  is  uncharacteristically  wavering.  it’s  almost  impossible  to  distinguish  them  as  kaworu  nagisa  when  they  spoke  like  that.  their  infamous  grin  was  completely  opposite,  and  in  its  place  was  an  uneasy  frown...  which  kaworu  seemed  to  realize  all  at  once  that  they  were  wearing.  in  retaliation  for  the  unseemly  show  of  weakness,  they  turned  their  head  from  shinji  as  if  to  hide  it.

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“i  trust  you  more  than  anything.  i  really  do.  but  i  don’t  think  you  understand  what  you’re  getting  yourself  into.”  despite  the  fact  it  was  allos  idea  in  the  first  place,  allo  was  having  a  difficult  time  committing  to  it  after  all.  they  were  both  far  away  from  anyone  seeing  this-  it  wasn’t  a  concern  of  safety.  it  was...  something  else  entirely.  the  image  in  kaworu’s  mind  of  shinji’s  mortified  face  was  too  strong.  what  if  he  despised  kaworu  after  this?   after  all,  allo  had  never  actually  done  this  before.  not  in  any  universe. “i  don’t  want  to  scare  you.  you’ve  seen  the  other  angels-  you  know  what  it  does  to  your  mind  to  see  something  so  disgusting  and  morbid.”  a  trickle  of  hatred  entered  seras  voice.  it  was  a  hint  of  seras  raw  self-deprecation...  a  rare  example  of  seras  less  than  obvious  flaws.  “maybe  this  was  a  bad  idea.  i-  i  don’t  know.” kaworu  got  quieter,  almost  inaudible.  “...i  think  i  might  be  afraid.”

[evolvitangelus]

@stanfordbound​  //  sam!!                ( short starter call )

“pardon  if  i’m  bothering  you,  but  do  you  happen  to  have  any  spare  bandages  on  you??”  kaworu  just  approached  this  boy  with  a  whole  open  wound  on  his  shoulder  from  a  recent  piloting  mishap.  that’s  one  way  to  give  someone  a  heart  attack.