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While I absolutely loved Weak Hero Class 1, the second season is what truly cemented the deep love that Sieun has for Suho. I've seen it said that all of Season 2 is basically a love letter to Suho from Sieun, and I couldn't agree more.

What makes Season 2 so devastating is Sieun's devotion to Suho when Suho is unable to give him anything in return. Throughout the season, we see Sieun visiting him several times at his hospital, sitting outside of his room. Visiting Suho is like a religious experience for Sieun; he feels that he must face the consequences of his actions that led to this - that in his mind, he must repent for the sin of "killing" Suho.

In other words, Suho is a god-like figure for Sieun in Season 2. He sees Suho everywhere, as if in a trance-like state - in his dreams, and in his newfound friends, from the way they eat to the way they fight. He views Suho as a standard of morality, his mind flashing back to when he told him not to cross the line. Messaging Suho and apologizing to him out loud is akin to confession - a way of coping with his guilt and despair over losing him.

After waking up from unconsciousness, Sieun's body immediately feels the need to see Suho. "I'm sorry I'm late," he says, as though Suho was expecting him. He doesn't want to disappoint him for not being there that day, and wants to assure Suho that despite everything, he is forever faithful to him.

I could go on and on, but I think this is what makes Season 2 so sad to the point where it's almost unsettling. Suho, in his comatose state, becomes a higher power for Sieun - someone who is incomparable and above all others, someone he looks to when he is weak, when he is stuck in the dark, and when he is lost without hope.

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All I know of love is hunger. Mary Lambert, Shame is an Ocean I Swim Across

Maggie Stiefvater, The Raven King/ Tina Chang, Color/ Edward Munch, The Kiss/ Ybes Olade, Belovéd/ Caitlyn Siehl, Kindling/ Kristen Radke, Seek You: A Journey Through American Loneliness/ Emily Dickinson, A letter to Frances and Louise Norcross/ Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood/ Maria Kostareva/ Henry Miller, A Literate Passion: Letters of Anaïs Nin & Henry Miller, 1932-1953/ Ron Hicks, The Embrace II/ alt-J, Breezeblocks/ Yves Olade, The Slaughterhouse/ Alex Dimitrov, The Weather of Our Lives/ Angelica Alzona, creophagy

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something about ronan alone being the one to find his father's body, and something about ronan watching kavinsky die and knowing he's alone again, and something about ronan burying his own corpse without help, and something about ronan being the only one to not have a pov in the first book, and something about how ronan never puts it into words, and something about how adam says "lonesome" and "an army of one" to define his own experiences except it really applies to them both. ronan knowable despite his inherent isolation / lonesomeness because adam is knowable and vice versa. the tamquam alter idem of it all is kind of evil actually.

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i was born something. what could i be?

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”He was Adam Parrish, army of one”.

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and when you kiss me , i am happy enough to die —

bluesey as 'the kiss' by gustav klimt !

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i know we all know this and it’s been talked about a lot, but i’m truly never getting over how beautiful it is that ‘tamquam alter idem’ is used as ‘i love you’ for ronan and adam like?? they both started the story with so much self loathing, shame and disbelief that anyone would understand them and accept them for their true selves. for them to both reach a point where they’ve grown together and made progress with themselves enough to have ‘as if a second self’ be their purest kind of declaration of love, actually makes me want to cry. like not only are they are using this phrase to convey their complete understanding, love and trust of one another to the point where they feel like extensions of each other, but also they are saying ‘you being an extension of myself means I love you because I value and love myself as well'. they couldn’t say this with the weight it holds without having learnt to accept themselves as well. THEIR GROWTHHHHH

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tamquam // alter idem

(pinterest / greywaren by maggie stiefvater)

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post tenebras lux

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I've never seen anything more Ronan and Adam

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a lot of things get on my nerves. im constantly annoyed. and i also have a deep love of humanity and the world but everything is really annoying

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- on childhood loneliness

@aphexxtween on tiktok/ @mazzystarjpg/ mastermind- taylor swift/ the virgin suicides/ @heavensickness/ if you’re anything like me- taylor swift/ pen15/ @mango-season

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erin lecount, sweet fruit

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its always like be careful this song might become a memory. this cologne might become a memory. this brand of beer might become a memory. i time travel all the time