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Stay alive they said. Fight to stay alive. But I have been fighting all my life. All I've known is the battle with myself. I have been fighting and now I am tired.

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how am i supposed to live with my brain for my whole life.?

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The art of pretending it didn't hurt.

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I should be happier and grateful because someone ” has it worst than me ". But i’m not, which makes me feel shittier about myself.

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I didn’t plan to be here so I don’t know how to be here

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somehow

only pain

stops the hurting

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fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘i am tired of making a religion out of my suffering’.

[text id: i am too little, and too much, and never enough.]

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𝒟ℴ𝓃𝓉 𝓀𝓃ℴ𝓌 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝓉ℴ 𝒹ℴ 𝓃ℴ𝓌

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I dream of waking up and being someone else. Someone better.

I dream of waking up not myself, because I'm not who I want to be.

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That desire to disappear is rooted not in hatred of others, but in this gnawing sense that you were never real, never lovable, never even right from the beginning 🤍🩶🖤

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𝒟ℴ𝓃𝓉 𝓀𝓃ℴ𝓌 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝓉ℴ 𝒹ℴ 𝓃ℴ𝓌

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isolation the most goated coping mechanism i love talking to no one and losing my mind alone

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is suffering all there is?