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Any day now

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I have not stopped thinking about this for four months pls tag me or like tell me when it’s up pls I will literally sprint for that link 🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️

you've been tagged! :D enjoy my guy youre the reason that fic has been rotating like rotisserie in my brain for four months

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Jeremy Knox & Jean Moreau Characters: Jeremy Knox, Jean Moreau, Annalise Knox, Bryson Knox, Mathilda Wilshire, Warren Wilshire, Leo Foster (All For The Game) Additional Tags: Pre-Slash, today on Piper's Manifestation Fic: i want jean to parallel renee so fuckin bad, anyway. actual tags, Emotional/Psychological Abuse, Implied/Referenced Drug Use, Implied/Referenced Torture, (for brief mentions of the nest), Physical Abuse, Verbal Abuse, canon typical homophobia from jeremys family, Derogatory Language, canon typical use of slurs by the wilshire family, mostly warren tbh he calls jean the f slur like four times, Angst, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort, Dysfunctional Family, i think thats really about all i need to tag for this one, its fairly tame in the grand scheme of my fics, but as always lmk if i missed one :], god this is so long. this one got away from me lmao Summary:

"You can't mean that."

Jean pressed his thumb against Jeremy's lower lip. To his credit, it was incredibly effective in shutting him up. "I do not say things I don't mean," Jean repeated, voice low. "You needed help. I would have gone to the Nest if that was where you had been. You are my partner, my captain, and my friend. I would have come for you no matter what."

That time, Jeremy did choke on the emotion, though it could have also been a sob. He'd just stopped crying, but suddenly it looked like he was about to start up again. It wasn't even what Jean had said, though that certainly wasn't helping. Mostly it was how dead certain Jean sounded about it. Like it wasn't even a question. Like he really would have stormed the Nest, where he'd suffered for years and almost died outright at least once, just because Jeremy needed him. And it was— it was a lot. Jeremy couldn't remember the last time someone had been willing to put him first like that.

Honestly, he wasn't sure anyone ever had.

title from eulogy by Christabelle Marbun

once again this is being posted because @zombiecowboy65 is the sole reason it exists and put this idea in my head :]

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hey anyone remember this concept from like four months ago .

Hello!! I literally have not stopped thinking about you saying you want Jean to be Jeremy’s Renee because the idea is literally so fucking delicious. And I was sat here like what if . What if one night Jeremy texts that phrase from the banquet to Jean and that’s how Jean knows to get him out of there ?

💃💃sorry to pop in and toss angst on top of ur angst. I just love angst lmao

oh my god please dont ever apologize for tossing angst at me. i love it. i thrive in angst. i live it and breathe it and your angst is wonderful

also you are literally In My Brain lmao I've been rotating that idea of jeremy using the phrase from the banquet to ask for help in othwr situations in my head like a rapid bake rotisserie chicken and it also might be part of that fic that im writing lmao

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me every day without fail: I'll do [chore] when I get home

me when I get home:

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nothing funnier to me than when AI does math wrong. like I get why it happens, it's a language model that's treating the numbers you feed it as words rather than integers and then giving you an answer based on how those words typically appear in a block of text instead of actually performing a calculation. but the one thing computers are genuinely incredible at. you fucked up a perfectly good calculator is what you did, look at it it's got hallucinations

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I just saw a tiktok that basically said “this is the one draft where Jean lives, so doesn’t that mean it’s also the only one where Jeremy escapes his family?” and now I’m crying

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billboard chose VIOLENCE on a random monday

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I genuinely can't stand pop psychology I'm not an expert on this stuff but the damage it has done to the general public's understanding of mental health and psychology must be notable. People with low empathy are evil. NPD is The Abuser Disorder. here's how your partner is subconsciously manipulating you. OCD is when you like cleaning. If you ask him a question and he looks away for one second he's lying to you and abusing you. Follow for more dark psychology tips. Letting my intrusive thoughts win and dyeing my hair. I thought this guy was into me I'm so delulu. Anyone who comes to you with their problems is traumadumping and abusive. Anyone who gives you gifts is lovebombing and abusive. Being neurodivergent means Liking Things. Neurotypicals don't like things. They are empty shells without feelings. Neurodivergent means ADHD or ASD. What, BPD? Schizophrenia?? That's not very quirky or fun. And that's what neurodivergent means. That's just weird. Being mentally ill isn't an excuse to be weird. Only Evil People manipulate and abuse. There are certain people who Are Evil by nature (people with NPD) and they Will abuse you. Loving someone means it's impossible to abuse them only Evil People Who Hate You are abusive. Have I mentioned that people with NPD are evil. I really want to drive that home

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You can give yourself one genetic mutation and it is safe, effective, and cheap*. What are doing?

*i know that a lot of these aren’t just due to one gene but are a complex interplay of several genes, epigenetic factors, and environmental factors, but we are playing pretend here

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beloved exy boyfriends 🤲

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Chloe Atkins’ portraits of lesbians at San Francisco’s Club Q featured in her published collection Girls Night Out (1998)

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pt. 39!!! <pt.38 pt.40>

poll is fr because i’m so indecisive ⬇️

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i entirely do not give a fuck if men are getting their feelings hurt because one of them saw a lesbian or a woman with trauma say "i hate men" twice in one week or whatever. like are we for real serious. i'm going to say this in the nicest way possible : grow thicker skin & get over it.