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hello, everyone, i can honestly say that a few weeks ago, i never knew that i would be here and making this post. i have had hoseok as a muse for over a year and three months, and he was the first of my rk muses that actually ended up sticking around. i loved him with all of my heart for such a long time, and i still do, but sadly, my time playing him has come to an end. he will always be my precious, nerdy, adorable son that loved aquaman, his best friends, and performing more than anything, he’s just going to have to continue to live in my heart rather than in rookies. it’s probably extremely obvious that my muse rises and falls with him, considering he is typically an inactive muse that occasionally has spikes in activity here and there, though it never truly lasts. i simply don’t enjoy having him as a muse as much as i once did, and whenever wednesday rolls around, i almost always feel forced to post on him, then that makes rkwednesdays just stressful days for me, then that leads to it being my saddest day of the week.

i realized that, since it’s gotten to the point where i feel like i need to save him since i never post on him, although i post on rkmg every single day, and i make myself sick struggling with it, that it’s probably no longer worth it. i never wanted to give him up and i wanted to keep him even when i didn’t give him enough attention just because i was sentimental and i have an attachment to him, but that isn’t something that’s fair to me, hoseokrk, or anyone else. when i first had the thought of possibly dropping him around two weeks ago, i thought i was going to quickly laugh it off and carry on, but then i kept seriously considering it and it started to become more and more like the answer. not only will i be dropping hoseok, but i’ll be dropping sorn, too. so, i am going to only have one muse here at rookies! the one that i obviously have an overflowing amount of muse for, that never has to worry because he’s always active.

i feel excitement and so much love for mingyu, so i feel like that’s how it should be for all of the muses that i have. therefore, i’m dropping the ones that i don’t feel that way for. lately, my interests have been shifting and i’ve been focusing on things in my life that are a bit more important than rp, so it’s certainly for the best that i let go of the muses that aren’t so dear to me that i can’t bear the thought of losing them. i feel like this will make my life (specifically, my wednesdays) so much easier and enjoyable. i haven’t entirely decided what will happen for the muse once he leaves the directory, but i suppose he’ll more than likely be heading home to busan. thank you to those of you that helped hoseok become a memorable muse for me. hoseokrk loves you all. ♥

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shinhs97 before too long, it won’t be acceptable to wear sweaters like this anymore. i’m going to enjoy the cool whether while i can. i hope everyone is having a great day! 😊

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rkmeiqi

it’s hard not to laugh when the boy talks. he’s got this contagious smile and he’s quite the looker, so it’s not exactly a surprise. plus, he’s spot on with the description of his muscular body, and the thought of him donning a small hoodie strained across his chest is comical. “hey, it’s cool. ever seen that vine ‘a hoe never gets cold?’ that’s me.” she exaggeratedly throws her hair over her shoulder. “ besides, i can always buy a new sweater. actually, you’d be doing my shop-a-holic ass a favour by stealing my clothes.”

meiqi glances over his shoulders, peering into the window to see what had caught his attention, and what could have possibly made the seemingly tough guy look like a kicked puppy. she nudges past him, stepping on her tiptoes to get a better view. “what’s got you looking so glum?” meiqi raises an eyebrow, tilting her head towards the entrance. “introduce me to the world of video games, my friend.”

"I... I haven’t. But I will take your word for it. I bet it’s a funny vine.” He quickly grinned before looking inside the shop window once again, then he turned to face the girl once she was speaking. “Well, I’m afraid I won’t be able to do you too many favors since I’m sure this is the only piece of your clothing that I’ll be stealing. I’ll try not to mess it up. You can shop and still own this! Then, you’ll just have more clothes. That’s a good thing, right?”

The boy bit down on his lower lip, doing all that he could to not begin laughing. Once he’s nudged, he raises an eyebrow and looks at her in an attempt to see what she’s doing. He looks down at her feet and gently chuckles at her tiptoes before motioning to the game. “I wanna get that for my friend but I haven’t exactly been making enough to buy extra things on the side. Well, not ones that cost that much, at least. I’m sure I can save up for it... Oh, and I left my wallet at home, so I couldn’t even try to come up with enough if I wanted.” Absentmindedly, he followed her into the store and started looking around, then his smile grew. “You don’t play them?”

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he lifts a hand and knocks a few times on the front door of hoseok’s place. in his hand he holds two slightly messily wrapped presents, the wrapping paper getting glitter all over him as he stands impatiently, waiting for the door to be opened. as soon as it is he holds the presents up in front of him. “merry christmas! … sorry it’s late.” inside one present is a pair of black, wooly fleece lined boots, in the other a white fleece rabbit hoodie. 

The knock was unexpected since he didn’t know of any visitors that he’d be getting. He’d just been lounging around in his bedtime clothes, watching a movie on the television even though he could barely keep up with what was going on. As soon as he realized someone was waiting for him at the door, he quickly hopped up and made his way over. He didn’t hesitate in turning the knob and viewing who it was, then as soon as he saw Minhyuk, a wide smile formed on his face and he quietly laughed, returning a cheerful “Merry Christmas!” and shaking his head. “It’s okay, you’re not too late. I just... wasn’t expecting this, wow... thank you so much.” 

He gently took the presents from the other boy’s hands and opened them in front of him, his smile only getting much wider. “You are certainly amazing at buying gifts, I can tell you that much. These are wonderful.” Holding the hoodie between his fingers and feeling the fabric, his smile turned softer and he looked to meet the other’s gaze. “I think I’m going to wear this every day. But... I feel bad, I don’t have you anything in return. I guess I’ll have to make it up to you, right? Want to come in? I can make you some cookies or something.”

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rkdawon

“yeah, that sounds like a good plan,” she confirmed, enthusiastically nodding her head as excitement began to build within her. she would be having a brief celebration with two of her favorite people on the planet, so it was difficult not to have high expectations for how her day would play out. “he loves cookies and hot cocoa, so…” her voice trailed off for a moment before continuing. “but i mean, who doesn’t, right?”

“nice save,” she added, light laughter escaping her. “and he’ll definitely want to help with the tree.” she paused, a soft chuckle managing to slip past her lips at the thought of it. “he’d probably kill me if we decorated it without him. it’s been his favorite part of christmas preparations for, like… ever.” not to mention the fact that he always did a much better job than dawon when it came to decorations, but she’d leave that part out.

"Okay, great!” He exclaimed happily and excitedly as he wasted no more time, putting the plan in motion. He started preheating the oven and he put foil on the pan as he looks over his shoulder at Dawon. “Hopefully no one. If someone doesn’t like them, then I don’t think I can trust them.” He chuckled as he pointed at the fridge, then asked in a soft tone, “Could you get the cookie dough out of the fridge? I can start boiling the water for the cocoa if you want to place them on the cookie sheet.”

He stepped away from the stove and took out a pot, filling it with water and then placing it so that it could start heating up. After doing so, he looked in her cabinets and took out a box of chocolate mix and the marshmallows. “I’m really excited to decorate the tree with you guys. Thanks for letting me be a part of this. I feel like I’m spending Christmas with family, even if all of mine is miles away.”

★ — home for christmas.

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seungcheolrk

It feels like it’s been an eternity since he’s turned his head and seen that smile. It’s not that Hoseok doesn’t smile often, though perhaps he doesn’t; it’s because Seungcheol has seen him so scarcely recently that it feels like forever since they’ve been in each other’s company long enough to really take it all in. Last year, he’d attended the city’s major Christmas event alone, so getting not only to spend quality time with a great friend, but also not having to suffer walking through a festival celebrating the season of love and family and friendship alone… it’s a much more merry Christmas this time around. 

“I think a drink is a great idea.” He agrees with a firm nod. “I would imagine there’ll be plenty of stalls selling hot drinks, if that’s what you’d like? I could certainly do with some extra warmth.” He’s wrapped up in a few layers, knowing what his immune system is like in the chilled weather, but he can always benefit from a little more assistance keeping a cold at bay. “Are you in the mood for a hot drink? I’ve been drinking a lot of tea lately — helps wake me up in the morning somehow.” 

Luckily, this encounter didn’t feel too weird or awkward, even if Hoseok still wasn’t a hundred percent sure how he felt about it. For now, he only needed to focus on the fact that he was spending time with a good friend. He didn’t have many that he could trust and would stick by him, so it was definitely for the best that he did what he could to hang onto the ones that truly desire to be in his life. It’s been a bit of a struggle lately for him (trying not to feel any resentment towards those that mean the most to him— the ones moving forward as he remained in place) but he wanted to be happy for everyone. He wanted to enjoy this.

“Alright, then we can go see what they have somewhere.” He thought for a moment as he aimlessly started walking ahead, then he gave a gentle shrug. “Doesn’t matter to me. Just so long I have something to quench my thirst, I don’t really care if it’s hot or cold.”

big freeze.

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shine forever

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rkdawon

as the year was drawing to a close, dawon found herself feeling conflicted as to whether she’d say it had passed by quickly or slowly. so much had happened, and so much had changed—a year ago, she wouldn’t have imagined herself anywhere close to where she was now. it felt all to surreal, and she still found herself trying to come to terms with all that had happened. despite the teary goodbyes and heartbreak she’d experienced earlier in the year, so much good had come out of everything, and, for the first time in a while, she felt genuinely happy.

“he’ll be here any minute,” she said, softly smiling in hoseok’s direction. it was safe to say that she wouldn’t have made it this far without hoseok by her side, as the older boy’s support had been crucial in helping dawon to make a few tough decisions. words couldn’t express how grateful she was for her friend, and she felt nothing but joy to be able to spend christmas with him. “should we make something while we wait for him?” she asked, in reference to her cousin. “like, i don’t know, cookies or hot cocoa or anything like that?”

This Christmas had been enjoyable as long as he managed to keep his mind from drifting to certain subjects. As usual, the sadness came and went, but he’d been typically cheerful throughout the season so far. It was easy to occupy himself by buying gifts for his friends and baking goods to give to them, and now he was by Dawon’s side, offering a warm smile as he gave a short nod. “Hmm..” He softly hummed in response to her question, unsure whether or not the other boy would want to partake in any of those activities.

“We could start making both and he could help us decorate the cookies and serve the hot cocoa with all of the cute little mini marshmallows when he gets here. Is he going to help us with the tree, too?” His expression was bright as he questioned it, then his Santa hat randomly started slipping off his head so he quickly readjusted it with a laugh.

★ — home for christmas.

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big freeze.

@seungcheolrk

The holiday festival was bound to be fun, right? He knew that he was going to enjoy it, especially given who he was attending with. Normally, he does just about everything that he can with Kihyun, but it had been a while since he was able to spend some quality time with Seungcheol, therefore that’s who he was going to be spending this time with. He smiled over at his friend as they made their way to the entrance, and he held the t-shirt that he was going to be donating in his hand. Once they approached, he made sure to hand it over before they were able to head inside.

Last Christmas, he went ice skating with one of his other old friends. This year, he was going to find out what Seungcheol was like on the ice. He shot another big, happy grin in his direction before clearing his throat and looking around. “So, what do you want to do first? Want to have a look around or head straight for the ice skating rink? I’m kind of thirsty, though, do you think there’s a place around here for us to get something to drink?”

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* comfort & joy.

The two of them only met a couple months ago, but Wonpil already treasures him as a close friend. Perhaps it’s their deeper understanding of one another than Wonpil usually experiences, most people calling him crazy or telling him not to be stupid where Hoseok embraced and encouraged him and his curiosities. Hoseok is patient, too, and Wonpil’s glad for Halloween having brought them together because he can already tell that Hoseok is going to be a friend he treasures for a long time— forever, hopefully.

Which is why he sets out to buy him a Christmas gift in honour of how, or rather why, they met. He’s not the best wrapper in the world ( nor rapper, actually ) but he does his best, taping down each flap and carefully attaching a label to the front with their names on, so it’s clear exactly who it’s for and from.

“Merry Christmas!” He chirps with a warm smile, a blissful laugh. He likes this time of year, even if it can be stressful. “I hope you like it,” is added moments later, and as Hoseok takes the gift, he continues further. “It’s in honour of our new friendship and it’s creation. Merry Christmas… again!”  

Soft laughter falls from his lips as he gently takes the gift in his hands, taking a few moments to open it in order to discover what was inside. Once he saw it, his laughter only turned louder and he ran his hands over the materiel, then looked up to face his new friend. “I love it, thank you. Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas. I’ve said it three times now so you don’t have to worry about repeating yourself.” His eyes trailed down to his present once again, then he brought it up to his chest and hugged it there. “It’s soft. I appreciate you thinking of me. I’ll be sure to make as much use of this as I can. Nice wrapping, by the way.”

His smile softened as he cleared his throat, then gave a short nod. “Hopefully we’ll have more memories this time next year. Who knows, maybe we’ll finally catch a vampire by then.”

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joy to the world.

He’s more than excited to see Hoseok today and almost as excited to give him his gifts. He feels embarrassed by it, but he supposes it’s one of the best qualities to have; a love of giving. Be it gifts, favours, joy, Seungcheol loves to make those around him smile, and he hopes to do that for his close friend, especially seen as they haven’t had chance to see each other much recently. 

His gifts are tucked carefully into a metallic effect green gift bag, wrapped in matching red paper for the iconic Christmas colour scheme Seungcheol loves. He’d retrieved the bag from the doorway on his way back from tugging his new Christmas jumper over his head, flattening it out over his stomach as he hands the bag to the older with his other hand. “Merry Christmas to you, too!” Inside, Hoseok will find a pair of Aquaman shoes and a clock, the latter of which Seungcheol was especially impressed by when browsing for gifts. “I hope you like them!”  

It made Hoseok feel good that Seungcheol loved his present so much, then he felt even more happiness the moment he was also handed a gift. He wasn’t even sure what was inside of the bag yet, and he still could barely contain his excitement. Honestly speaking, he just felt good that he was included and thought about. He loved his friends and those that cared about him more than anything. The grin on his face refused to dim, especially once he was taking off the paper and looking at what he had been given.

First, he saw the shoes and he let out a quiet, awe-filled gasp. He closely examined one of them, turning it in his hand to see what it looked like from all angles. He wasn’t even sure how to express how much he loved them, though he was sure that the boy would soon find out, as these would likely be the shoes he’d catch him wearing every single time he sees him from here on out. He wanted to put them on now, but he also wasn’t ready to see them going from brand new to used just yet, so he decided upon waiting. Next, he looked at the other one which was an Aquaman clock. His smile widened even more and he let out a gleeful laugh. “Wow, these are awesome, Seungcheol, thank you so much! I can’t wait to use both of them every single day, you're the best.”

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frosty cookies.

@kihyunrk

It sucked that he didn’t get to see Kihyun as much as he thought he would when he moved back in with him. Still, he knew that it was for a good reason so he still felt proud. Besides, he still had his job at the music store to keep him busy. For now, it was Christmastime and Hoseok was going to do all that he could to ignore everything that causes him worry and grief. All that mattered was that his best friend was here with them now, and they were presented with this perfect opportunity to bake cookies with one another.

After he found the inspiration after watching Frosty the Snowman, he knew what kind of treats he wanted to create. He’d been baking for such a long time that he highly doubted they’d have any problem bringing his mental picture to life. He had all of the ingredients scattered all across their counters and he wore an apron, then he looked at his best friend who was wearing a matching apron that he persuaded him to put on. A bright smile formed on his face and he drew in a deep breath. “You ready to make some great cookies, buddy?”

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rkmeiqi

autumn has slowly descended on seoul, the leaves of trees fading to a crinkly yellow and the wind nipping slightly harsher at exposed skin. while the cold isn’t completely welcome, the beauty of the season is.

meiqi loves the fall. she loves the aesthetic of the ground littered in leaves and she adores the atmosphere that calls for a thick sweater or a scarf. but sometimes, she really pities the people who are oblivious to the changing climate outside.

she’s passing by a video game shop, and normally meiqi pays no heed to the stores that are of no use to her, but a blond head catches her eye. his nose is practically pressed up against the window, but meiqi’s more concerned about his shivering body.

tugging her hoodie off, meiqi stops beside the person and holds the piece of clothing in front of his face. “this may be small but you’re shivering so take it.”

It was the least of his concerns that he forgot a jacket at home. He figured he would be fine without one since it would take a lot more than a cold day and chilly winds to take Shin Hoseok out. Actually, he was more distraught over the fact that he left his wallet at home. Why? Because it was in his jacket pocket. Maybe he could go back, but he's already so far away. Instead, he stared longingly into the shop window until he noticed someone approach him.

Before he can completely turn to look, a hoodie is being shoved in front of his face and a wide smile forms. "I can't take that from you, then you'd be cold. Besides, I'd probably stretch it too much. My arms are about twice as big as yours." Quietly chuckling, he still took it from her hands and used it by pressing it against his goose bump-riddled arms and a shiver ran down his spine. "I'll use it to cover up with for a few minutes and then I'll give it right back so that you don't begin to freeze instead."

♕ — 2 Cool For Cool.

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shinhs97 this little guy can’t get over how excited he is!! we both are!! dawon did it!! we’re so PROUD!! we knew you could succeed, dawon!! looks like i have a new ult group! 😊

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shin hoseok • saturday, december 2nd, 2017

This was a good idea, right? He was making the right move, wasn't he? He had to believe that he was. Honestly, after all that he's been through in the last two months, he felt like this might just be his saving grace. Then again, he felt a bit of doubt. Considering he was one of the winners in the talent show and he didn't do anything with it, he feared that it would slim his chances of succeeding with such a small amount of time passing. What if they felt like he didn't deserve another win so close to his last? But he tried to ignore that. He didn't want it to control him into passing up a good opportunity to finally get the break that he feels that he deserves. After living in Seoul for over a year and trying so hard to achieve his dreams, something good had to be in store for him, right? Yeah... yeah, he knew that it was.

A few months ago, when he participated in the talent show, he was under the impression that he was fully healed. Or, at least... he was getting close. 

However, not even that was correct. He was in a lot worse shape than even he knew, and it took winning and facing all of that for him to figure it out. His confidence hadn't recovered as much as he thought, then he fell into a deep sadness upon succeeding. Considering he felt like he didn't deserve his place as one of the winners, he tried to pinpoint what it was that scored him his spot. By now, he knows that all of it was absolutely ridiculous. It wasn't because he unbuttoned his shirt or anything like that got him the trophy... it was just his ability to put on a performance while displaying so much charisma. Maybe he was a fool for ever being blinded to that, though it wasn't precisely his fault. After visiting with his mother and becoming as close to Kihyun as he was a year ago, things were looking up.

He has learned from so many mistakes and dug himself out of the hole that he found himself buried in. Despite the fact that this was nowhere close to his first attempt, part of him still felt as though this was his first chance to succeed. Before, he hadn't faced all of his trials and he didn't overcome any issues. All things happen for a reason, right? There's got to be a reason he still hasn't made any progress after so much time has gone on. Part of him wonders if this will be when he sees the big picture or if it will be later on in his life... either way, he wasn't going to give up. Last time, he kept preaching about how he wasn't going to let that event tear him down again, then it did it anyway. That's because he'd been fooling himself.

This time, he was certain that no matter what happened, he was prepared for it and it wouldn't break his spirit. He had a place in entertainment, and he knew in his heart that he was supposed to be an idol. This was his passion and it was his key to bringing victory and pride to his family. Now, this was his shot and he didn't think that he was going to squander it. If he didn't succeed now, he would later, for sure. If he doesn't get chosen, it's not because he's bad... it will be because he isn't what they're looking for just yet... but he has faith in himself. Now it was time for him to see where that faith would get him.

After filling out the form, he waited. Once it was finally his turn, he walked into the small room and sat down, smiling at each of the unfamiliar faces. He took several moments trying to get used to the person that would be interviewing him so that all of his responses would come naturally. He wasn't shy in general, and he never has been, but if he felt like he was talking to a friend, surely none of his answers will seem excessively awkward. He was going to be as honest as possible since talking was always one of the things that he could do to win people over. Maybe he wasn't the smartest person in the world, but he noticed that people are usually amused and endeared by some of the things he says. Hopefully, that would do a lot for him in this particular situation.

Running his hands over his plain blue shirt, he ensured that there weren't any wrinkles before waiting for the entire thing to begin. Once the camera and sound tests were over, he knew that it was time for him to introduce himself. After doing so, he deeply inhaled and allowed a large smile to settle on his face as the questions began.

“Why do you want to be an idol?”

"Why wouldn't I want to be an idol?" His smile widened as he took a few seconds to attempt wording the rest of his response in his head before simply blurting it out. "Honestly, becoming an idol is my dream for a lot of reasons. I have always loved music, even if this wasn't the path that my family wanted me to take for a long time. It's not easy and it isn't something that I can be promised, but I think it's worth taking so many shots for. I really enjoy dancing and singing has become a passion of mine. You know that saying 'you never work a day in your life if you're doing something you love'? I want to do something that I love, and being an idol would allow me to do everything I could ever want. I would be able to perform," as he went on, he was counting on his fingers with each statement, "I would be able to make people happy and put smiles on faces, I could do modeling for photo shoots, and I could meet new people. Traveling would also be fun... seeing different places and giving joy to people much further out than just Seoul. I don't know how it could get any better than that."

“Which skill are you the best at?”

"The only one of my skills that could match that of my charming personality is my singing." After stating it, soft laughter fell from his lips as he prepared to continue. "Singing is what started it for me. 'It' meaning my journey down the road of falling head-over-heels in love with music. After I discovered how much I loved to sing along to my favorite songs, I started learning to play the guitar, too. I liked to make my own music, though it wasn't very good." He laughed at his own joke, then carried on. "Then, in my teenage years, I already knew I wanted to be an idol, so I started learning to dance, too. Even after all of that, I'm still the best at singing. I enjoy hearing my own voice, which might sound sort of bad, but what can I say? At least I know my own worth." Because I haven't always.

“What do you think you still need to improve on?”

"My dancing could use some improvement. I mean, I know that I'm kind of talented at it, but there's always room to get even better. I'd love for my dancing and singing to improve. I want to be the best Shin Hoseok that I can be, so I plan to work really hard to better myself in a lot of ways. I think I'm good at getting along with others, so that's not something that I really need to work on. Maybe I could try to be a little more creative. I'm creative in some ways, but I can honestly admit that I haven't had the same skill at writing lyrics and stuff as my best friend. It might take a miracle for me to reach that point, though." His smile widened more until laughter escaped him, then he quickly nodded before continuing to speak. "I have gotten a lot better at it, but I think I could improve on believing in myself, too. I sell myself short a lot, but I need to be nicer to myself, you know? I need to be my own friend."

“Who are your biggest influences?”

"My biggest famous influences are groups like TVXQ and Vixx. I really love their music and their style. TVXQ was my first ever favorite group and my favorite song is still Mirotic. I also really love LC9 and Day6. Especially Day6, since they play instruments and I love playing the guitar. Though honestly, I love dancing, too, so maybe I wouldn't say 'especially'. Jay Park, Sam Smith, and Dean are individual artists that I really look up to a lot. I love their music and how fearless they can be." He paused and drew in a deep breath, his smile turning softer and a hint of fondness sparkling in his eyes as he continued on. "But, when it comes to my all-time biggest influence, it's actually my best friend, Kihyun. When I was young, before I met him, I didn't think I'd ever truly chase my dream. I'm not sure that my dream even fully developed until he was around. He was such a talented singer with such a beautiful voice, and I really admired him. I wanted to be like him, and to one day be able to do the things, vocally, that he can do. Now, I'm not too sure I can ever achieve that," he laughed briefly, then finished, "but I can maybe get close."

“What is the biggest obstacle you’ve had to overcome so far?”

"I've had to face a lot of obstacles, but I'm not sure what the biggest would be. First of all, as I said before, my family didn't always want me to chase my dream of being an idol. They wanted me to try to become a model instead. I like modeling, but it's still not what I'm the most passionate about." He paused, growing silent for a moment but trying to keep a sunny disposition, despite the sadness he felt creeping in. "My biggest obstacle would either be before I moved to Seoul... when my parents got a divorce and me, my brother, and my sister were all still with my mom. Our father moved to a different country, then my mom got pretty sad and it wasn't easy supporting all of us. I had to help out, and it almost made me decide to leave my dreams in the past since I thought I should continue doing all that I can. But then, my mom encouraged me to move here and my brother and sister moved to be with my father. I miss them a lot. Or, it was back when I tried out for the Samsung commercial and didn't make the cut. It really disheartened me, then my best friend moved away shortly after that, so... it took a toll on me and I didn't know why I was still trying. I'm glad I did since I still have the chance to get what I want in life." He punctuated his sentence with a nod and a smile.

“What’s your family like?”

"They're great. My mom is really supportive these days and she's given me so much. I hope that one day I can give her the world since I know that she deserves it. She tries so hard help me and to keep me happy. She's a really wonderful woman, I love her so much. My brother and sister are my heart and soul, really. I miss them every day, so I hope that once I become successful, they can come back to Seoul so that we can all be together again. I'm a lot older than both of them, there's a big age gap, so sometimes I felt kind of like a dad to them, too, but being their big brother is an honor. I don't get to talk to my dad a lot anymore, but... I still love him as well. From what I know of his new wife, she's really nice."

“If you weren’t trying to be an idol, what would you be doing right now?”

"Maybe I would listen to my parents and try to be a model. If not that, then maybe I would try to work for DC Comics or something. I really love superheroes, so that would also be a great dream, I think. The only problem is that I'm not a great artist, but I could always just write for them or something similar. I think if I wasn't trying to be an idol, the first thing I would do is try to do more schooling, first of all. I never was the best in school, because I struggle with learning as fast as a lot of the other kids, but I would still give it a shot." His grin increased a bit as he finally finished, then everything was all wrapped up as his time was finally over. He bowed and thanked a few people as he made his way out, and now he only had one thing to do...

Wait and see if he gets a call.