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exocaliii · 6 months ago
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guys do any of u watch yellowjackets speak up now... i can feel the hyperfixation coming back🙋‍♀️
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exocaliii · 6 months ago
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i'm genuinely a changed woman idek what to say like there's not much i can say i just need to share this with the world.... she too fine im in genuine disbelief and she BETTER BE ALRIGHT IN THE SECOND PICTURE OMG😭😭😭
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exocaliii · 6 months ago
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YES YES!! this was the vibe i was trying to capture in my fic, i don't really see her as this hard dom or smth like that😭😭shes been shown to act fairly soft with ppl who are gentle/innocent (weird way to word it but u get what i mean), she's just a confident person but is still kind when she needs to be
Maybe a hot take I feel like people are making Semi a dom goth mommy just because of how she looks like and not how she acts, which is fine but like I feel it erases her character (what little we saw of her anyway)
Yes she is dominant but in a subdued subtle way. She looks out for weaker people but she still stayed in the company of dangerous junkies so who got her killed, yknow she's more interesting like this
Someone please get what I'm talking about
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exocaliii · 6 months ago
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soft se-mi save me... SAVE ME SOFT SE-MI!!!!
in the dark (part 1)
Se-mi x reader
part two
this one is dedicated to my bsf, who’s obsessed with Se-mi
ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧
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"Señorita, huh? What an idiot," Se-mi scoffed.
You were both sitting on one of the metal bunk beds crammed into the common room. The air was heavy with the scent of sweat and fear, a reminder of how many lives had been lost during the last game. Around you, other players were either huddled in small groups, whispering anxiously, or lying silently on their beds, too drained to speak.
Somehow, you had survived again. And somehow, you had also gained… a new friend? You weren’t entirely sure how it had happened. While you were frantically trying to find a group before the game started, a pretty girl had approached you, her voice calm despite the chaos. "Mind if I join you?" she’d asked, and you had accepted her without even thinking.
Now, as you sat across from her, you couldn’t help but steal glances at her. There was something magnetic about Se-mi. Her sharp features, the way her jet-black hair fell loosely around her face, and those piercing eyes that seemed to see right through you—all of it left you in awe.
It makes you couldn’t quite decide if you wanted to be her or be with her. The thought made your stomach churn, and you quickly pushed it aside, unsure if it was the tension of the games or something deeper stirring within you.
"Heeey? Are you even listening to me?" Se-mi waved her hand in front of your face, an amused smile playing on her lips.
You felt your cheeks heat up as you stared at her blankly, struggling to think of how to respond.
Her smirk only deepened as she leaned in closer, her voice dropping slightly. "What’s the matter? Am I making you shy?" she asked, tilting her head with an almost playful curiosity.
You opened your mouth to deny it, but no sound came out. The way her eyes lingered on yours made it impossible to think straight.
Se-mi chuckled softly, leaning back just enough to give you space. "Don’t worry, it’s cute. I like it when you get all flustered like that," she said, her tone as casual as if she were talking about the weather. "But try to keep up, okay? I’d hate to lose an adorable teammate like u”.
“Is she flirting with me?” u thought to yourself. You weren’t sure if you were reading too much into her words or if Se-mi was deliberately toying with you.
"I-I’m not flustered," you finally managed to stammer, but your shaky voice betrayed you completely.
Se-mi raised an eyebrow, clearly unconvinced, and her smirk returned in full force. "Oh, really? Then why are you blushing so much, huh?" She leaned forward slightly, resting her chin on her hand as she studied you, her eyes glinting with amusement.
You glanced away, desperate to change the subject, but the way she was looking at you made it impossible to focus on anything else. "I-it's just hot in here," you mumbled, although the cold, unwelcoming air of the common room was anything but.
Se-mi let out a soft laugh, shaking her head. "Sure, sure. Whatever you say," she teased.
"You know, you’re kind of fun to mess with. It’s a good distraction from all this… chaos."
Her words hung in the air for a moment, and you realized that, despite her playful tone, there was a hint of something more in her voice—something softer, almost vulnerable.
Before you could respond, she straightened up, brushing a strand of hair out of her face. "Anyway, we should probably figure out what’s next," she said casually, though her gaze lingered on you just a little longer than necessary. "I’m not planning on dying anytime soon, and I’d rather not do it alone. You’ll stick with me, right?"
The question caught you off guard, but there was no denying the warmth in her voice, even if it was buried beneath her usual confidence.
"Yeah," you replied softly, surprising yourself with how certain you sounded. "I’ll stick with you."
Se-mi grinned, satisfied. "Good. You’re smarter than you look, cutie."
A voice echoed from the speakers mounted on the ceilings, announcing that the lights would be turned off in five minutes, signaling the start of nighttime.
Players began retreating to their beds. You noticed a group that had set up some sort of "base," huddled together in one corner and using mattresses as barricades. Were they being paranoid, or did they know something you didn’t?
Could something really happen during the night? The thought sent a shiver down your spine. You glanced around the room, suddenly hyperaware of the tense atmosphere. Whispers filled the air, some players exchanging nervous glances while others silently adjusted their positions, keeping their backs against the walls.
Se-mi seemed unbothered—or at least she hid it well. She stretched her arms lazily before leaning back against the cold metal of the bunk bed.
"You don’t think…" you hesitated, lowering your voice to a whisper, "…someone might try something, do you? Tonight?"
“Hmm…” Se-mi glanced around the room, her eyes briefly scanning the other players.
“Nah,” she said at last, her voice laced with a mix of amusement and indifference. “They don’t have the balls to do anything outside the games.”
Her casual dismissal didn’t sit right with you. “Oh, okay,” you mumbled, but the unease in your chest only grew.
You’d seen what these people were capable of. Especially that purple-haired maniac. He was killing people in the games like it was nothing. Even worse he seems to had fun doing it. It made your skin crawl. What was stopping someone like him from doing it again now, in the dark, where there were no rules?
Se-mi must have noticed the way your hands fidgeted nervously, or maybe it was the faraway look in your eyes. “Hey…” she said softly, moving closer to you.
Before you could react, her hand was on your cheek, her touch gentle yet steady, grounding you in the moment. “It’s gonna be okay,” she murmured, her voice softer than you’d ever heard it. “Just stay close to me, alright?”
Her thumb brushed lightly against your skin, and your breath hitched. The simple gesture, so unexpected and tender, made your heart flutter in a way you couldn’t ignore.
For a moment, the tension in the room faded into the background. All you could focus on was her—the warmth of her hand, the way her eyes held yours, and the faint trace of a smile tugging at her lips.
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exocaliii · 6 months ago
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PROTECTIVE SAEBYEOK SAVE ME... SAVE ME PROTECTIVE SAEBYEOK
Heyyyy I was wondering if your not busy maybe you could write my request!
Sae-byeok x fem!reader in squid game. Kinda like a golden retriever x black cat where Sae-byeok looks after reader.
If you actually end up writing this thx sm and take care!!!
Love:
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fem!plus size reader, wc: 589.
a/n: i've been on my sae-byeok kick as of late! this is so fluffy it's actually terrible, but this woman makes me so HEHEHEHE
cw! deok-su being nasty :[
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Sae-byeok hovered behind you like a shadow, looming like a parrot perched on your shoulder.
You don’t mind it, because it’s nice knowing you have someone looking after you, though you don’t really know why she chose you out of all people.
You aren’t weak, and you’d like to think it was your smarts and pure willpower that’s gotten you to where you are now, but maybe she sees something you don’t. You don’t really know whether or not that’s a compliment, unfortunately.
Tensions were rising exponentially as bodies fell and the prize pot got bigger; it’s to a point where you’re not really sure who you can trust. 
It’s obvious with the way everyone’s split up into their preferred groups that they feel the same way. You’d like to think that your group were good people… or at least good adjacent. It was impossible to be good and still end up in a place like this. 
She sits behind you on the steps to the bunks as you munch down on your pitiful lunch; just an apple and a bottle of water. There’s no complaints from you, though, as the juices from your surprisingly red apple drip down your chin.
There’ll be time to worry about that later, but you stop when you hear a scoff come from behind you. “Are you always such a messy eater?” Sae-byeok murmurs.
You turn around with a slight pout, water still glistening on your face. “How are you not hungry?” You ask through a large chunk of apple in your mouth. She just stares at you and sighs, pulling her sleeve down over her hand.
You watch her curiously as she cups the side of your face, using her cloth covered wrist to swipe through the mess.
“Disgusting.” She chides, all the while. You blink rapidly and almost choke as you swallow. “Thanks.” You mumble shyly. She just grunts.
“Isn’t that sweet?” Comes from an approaching Deok-su. 
Your body jolts so hard you almost fall from where you’re sitting. You look at the tattooed thug from beneath your lashes, scooting backwards so your back hits the front of Sae-byeok’s legs.
“Screw off.” Sounds the girl behind you. “I’m not doing anything.” He says with a smirk. “Unless I’m interrupting something.” He says suggestively. 
“You’re not interrupting shit. Screw off before I make you.”
The smirk slips from his face and he steps forward threateningly. “Is that a threat, you bitch?” 
You feel Sae-byeok stand up behind you, stepping around your frozen body to hide you from his dangerous thoughts.
“I’ll make it one.” She spits. “Listen here –” He’s stopped by one of his “friends,” putting a hand on his shoulder. “Boss.” He murmurs, gesturing to the left of him at a guard that tightened his grip on his gun warningly.
“You just got lucky.” He growls, snatching his shoulder out of the man’s grip, storming off.
Sae-byeok ops to sit in front of you this time, and you tug on her jacket. 
“You shouldn’t have done that.” You hissed in worry. “It doesn’t matter.” She says plainly, glaring off at the man who had resettled in his area. “He was going to come and spit his filth regardless.” She adds.
“Still, I don’t like when you get on his radar like that.” You mumble. “I can handle myself.” She said back.
It’s you I worry about, are the words that are left unsaid.
You send her an appreciative squeeze to her arm anyway, anxious – and flustered – butterflies swarming in your stomach.
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exocaliii · 6 months ago
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oh na na just be careful na na love ain simple nah nah OKAY HOPE MY SINGING HELPED U PUSH THTOUGH THIS!! 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻😍😍😍😍😍😍😍
LMFAO BYE😭😭😭😭IM PUSHING FR... NO EUL FANS WAIT FOR ME!
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exocaliii · 6 months ago
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me staring at the unfinished jealous no eul g!p smut fic knowing i got 20k assignments to finish... yeahhh🙁
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exocaliii · 6 months ago
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your writting is amazing, you're amazing 🫵🫵
.😶‍🌫️
STOP TYSM😭😭guys TO EVERYONE FHATS SHOWN ME SUPPORT THESE PAST FEW DAYS TYSM IT MEANS A LOT TO ME THAT U GUYS ENJIY MY WRITING!!!
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exocaliii · 6 months ago
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Can you pls do a fem s/o and Kang sae-byeok head cannons 🙏
a/n: HOLY SHIT OKAY. this is so terribly long and i'd be more than willing to write a whole fucking series about this if need be. i almost cried like... two times while writing this because it's so cheesy and perfect, and it gives sae-byeok the life she deserves!!
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SO, popular girl!reader x basket case!sae-byeok highschool au.
you're genuinely so sweet but your little clique are made up of people with that aren't so nice to people like sae-byeok.
you aren't mean! a lot of people just so happen to like you and know your name! and yeah, they invite you to some of the biggest parties at your school, but so what? it's just a large gathering!
but sae-byeok doesn't know that, and honestly? she doesn't want to.
she's not looking for anything with anyone, especially not with a person like you.
think of like a cliche scene from a movie: you're walking in the hallway with your group of friends, and you pass by her.
you guys lived in two different worlds that were never meant to collide... and yet they did.
it was a simple formula really.
with it finally being your senior year (going by american school because i know nothing about the korean school system 😭), that meant new classes.
and you had absolutely no friends in this one.
seats were taken up by friends that had found themselves together, while you just stood there like a fish out of water.
but then there was sae-byeok, sitting in the back of the class by herself, lost in the world happening outside the large window to the left of her.
and she was beautiful.
the sun hit her golden skin just right, illuminating her dark, dragon-like eyes that look like they could pierce your soul if they wanted to.
for the first time in a long time, you're hesitant as you approach the long counter for two.
"excuse me? can i sit here?" your voice is quiet, sheepish, and when she finally looks up at you, all your blood rushes to your cheeks.
she takes a moment to scan the classroom, before looking back out the window.
"sure." it's blunt, curt, monotone, a collection of synonyms to describe someone who's not interested in casual friendly conversation.
the bit of light inside of you dims, but nonetheless you take a seat next to her.
it's awkward, but you turn your body towards her, putting on a cheerful smile.
"hi." you say hopefully.
all the girl does is throw a look at you out of the corner of her eye before looking away again.
"uh my name is," you tell her your name. "what's yours?"
"does it matter?"
"i would like to think so. were gonna be sitting next to each other for the rest of the year, so i'd like to get to know you."
she finally turns her head fully, giving you a once over before meeting your gaze head on. "I don't want to know you."
"oh." you say, taken aback. "well, i'll be here when you're ready then."
after that, she didn't talk to you much, but you were sewn into each other's lives, whether she liked it or not.
of course you noticed her; how could you not? she was the prettiest girl you had ever seen.
though she basically acts like you're not there, you know she's watching you.
sometimes you can feel her gaze when you're doing your work, or when you're taking notes. it's like she's analyzing you instead of just trying to get to know you.
then, the class project happens.
both of you are forcibly paired up, and you're not too sure how she feels about it. all she does is look at you and say, "it looks like were partners, now." in that dry tone of hers.
you're over the moon about it, but you really try not to show it, though you're sure your smile gives you away.
"i'll do my half and you can do yours -"
"or you can come over to my house after school to work on it!" you offer enthusiastically.
yeah, you're so fucking obvious.
she just stares at you before looking at the paper that holds the instructions on it. "sure."
"great, awesome... here's my phone number so i can send you my address."
"mhm." she hums.
"can i finally know your name now?"
"... sae-byeok."
having her over at your house for the first time was... overwhelming to say the least. you stress cleaned the whole house, your light pink room glistening beautifully.
it got easier afterwards though, seeing her.
she finally talked to you at school, and through the project, you had learned about her ten year old brother, and her parents.
she was still blunt and dry-witted, but it became easier to understand her little by little.
your old friend group had noticed your absence, you often cancelled on them to hangout with sae-byeok after school.
sometimes she'd even bring her brother with her, and that was the first time that you realized that she trusted you.
your feelings grew, even as the project deadline had passed and you both had presented and got a good grade on it.
a part of you worried that things were going to go back to the way they were, but pleasantly they didn't.
things were going good, with your head in the clouds and most of your time being taken up by your lover girl, you were sure nothing could get better than this.
then, you were stopped in the hallway by your clique while on your way to your class.
"you've been ghosting us." one of the girls said.
"don't tell us it's for that weird girl. you know she doesn't have any friends, right?"
"c'mon, you're just making yourself look bad by spending time with her."
their cruel words bounced around in your head, and you had finally had enough.
"it doesn't matter if she doesn't have any friends or if you think she's weird. i like her. i like spending time with her. that should be enough."
things got better after cutting off your group of friends, and if sae-byeok noticed, she didn't say anything.
she honestly forgot they existed because of how much of your time had been spent with her; at lunch, at home, on the phone, or at school.
the thing about sae-byeok is that it wasn't that she was bad at expressing her emotions, it's just that she did it in a way that was different.
like buying your favorite drink while she was out, or sharing her umbrella with you if you forgot to bring one.
she would chide you of course, but there was a part of her that preened at the idea of being able to take care of you.
it was strange, having these new emotions for somebody, but she can't say that it surprised her.
she knew from the first day that she met you that you were different.
it wasn't as if she had no idea who you were, she's seen you around with your group of friends before, had seen how they treated others, had even been at the tail end of their "teasing."
but every single time without fail, you'd be right behind them, scolding them on their choices to be mean to people.
sae-byeok found it a bit redundant, seeing as though you had still hung around them, but appreciated the sentiment nonetheless.
of course she still held a grudge, and had no ambition to actually get to know you at all as a person, but that didn't mean she couldn't look at you.
admittedly, you were very pretty; with your flowy skirts and tops, and your cute little adornments.
the outside matched the inside, and so when you asked her to go to your house to work on the project, she felt that maybe... just maybe, you were worth a damn.
and she was right.
she learned your little habits, what you found funny, how genuine kindness seemed to flow through you regardless of who you were with, especially with her brother.
now, sae-byeok has never cared for any school wide function: homecoming, prom, any kind of dances really.
she's never had anyone she's wanted to take, so what was the point of going?
but you seemed very stressed about it.
sae-byeok didn't want to be that kind of person, but you would tell her anything and everything, even if she had nothing to offer you back, so surely you would tell her if you had a crush on someone, right?
she didn't like the feeling of jealousy, how it bubbles under her skin like an itch she can't scratch. it makes her irritable, and you don't deserve that.
but why can't she just muster up the courage to ask you then if it bothers her so much?
you were stressed, because not only was it time for prom, but sae-byeok had been acting weird; blowing you off, missing calls or texts, seeming distant even though you weren't even a seat apart.
you had no idea what was happening.
did she have someone else?
you know she wasn't a big fan of sharing her personal feelings, but you thought you guys were close enough to talk about your love lives.
you wanted to take her to prom so bad it made your bones ache, but you were scared.
what if she said no? even though she never implied she liked girls, she never said she didn't.
what if you've been reading the last couple of months wrong? she had been a lot more caring with the way she did things!
she would occasionally bring you your favorite drink, or even pay for your lunch when you went out.
she had even gone out of her way to put her arm around your shoulder when you cried during the notebook!
it wasn't like she was allergic to physical touch but, you guys just didn't do that.
okay, maybe you've wrapped yourself around her arm while you guys had been walking a time or two, and yeah she's even held your books when she walked you to your next class, but those things could mean anything!
you internally groaned, your head falling backwards and your eyes landing on the ceiling above you.
"hey, sae?" you forced yourself to say, lifting your head up.
wide, dark eyes looked up from her book, attaching themselves to yours. a silent gesture for you to continue.
"what do you think about prom?"
she stares another beat before looking back down, seemingly uninterested. "i think it's stupid."
"oh," you nod quietly. "well, i'm thinking about going." you see her body stiffen before feigning relaxation.
"okay."
"okay." you reiterate, any courage you had dying as quickly as it formed.
your heart breaks a little bit when you pick up your own book, tears burning in the back of your eyelids that you rapidly blink away.
she was right, maybe it was stupid.
the night of prom isn't as exciting as you wished it would have been.
you still had a handful of friends that were willing to hangout with you even though you had been cast out.
they tried their hardest to brighten up your dim mood. they didn't know much, but they probably figured it out, seeing as though sae-byeok wasn't currently glued to your side.
being all dolled up made it easier to be sad, because at least you were melancholic in a cute way.
you had been looking at your phone all night, and yet there was nothing from her.
how was it that you could feel so lonely in a room full of others?
the gymnasium was swimming with people, crowds upon crowds of them stretched from one wall to the other.
the lights were off, the room illuminated by the strobe of colors from the dj booth.
the ground was covered in confetti and balloons, and yet all you could think about was how you'd rather be anywhere than here.
couples gathered up; hands around waists, arms draped over shoulders, and backs hugged.
you picked at your freshly done nails, peeling at the glittery pink gloss.
"hey."
your eyes tore themselves away to gaze up at... sae-byeok?
"sae?" you said in disbelief. "you came!"
she shifted in place uncomfortably, it was clear she was out of her element.
you took the time to get a good look at her, and when you did, butterflies erupted in your stomach.
she was dressed in a suit, her eyes smeared with a bit of dark shadow. there was no mascara or eyeliner to be found, but it was so imperfectly her.
"why are you sitting here by yourself?"
"i -" you shook your head, smiling sheepishly. "i mean - i didn't come with anyone."
"you look pretty." she says.
"thank you." you finally give her your award winning smile, which was adorned with a shy flush.
the music slows down and you gaze at her nervously. "did you come for me?"
"why else would i be here?"
"true." you reply with a laugh.
there's a beat of music drenched in silence.
"dance with me." she says with a slight demand.
"dance with you?" you ask dumbly.
"isn't that what you do here at things like this?"
"yeah - i... yeah i'll dance with you."
she extends her long hand and you take it, your already damp body heating even more at the feeling of her skin against yours.
you can feel people staring, and you aren't sure if it's because she's wearing a suit, or if it's because you're you and she's her, but in the moment, it's the last thing you were thinking about.
your arms find themselves around her neck, and her hands land on your waist.
you're alight with nerves, your body trembling in fear, excitement, and anticipation.
you both begin to sway with no rhyme or reason, and you swallow the lump in your throat.
"sae..." you begin. you can't look at her, so you focus on the black bow-tie on her delicate neck.
"i know this is probably going to ruin everything, but i can't hold it anymore. every time i'm with you, it hurts. it hurts because of how much i love you." you ramble with a disbelieving laugh.
you can tell she's stopped moving, but she doesn't remove her hands from your waist. they don't tighten or tug you closer, they just sit on your body like dead weight.
"i'm sorry i fell in love with you, kang sae-byeok." you finally look up at her, and there are tears in your eyes. "it was just impossible not to."
her eyes are wide, disbelief swimming in her irises; but there was also hesitation, fear. she didn't know what to do, or what to say.
"when i first saw you, i thought you were the prettiest woman i've ever laid my eyes on. even if you were a bit mean about it." you laugh again wetly.
you giggle anxiously, untangling yourself from her and shrinking into yourself in defense the longer she takes to respond.
"i - i get it if you don't feel the same -"
she cuts you off by grabbing your hand, tugging you with her as she begins to walk, the soles of her torn up black converse scruffing the shined flooring.
the music dies behind you when the doors open and you're walked into the starry night outside.
"sae-byeok."
"i didn't want to do this inside." she says and when she turns to you, her eyes are glazed over.
"don't expect a big confession from me, but i like you too." she's standing like she's on the defense.
it was your turn to be in disbelief. "you do?"
"i already said i did."
you just laugh once more, and shake your head. "i don't need a big confession, sae. i just need you. just like this. just like now."
you both have a long way to go, and who knows if this is forever, but you think that's just fine.
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exocaliii · 6 months ago
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hello it’s me again. you’re gonna be seeing a lot of me lmao😌
okay here me out. a wealthy girl meets saebyeok at the park because they both have little brothers. the rich girl becomes really close with saebyeok inviting her and her little brother over often and ends up helping out with her money issues (aka she don’t gotta go to the squid games🙏🏻) and at first ofc saebyeok is against it cuz she doesn’t trust ppl and doesn’t wanna accept help for fear of being vulnerable and owing someone. but the girl is really good with saebyeok’s little brother, and always attentive towards saebyeok, checking up on her, noticing the little things like snacks she likes and such. and saebyeok ends up opening up about her issues and lets the girl help and they all live happily ever after typa vibe🥰🩷 it’s what saebyeok deserves😩
can’t wait to see what u come up with !
-love koogi🍓
𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐊 𝐁𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐇 | 𝐊𝐀𝐍𝐆 𝐒𝐀𝐄 𝐁𝐘𝐄𝐎𝐊 ౨ৎ
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pairing : saebyeok x fem!reader
fluff
warnings : none
a/n : this is literally so cute omg ??
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𝐓he park was usually a place of chaos, teeming with screaming children and exasperated parents. but today, it felt strangely serene, maybe because you noticed her instantly. she sat on a bench, a fierce scowl etched on her face, her short dark hair pulled back in a ponytail. beside her, a little boy with wide curious eyes was talking to her. he was the reason you noticed her — your own little brother was currently engaged in building a sandcastle a few feet away.
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you’d always found the park a good place to escape the confines of your house. you watched her for a moment, the way she’d occasionally throw a glance at her brother, her harsh expression softening just a fraction. there was something about her, a quiet strength that intrigued you.
“hi.” you said, approaching hesitantly. your own brother, looked up, his sandy hands momentarily still. you told her your name.
her dark eyes, sharp and assessing, met yours. “Saebyeok,” she replied, her voice low and a little rough, like gravel. “this is Cheol.” she gestured to the boy beside her.
from that first meeting, there was an unspoken understanding between you, something beyond the shared experience of little brothers. you found yourself drawn to her, to the way she moved, her quiet determination, even in the simple act of keeping an eye on Cheol. you started making it a point to be at the park most afternoons, and soon you fell into a rhythm. the two of you would sit on the same bench, kids playing in the sand between you two, talking about anything and everything, or sometimes nothing at all.
you insisted she and Cheol come to your house for dinner. at first, she was hesitant, her gaze darting around your spacious house like a startled animal. but Cheol was immediately captivated by your collection of picture books, and she couldn’t deny him that. you loved watching her with him, the way she’d ruffle his hair and gently correct his pronunciation, a fondness that betrayed the wall she tried so hard to build around herself.
you started having them over regularly. you’d make pancakes on Sunday mornings, and you’d laugh over Cheol’s sticky face and Saebyeok’s attempts at maintaining a poker face while secretly enjoying the chaos. you’d notice the little things — the way she sat, the way she’d look at you, searching for something in your expression.
you knew she was struggling. you could see it in the worn clothes, the way she’d sometimes space out, her eyes distant. your parents, oblivious to such things, were concerned about your new friendship, their comments dripping with subtle condensation. but you didn’t care. you didn’t see her as some pickpocketing girl. you saw her as someone complex, someone layered with experiences that had shaped her, and you wanted to know her completely.
“you know,” Saebyeok said one evening, as Cheol was finally asleep on your couch after a particularly exhausting day of playing, “you don’t have to worry about food here. or anything for Cheol. we’re good.” she looked at you, her eyes narrowed. “i don’t want your charity.”
“it’s not charity,” you protested, your voice rising. “it’s helping a friend. besides, Cheol loves it here. and so do you, even if you don’t want to admit it.”
she didn’t answer, which, in her way, was an admission. you continued to push gently, not with words, but with actions. you’d buy her groceries, leaving them discretely at her door, knowing she’d eventually use them. you’d invite her to join you on shopping trips, pretending you needed her opinion, secretly enjoying watching her pick out new clothes for Cheol. you’d leave warm tea for her in the middle of the night, if you saw the light on in the window of her apartment, hoping she’d see it as a sign of your care.
slowly, painstakingly, she began to let her guard down. she told you about her mother, her brother, and the struggles she’d endured. she spoke of the fear and the helplessness, the burden she carried on her shoulders. she spoke of her desperation to get her family back together.
and as she spoke, you found yourself falling. falling for her strength, her rare vulnerability, her fierce love for her brother. you loved the way she’d furrow her brow when she was concentrating, the way her lip would twitch when she was trying not to smile. you loved the sound of her low voice, even when she was being sarcastic.
you’d catch yourself stealing glances, your heart thrumming in your chest. the way her eyes would linger on yours a touch too long, the slight blush that would creep up on her neck after you’d brushed a stray strand of hair from her face. it was subtle, almost unnoticeable, but it was there; a connection that went beyond friendship.
one day, you found yourself tracing the outline of her hand with your fingertip as you sat on the couch, your brother and Cheol dozing between you. the touch was light, hesitant, but her gaze locked with yours, and for a moment, the world around you seemed to fade away. there was something in her eyes, something that mirrored the feelings you had been desperately trying to ignore.
she whispered your name, her voice barely audible. your name on her lips was a revelation.
you didn’t say anything. you didn’t need to. you both knew. you were teetering on the edge of something new, something terrifying and exhilarating, something that you both wanted, but were both scared to admit. you were two girls from different worlds, drawn together by little brothers and a connection deeper than anything you’d ever imagined. and the journey from there was a story waiting to be written.
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❦︎ Is That What You Want? (It's You)
| Se-mi / Player 380 x fem!reader |
Summary: In the worst possible place, you reunite with someone you never thought you would see again. Fortunately for you, the looming threat of death unveils many long lost feelings you both tried (and failed) to let go.
Word Count: 6.4k
Warnings: mention of suicide, death, violence, hurt/comfort, occasional use of Y/N even tho I do try to avoid it, lots of YEARNING, kind of a childhood friends to lovers typa scenario, kissing (but it's only in like one paragraph at the very end sorry freaksters....)
A/N: SEMI FIC HERE TO MAKE UP FOR HER FUMBLE IN THE LAST ONE!!!! this one is also extremely plot heavy as u can see from the word count LOL but I HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOY!! tried to show her softer side in this as well as her playfulness! this is for the people asking for a se-mi fic in my inbox sorry I made the post before I could click "respond to ask" and now im afraid I might actually delete everything so... this is for u whoever u are <3 I didn't read it over this time y'all so praying for no typos... ENJOY
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When Se-mi first spots you, you’re crouched down in front of a table and surrounded by four other women as you throw the gonggi pieces into the air. For a solid minute, she thinks her eyes are playing tricks on her - that or this person that bears a striking resemblance to her first real friend wasn’t you at all. However, when your team rapidly advances around the bloodied track, she’s allowed a closer look at you; your hair has grown longer and you’re just a bit taller than the last time she saw you, but your eyes are still the same and that’s what confirms it for her. 
She doesn’t cheer when you win - her throat feels strangely tight and her heart is heavy in her chest even with your victory - but she does feel an overwhelming sense of relief as she watches you bound past the finish line. Seeing you smile and laugh once again stirs something inside of her, an emotion she hasn’t felt for years. 
Before you completely disappear behind the doors of the field, she swears she sees you turn around and look directly at her, vague recognition clear on your face. 
“Hey, where are you running off to so fast?”
Laughter rings out behind you as you pick up your pace, clutching your bag tight to your chest. Multiple footsteps fall in behind you, and with a short glance over your shoulder at the agitated faces of the girls trailing you, you realize today might not just end with a bit of teasing. It’s New Year’s Eve though and the sun is mostly set, so maybe they won’t knock you out cold so you can make it home on time to welcome the new year with your family.
“C’mon, aren’t you gonna pay us back?” For what, you want to shout, but before you even get the chance to respond, the footsteps behind you suddenly speed up. You’re practically thrown to the ground with a single hard shove on your back, arms flailing as your bag scuttles across the concrete. “My dad said your family owes us some money, you know, and I don’t mind getting it from you.”
Your head is spinning and your nose feels oddly hot, but you hear her words loud and clear and they send a deep feeling of shame through your entire body. A hand tangles itself in your hair as your head is pulled back, causing yet another fit of laughter to ring throughout the alley. “Fuck, her nose is bleeding so much! Did you break it?”
The one holding you by the hair reassures her group that you’d be fine, they could just say you fell because currently, it was your word against five other students. A part of you begins to wonder if anyone would even come help if you screamed right then - the alley was right next to the school, someone was bound to hear you. 
As the other four begin to sift through your bag for any valuables, you find your mouth sealed shut, afraid that even a whimper of pain would turn the attention of this pack of wolves back towards you. You didn’t have much in your wallet these days, and what you did have was pocket change for emergencies. They would go home disappointed either way, but whatever kept you from getting beaten the worst would be preferred. 
“What the hell, she’s only got like 5000 won in here.” The tallest girl turns to you with both confusion and disdain evident on her face. “Are you really that fucking poor? Where’s the rest of it?”
She stands right back up and so does the other three, all slowly advancing on you as you were held down by the fifth. You don’t even struggle against her loose grip on your hair, slowly coming to accept the fact that you might just have to take a beating for today, because there is no ‘the rest of it.’ 
Perhaps, if you’re lucky, they’ll get bored fast at your lack of reaction to anything they do and you’ll only go home with a bloody nose and a couple easily hidden bruises. 
You can accept that fate, you can accept your place in this world. 
“What the hell’s going on here?” 
Everyone’s heads, even yours, turn towards the lone girl standing at the entrance of the alleyway. With the setting sun behind her, her face is mostly casted in shadows. You think you recognize her as one of the troublemakers in your math class, constantly getting sent outside to stand in the hallway and ‘think about what she’s done.’ Even after being in the same class for two years, you still haven’t quite learned anything about her beyond her antics. The reason for why she’s butting in though, is also lost on you.
“Mind your business, Se-mi.” So that’s her name. It fits her. “We’re just teaching this one a nice lesson in karma.” 
How ironic. Five girls beating on a younger classmate would definitely bring them amazing luck for the New Year.
Se-mi’s eyes trail down towards the ground, towards you, and her eyes take in your bloody nose and the deep-blue bruise already forming on your cheek. For a second, you think she might just leave you here like anyone else would, but after some obvious inner contemplation, she speaks up once again.
“She looks like she understands it just fine now,” she says mockingly, beginning to walk closer towards you all. Her eyes are sharp, leaving no room for argument, and you only wish you could be half as strong to stand up to these girls. “Maybe you guys should just head home.” It sounds less like a suggestion than it does a threat, and your attackers respond in kind. 
“What, you got a problem with us?” It’s obviously not a real question, but a chance for Se-mi to back out now before things get serious. She doesn’t.
“Yeah, I do, so what’re we gonna do about it?” 
Inwardly, you curse yourself for inadvertently placing this stranger at risk to get beat up right alongside you for a problem that definitely had nothing to do with her. 
For a second, the girls are silent, but you can practically feel their anger growing as the one on top of you lets go of your hair. Se-mi stands her ground, expression just as cold as always as they try (and fail) to intimidate her with their glares. You’re frozen in awe of this idiot for both her courage and her poor decision-making skills.
It’s no surprise to you when the tall one lunges forward to try and land the first punch in the inevitable fight, but Se-mi is quick to dodge it and redirect her momentum right into the side of a trash can. All hell breaks loose after that, and for a second, you think your savior might just win the fight with pure skill and experience alone, but reality catches up to you both. 
With pure numbers, they bring Se-mi to the ground, and even though you scramble to your feet and try to fight them as well, you’re humbled even faster with your already pre-existing injuries and lack of knowledge on any forms of fighting. The tall one is the angriest, screaming curses at you both as you’re kicked and punched on the ground. Se-mi’s attempt to get back on her feet is thwarted by a solid hit on her face, and your lack of an attempt is rewarded with a fist right to the center of your ribcage, knocking all the air out from your lungs. 
As you’re beginning to think they might really want to kill you both, sirens in the distance interrupt the bombardment of pain on your sore body. 
“Shit, is that the police? Have we been spotted?” Their voices are now twinged with a hint of anxiety at being caught, and fortunately for the two of you, that’s all it takes to end the assault. “Let’s just leave.”
With a final kick to your back, the girls quickly grab their backpacks and run for it, long forgetting your own bag and the 5000 won that started this beatdown in the first place. 
As you look around the giant room for a place to eat, you find yourself unconsciously scanning the crowd for a familiar face as well. 
A part of you is sure that it was her that you walked right by in the middle of the last game, but you were so focused on facing forward to make sure you wouldn’t trip that you weren’t able to get a clear look at her face. Even after you won, you were given little to no time to do anything on the field before being ushered back to the main room. Now, you’re beginning to think that the looming threat of death is making you cling even harder to long lost dreams, but you hope that isn’t enough to make you hallucinate people you used to know. 
Sitting down on one of the unoccupied steps, you open your container and begin digging in, forcing yourself to forget the foolish dream that’s been occupying your mind for hours now. Even during the vote, you found your hand drifting towards the bright red X just in case she really was here and at risk of imminent death (just like everyone else). In the end, the blue patch on your chest is unchanging, and no imaginary companion will change that.
“Y/N?”
Your neck almost snaps clean in half with the way your head shoots up to see the person who just called your name, a name you are 100% sure you didn’t give to anyone here. Yet, when you see who it is, you’re somehow even more surprised than you would’ve been if it was some stranger. 
Se-mi casually stands right in front of you after what felt like a lifetime without her. She smiles - no, smirks at the recognition evident on your face and plops herself down right next to you.
“Long time no see, 399,” she says, her voice teetering on the edge of teasing and what might be genuine happiness to see you again. Of course, she has to ruin the moment by reminding you of the situation you had to reunite in, and you glance down at the number on her chest as well.
“Yeah, it’s good to see you again, 380.” You add as much sass to your voice as you can manage in the moment, but it comes out just as soft as you meant it in your heart because it is good to see her again. 
For a moment, the two of you can only stare at each other, picking up the differences in each person’s appearance since the last time you met. It’s the kind of peaceful silence that you haven’t been afforded for far too long, and now that it’s given to you, you can’t bring yourself to be the one that breaks it. Luckily for you, it seems like Se-mi can’t either, because all she does is stare at you with an indecipherable look in her eyes. If you had to describe it, you might say that it’s the unspoken equivalence of the softness in your voice from earlier (by now, you understand full well that the most genuine emotion you’ll get out of her might just have to come from carefully reading every one of her expressions). 
For a long time, the two of you simply eat in silence, basking in each other’s company. Your legs occasionally brush with how close she sat to you, but it doesn’t feel awkward in the slightest; if anything, it’s comforting, reminding you of your youth together before the real world caught up. 
“So, you know what I’m gonna ask you.” As always, it’s her that breaks the silence between you two, and you can’t blame her for being curious. Afterall, this was a horrible place to meet someone you know.
“My father’s business finally completely collapsed, and now we’re getting chased around the country by loan sharks,” you say, laughing a bit at your own situation. It didn’t take long for you to decide that Se-mi deserved to know the truth, but you knew she would be the last person to judge you for such circumstances. “I didn’t have any other options besides this.”
She doesn’t look at you with pity for your answer. It’s one of the traits you appreciated most from her back then. 
“What about you? How’d you end up in this shithole?” 
Your question earns you a laugh that as always, never fails to make you smile right back at her.
“I mean, I can’t say I’m getting chased around, but I’ve got a bit of debt I need to handle.” She almost decides to cut her story off there, but you’re looking at her with such genuine interest in your eyes that she can’t bring herself to hide the rest from you. How long has it been since someone cared so much about what she had to say? “College was… too expensive. I didn’t have anyone that could help out, so I’ve just been working random jobs here and there.”
Unfortunately, her answer seems completely honest. You wish you could’ve been there by her side, but your own family was dealing with a lot then too. 
“Why didn’t you just… continue to try to make it work out there?” You’re praying that your question doesn’t come off as insensitive, but she seems to find it amusing if anything. “Why would you risk losing everything like this?”
That last phrase earns you a scoff this time, and she turns away with a strained expression, clearly struggling to keep her ever cocky smirk on her face.
“I don’t have anything left to lose. This place is my chance to get a headstart or just…” The rest remains unsaid, and even though she’s speaking so casually, your heart drops at the insinuation. “...I haven’t left a mark on the world at all, Y/N. What happens here really won’t matter much to anyone out there.”
For a second, you’re stumped as to how to answer her. There’s some twisted truth to her reasoning, and you’re sure that if most of the people in this room died tomorrow, their deaths would be passed off as mere victims to loan sharks or suicide. That, or their disappearances wouldn’t be noticed at all. But no. It isn’t the same for Se-mi, and you desperately want her to know that.
“It would matter a lot to me.” You try to make it sound casual so she doesn’t tuck tail and run like she usually does, but you know it left an impact on her with the way her eyes drift to the ground and her brows furrow just slightly. “You left a pretty big impact on my life, you know that?”
As you turn back towards your food, Se-mi glances at you from the corner of her eye. There isn’t a hint of deception or even sarcasm in your face, in your voice, in any part of you. It’s a level of honesty she’s only ever experienced from you, and after being apart for so long, she had forgotten how soothing it was to be on the receiving end of such genuine kindness. 
For years now, she had found herself searching for you in every face she came across, in every friend and partner she had, in every short moment of peace she was allowed in her rocky life. Now that she’s finally found you though, she’s not sure what to do with herself. 
For the rest of night, right up until lights-out, the two of you bask in the silence once again. In your own separate ways, you both sit there and think about each other. You consider what you lost when you were separated from her. She considers the fact that she might’ve just regained something she can now lose if her own life is lost, and the thought of it terrifies her. 
When it’s time to sleep, it’s Se-mi that gets up first, albeit with a great deal of hesitance. The two of you part ways, and before you can get too far, you hear a faint whisper from behind you.
“Good luck tomorrow.”
It makes you crack a smile, turning around to see her still looking at you. Her smile is still strained, but now, there’s a hint of happiness there.
“Yeah, you too, and goodnight, Se-mi.” 
Even now, the sound of your soft voice calling her name makes her heart skip a beat.
“What the fuck was that…” 
You finally begin to stir awake at the groans and curses coming from beside, and all your body feels is pain.
God, they really did a number on you didn’t they?
“Fucking cops didn’t even stop for us,” the voice groans again, now paired with a faint shuffling as you watch her attempt to get back on her feet through your incredibly blurry eyes. All you can manage is to roll onto your back, looking up to see the pitch black sky.
Wait, black?! 
How long have you been out?!
“Uff!” A loud clatter of boxes graces your ears as you glance over to see her - Se-mi, was it? - right back on the ground. From the looks of it, her legs were also feeling extremely uncooperative. You already feel like shit, but she took a majority of the beating so she probably feels even worse. Guilt courses through you as she groans in pain, rolling onto her back to mimic your position. 
For a couple minutes, you both lay there in silence, staring up at the empty night sky. In the far distance, cars zoom past on the main road, likely salarymen rushing to get home to their families in time to celebrate New Years.
By now, you've come to the realization that you'll probably would have to celebrate yours alone on the ground this time, considering the fact that your body was not letting you get back up. For now, at least, maybe you can get to know your savior (or rather, attempted savior).
“...I’m sorry about this,” you whisper, sighing heavily into the cold December air.
“Did you get a few hits in on me too?” She’s clearly mocking you, but you can’t even be mad right now. 
“Still… sorry.”
“It’s whatever.” A beat of silence follows. “I never liked those bitches anyways.” 
The second part is almost whispered as if it were a secret between the two of you, and you let out a small chuckle, cutting yourself off before it becomes a laugh as pain shoots up your torso at that small movement. 
In the tranquility that follows, Se-mi begins to fully question why she was laying there on the cold concrete in extreme discomfort for a stranger - well, not really a stranger, but she doesn’t even know your name. Then she thinks back to the ugly feeling she had in her gut watching you get cornered by those stuck-up rich kids, unwilling to even fight back, and she thinks she might’ve done the right thing despite how meaningless this encounter might become. 
She looks over at your bruised face thinking about how similar you looked to a kicked puppy at that instance, and she can’t help but push your buttons even more. 
“Aren’t you glad we were able to save your 5000 won?” 
The absurdity of her statement distracts you from the pain you feel, and after a scoff and a slight shake of your head, you find yourself genuinely laughing for the first time in a long time. It doesn’t take long for her to follow, and after a couple moments, you both find yourselves giggling like children at the shitty situation.
You enjoy this rare moment of companionship for only a couple seconds before you begin hearing loud shouts in the distance.
They’re counting down, but you’re nowhere near home and neither is she.
“5!”
“Hey, what’s your name?” 
“4!”
You turn your head and answer her, and she smiles at you.
“3!”
“I’m Se-mi.” 
“2!”
It’s different hearing her name from her own mouth, spoken without any of the hatred that your attackers infused into the word.
“1!”
You both look up just in time to see fireworks lighting up the once dark sky, red, yellow, and green hues reflecting in your eyes as you force yourself to relax and take in the moment. 
In this moment, with Se-mi by your side, you don’t feel as lonely as you expected yourself to be. It’s a feeling of comfort you’re rarely given, but you openly bask in it as you think about the confidence and bravery it must’ve taken to stand up against five people like that. In another life, perhaps, you could be someone like her, protecting people like you. 
Like a knight in shining armor.
“Happy New Year, Y/N. I’m going to sleep now.” Your head snaps over in her direction as she folds her hands behind her head and closes her eyes, getting way too comfortable on the ground of a shady alleyway.
“What?” No response. “What the hell are you talking about? We’re not sleeping here!”
She bluntly ignores you and her breaths get heavier, but it’s obvious that she’s just pretending to be asleep. The thought of getting up and leaving by yourself crosses your mind, but you can’t bring yourself to part with this girl just yet.
With a resigned sigh, you roll onto your side with a pained groan and close your eyes as well, praying that no mysterious van comes to kidnap you two in this moment.
“Happy New Year, Se-mi.” Silence. “And thank you.”
You’re already facing her so when you peak open your eyes, you see her lips twitch upwards at your choice to stay, and that solidifies the deal.
When morning comes the next day, you don’t even bother going home first before walking alongside her to school. You sit next to her in class for the first time, and you share the lunch you bought with her under the guise of ‘not being able to finish it.’ She’s resistant at first, but eventually, she indulges you. 
This routine continues for the next two years. It’s only interrupted when you break the news to her that your father is forcing the family to flee because of his growing debts. 
That night, you both walk back to the alley and lay there together under the stars.
You think you might’ve seen her eyes water once or twice, but you say nothing, unwilling to break the sacred silence between the two of you. It’s the last one you share for years, until you inevitably see her again in the worst possible place.
As everyone begins filing out to head to the next game, Se-mi feels an uncontrollable urge to break away from her current group to go find you once again. She can already see you in the distance, but even though the two of you make eye contact for a brief moment, you look away upon seeing her already large group. 
Shoving her hands in her pockets, she begins to turn away from the rambling of Thanos and Nam-gyu behind her, but a meek voice calls out her name and stops her.
“Where are you going?” 
It’s Min-su, and he’s looking at her like a lost animal terrified of losing its protector. A wave of guilt crashes into her at the thought of leaving this poor boy to the sharks, and even though your face is still the only thing on her mind, she wonders if it’s worth it to betray her new group. 
If she left now, she might not make it through this next game. 
If she dies now, she won’t get a second chance at life (and a second chance to live by your side again, but she pushes that thought to the side for now). 
“Nowhere, let’s go.”
That’s all it takes to appease him, and with one last glance over to where she saw you last, she reintegrates herself back into the group and moves forward. 
Even though the first two rounds pass by without a hitch, you think this game might be the most dangerous one yet. You’ve got your own little group from the Six-Legged Race, but as the announcer called for rooms of four, you watch the youngest girl of your team get shoved out of your group by two others (sisters, if you remembered correctly). It’s heartbreaking to hear her cry out as you all ran away, but you can’t save her and save yourself at the same time. 
You’ve made it this far, and you’d be damned if you were sent home an empty handed corpse now. 
As the platform begins to spin again, you pat the shoulder of the woman standing next to you - 047. She was closer to the younger one than you were, and her death obviously shook the poor lady up. Her reaction makes you realize how distant you’ve been to everyone since you arrived (with one notable exception, of course), and you find your own heart beating hard against your chest at the thought of being abandoned as well. 
“3 players.”
Of course.
For a second, the four of you freeze. The sisters are holding onto each other’s hands with a death grip, and you know now that it’s between you and 047. A part of you thinks about shoving her down so you could run away with the other two, but something behind her catches your eye before you can do anything.
It’s Se-mi. 
She’s standing completely alone, hand held out towards nobody, and not a single other person from that group you saw her with earlier by her side. 
Like it’s muscle memory, you shove past 047 and run the fastest you’ve ever ran right at her. You hear a faint yell of gratitude from behind you as you wrap your arms around Se-mi and pull her forward towards one of the empty rooms in the distance. The impact seems to wake her out of her stupor, changing your awkward position so that now, you’re running side by side with her hand in yours. Along the way, you grab a stray girl up from the ground by the back of her sweater and pull her along to complete the three. 
As you all clamber into the room, Se-mi slams the door shut behind you, barely missing the time-out buzzer. The lock clicks shut, and you hear gunfire outside, but she ignores all of it to turn around to look at you. This is the most emotional she’s looked since you’ve reunited, eyes downturned with sadness and a hint of fear at how close she was to death. 
Ignoring the girl repeatedly thanking you to your right, you walk up to Se-mi and pull her into a tight hug, relishing in the warmth of her body. 
“I’m glad I made it in time, 380.”
You feel her arms beginning to wrap around you before the lock clicks open, forcing you to pull apart to exit the room. Your hand doesn’t leave hers, and it’s a clear signal that you’ll be sticking by her side for the rest of this game.
Se-mi doesn’t even find herself searching the arena for Min-su and the others as you walk with her back to the platform, completely distracted by the tingling sensation in her hand as you interlace your fingers together. It’s a feeling that’s new to her, being chosen by someone in a manner like this; of course, she’s been desired before, maybe even loved (despite her inability to return the other person’s feelings), but this is different somehow. In this scenario, it’s you, not some random girl she met at a bar. It’s you choosing to risk your life to make sure she continues living, and in the wake of this realization, the feelings that she’s been shoving down for countless years come rushing back to her. 
As the next rounds pass by, you remain unchanging by her side. Even as the announcer calls for 2 players, you don’t even hesitate to pull her with you, leaving behind everyone you joined up with in the last couple rounds. 
Even after you run over the blood of countless others, you never let go of her hand, and she never lets go of yours.
“You really saved my ass back there.”
Here, back in the comfort of this familiar room, Se-mi has regained her usual joking nature, smirking at you as you nod, very clearly proud of yourself.
“Yes, I did. Maybe you should give me your share of the prize money for that,” you say, holding out your hand to her. She laughs and wraps her arm around your shoulder, walking you back over to the steps where you had your first conversation. 
“Maybe I will, or maybe I’ll pay for a couple meals together instead.” The innuendo isn’t lost on you, and your face goes red as she gets even cockier. “It’s time I pay for you for all those lunches, but dinner wouldn’t be so bad either.”
Your face is still turned away from her in embarrassment, but she can still see the blush on your cheeks, revelling in her own ability to make you fold. You mumble something under your breath, but she’s too focused on her victory to hear you. 
“What was that?”
“I said, you’ve already saved me plenty of times before, more times than you can count, so I should treat you first.” 
The warmth in her chest returns full force, and now, it’s her fighting to keep a blush off her face, lest you start embarrassing her about that too. She wonders, what would it be like to take you out on a proper date? She imagines you all dressed up, and in that moment, she decides what she wants to spend her prize money on first when you all leave this place. 
She wants to buy you flowers. She wants to take you to a nice, luxurious restaurant and show you off, then under the stars, she’ll ask you to be hers.
“Whatever you say, pretty lady.”
That earns her a smack on the arm and a scoff as your face starts burning once again (to Se-mi’s absolute delight). 
The moment is unfortunately interrupted by the main doors sliding open, and you watch as the pink guards file in. At the front table, two giant buttons lay waiting for the remaining contestants. Everyone around you begins to speak in hushed tones, obviously discussing their plans for the next vote. 
“Are you going to change your vote?” As you spin around to face her again, Se-mi gestures down at the blue patch on your chest. 
During your entire walk back, you had been contemplating your unchanging choice to stay and risk your life. For the majority of the first two days, you lived life believing there would be no consequences to your death. You wouldn’t lose anything - your life was already in immense danger outside this place, so your family wouldn’t be too surprised if you turned up dead either. There was nothing to lose and everything to gain, and so, O was the easy choice.
Then Se-mi walks back into your life and complicates the hell out of it. 
Now, you realize that if you vote to stay, you’re also voting for her to stay and risk her life. If either of you died here, you would be wasting this chance cast upon you to experience the world by her side.
“Yes, this should be enough money for my family to be able to live normally again.” 
She nods, and even though it looks like she’s still contemplating her decision, Se-mi made her choice as soon as you took her hand in the last game.
“Even if there were less money in the pig right now, I think I’d still pick to leave.” You smile softly at her and look her directly in the eye as you continue. “Being wealthy is a faraway dream, but for now, I just want to live in the company of those I love.” You squeeze her hand and hold your gaze, and this time, Se-mi isn’t able to hold back the blush that rushes onto her face.
If these games don’t take her out, you’ll really be the death of her.
As you silently eat what is hopefully your last meal in this place together, two groups of men clamber out of the bathroom. They’re bloodied and there’s a horrifying look of pure bloodlust on many of their faces, and you feel your heart drop. 
Would there be a fight tonight? Is that allowed?
Se-mi sees the fear on your face and gently rubs her thumb on the back of her hand. Despite her best efforts though, your concerns are not assuaged and you realize that getting shot by the pink guards might not be the only way you can die in this place. 
These people are hungry and hopeless, and you fully understand the lengths many would go through for a second chance.
“Se-mi, sleep with me tonight.” 
Her eyebrows raise and she smirks, but even this attempt to lighten the air with her usual humor doesn’t work, but still, she agrees immediately and you try to swallow the lump in your throat. You’re sure that no matter what happens, you won’t find sleep tonight, but that pales in comparison to your desire to protect Se-mi at all costs. 
You won’t leave this place without her. 
As the strobe lights turn on and off, your eyes bounce around the room as you search for somewhere, anywhere that might be free of the insane violence. Every way you look, there’s some sort of fight happening - that or you’ve just watched someone get brutally murdered in their own bed. For a second, you consider that you might be safe if you and her just stand still in your little corner, but a man rounds the corner and you feel yourself freeze up.
“Come here, you fucking traitor bitch!” It’s 124, and he looks like a rabid animal with red painted across his face and a bloody fork in his hand. In the back of your mind, you slap yourself for not keeping the utensil for self defense. 
Se-mi attempts to shove you further behind her as he begins charging at you two, but before you can even make a move, a glass bottle shatters at his feet. You all look up to see a young man that you don’t recognize, but from the rage on 124’s face, you figure he might’ve been one of his old teammates. 
In their distracted states, you rush forward, grabbing a shard of glass from the floor and swinging it right at the man’s head. Unfortunately for you, you still have absolutely no skills when it comes to fighting and he easily dodges the hit. It doesn’t feel like some slow motion action movie when you see his fork flying at your neck at full speed, but somehow, you’re fast enough to lift your hand so that it punctures right through your palm instead. You scream, and behind you, Se-mi calls your name as well. 
In an extremely painful rush of adrenaline, you maneuver his and your body to switch places, trusting Se-mi to take care of the rest. In the few flashes of light that you’re granted, you see her rush forward with her own shard of glass in hand, unforgivingly jabbing it right into the side of 124’s neck. 
“Fuck! Fucking bitch!” His scream pierces your ears as he finally lets you go, and you don’t waste the moment you get. Pulling his fork out of your hand, you slam it down into the side of his head with all your strength. 
A beat passes, then he falls to the ground unmoving. 
“Are you okay?! Let me see!” Se-mi rushes forward and takes you in her arms, dragging both of you backwards towards the wall as she inspected your injuries. In the rush that followed watching someone die by your own hands, you can barely feel the pain at all. All you can focus on is the woman in front of you and how afraid you were when 124 charged at her. 
“Se-mi - Se-mi, listen to me,” you choke you, using your bloody hands to gently hold her face. Her eyes are glossy with unshed tears, and you can see how much the encounter shook her to her core. “When we leave this place, promise me you’ll stay by my side.”
Your voice is desperate and you can feel your own tears rising, vision getting blurry as you struggle to wipe them off with the sleeve of your sweater. It looks like Se-mi barely heard your request with the way she was still scanning your body for any serious injuries. 
“What?! What are you-”
“Promise me! Please!” You’re openly sobbing now, holding onto the one thing keeping you moving in this world, and finally, she focuses her gaze back on your face. With a quiet voice, she finally responds to you with a shaky smile.
“How could I ever leave you?”
Her eyes are the most expressive they’ve been, filled with concern and what looks like love, the same love that you’ve held for her ever since you were 16. 
With trembling hands, she holds your face just as you hold hers and leans in, pressing her lips against yours. It’s not gentle - it’s more desperate if anything, but you feel like flying in that moment. As your legs slowly give out, she holds you carefully in her arms and lowers the both of you to the floor. 
Finally, as you begin to drown out the surrounding chaos, the world around you falls silent as well. You close your eyes and imagine that you’re back in that alleyway, finally at peace with the person you love the most.
When you open your eyes again, she’s still right there in front of you, and you’re the happiest you’ve been since the day you met.
A/N: PLOT MONSTER STRIKES AGAIN!!! anyways this was inspired by a cherry waves edit I saw of her on TikTok where she told min-su "I thought you wouldn't deceive me" so I had to give her a girl that she KNOWS would never deceive her... okay guys hope y'all enjoy and as always plz PLZ LMK WHAT U THINK!! I love interacting with y'all im serious... and for the no eul lovers I see u and I hear u... but its gonna be a bit till that one comes out cuz im about to start second semester college... hashtag NOT FUNNY ANYMORE
also im still playing around with the layout of my posts so if I keep doing different sht and it throws u off im so sorry LOL
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HCs on Squid Game Women Eating You Out
Featuring: No-Eul (Guard 011), Se-Mi (Player 380), Kang Sae-Byeok (Player 067), Ji-Yeong (Player 240), Hyun-Ju (Player 120).
Warnings: Smut [Obviously] A/N: Hey guys! I’m finally back :)
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No-Eul:
-This may be an unpopular opinion, but I’m at the firm belief that—despite her fierce-some looks—No-Eul is actually very inexperienced at eating pussy.
-In a world like North Korea, the poor woman’s only sexual experience was probably with her late husband.
-And, after she escaped, she had way bigger things to worry about than exploring her sexual orientation.
-However, while No-Eul doesn’t have much experience, that doesn’t mean she is terrible at eating you out.
-She is a fast learner, after all.
-In the beginning, she’ll slowly nibble your neck as her hands trail down your stomach.
-Of course, you whine, jutting your hips upward in a vain attempt to get her to speed up.
-She only slows down.
-No-Eul loves teasing you, loves watching you grow wetter and wetter as her hot mouth comes closer and closer to where you need her most.
-When her face gets to your clothed cunt, she’ll hesitate for just a moment before kissing your pussy. As you buck into her touch, No-Eul will drag down your underwear with her teeth.
-She’ll plant hot, wet kisses around your inner thighs, getting so close yo your pussy but always avoiding it at the last minute.
-The teasing drives you insane.
-“P…please, No-Eul,” You’d beg, hands desperately gripped onto her hair.
-She only hums in response, and you can feel her smirk into your skin.
-When No-Eul finally pities you, she’ll latch onto your poor, swollen clit and start sucking and licking it eagerly.
-She’ll listen to your cues, stopping a few times to make sure you’re okay before she continues.
-No-Eul will run her tongue along your wet folds, collecting up your juices and savoring in your sweet little moans.
-She’s fucking good at using her mouth.
-As the two of you get intimate more and more frequently, No-Eul will always be attentive.
-She’ll take note of the little movements you make when you’re just about to cum so she can slow down and edge you.
-Oh, and she’s mean about it too.
-She’ll growl about how utterly needy and desperate you are for her, and revel in how much you just can’t function without her.
-It feeds into that obsessive side of her, that want to have you depend on her entirely.
-When you eventually cum, she’ll switch gears and overstimulate you instead, drawing orgasm after orgasm from you until you’re nothing but a pathetic, sobbing mess.
-“Please, no more!” You wail, drool dripping from your lips as No-Eul tongue fucks you silly.
-“Oh? Weren’t you just begging me to give you a release, baby?”
-No-Eul will demand that you cum on her face.
-She’s addicted to your taste and gets off of the fact that she’s the only one who is allowed to touch you this way.
-No-Eul will completely ruin your thighs, covering them with rough, bruising bites that you both know won’t heal for days.
-Of course, she won’t shrink on the aftercare. -After she becomes content or notices the slight sag in your shoulders, No-Eul will gently halt to a stop and scoop you up into her arms.
-She’s attentive, always asking you how well you enjoyed it and if she was ever too rough. If you’re up for it, No-Eul won’t mind running you a bath to soothe your aching muscles.
-If you’re too tired, then your girlfriend will give your forehead a few pecks and comb through your hair, letting you fall asleep in her arms.
-You will always feel her press light, feathery kisses on the marks she gives you.
-No-Eul loves you so fucking much.
Kang Sae-Byeok:
-As another North Korean defector, Sae-Byeok is also a little inexperienced in the beginning of your relationship.
-At first, she’s even a little hesitant as she doesn’t want to accidentally hurt you.
-Of course, once you get it through her head that she won't, Sae-Byeok is all over you.
- She takes her time, preferring to savor the feeling of you writhing under her touch.
-But, like No-Eul, she is quick to learn your body cues.
-And well…all that pent up sexual urges and frustrations needed to be released somewhere.
-In fact, eating you out is one of the few times where she really feels at peace
-Each hickey she leaves on you is a mark of possession. You’re her girlfriend, and Sae-Byeok isn’t shy in letting that fact be known.
-You're one of her few precious joys she still has.
-In a way, eating you out grounds Sae-Byeok, as it reminds her that you’re still here, alive and safe in her arms.
-Sae-Byeok wants to make you feel loved, wants to let you know how much she fucking cherishes you, and the sex reflects that.
-She’s hyper focused on your pleasure and slurps up your juices eagerly.
-The taste of your cum drives her insane.
-Whenever you orgasm, her strong hands will press your thighs together, pinning your sex right up against her face.
-Sae-Byeok loves it when you cum on her face.
-She absolutely adores how you just turn into puddy in her hands.
-When Sae-Byeok has her fill, she'll pat your head and make sure you're okay.
-There’s a 50/50 chance that she’ll flip the position so that her hips rest over your neck, her cunt just inches away from your face.
-Sae-Byeok won't wipe her smirk off her face as she rides your mouth.
-It’s only fair that you return the favor, after all.
Se-Mi:
-You can’t look at me and say Se-Mi doesn’t know how to eat pussy.
-She’s a fucking expert at it.
-Se-Mi likes to take her time, preferring to slowly take her time dragging her tongue to your swollen clit.
-She’s a little bit of a sadist; of course she loves watching you squirm.
-But, just because she prefers to go slow doesn’t mean the girl can’t bring you to an orgasm in mere minutes.
-If you’re being especially bratty and tease Se-Mi while you’re out in public—Be prepared.
-The second you two get home she’s going to shove you against the nearest wall and slide her fingers into your soaked cunt.
“Such a dirty brat,” She’d sneer, tongue glancing at your pink ears. “Did you really think I’d let you get away with that?”
-Se-Mi would force you onto your knees and bend you over so that she could see how utterly wet you were for her.
-She’ll skip the foreplay—not like you needed any to begin with—and start tongue fucking your pretty little hole.
-Se-Mi will alternate between swirling her tongue around your folds and licking your clit, making you cum over and over again.
-Unless you yell out your safe word, she won’t stop until your cheeks are wet with tears and your throat is hoarse from screaming her name.
“Stop complaining, you little slut. Isn’t this what you wanted?”
-The piercing on her tongue makes her tongue fucking even more mind numbing.
-Sometimes, she’ll purposefully rub the piercing against your hole, just to heat you whimper.
-When she has had her fun, Se-Mi will finally pull away and pick you up, carrying you over to your shared bed.
-Se-Mi will get you water, a warm towel, snacks, and anything else you might need. If you try to get up from the bed, she’ll be quick to stop you.
“Shhh, my Princess deserves to be spoiled. Lay back down, sweetheart.”
-You’ll pretend to pout, but you and Se-Mi both know you love being pampered.
-And as you lay there in the sleep, waiting for sleep to take you, you’ll see a brief glimpse of Se-Mi licking off the last bits of your juices from her face.
-“Fuck, baby, you taste delicious.”
Ji-Yeong
-After Ji-Yeong had been released from jail, she went through a brief relapse period where she would enter random college parties to have sex with the first girl she’s see.
-She was so desperate to feel something, anything that she would jump on the opportunity to feel pleasure.
-And, what better Fuck You would it be to her POS father’s memory than to go around drinking in frat houses with an arm slung around a girl?
-So, when you and her fuck, she's more than capable in bringing you over the edge.
-Ji-Yeong is playful. Her lips will quirk up whenever you moan as she licks at just that spot. Sometimes, she'll chuckle, the vibrations buzzing your wet core.
-It is not uncommon for her to briefly stop her ministrations to quip at you cheekily.
-Of course, she ducks back between your legs before you can whack her head.
-Ji-Yeong will more than make up for it by latching her skilled mouth onto your clit.
Hyun-Ju
-Oh this poor, poor girl.
-Prior to her transition Hyun-Ju never had sex with other women.
-It didn't feel right to her, as if she was somehow lying to them with her mere presence.
-Even after her transition, she would still distance herself from other women.
-But then, she met you.
-The first time she went down on you, she was nervous, terrified that she would disappoint you or that you would see her naked body and change your mind last minute.
-But, she would slowly ease into it and her nerves would eventually settle.
-Hyun-Ju prefers to use her fingers, but when she eats you out, she’s very gentle.
-In a way, she almost worships your pussy.
-Hyun-Ju loves lapping up your juices. She loves the taste of you.
-She’s well aware of the callouses on her hands and enjoys using her fingers to pump her fingers in and out while her tongue explores your labia.
-If you grab her hair, that’s a sure fire way to get her to go faster.
-(She loves her head being crushed by your thighs. It’s her dirty little secret).
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exocaliii · 6 months ago
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she's so fine it's unbelievable idek what to say😭😭😭🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️
please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please
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exocaliii · 6 months ago
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200+ notes in 24 hours.... THANK U SM GUYS LOVE YALL❤️❤️😈😈😈😛😛😛
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Current Masterist + Info
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SQUID GAME
Kang No-eul / Guard 011
You've Been Walking, You've Been Hiding (pt. 1)
-> And You Look Half Dead Half The Time (pt. 2) nsfw
★ side! se-mi x reader
Summary: For six years, you've watched your best friend and only companion mourn a child she barely got to know. Now, you're given a chance that might finally rid her of this lifelong guilt.
TBA...
Se-mi / Player 380
Is That What You Want? (It's You)
Summary: In the worst possible place, you reunite with someone you never thought you would see again. Fortunately for you, the looming threat of death unveils many long lost feelings you both tried (and failed) to let go.
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Requests (Currently)
Note: am willing to accept requests but I might not be able to fulfill them all depending on how inspired I get, am so sorry😭
Who I Will Write For:
Kang No-eul (Guard 011), Se-mi (Player 380), Cho Hyun-ju (Player 120), Kang Saebyeok (Player 067)
Right now I am focusing a lot more on No-eul and Se-mi
What I Will Write:
Angst, Smut, Fluff, etc. like basically everything, just have never done head cannons before tho so I might be more focused on actual stories instead
I heavily prefer angst above all else!! But I also love reading smut so I can prob do some of that too, you'll rarely see a perfectly happy fluffy story from me tho soooo... my bad y'all😭😭💔
What I Won't Write
Scat, piss, completely non-con stuff
male!reader (usually I think my non-nsfw stuff is pretty gn? unless I accidentally slip in a gendered term in there that's my bad...)
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exocaliii · 6 months ago
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OMG I GOT 200 NOTES ON MY FIRST FIRST TYSM GUYSSS❤️❤️❤️i think it's time for a master list or smth but it'd be so funny if i made one now and just didn't make another fic for like weeks😭😭
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Would love a Se-Mi focused fic, maybe her slowly falling in love with the reader. Maybe some kind of focus on the Mingle game? After Thanos, Nam-Gyu, and Min-Su leave her alone, the reader helps Se-Mi? Love your writing <3
omg i found it okay it's been made HERE IT IS!!
ENJOYYYY SE MI FANS AND EVERYONE WHO FELT BAD FOR HER IN THE OTHER FIC😭😭😭
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