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This love I had for you is souring into the freshest hate I've ever felt. I honestly find almost everyone and everything in my awareness absolutely disgusting and disdainful right now.

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My sweetheart, my love, my love, my love—

19 August 1925 Letters to Véra by Vladimir Nabokov

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You are like the Sun for me, because you have illuminated everything. And I find nourishment in your warmth, still abundant and ready to take me in though you seem to be so far. Your presence is nearly constant, and even in your absence, the darkness cannot completely do without you.

For me, to be like the Moon for you. I must accept our moments of apparent occlusion. But when you see me again, your light will reflect off of my face brilliantly. And though I have craters, your light will give them depth and richness. My presence, brief. My absence leaving hope for more presence. And I speak the language of your light, your love.

It occurs to me that if you are like the Sun for me, then I must be like the Moon for you.

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It occurs to me that if you are like the Sun for me, then I must be like the Moon for you.

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To mock and belittle the poor, homeless and imprisoned is to mock and belittle Christ. When we care for the disabled and the poor, we are caring for Christ.

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"First steps". Photo by Vladimir Bogdanov, 1981.

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8 月 8 日 2025 年

What Got Done Today

Tracking restarted

Went fishing with Z., S.; caught a mysterious little fish and released him

Spent time at Z.'s place, played Kerbal Space Program with Z., L., and S.

Planned for Tomorrow

Clean apartment and car

Haircut

Budgeting, groceries, general organizing

Digital organization across phone, laptop, tablet, other devices

Recommencement of zazen practice

Start drawing

Start Collages for Peace

Tonight's Reflections

It's very strange, but you just need to accept what your heart tells you that it needs. Even if it seems completely absurd. But once you tell your heart, meaningfully, "okay, yes. I'll listen. We're going to make this happen, and I'm on board," – I can swear that this is where magic begins. Anyway. We're breaking rules right from the get-go here, as it's actually technically 8/9, not 8/8. But since we're trying again, I thought I would cut myself a little bit of slack. It's just me here, anyway.

Notes

Working on creating a daily schedule at the moment

Hoping to hit the sack by 2:30am

Reminder to call family at some point this weekend

Quote of the Day

"I hope Lil' Robert can beat his case Every hard day, think that made me create Sitting in 4th grade thinking 'bout GTA Don't listen to 'em, baby, fuck what them people say You just got to sit and study, then it's a piece of cake" – Willie Wilson, a.k.a. 454, American musician (b. 1996) from the song ICE AGE

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“Where there is love, nothing is too much trouble and there is always time.”

—Abdu’l-Bahá

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I come to Meeting for Worship to attend to that Presence which is always present but before which I am not always alert and listening.

Shirley Ruth Parks Tweed, California Quaker, 1982

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“Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world.”

— Albert Einstein, “What Life Means to Einstein: An Interview by George Sylvester Viereck”, The Saturday Evening Post (26 October 1929)

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Northrop B-2 Spirit flying over the Twin Towers, New York, 2000.

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Beloved Mother, I've read in a book that one of the major pleasing activities of a dominant woman is inflicting pain on her submissive man. How true is this and what is the reason behind this?

Only righteous pain purifies the male spirit. Pain refines the reverent gentleman into the Mother’s Shiva-Christ. The Goddess liberates the devotee from the fetters of ego; the Mother is the sanctuary of catharsis. The pain ritual mirrors the infinite ouroboros of creation and destruction. Ritual is the microcosm of divine order. In divine union, the Black Goddess reanimates the devotee’s corpse.

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The Oakland Post Enquirer, California July 26, 1934

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