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idk if you know this already but just to give you a heads up: https://www.tumblr.com/winxroxy5/772796879365931008/dashingdon-free-choicescript-game-hosting?source=share

NAUR WHAT 😭🥲🤡

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pengu pengu pengu I'm not sure if you know of EPIC: The Musical, but they just released the final saga and the musical's finale number reminded me sooooo much of the Commander and So (assuming my hunch is right and that So is actually who I think it is 👀). Like please kindly observe, exhibit A:

'Left a trail of red on every island As I traded friends like objects I could use Hurt more lives than I can count on my hands But all of that was to bring me back to you.

So tell me, Would you fall in love with me again, If you knew all I've done? The things I can't undo, I am not the man you knew. I know that you've been waiting, waiting.'

...

'I will fall in love with you, over and over again I don't care how, where, or when; No matter how long it's been, you're mine. Don't tell me you're not the same person, You're always my husband And I've been waiting, waiting for you.'

Just aaaaaaa, 'Would You Fall in Love With Me Again' feels like it could be their song to me, and I just needed to ask you if I'm onto something or completely off the mark with this haha

IF so was theoretically still alive and theoretically a possible RO, this would extremely heart breaking yes </3

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Hello! i hope you're doing well. I wanted to ask if this IF was abandonned or put on hiatus. I know you've been rewriting it (i personally don't think there's been anything wrong with it?) but there hasn't been any/much about its progress so i thought asking.

hi!! i'm doing well at the moment :)) internship is wrapping up so i've been taking the time to review some stuff about the story and am also working on the next chapter now!! i'm hoping for the next update to be a bit more meaty which is why i've been taking more time with it :D i hope to have it released some time in february!!

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Im here to promote emperor fox agenda. Emperor fox agenda anyone??? Anyone??? What does the fox say??? "Raise the taxes"🦊

i thought they said ring ding ding 😭

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Hi pengu, is your patreon going to be paused if you're not going to be active? It looks like the last patreon post was 5 months ago, but there's no announcement there & it's still taking money.

hi, omg i'm really sorry about this! i thought i should leave it on in case people still wanted to access some of the posts, but i didn't think about those who were still subscribed 😰 i should have made it clear! if any of you were affected by this, please dm me your email (keep your personal information safe!) on tumblr or patreon and i'll provide a full refund for july onwards! so sorry about this again

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has no-eul appeared in person in the story yet? i'm trying to get through all the possible romances that i can and i don't think i've heard them mentioned at all yet, so

nope! no-eul will only be romanceable in book 2 :)

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is so....the mystery ro lol....

who is so?

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How long has High Leader been working on the unification of the Shan tribes? And if it isn't a spoiler, how did High Leader do it? Was it through conflict, peaceful means, or mix of both?

how long have they been actively working towards it? they've only started to make big moves in the last year or so. as for how they did it... through any means neccessary :)

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Some of us really need to be doing “Finish That Fanfic We Haven’t Updated in a Year November” 💀

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Hansol makes me so conflicted because on one hand he obviously cares for MC a lot but on the other hand his family is responsible for so much of MC's strife and he would love for them to just get along somehow. He strikes me as an action hero who would sacrifice his love to save the world so i'm not sure how good for MC he would be after all they went through (he is so attractive tho help).

honestly i think hansol has some of the most gut wrenching conflicts with the commander (if you choose it). i fully expect to make myself cry writing it ♥️♥️

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(Please forgive me. I have Yongsun brain rot again. Feel free to ignore lol

MC was told to keep a dairy/journal to practice their writing. One drunk entry tucked between the pages is waiting for a certain someone to find, perhaps a certain royal they have it bad for)

My first memory of you is a fever dream.

Stumbling into halls I did not know, 

Lost and limping in rooms I have never seen,

And there you were. 

As if you had been waiting for me.

You took me by the hand,

And how am I not supposed to think of you as mine when

How effortlessly that hand slipped into mine,

And how bright you were when you smiled at me then,

And despite everything I knew thats where your hand belonged

And you taught me this language, how to read and write,

Did you know my first words would be your name?

Did you know I love the taste of it on my lips?

I am not supposed to think of you as mine?

I know I should not want

But I can never seem to care

Now when I see you all I want

Is for you to shove me against the wall

And ravage me with that pretty mouth

Until we both have forgotten what breath is

When I see you in your garden

I want to push you down in the gazebo

I want to see you flushed and wanting

Until you cannot think of anything else but me

I keep telling myself that

I know I should not want

But I can never seem to care

That you are not mine….

damn what an absolute simp of a commander and you know what? completely valid

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Sorry if this has been asked before, but do the Shan have a preferred colour to their clothes? And does it vary between grown-ups and children? Thank you <3

shan nomads wear something similar to the mongolian deel - a long sleeved tunic that comes to about knee length, folded right over left at the chest, with pants beneath! dressing is similar for both men and women, but different tribes in different regions have their styles. the colours are usually dull and come in shades of blacks, red-browns, dark greys and navy blues, with brighter colours and better materials reserved for festive occasions such as weddings or first year celebrations. as for children, they just wear miniature versions of what the adults do :)

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i just finished eyes of shan for the first time & went through a rollercoaster of despair & joy ystd [when i saw the last update was 2023.. then shortly after u came back to life]. i really love your writing (the lyricism of it?!)! that said welcome back to life, burnout rly sucks. atb for school & life.

ps. you somehow also got me rehooked on saegeuk music (e.g. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1DLf-9MW1i8) because of all the ahn ye eun i went to listen to again... (night flower insane loops was my thesis writing hell, but i still decided redflag emperor/empress is my drug, lol).

thanks for what you put out so far! <3 take care.

sageuk music was my drug for writing eos, although i've become partial to the dune ost and amvs!! redflag yongsun is one of my favourite characters that I've ever written, hope you're excited to explore more of them as the story goes on 😉

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I love how you answered an ask saying that you’re fine only for an update post later saying that you are in fact NOT fine.

instead of coping i was huffing copium 😞

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Just wanna say until I read through your tumblr I thought Insu was supposed to look like Chancellor Chi-Fu from Mulan. Imagine my shock when I learned he's actually younger than me.

please don't slander my babygirl like that

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Penguuu you are back! I am so glad you are okay and healthy and that you were just away due to life getting busy and not because of something serious! 🥹

For a minute there, I thought that we scared you away with our thirsty table aks or that that anon had captured you with that cheese trap🪤 I am honestly so glad you are okay and that nothing seriously wrong happened 😊 do not worry about the burnout and lack of motivation, you have so much on your plate. It is only natural to feel this way. But I know you can do this! Just take it one step at a time and do not worry about us. Now that we know you are okay, we can wait 😊 Life cannot keep you down! You are pengu!!! This is you:

i will never fall for the cheese trap ever 🧀 but thank you for the well wishes!! i will work on getting the next chapter out soon <3

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a genuinely unhinged personal update

hello everyone!! wow, pengu's come back from the dead!! wow, pengu was alive this whole time!! yes, but not really. most important question first - is eos abandoned!! it was (temporarily), but i'm back to work on it now. to tldr the past three months, i got a full time internship and am currently juggling it with a part time tutoring job, as well as full time university! not to mention that it is my final year, so i have a capstone project i need to complete as well. so, due to circumstances that were well within my control, i've plunged into a severe case of debilating burnout regarding writing (and many other things in general). not that i didn't want to update all of you, but i genuinely couldn't find the energy to conjure words. and maybe in a sense i was afraid or ashamed for the extended and sudden silence. still, it was irresponsible of me, and i'm really very sorry for that.

so why come back now? i would like to say that i have discovered the secret to living 48 hours in a day or substituting sleep with raw unfiltered caffeine, but unfortunately all i did was get some sort of sickness that took me out of work for about a week or so. and during the week the joy i had for writing suddenly sparked in me, and hence i have returned (for now).

i just wanted to let everyone know that i am not dead and that eos is still not abandoned, but updates will be extremely slow (at least until the end of this year). i'm sorry for making everyone worry about me, and i'll work on redebuting with a fixed-up and polished eos!!