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Pick one guys!

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dullahan

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school makes me distort

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The guide shall show you the way

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dude…

heathcliff has never had "anger management issues" like his profile says. it's been shown before but this canto is really driving it home. he actually does have the ability to recognize when he's getting upset, and tends to give a fair warning before he starts becoming violent. if his boundaries are not respected, of course he's going to retaliate.

the point where i realized he actually has a lot of gentleness in his heart that he's been keeping safely hidden away is the first scene where hindley and linton are insulting him in front of everyone.

if he really had "anger management problems" this conversation would not have happened. he would've been incapable of holding his temper back. heathcliff prioritizes catherine's well-being above his own, and is both emotionally mature enough and caring enough to not yell back at his abusers solely because he knows cathy doesn't like it. he doesn't actually snap until he hears that she's dead.

which brings me to my second point: when the mirror heathcliff finds out about her death, his first instinct is not to get aggressive with nelly—the bearer of bad news—but immediate self harm.

his problem is not anger management. never has been. it's deep, deep self-hatred.

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Yi Sang's canon autistic lack of eye contact makes me very emotional actually it gets overlooked way too much like it gets repeated time and time again but it's like it dissapeared from collective conciousness

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This is… insanely deep.

Spoilers for the 2.1 main story quest <3

I really don't have it in me to properly verbalize it rn because I'm still processing everything and we only have bits and pieces of the whole story as well as how Aventurine is as a person but. What really gets me is how Aventurine is someone who hasn't had any stability or promise of safety in his life whatsoever. He's faced loss after loss, was bought as a slave, had to fight for his life multiple times. He's told he's the lucky one, the one chosen by Gaiathra Triclops. He saw his community and family nearly be wiped out and as the future him says- he lies to himself nonstop to try and curb the fear of losing more. "You put on a mask of confidence and lie to convince even yourself, but under the table you hang on to your chips for dear life."

Aventurine has to do all that he has to do because he simply has no choice. Either he acts or he dies. He's forced to weave a web of connections and half truths- even outright lies- and balance delicately upon it. He's forced to always be three steps ahead of his enemy. He tries to treat it as a game- all or nothing- when in truth he lives in terror of losing it all. He smiles and smiles when he's trying to run from his grief and fear. How far can he run? What choice does he have? Does he even have any choices to begin with?

So the fact that he serves Qlipoth, the Preservation, and the fact that his gameplay is ridiculously plain- you use his skill, not even his ult, just his skill- to put a shield on you and your entire party. It's that easy, to have that option- to preserve what you have. It's not a gamble, not even close. That shield has a guarantee to it, it's constant- as long as you use his skill, he will protect your entire party. It really gets to me in a way I can't verbalize right now. That that's what he really wants- permanence, safety. A guarantee

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Talk not to me of blasphemy, man; I’d strike the sun if it insulted me.

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Давай знакомиться

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Egg - scrambled

Steak - well done

Milk - little silly milk cubies

Alcohol - catnip

Warm drinks - lemon tea, milk tea, hot choco, chamomile tea (with 4 tablespoons of honey), warm frothy milk

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thank you lord potato this is perfect

my cat richard

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I think if i put into words how happy this type of image makes me I would get diagnosed with something

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Your hair, sunset-color

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when u come up with a tiny change for your story that not only makes the writing flow better but also hammers in the character motivations and story theme

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Your avatar is melting off of you like a wax figure