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oh to live near the ocean, to wake up at dawn on a scorching summer day and take a swim in refreshing and hospitable waters; to watch the sunset on a cold winter day, warm mug of coffee in my hands and a blanket on my shoulders, gazing at the moving waves and the bright orange tones of the sky.

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life is always sweeter in my fantasies and dreams...

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missing the ocean terribly right about now

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i don’t think people understand how much of life is grief. not just people dying, but losing the version of yourself you thought you’d become. grieving the city you had to leave. the friends you lost not in argument, but in silence. the summer that will never come back. the feeling that maybe you peaked at 12 when you were reading books under the covers and believing in forever

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i wish i could run from it all. pick a destination, like freezing norway or pictoresque cotswald, and disappear from all the places that have known me, from all the people i've had interactions with, from all the lives i've lived. i would start a new existence, one that would belong to me only. surrounded by a shrouded mystery about my past, i would show my truest self only. i would taste real happiness for once.

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i will eternally feel torn - as if my soul was split in two parts, and because of that, i would never fit anywhere. i'm nor quiet nor loud, nor shy but nor talkative, curious but not clever, talented but not exceptional. all of my being is divided in two. i will always find myself in the middle, exploring life but never truly feeling a real sense of belonging.

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i'm learning swedish self taught and next year i will be studying norwegian in university. i love scandinavian languages so much - i would love to dabble in finnish as well one day!

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online library so far:

margaret atwood

the brontës (the complete works is a MASSIVE file fyi)

anne carson

hélène cixous

bell hooks

clarice lispector

audre lorde

virginia woolf

compilations

feminist theory

academic writing (both books and articles)

everything here is in pdf format so you should be able to download and read it on any device. it’s slow going because i have a lot of epubs that i have to convert before uploading and the folders i’ve listed here are neither complete nor comprehensive, but it’s a start! 

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happy pride month to queer people of faith! God loves you for who you are, not for what other people think you should be.

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will go study in london in september for a whole year:) i'm so excited

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Being a queer Christian or Muslim is such a trip. Straight cis Christians and Muslims hate us. Queer athiests hate us. We are the Bisexuals of religion.

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Am kind stressed lol am starving life in a refugee camp in South Sudan I fled Uganda to Kenya due to persecution and homophobia but after the Kenyan government refused to expedite our cases last year i had no option than to flee to South Sudan at gorom refugee settlement where I am currently,I am starving with food scarcity plus other daily basic necessities,

I would be glad for any assistance rendered to me in this dire situation 👇

https://gofund.me/e2d7538e

!!

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friendship breakups are lowkey the worst thing ever cause what do you mean this person I used to share every single detail of my life with is just gone

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