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so when other people plan a wedding it's "fun" and "romantic" but when I do it I'm "delusional" and "need to let my hostage go"

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I am a jealous creature. It's inescapable, a part of my being. I turn it inwards, so it does not hurt you my love. I will be ripped apart by it one day

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Don't worry single mutuals I'm literally your boyfriend

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do you really think i’m that fucking stupid? they mean nothing to you? don’t make me laugh.

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i tell myself i will be careful this time, yet i know the next time someone whispers even a few sweet words to me, they’ll keep me up at night,

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It's quite isolating loving the way I do . Being so intense with such overwhelming feelings . . . It's always been so difficult finding love, because could anyone really reciprocate my obsessions? My devotion?

All I find are those loving shallowly-- only admiring a book's cover, not the contents . Rather irritating people . Can you call it love if you do not worship your beloved for all they are?

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In da clerb, we all boop

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idk how many , me and who ‘ s I got left in me .

( having no one to obsess over )

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i hate being obsessive. i hate it. im at war with my thoughts and desires and my morals. i shouldn’t want you this way. i shouldn’t want to do this to other people. i shouldn’t want this for myself.

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I'm not sure how to express it but I'd like someone to manipulate me, like really really fuck with me. Make me reliant and dependent on you, feed into my fears and reduce me to a mess that you can swoop in and clean up. Break me down so far that I start doing the same thing to you. Let's be fucking awful together.

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You think im actually creeped with your threats?? You better not go soft on me if you want to keep me.

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first degree murder

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pain caused by you is the only one i anticipate

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my personal thoughts are time limited and only for the dedicated connoisseurs

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not all love is gentle. sometimes it’s gritty and dirty and possessive, sometimes it’s not supposed to be careful or soft at all. sometimes it feels like teeth.

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i'd go through all of the pain again if it meant i could experience you for the first time once more