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07/31/25

angulo gulo ng day na to like bruhhhhhhhh???? iba yung prof ko sa p. mgt tsaka p. mktg like... 😭😭😭 no way wala nakakapanghinayanh lang guys cos nakapag start na ko sw p. mgt with my classmates sa hr101 and hr102 tapos comfy comfy na ko sa kanila then biglang ganun 😔 also sad kase i wanna be friends with eya (?) pa naman then may groupings na kasi kami don, e ako yung leader sa group namin so wala na ko bigla 😔😔 sad lang :((((

tapox kahapon naalala ko p. mgt diba, kaupo ako iisip ak osagot para makapqg recite kay sir ulit tapos di ako makaisip ng maayos becos like???? andaldal ng katabi ko???? dami daming sinasabi ni kuya wala naman ako nagegets sa pinagsasasabi nya pero i was glad no kasi i felt comfortable, d ko lang natanong name nya pero one thing for sure d na kami blockmate. issokei though kasi gusto ko rin naman maging prof si sir ryan hehehehehe muntik pa kami maabsent kanina kasi late na kami nakarating because d namin alam na iba pala prof namin bruhhhh

tapps nakakainis pa kase kahapon nag role play kami sa uts, role ko dapat ako mag dedepensa dun sa bullying victim pero sabi bigla ni angelica maganda daw if yung victim is parang nerdy like, nakasalamin and???? yung tarantadong (/j) si romero tinignan ako tas ngumiti sabi ba naman ako na lang daw, tinuro nya ko e nakasalamin din naman sya? what the hek what the hell ehat th fuck??? pero anyways done naman na so what more can i do no? tapos sinasabi nya pa dyan pwede daw ba ihagis cellphone ko like vruhhhhhh

pero anyways ang sad lang talaga kinda kase comfy na ko sa kanila then biglang boogshhhh 😔

pero d ko pa rin bibitawan dl 😌

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07132025

wanna tell some stories during enrollment na umabot ng ilang days (at hindi pa tapos dahil babalik pa sa monday for payment!!!!!!!!!)

so back nung nag exam ako im so nervous talaga asf hahavaah buti ni-guide ako nung isa, current manager yata sya ng department namin kase yun nakasulat sa shirt nya, tapos actually naisip ko he was nice and kinda my type pero after aeeinf his socmeds, meh. no pala nyahahahah then ayun, balik for admission tapos ugh daminf process urat na urat na ako pavvalik balik, pinapila kami sa isqbg room tapos from 11 am nag hintay kami hanggang 3 pm huguguhuh para lang sa number eugh tapos same day nyan nakatulog ako 🫩 nakakahiya syug kase pag gising ko alam nila gagawkn nila talpos ako d ko alam, buti na lang nasubdan ko si kuyang freshie rin so yun tapos i forgot pa pala nubg bago yan sa library nung personality test kami 🫩🫩🫩 pinaupo ba naman ako sa table na puro may etits nakaupo maem ... ano bang kasalanan ko??? pero anyways ganun tapos nung sa approval naman kami si koyanf katabi ko di mapakali, ang galaw galaw pati upuan ko nadadamay edi nagagalaw din ako, di tuloy ako nakatulog!!!!!!! tapos kaninq rin sa registrar nakakahiya ulir kasi nakatulof ako tapos kinalabit lang ako ni atw sa likod 😮‍💨

un lang wala na ko masyado maalala pero fr kabisado ko na pasikot sikot kakabalik sa enrollment na yan tapos babalik pa sa monday huhuhyh pero okay labf kase that means di pa ko makakapasok which is q miracle kase ang sched ko sw monday 6pm-9pm like wtf 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨

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071025

sometimes i can't help but to wish that time could be mended. but unfortunately, it cannot be.

sometimes i miss you, but i can't feel a thing.

it seems as if that thought is just stuck inside my mind that it doesn't reach my heart.

now, should i be glad or be sad? or maybe i should feel both— but i've been sad throughout the relationship and honestly, looking back it was like a torture. a torture because i had to deal with it almost everyday, i had to face it, i had to be under control, i had to supress all those shit inside my mind just so i could keep us alive. i've been sad for a very long time, maybe that's why i can't feel it right now— right now that our connection had ended.

and maybe partly it was my fault. if only i didn't supress all of those things maybe us could still be alive up until now. if i hadn't seen myself as too brave, would things be so different from the current timeline? maybe yes. but there are a lot of times i've opened up and talked about things that has been bothering me and i felt nothing but invalidated. i can't explain it but if you were to be in my position, you'd be even more hurt twice as i am.

all i wanted was to be loved, cared for, protected, considered, and seen. but i felt nothing but pain and it makes me somehow kinda sad up until now because why? so saddening but what more can i do? as i said, time cannot be mended.

honestly i don't know. all i wanted is for you to fight for us now that i'm already tired, but you gave up easily. maybe my mind was right everytime the word liar comes up whenever you're saying those three words back then. you never truly loved me and it's okay. i'd be really really honest if i say that i can't feel a thing; not even a pang in my heart nor in my brain.

so sad that you gave us up just like that but it's okay, maybe things are much more better in this way.

and just so you know, this will be the last time i'll write for you. (and it's pretty hilarious how all my prose for you back then are full of hurt rather than its opposite. deleted those already but i can still remember some of the words and it's freaking hilarious like really.)

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041325

daldal ko ngayon shet lalakad lakad nga ko bukas, kaso inet huhuhu

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041325

tama raw palagi intuition ko sabi ni caeli??? haha kinabahan ako bigla hays

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041325

pag nagk-kwento si caeli sakin parang nagiging peaceful utak ko kase ung naiisip sa sitwasyon nya imbes na sakin hahaha tapos syempre ending kapag tapos namin mag uswp pagod ako tsaka utak ko kakatype tsaka kakaisip kaya yun deretso tulog. okay na siguro kesa jsipin ko yung sakin hahaha

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041325

thibking about that vest and cardigan na nakita ko sa divi mall back when we were looking for a dress ni mama hahahahh shet i want those 😩 still thinking if bilhin ko ba or ano since di naman ako palagi lumalabas ng bahay pero kasi pang porma!!!!

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041325

naalala ko ulit gagu hahahauaahh kanina ba naman mga 1:00am sabi sakin kausap nya daw si redacted nood raw ako?? gago ako pa gagawing audience kaurat amputa eto kayo 🖕🖕🖕 oh diba, bobo talaga mga tao, partida isa pa lang yan, pano pag kwinento ko na lahat ng mga katangahan ng mga tao sa paligid ko, edi naniwala na kayo sa pinagsasasabi ko na bobo mga tao hahah

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alala ko dati may nakausap ako sa rpw na guy sabi nyansakin happy go lucky girl raw ako hahahaah muntanga

041325

ayoko na maging sad girl kinang inang haup ubos na pasensya ko maging malungkot kinang ina nyo lahat mga tanga kayo kayo na lang magsama, maka-bwelo lang talaga ako (medjo) happy go lucky na ulet ako

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041325

ayoko na maging sad girl kinang inang haup ubos na pasensya ko maging malungkot kinang ina nyo lahat mga tanga kayo kayo na lang magsama, maka-bwelo lang talaga ako (medjo) happy go lucky na ulet ako

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ano ano pa sinasabi ko kala mo di tanga e, pero okay lang, sa isang bagay lang naman ako tanga di tulad sa kanila kahit saang gawi tanga tanga bobo kasi hahahahah yang pagiging inconsiderate nyo nagpapahamak tsaka mas lalong nagpapatanga sa inyo mga bobo talaga di matanggap katotohanan

041325

kaya sobrang miserable ng mga taong nasa paligid ko to the point na kahit saan sila lumingon may problema kasi bobo sila mag handle ng sitwasyon. tipong plakado na nga sa critical thinking, di pa bumawi sa decision making bobo talaga mga tao dito palagi na lang sila nababasj ng utak ko, tanga tanga e

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041325

kaya sobrang miserable ng mga taong nasa paligid ko to the point na kahit saan sila lumingon may problema kasi bobo sila mag handle ng sitwasyon. tipong plakado na nga sa critical thinking, di pa bumawi sa decision making bobo talaga mga tao dito palagi na lang sila nababasj ng utak ko, tanga tanga e

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041325

hurts but slowly accepting the fact that i should let go gahaah

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041025

idk what's the point of saying that when you were never truly sorry anyway

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050625

mahina lang ba panv intindi ko, magulo lang ba sya mag explain o magkwento, o sadyanf wala lang talaga kong interes pag dating sa romance kaya wala talaga kong maintindihan

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040625

these past few days napapaisip na lang talaga ako kung may patutinguhan bang mabuti 'tong pagiging mabait ko or if blessing ba 'to o ano e, ewan ko ba hahahahsahah basta ewan di ko matawag completely na blessing kasi wala kapag nakakakita ako ng mga bata ganon sa kalsada tas nanlilimos naguguilty ako super, lalo na wjen jt comes sa mga matatanda knowing me na d naman completely naexperience yung love ng lolo at lola since nawala sila ng maaga tapos di ko pa sila nameet and i was also unable to know them personally more, it shatters my heart more kapag matatanda ganon hahahaa basta example may tinitinda sila ganon tas bibili ako ng isa, naiinis ako sa sarili ko kase what why can't i give more and save them and i can't help but to ask why do they need to suffer through that, tapos everytime makakaencounter talaga ko ng ganyan lalo na sa may bandang sangandaan ganon pag dumadaan ako pauwi, my mind is always going like "i'm sorry rhat you have to go through this" nf paulit ulit and it's like a mantra na hindi ko naaalis sa utak ko unless makahanap ako ng ibang distraction hahaha

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033125

idunno why but my heart aches when he told me that he was made because of a "mistake"